Raptorsin7

@Preety_India You're commenting on my journal. Block me then

@Preety_India Don't want or need your encouragement. Go worry about yourself

There's only one answer to all of this stuff. Rise above. I have the tools. Let the retards be retards.

Okay I have 3 days off. Meditation,Meditation,Meditation. Time to grow up and get some discipline. It's time. I think Fred Davis has so great videos, I'll probably use a few guided meditations by Fred and some by Rupert. It's been a month since I talked to Forrest. I learned a lot and he doesn't really teach advaita but i like talking to him. Maybe in a few weeks i'll book another session, i'm still subbed to his patreon. Fred Davis does sessions maybe i'll give those a shot too. I think it's a good time to do LSD again. It's been a good few months, and the reason i took a break was because i wanted to develop my meditation practice. I satisfied that and then some. I know it's going to hurt haha LSD always destroys me.

Haha it's funny how much i write like zero now. I always liked following his journal best. This place has some great posters, who want the best for you and will let you be I will say this. Anyone who dislikes me, judges me etc hopefully I meet you one day so I can spit in you or your partners face. They will do nothing, bet my life.

@wwhy Haha amen me too. Minus the alcohol

@modmyth I stil don't understand your question really. I'll try my best I've listened to lots of teachers and I've read their philosophies etc and I can compare my direct experience against what they say. Like I read Nahms story from his dreamboard thread. One of his awakenings he talked about all the mysery swirling in his head before popping. I had a similar experience with lsd so I have some sense of how my exp related to others. And then I do that too varying degrees. I also look at how personalities change etc because I've had experiences that seemingly changed my personality. So I look for personality changes too I could be wrong and maybe my exp was weaksauce haha idk.

@wwhy Haha what a lame way to go out When I get banned I hope I don't go down like that

Alpha female. Haha Go read the silver surfers journal. Real woman

@modmyth What is your point? I'm not against psychs I've done lsd a bunch of times. I haven't done dmt but I'll try it as some point. I've seen Leo's awakening live videos, pretty sure I know what he's talking about. If I'm wrong and theres more so be it, what I found is enough for me I have no interest in seeking deeper and deeper

Indian people where I grew up were influenced a lot by black culture. Black culture is so popular and Indian immigrants just worked all the time so lots of Indian people here grew up on 90s, 2000's black influence etc Thank god for smart successful Sikh's where i'm from. I always say that Sikh's are the jews of Canada. Most powerful minority group in the country and there are many Sikh's in positions of power all over the country. Black people are done such a disservice by these leftist retards. They feed them a victim complex story and then insulate the community from criticism and growth haha. You are a 25 year old black man with emotional maturity of a 12 year old because you were raised by broken single mother. What is the solution? It's the white man's fault, it's the culture's fault, it's because of racism, etc etc. Yup it's never the person's fault. And if you go against the cultural narrative you get called a coon, self hating etc haha. People are so fucking stupid it's insane. Thank god for India, birth place of Christianity, Judaism, etc. All major faiths. Abraham was guy from pakistan/punjab. Haha imagine me blaming the white man for british colonization. I'm not enlightened and happy because of colonization?!?!?!?! HAHAH wtf. If any race or color comes to me with true wisdom and power I will respect it and bend the knee. Good luck trying to deal with racism without personal responsibility. I want one of these retards on the forum to come talk to me IRL. 6ft 4 I will break your face.

Reaching states of consciousness no one has ever reached. But why is your personality the exact same? Few people who know don't say it, blind leading the blind. Closed Journal Man. Haha Also while i'm at it I'll say dreamboard concept is very flawed. I heard AH say "if you can pick it/identifty/choose it in thought then it's already done". Such bull shit. Okay. I want you to write on your dream board, 10 million dollars for raptorsin7. Reality is unconditional love etc. How hard is it to give me 10 million? Exactly. Asked that question like 10 times. Crickets.

That retard is still going off. I think when I get a temptation to engage with people on the forum in any sort of charged way I should just come post here. I can feel the pull to go back and forth. Lol at anyone who thinks Leo is a real non dual teacher. Talks about reaching states so deep and conscious that no one has ever met. Can't even fix his own narcissism and schizo. Complete joke

@Wilhelm44 I like the way you think haha. That is my challenge to all the Loa and parallel universe fanatics. If you truly understand how to atttact reality and an manifest why not manifest your self a few hundred million and throw me a few million. The fact that I've never gotten a good answer makes me very skeptical

It's not limiting. And no I am not already that, at least not in the way you're saying. I'd say the breakthrough wasn't the end all be all of existence. It was just an entirely different way of being that resolved so much, if not all, of the suffering i've had my entire life. There's an entire conditioned pattern of clinging to objects and distracting yourself that takes time to unwind. I get what you're saying I think, but it seems misleading too

@Leo Gura To each their own. I bet your perspective will change on psychs and meditation eventually.

@Leo Gura My breakthrough was enough for me. I just want to be happy and peaceful and blissful

@Wilhelm44 sounds good. If i can shift into a reality where I have 10 million dollars now that would be awesome

Haha yeah, I never understood why there was such a stigma against claiming your enlightenment. But if you're claiming it you're not getting it

@Wilhelm44 You're welcome. Let me know if you find it useful I've heard good stuff about it

I'm talking about going to the experience of being aware, or whatever pointer you want to use. A good example would be I listen to a guided inquiry by Rupert Spira, I will have moments where i clearly follow his pointer, I feel my being unwind, relax (I don't have a good vocabulary to explain this) and then I get up and pat myself on the back because I think I got it. The surrender to the pointer/inquiry follows the same trajectory as all my LSD trips, but it's like I am constantly starting and turning off the engine. I'm content with where i'm at it's only a matter of time until I stabilize

I can feel the anger and hatred just slowly reside in my being it's pretty interesting. I am so resistant to just sitting down to meditate. This is crazy. It's like I just get enough satisfaction from my subtle addictions and I'm content with it. I believe I can't fall any lower because I can always just become aware of being aware, but I wonder if I can fall further before being done

@Wilhelm44 Check out the book Reality Transurfing I think it touches on what you're looking for. I bet there are some good quick summaries to see if it resonates

I definitely think some of the best teachers likely have a small following. The better the teacher, the more directly they can point to nature of happiness that seekers want. But if a person is too direct then they will have a smaller audience because the population of advanced seekers who require such a direct teaching is so small. Speaking of lesser known teachers... there's a Kriya Yogi named Forrest Knutson on youtube who makes awesome videos about meditation, spirituality, brain states etc. He's not a direct path teacher either which is a nice balance because we already have a large advaita presence here

@Phyllis Wagner I can't speak to DMT but I can talk about LSD breakthroughs. During sober meditation, and meditation with weed to a greater extent, there's a certain pattern that repeats when I begin to surrender and rest as awareness. It's always the same trend. It's like on LSD i've gone 100% of the way of a release, sober meditation gets me like 30%, and weed can get me like 70%. I see no reason why someone with more diligence couldn't have my exact LSD experience with just meditation. Granted all this became clear after the LSD breakthrough so maybe you can argue none of this would have been possible without the initial LSD trip blowing my mind open