Raptorsin7

So what happened was I had a peak experience on LSD after our second call and that's what made me realize the path was real etc. And I attributed part of that success to Nahm, I assumed he was enlightened and fully understood that peak experience and could help me learn to live from that place. The first like 7 months I think were just donations, I was donating a lot after each session. I wasn't really learning anything useful at all from the sessions, but I kept thinking that soon it will click and then I will learn how to fully embody that peak lsd state. I basically payed thinking I had found this gem of an enlightenment teacher and eventually he would be able to teach me to how to access that peak lsd state without psychidelics or at least get me close. That's what I thought. But i'm pretty sure Nahm has no idea what that experience is even like, and there was a complete mismatch in our expectations. Then later he began charging per session. What really stuck out to me was after I hadn't paid for a while he brought it up. It didn't make sense because he always said he was a successful business man and why would he be concerned about money after I donated so much, but that was probably the biggest flag that Nahm was greedy and was not who I thought he was. I made virtually 0 progress in understanding what he was teaching. He kept saying pick better feeling thoughts, to this day I don't get it. And he kept repeating the same thing, 0 change in strategy. And when I pushed him on it later, he blamed me and said I didn't listen to his advice so it's my issue. He knew I wasn't listening and yet continued to accept donations and lead me on, and didn't even bring it up. You would think after months of someone not listening and accepting thousands of dollars that would be the main focus of the calls, but I don't think we ever discussed that in any of the calls.

@Gesundheit2 Not even close

@Zeroguy At least I learned valuable lesson about people who appear good on the surface, but in truth there is something rotton. I admit that I may be too vengeful against Nahm, there is a more compassionate approach. But I have yet to see someone who takes issue with me blasting Nahm, who also has the integrity to acknowledge he's a conman.

@RendHeaven Theres nothing I've done that I wouldn't admit to if someone was harmed by me. And I'm not saying I perfectly embody rumi, but I'm also not going to say I know better than his poetry. Where is my integrity in question with respect to rumi's poetry?

@Carl-Richard Yeah, but you have to address it and integrate it at some point. No matter how big the shadow is, you only limit yourself by refusing to acknowledge that part of yourself. I think ending friendships and becoming more isolated can be good when integrating red. You become more dangerous, but then there are less people who you could harm during your transformation. I think for men having a good girl in your life can be good for integrating a red shadow. It's goes well too because woman are incredibly attracted to red qualities, especially because most men and woman have completely repressed their red qualities.

@Zeroguy Being in a relationship helped her grow a lot. I didn't realize until the end of our conversation

@RendHeaven You're arguing with Rumi. If you think you know better than him be my guest.

@Tyler Robinson Yeah I can relate to judgments around gender and sexuality. I still hold the view that homosexuality is a perversion of the sexual drive. I can see how judging and hating someone for that is counter productive and not wise, but at the same time part of me thinks if you were fully healthy and integrated you wouldn't be trans, gay, etc. The same way you wouldn't be a murder if you had healthy psychology. I think when I heal my rage and anger I will have a more tolerant perspective of Nahm. I know my view is not pure, but I feel very betrayed by him and I feel justified. Thanks for being honest and sharing your opinion.

@Tyler Robinson How do you know that what you're saying is true and that you are giving advice from a genuine place? What motivated you to comment?

@Tyler Robinson Have a good day too.

@Tyler Robinson I would apologize and I would take responsibility for being a terrible teacher and misleading people. I wouldn't gaslight the person or refuse to take responsibility or accountability for what happened. And I wouldn't lie about receiving money. "... Destroy your reputation. Be notorious"- Rumi I could give two fucks about my reputation if it came at the cost of the truth. I'm not even coming for the guy that seriously. I am not threatening his family, his career etc. It's literally just about spirituality and making false claims, i.e being a charlatan.

@Tyler Robinson Maybe it's a good thing for people to be aware of charlatans. I do not appreciate people who I don't know commenting and tell me how I ought to do things. But maybe you are right, i'm not sure.

@Tyler Robinson Okay. My overall point is he's a charlatan and liar. I will work on empathizing with him in the future, as I grow this stuff will resolve it self. I just don't know you and I don't think you said anything particularly insightful or wise, so I'm just confused what you think you're accomplishing.

@Tyler Robinson My overall point is if you claim you're enlightened and you represent as an authority you deserve to be heavily scrutinized. I have a grudge against him for sure, but I would be content if he admitted to his wrong doing and took some responsibility for what happened. I am aware that I played a role and there's a reason I don't have a grudge against any of the numerous mentors i've had. I love how people are so quick to come for me when I call out Nahm, but no one cares half as much about his conduct and what he's preaching that led to the backlash. Why are you coming here and giving me advice about what I ought to do?

I did learn a lot, and I do view it as a positive. I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me, this is the best my life has ever been, and it's only getting better. I just hate fucking dishonest people, and this issue is still sensitive to me.

Alright it seems the drama has passed so I will move on now too. But last point for those keeping score. In that thread Nahm(Not a happy man) was asked did he accept $8000 from someone on Leo's forum. He responded "No." That is a lie.

@Loba Yeah, it's an odd position to take. Blatant disregard for the truth to shield someone from consequences of their actions. The truth is Nahm was greedy and behaved unethically, but he did try to help and had some admirable qualities. But he's not enlightened and he is misleading many people by not understanding what he's disseminating.

It's funny to see a forum full of dishonest fools question if I'm telling the truth. If anything 8k is a low end for what I donated. Nahm sais he didn't accept any money in that same thread, but everyone defending him just likes to ignore that part I guess lol See when you are an honest person you don't have these issues. If Nahm truly did nothing wrong none of this drama would even exist

@Judy2 https://community.actualityofbeing.com/topic/673-uncomfortable-feelings-around-women/ Nahm lied about accepting money from me. And now its biting him. They say because I question the earth being round and I like andrew tate i must be lying or something

Haha people on Nahm's forum follow my posts. It's a weird feeling when you see people talk about you. I wonder how long they will bury their heads in the sand and avoid the truth. I like this woman's channel.

Yeah, porn is degenerate. She is wise to expect her partner to not watch porn. But if you want to watch porn then break up and find someone who is compatible.

@Judy2 haha np

"The entire universe is within you. Ask all from yourself" - RUMI I want $10 000 usd per month. Haha go go god

@Karmadhi White people have the highest racial sexual value so all things being equal they will have an advantage. Look up John Elite Pua on YouTube, he breaks down the sexual market value and how it ranks according to race.

@Asayake Yeah I agree. For better or worse I give 0 credence to what people on this forum say about 99% of things. You gotta do it yourself and see what happens