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my father was sending me to a trip with some friends(he’s not going). Everything is paid for and there really is no way to gat money back. This was paid and planned like 4 months ago. Recently I got extremely sick from the lungs. I’ve been on some medication. Also there are some money problems in the family. So I decided to not go to the trip even though it’s paid for because it’s an extremely cold climate and I’ll get even worse and I don’t want to spend more money on the trip as we can’t afford it (but my father says not to worry) this plus some other problems like missing many days of school, and I’m bout to date someone and missing out so many days is going to turn cold out thing. My father got really angry calling me ungrateful among other things. He won’t understand I don’t want him to spend money we don’t have on the trip, plus I’m really very sick and the cold won’t help. I starting o think I should go just to keep him calm. He even started to cry when I said it wasn’t a good idea to go. Only like 1000 dollars would be lost (from hotels and planes) what do you think I should do? I really feel like I shouldn’t go, it isn’t that big of a deal, but is it with it having a real really big fight with my father? Sorry for the low consciousness questions but this is a great and loving community always willing to help ❤️

my father was sending me to a trip with some friends(he’s not going). Everything is paid for and there really is no way to gat money back. This was paid and planned like 4 months ago. Recently I got extremely sick from the lungs. I’ve been on some medication. Also there are some money problems in the family. So I decided to not go to the trip even though it’s paid for because it’s an extremely cold climate and I’ll get even worse and I don’t want to spend more money on the trip as we can’t afford it (but my father says not to worry) this plus some other problems like missing many days of school, and I’m bout to date someone and missing out so many days is going to turn cold out thing. My father got really angry calling me ungrateful among other things. He won’t understand I don’t want him to spend money we don’t have on the trip, plus I’m really very sick and the cold won’t help. I starting o think I should go just to keep him calm. He even started to cry when I said it wasn’t a good idea to go. Only like 1000 dollars would be lost (from hotels and planes) what do you think I should do? I really feel like I shouldn’t go, it isn’t that big of a deal, but is it with it having a real really big fight with my father? Sorry for the low consciousness questions but this is a great and loving community always willing to help ❤️

Picking back up the subject. I’ve actually become kind of friends with her boyfriend and I’ve decided that unless some major situation allows for her to dump him and for me to move in it’s not worth it damaging her reputation(she may start getting called a slut or something like that) we are friends and I do care for her . So maybe I’ll just stick around as friends and be ready for when she is available. In a couple months her boyfriend is moving to study in a another state and her and I stay in the same town, so maybe then. Of course I won’t wait for ever but I think in this case it’s worth the small waiting. Only a couple months and I dint hurt her or myself. And I give time for them to get closure properly. She says they won’t last long being apart. I don’t know what you guys think

@Leo Gura yeah, you are probably right. You got me thinking . After my some psychedelic trips I experienced a huge , ginormous ego backlash. I really am having trouble getting back on track, in all aspects: nutrition, meditation, etc. It feels almost as if I was starting from scratch. I think you can see it in this post thread. could you make a video for people who are just starting (or at finding them self out of track) to help the chick start ? I know your way past that but you’ve got a lot of new viewers and all the new content and knowledge could be integrated in this video. I’ve seen it, I’ve recommend the channel to varios friends whom seem genuinely interested but got intimidated by the newer topics. im so sorry if this looks to low conscious for your time, I know you would rather do ever more complex videos but I believe helping the new comers or the fallen ones (hehe) would really really be of help.

@Leo Gura well, at least that’s what I see. In past experiences I could see how my mind was trying to convince itself that this romance was going on, just as you say. But this time (I know it sound like everyone else) it is unfolding differently. How I’m i going to find out anyways if it’s not by keeping moving forward.

Why would you say that?

@TrynaBeTurquoise I feel our connection is quite deep. I do believe I would be willing to be with her for a long time , even imagining the physical attraction phase fading away, I think her personality is quite enough. in regards of her current relationship, I’m not taking it as a task to dissolve it, but I’m trying to figure out if it would be truly wrong to be the cause of their breakup or something like that. Of course their eventually breakup, and I don’t see that as permission to violently intervene and steal her but I mean, it’s just a temporary romance high school type of deal she’s going through. I think taking our connection a little deeper just to explore would help us both realize weather disrupting her relationship is worth it.

