Raptorsin7

Please don't interact with me if you are emotionally fragile. Block me now

The good thing about stepping over the line is it brings up difficult emotions. If I could I would insult and fight every person here because it would bring me to tears. Hopefully people here have thick skin, if they don't blame god not me. He built this.

I can feel a tiny knot in my stomach and heart. I guess that's where guilt and remorse live

This is why I keep to myself. Really only interested in dealing with people who are wiser than me because they see where i'm at and understand. You're on a "self actualization" forum. What the fuck do you expect. Do you really think self actualized people would post here haha. “No tree, it is said, can grow to heaven unless its roots reach down to hell.” ― Carl Jung Contemplate that.

Makes me appreciate the people who have the sense to recognize my mood and mind state. Beware the emotionally broken narcs

@Preety_India Not interested in going back and forth. I look at lots of people's profiles. If i make you uncomfortable block me or call the police. I can look at whatever I want on here. You're blocked

This journal is not a safe space. If you comment know that I see through your shield and I will call out your egos

@Preety_India You're commenting on my journal. Block me then

@Preety_India Don't want or need your encouragement. Go worry about yourself

There's only one answer to all of this stuff. Rise above. I have the tools. Let the retards be retards.

Okay I have 3 days off. Meditation,Meditation,Meditation. Time to grow up and get some discipline. It's time. I think Fred Davis has so great videos, I'll probably use a few guided meditations by Fred and some by Rupert. It's been a month since I talked to Forrest. I learned a lot and he doesn't really teach advaita but i like talking to him. Maybe in a few weeks i'll book another session, i'm still subbed to his patreon. Fred Davis does sessions maybe i'll give those a shot too. I think it's a good time to do LSD again. It's been a good few months, and the reason i took a break was because i wanted to develop my meditation practice. I satisfied that and then some. I know it's going to hurt haha LSD always destroys me.

Haha it's funny how much i write like zero now. I always liked following his journal best. This place has some great posters, who want the best for you and will let you be I will say this. Anyone who dislikes me, judges me etc hopefully I meet you one day so I can spit in you or your partners face. They will do nothing, bet my life.

@wwhy Haha amen me too. Minus the alcohol

@modmyth I stil don't understand your question really. I'll try my best I've listened to lots of teachers and I've read their philosophies etc and I can compare my direct experience against what they say. Like I read Nahms story from his dreamboard thread. One of his awakenings he talked about all the mysery swirling in his head before popping. I had a similar experience with lsd so I have some sense of how my exp related to others. And then I do that too varying degrees. I also look at how personalities change etc because I've had experiences that seemingly changed my personality. So I look for personality changes too I could be wrong and maybe my exp was weaksauce haha idk.

@wwhy Haha what a lame way to go out When I get banned I hope I don't go down like that

Alpha female. Haha Go read the silver surfers journal. Real woman

@modmyth What is your point? I'm not against psychs I've done lsd a bunch of times. I haven't done dmt but I'll try it as some point. I've seen Leo's awakening live videos, pretty sure I know what he's talking about. If I'm wrong and theres more so be it, what I found is enough for me I have no interest in seeking deeper and deeper

Indian people where I grew up were influenced a lot by black culture. Black culture is so popular and Indian immigrants just worked all the time so lots of Indian people here grew up on 90s, 2000's black influence etc Thank god for smart successful Sikh's where i'm from. I always say that Sikh's are the jews of Canada. Most powerful minority group in the country and there are many Sikh's in positions of power all over the country. Black people are done such a disservice by these leftist retards. They feed them a victim complex story and then insulate the community from criticism and growth haha. You are a 25 year old black man with emotional maturity of a 12 year old because you were raised by broken single mother. What is the solution? It's the white man's fault, it's the culture's fault, it's because of racism, etc etc. Yup it's never the person's fault. And if you go against the cultural narrative you get called a coon, self hating etc haha. People are so fucking stupid it's insane. Thank god for India, birth place of Christianity, Judaism, etc. All major faiths. Abraham was guy from pakistan/punjab. Haha imagine me blaming the white man for british colonization. I'm not enlightened and happy because of colonization?!?!?!?! HAHAH wtf. If any race or color comes to me with true wisdom and power I will respect it and bend the knee. Good luck trying to deal with racism without personal responsibility. I want one of these retards on the forum to come talk to me IRL. 6ft 4 I will break your face.

Reaching states of consciousness no one has ever reached. But why is your personality the exact same? Few people who know don't say it, blind leading the blind. Closed Journal Man. Haha Also while i'm at it I'll say dreamboard concept is very flawed. I heard AH say "if you can pick it/identifty/choose it in thought then it's already done". Such bull shit. Okay. I want you to write on your dream board, 10 million dollars for raptorsin7. Reality is unconditional love etc. How hard is it to give me 10 million? Exactly. Asked that question like 10 times. Crickets.

That retard is still going off. I think when I get a temptation to engage with people on the forum in any sort of charged way I should just come post here. I can feel the pull to go back and forth. Lol at anyone who thinks Leo is a real non dual teacher. Talks about reaching states so deep and conscious that no one has ever met. Can't even fix his own narcissism and schizo. Complete joke

@Wilhelm44 I like the way you think haha. That is my challenge to all the Loa and parallel universe fanatics. If you truly understand how to atttact reality and an manifest why not manifest your self a few hundred million and throw me a few million. The fact that I've never gotten a good answer makes me very skeptical

It's not limiting. And no I am not already that, at least not in the way you're saying. I'd say the breakthrough wasn't the end all be all of existence. It was just an entirely different way of being that resolved so much, if not all, of the suffering i've had my entire life. There's an entire conditioned pattern of clinging to objects and distracting yourself that takes time to unwind. I get what you're saying I think, but it seems misleading too

@Leo Gura To each their own. I bet your perspective will change on psychs and meditation eventually.

@Leo Gura My breakthrough was enough for me. I just want to be happy and peaceful and blissful

@Wilhelm44 sounds good. If i can shift into a reality where I have 10 million dollars now that would be awesome