Soulbass

I haven't meditated much this week. Someone on this journal told me that I have to customize my meditation practice a lot, to make it fit my life (and sustain this habit over time). I haven't noticed until recently, but it's true that things are highly customizable. Last week I ranted against my "fake-spirituality" which means "forcing myself to meditate" but in fact, all I have to do is following my intuition and do it my own way. I haven't figured out the life-style of meditation I want to implement yet, but I'll keep you in touch in this journal. Thanks @Zane for suggesting 3x 20 mins / day, morning, noon & evening. I'm happy it works for you. It's maybe a coincidence, but I was using a lot guided visualization/meditation past months. I'll look towards this direction now.

I wasn't too serious when posting this, it was more like a joke. But anyway I did watched this video for a past failure, and I still learned something, even if the video isn't meant to that. I think Mia's advice is gold.

Watch "The Pre-mortem Technique - The Trick To Avoiding Project Failure" except that you do it for post-mortem

You may be interested in Patreon. https://www.patreon.com/

@Principium Nexus What is your workflow with Mandelbulb -> AE? Does Mandelbulb render passes? Or did you faked zdepth?

@Leo Gura Could you please define what is (and isn't) a "rabbit hole"? What does this expression mean?

I'm currently reading a book named "0,001% - L'éxperience de la réalité" by Marc Auburn, unfortunately it haven't been translated in English. The author was born with the ability to travel out of physical body, he has been experimenting with it until present days.

I realize that doing "45 minutes meditation a day" is not enough, but it's all my energy that daily need to be put into consciousness work. Health, food, sleep, work, habits, meditation, contemplation... all that kind of stuff. I can't be low-self all the time and suddenly do meditation, it's no sense. Day 49 : I failed meditation again, because of backslash. Someone said on the forum that to simply wake-up early and do exercise is enough to feel "strong" and continue the day that way. I notice to wake-up early, I need to go early. I remember the time (few years ago) when I was happy waking-up with the sun, it was very powerful moments. Now I've lost track of my spirituality, and all I do is fake-spirituality (attempting meditattion is nothing if I'm not 100% engaged, I mean all day long). I want some changes in my life. The "power of intention" let's talk about that. I don't decide for myself, but the subconscious does. Why did I decided to be here? Lack of lucidity? Yep. Edit: I'll do one week of meditation without posting in this journal, I'll do a summed post at the end of the week.

A photo & automatic drawings :

http://www.lumierelucia.com/the-lucia-experience.html http://eng.pascalradic.com/lucia-light.html Next month I'll try Lucia Light.

Anyone have experience with it ?

Day 46 : No meditation. Day 47 : Meditation went really well. It was outside this time, sunny day. I had to close my eyes a little bit because of the sun, so I stayed focus on the ground near me. A lizard went on me, like if I were a rock. I feel more synchronicity & wider spectrum of consciousness (subtle). Day 48 : Meditation went cloudy, but ok.

Great. Do you sit 3 hours in a row? Or with breaks?

In Maslow's needs, love come before career. Career is both safety (money) and creative. Take in account time, you can do both.

Day 45 : Meditation went right.

A friend of mine had the same CD stuck in his car for years, he known every bit of it (now, he have a new car). You had been musically programmed, so you can be musically un-programmed or re-programmed.

Here are few of mines : - Apophyllite - Blue Kyanite - Pyrope - Pyrite - Rose Quartz

I would hike all around the world, in national parks or wild nature.

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Day 42 : Meditation went right. The habit is taking root : even if I'm tired, and it's late, I still want to meditate 45 minutes. It was cloudy this time, again. Day 43 : Meditation went ok. Now that the habit is taking place, it let room for "practice" and "quality consciousness". I notice sometimes it goes mechanical meditation. About the breathing relaxation technique I've found 2 days ago, here is how I could explain it : Explore the pain with consciousness, and breath with it. Go into it, and live it. Allow it to be "pain" and use breath to dissolve it (in this case, pain in the stomach, which is linked with psyche). It's like non-resisting to the pain, and embrace it fully, then let it go. Day 44 : Meditation went right.

Day 39 : Meditation went right. Day 40 : Meditation went right. I contemplate how reality is self-constructed, and the idea of inner & external world. Day 41 : Meditation went cloudy, but ok. I discovered on my own a technique : relax and breathing with the stomach. For few years I had a constant little pain in stomach, annoying, daily, but didn't known what it is. This breathing technique allowed me to relax, and I discovered that the problem was tensions in the muscles (stomach is a muscle). Maybe a constant stress I have accumulated, or "restricted" in my body / energy. Maybe what I perceive in the external world, is the cause of my pain in stomach. For example, if I see society as "evil" and don't allow myself to be part of it, and enjoy it, it would create a problem in my structure (this is subtle in the subconscious, ofc).

Summary of this journal : after 37 days of meditation, I've lost track and haven't meditated for a week. Tomorrow's monday, I'll be back on track until 60 days. Day 38 : Meditation went right.

Anyone have read the book yet ?