ThermalTide

You are quite young, first of all. Not behind in any sense of the word. For me, I consider everything that has happened as part of the learning and growing process. Your mind is just painting this period of time as negative, but it's not really. The last 2 years have been hard on everyone in one way or another. You can view these as set backs, or just accept that the world is going through some weirdness and so are you! It's okay to allow your path to go where you do not expect or necessarily want it to go. This is normal. It sounds like you are doing well currently as far as personal development and self discipline goes. Just breathe man! I think you're creating a problem that simply isn't there.

I think the issues presented here are more of a product of narcissistic parents than a result of anything truly lgbtq related. This is something I personally have struggled with; the weirdness coming out of this community in the last few years has become illogical and divisive. I have no problem with adults having any consenting sexual relations and experiences they desire, and I also believe that some people are born with a mental condition that is alleviated by transitioning into the opposite sex. I do not, however, stand behind relaying this kind of thing to children. It's fine to tell children a sanitized version of things, but its creepy to think that kids really give a shit about that kind of stuff to begin with. They are innocent, and therefore I think its cruel to be feeding them such nuanced, adult topics. I am a girl and I've always liked masculine things (cars, heavy music, mens clothing), and I know that if I was a child right now in this political climate, I would be under the impression that I am needing to undergo surgery to become who I "truly" am- in reality a child is not "truly" themselves at all; they are still developing and learning, creating even, who they are. It's parents seeped into social media culture and obsessed with being a "good" person to stroke their own ego who are pushing these things on children, and that's why I think this is a result of much deeper issues than simply gay and trans people exist.

this dude told you something you really needed to hear and your response is "just a nonsense projection" lmfao

@Tahuti I'm a white woman and I've dated non-white men. Weird that you're even wrapped up in this, sounds like you're creating fake barriers for yourself

this reads like a 16 year olds wet dream lmfao

Awareness for me is being able to observe something without pre-conceived notions or ideas clouding what it actually is. For example, I am an alcoholic, so exercising awareness for me would look like being able to observe a craving of mine as exactly what it is; an emotional response to stress and discomfort. Or, more succinctly, a change in brain chemistry which proposes a solution that is fundamentally an illusion. My ability to distinguish between what is an automatic ego response and what is truly occurring is my definition of awareness. Perhaps as I continue down this path of self actualization I will understand something deeper; I wish to achieve levels of awareness where I am able to understand why I have the obsessive and neurotic thoughts I have, while simultaneously having the centering foundation to automatically steer myself where I truly want to go.

I completely relate to this post- all "jobs" I've had have been utterly soul sucking, hours and hours traded for underwhelming paychecks that never seem to cover absolutely all the expenses of normal life. It's discouraging and depressing. Resentment towards employers flourishes when employees are underpaid and under-appreciated. I've worked for myself as well, which in my experience can be much more lucrative and rewarding, but also requires way more work. When you're the boss, everything is up to you, and it's a huge and uncomfortable shift to make if you're used to being told what to do and how to do it. However, now that I've made my own money and know what it's like to be my own boss, I can't imagine being happy going back to an hourly or salary type of work. I'm currently finishing up a bunch of stuff related to a business I'm launching so hopefully that goes well and carries me forward on this journey of financial freedom. I strongly suggest intentionally broadening your ideas of how you can make money. The internet is vast and full of money making opportunities, as well as off in the real world. Having your own business or being an independent contractor sounds like something you would benefit from, since clearly the wage slave lifestyle isn't making you happy. Leo has a video from way back where he spoke about how your mindset regarding how easy it is to make money can have a huge impact on your actual ability to make it- so I've made a serious effort to re-wire my brain, so to speak. Positive affirmations to yourself regularly, having an exit plan for your current job, having a clear life purpose, doing lots and lots of research on what's out there in the market, these are all things that should propel you forward into something more fitting for what you desire. Best of luck!

I'm not sure I would consider myself to be a part of any ideology around dating but I'm definitely not at a point in my life where I'm pursuing any relationships, because I am very focused on creating a good life for myself. Eventually I'll be ready to step into that whole conquest of finding a partner, just not right now. It seems like dudes who are in this same phase of life tend to internalize it and think it means they're ugly or something. Not the case, I think they just need more time to cultivate desirable traits (solid mental and emotional state, lucrative career, physical fitness, etc.). These are the factions of life I'm currently working on boosting to increase my options in the dating market when I choose to dive into that.