@Gili Trawangan is not the cheating that I’m so worried about. I don’t know if I would bare disrupting their relationship. If I should keep taking it further

How can I use psychedelics for dealing/ treating addictions. I find that after a trip, the next couple of days I feel totally free from addictions like mastrurbation, porn, junk food, tv and all superficial activities, but mainly because I’m not in the mood because of the intensity of the trip, I’m still graying to soak it all in but after a week or so these bad habits start to crawl back. How can I focus the psychedelics to treat the addictions. Maybe something I do during the trip or before I don’t know. Or some practices I can do aside that work in conjunction with the psychs for the addiction problems

I’ve been experimenting with LSD, and I’ve been getting great insight and all of that but un this las trip I was really able to see how the ego creates the life story and how it pulls the focus away to keep it self from discovering the tru nature and this is because a felt how my true self (no self I guess) was graying to discover itself but the ego tricks keep fiercely opposing this breakthrough. I felt I understood the nature of this but I didn’t quite get the ego death. I still identified as me, although a very distorted sense of self at this point but still a sense of self. This is the second time I can’t get a full breakthrough. This was on 100ug. How can I go full ego death nex time. How can I calm down the ego until it fully extinguishes? also, from all the research I’ve done I feel like this was an unusually profound and embodying trip for 100ug, I think it might even be comparable to what people ma experience on DMT. What do you think

@SriBhagwanYogi to help trigger the ego death?

It’s first trip ever, going to be lsd, maybe in a month. Of course the research has been done and substances will be tested, but any rookie advice, like maybe meditate before or I don’t know

How to emotionally stimulate someone. Like how to have deep conversations or engaging and emotional interactions with someone. How to avoid getting stuck in making the interaction neutral or about your self?

@Elisabeth I’m talking about going beyond small talk, during conversation how do I provoke emotional responses. Not necessarily because the other person is closed up but to have a deep and connected interaction to someone. I feel like people don’t have trouble opening up to me but for some reason the conversation drys up and the emotional flow stops.

I know we should avoid sugary, starchy, and carbohydraty foods in general, plus just eating unprocessed and organic and all that. But, rice is not really processed (at least home made) but it is mostly carbohydrates, wild rice seems Lee’s “refined” (it still has the skin on, plus the one I buy is organic) so I’m not really know if I should eat it. I like it better than regular white rice anyways.

Soooo, two friends of mine (male both) came to me and told the just found out they where going for the same girl, they are best friends, and they asked for advice on how should they proceed (this is at school btw). I don’t really know what to tell them ( i said I’m needed time to think) . First of all, I don’t want them to ruin their friendship for a girl which non of them will probably get (in my opinion) and it’s just difficult to help each one equally. I was thinking they should agree on who tries first or something like that. Aany advice?

@RendHeaven how to erase posts (hehehe, but seriously, how?)

Writing an essay, trying to improv o. The guitar/piano, talking with someone, cooking, etc., any activity which requires a higher than normal creative state. How (and why I can’t) to tap into a shameless, free flowing creativity? i believe this mind block has something with shame and ego trying not to take risks. Could meditation or psychedelics help?

@hariseldon74 I think we should make a difference between the romantic love we usually talk about (what we see in movies, girl/boyfriends etc) and “love” when talking about infinite and unconditional acceptance. To just see and accept = love

I’m starting to find less and less value (apart from pure entertainment) in literature (fiction). Those “great classics” everyone tells you you have to read like Shakespeare, Kundera, Asimov, Tolkien, Alighieri, etc. You know those books. Most of these we were forcedd to read at school. I can see why there are important, but why not read non fiction, self help etc. You can get the same message and even more value from that. So is there really any exclusive value to literature? Why is it so highly praised by “superficial” intellectuals?

@mandyjw you’re right. Just out of curiosity, is there any way you could relate this to romantic/sexual relationships?

@Anton_Pierre true, i think I was starting to lock my self into a point of view of whether something is useful or not and efficiency

So I’ve been hanging out with this girl, I decided I was going to wake her out. There really is something happening between us. That magic. So I asked her out. She said yes. But she didn’t answered my texts. We never concluded on specifics so the date never really solidified. In my dating life this is the first time something like this happens. I girl feels so enthusiastic, things keep escalating, but she suddenly refuses to go past the “first date” barrier. I feel like she doesn’t want to loose me as a friend or something like that.

@SFRL hmmm. The problem is, how can I up the interest without being with her (the date or something)