Hey friend, no I don't think your dreams have been killed. They have the capacity to be, but only if you feed into this and believe it. The last 2 years have been so hard, I genuinely feel like life has been paused since 2020. All my plans and aspirations were totally shit on. However, I've been able to look at this as an opportunity to grow and adapt. Maybe I'm not going about things the way I thought I would be a few years ago, but I'm still on the right path and haven't given up or lost sight of my dreams. Leo actually instilled the idea into me that I am doing a disservice to the universe by not chasing after my dreams and realizing my purpose. It's the same for you. My advice is to start with basic stuff like sleep hygiene, fitness, meditation and rebuild the foundation you felt you've lost. I make it a point to practice gratitude in the morning by acknowledging how awesome it is that I get to experience what life has to offer. Best of luck to you.

I'm only speaking from my experience but I'm a sex worker and make most of my income off the loneliness of men. I would say yes, men are more lonely on average, but it could also be argued that men want physical attention more than women. Speaking very generally of course.

No matter what action you do or don't take at this point, this is a burr in your brain, big and painful enough to eventually cause the failure of the relationship anyways. I've been in a few serious relationships at this point in my life and I've realized that honesty and open communication is absolutely essential for it to work at all. If you really think the relationship is worth saving, your communication of all of this is necessary. Do you think actual change would come from a conversation like that? Is it worth it for you to stick around and feel drained while you navigate this? These are things only you can answer and act on.

For me personally it is humor; a man who makes me laugh and feel relaxed is one who I'm much more likely to be attracted to than say, a traditionally "attractive" man.

This is a result of the "us vs. them" mentality provided by social media and media in general. Unity is something that cannot be fathomed by most young people. It's really unfortunate

I think it's scary honestly

for what its worth, some of the best sexual experiences I've had (I'm a girl) did not include an orgasm. Women are, generally speaking, really into the emotional connection that comes with sex. I would suggest not worrying about it too much, as has been said already, but truly it's not the most important part of the experience. Focus on being the best partner you can be, in and outside the bedroom, and everything else will follow. Technique is fine and for sure research and try different things, but don't feel guilty or weird if she doesn't cum. It's pretty common and normal. Creating a super close bond and feeling comfortable with each other is how an orgasm will eventually be achieved.

A DUI will do it

I used fiverr for my brand and so far have had good results. I recommend buying multiple though, I had 4 people design a logo for me and I picked the best of the bunch. One of them was pretty bad lol just shop around.

Didn't Bundy have a wife at one point?

Not really. Both seem pretty bent on prevailing as opposed to compromising and working together.

what makes his supposed indoctrination any different from indoctrination on your side?

a couple drops of hydrogen peroxide in each ear for about 5 minutes has helped me a ton with excessive wax, but I think the best option would be to get them cleaned in a clinic. Actually I think Walgreens will do it for 60 bucks without insurance.

I don't recommend mixing SSRI's with any substance really, even alcohol can cause some seriously bad reactions when mixed with them. I'd suggest making it your goal to taper off the antidepressants, then start your psychedelic journey. Also, AOT, yes.

Persistence is a quality of all successful people. If it's extremely important to you, develop a mindset of doing it for the sake of doing it.

Yo man! We're in the same boat, so I really feel you. I think it's really helpful to apply self-love in large amounts during times like these, so be mindful of any intense negative feelings. Let yourself feel them, but don't let them consume you and keep you in bed til noon. Maintain a morning routine to remind yourself everyday that you are taking care of just you right now. Eat clean, go outside, listen to awesome music, and spend plenty of quality time with yourself doing what you love. Reach out to homies, they're your friends for a reason and friend support is a huge help when healing from heartbreak. Good luck to you!

Bottom line, treat it with respect. It's insanely powerful and can give you some incredible feelings of love, but recognize that the only reason it makes you feel that way is because it dumps all your serotonin, meaning you already had that love inside of you. MDMA is just forcing your brain to release it. Make sure you take a safe dose, do not re-dose, and have the next day off to take some self care. I've had some life changing experiences with it, but I've also been stupid and used it in an unhealthy way, MDMA is not a forgiving substance when used improperly. I wouldn't call it a psychedelic though, perhaps my definition of a psychedelic is inaccurate.