Alfonsoo

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  1. Why do I (we?) get hooked on what triggers air trauma more specifically patterns of inconsistent attention/affection?
  2. So a girl and I became friends during lockdown, we weren't best buddies but I'd like to believe we where somewhat close. We kinda drifted apart towards the end of lockdown and then we each went abroad for a year and when we came back, naturally the friendship was a bit weak. I tried to take steps to regrow the friendship and it did for a couple months (still not best friends) and we each have our own friend group. A couple months ago, as a result of some constant teasing and suspicious jokes, what I thought was a date (and a couple of rejected invitations) between the two of us, she came to a friend of mine and asked about me, more specifically if I liked her and that she had only ever meant friendship. He told me about it (as it was intended) and I felt cornered to tell her that (indeed) I liked her but I wasn't planning on trying anything and just beings friends was just fine. She took it quite good. The next couple of weeks she even seemed friendlier than usual. After that her openness and warmth started rapidly deteriorating for some reason. To my knowledge I never offended her or anything. After confessing to her I did try to do friend stuff and just be friendly to her (I didn't wanna make a weird thing out of the situation) but maybe at some point she got weirded out, thought I was still pursuing her or something. It has gotten to the point where she won't text me unless she needs something like homework, and never replies. And in person she rarely ever talks to me out of her own initiative and when in a group she won't even look at me when talking. She even exploded and shouted at me a couple of times when she got stressed out about something (so bad she even came back to say sorry some of the times, but that was the only sign of friendliness). However, she doesn't actively avoid me, meaning she doesn't turn around and walk away when I approach her. To be honest, she isn't that close of a friend and I don't know of its worth risking making things worse and talking to her to try to figure what's wrong. Maybe she just decided she's not even interested in being friends, which is fine, but I would like to know just so I can move on. Getting close to the end of the term, I wouldn't wanna leave this festering during winter break.
  3. @Leo Gura take down the house, no more house dust
  4. @Shrooms_Alvarez Why r u trying to replace friendship with prostitution?
  5. @Basman Idk, I don't feel comfortable cutting her loose just like that. How would look like anyways. The thing is we'll be sharing all clases next (and last) semester and then were graduating and I really wouldn't want to end things with her like that, but as you say, it seems that she really doesn't give a shit so why would I.
  6. During the trips (LSD, shrooms) I have a real bad time with my balance and there some very noticeable muscle soreness and fatigue. And it feels as if my weight shifts to wherever I lean. I find it quite hard just to walk around to get water or smth . It’s not so bad that I’m unable to function but it’s bad enough that I just lay in bed for most of the trip. And maybe it is the laying in bed but I get quite drowsy too.
  7. @DefinitelyNotARobot the LSD where more on the stressful side (one was definitely a bad trip) though not the whole lengths of the trips. The shrooms were quite pleasant but there where some background concerns about the trip going haywire and just life stuff. Energetic music really helps to counter act the lethargy and weakness
  8. @Francis777 Three 150ug acid and a 2g shrooms
  9. @Francis777 I’m definitely not in peak health but I ain’t very experienced with psychedelics either. Maybe it has to do more with experience?
  10. @StarStruck try your boxing skills (on the wall)
  11. Book: The Oxygen Advantage by Patrick G. Mckeown
  12. We’re both into each other a lot . During class there’s a lot of quality interaction going on. Friends and other people have confirmed/notices that the chemistry is mutual. I went on a date with her two days ago and was amazing (no kiss yet). But she is (very casually) seeing someone. Nothing official and she barely mentions anything about it. I only know this through a friend and the girl has mentioned the name in conversation a couple of times but doesn’t address him as a special someone, just by name and very rarely. Maybe once she said something like “the guy I’m seeing”. Also nothing pointing to him on social media. I want to push things a little to either to overtake this other guy or to get her to tell me she isn’t available or whatever. I don’t wanna be in the limbo. During our interactions it seems she really wants something to happen between us but she kinds of stops her self (maybe because of this other guy or I’m just imagining things). I’m very sure she likes me and would otherwise date me. So I wouldn’t loose time digging that up. i just don’t wanna waste more time but I don’t know how to go about it. What should I do / tell her? I’m seeing her at uni tomorrow.
  13. @D2sage i do. I’m not fixated with her but there’s still a lot to be done
  14. @itsadistraction what about the other guy? Well the next meeting would have to be next week. Tomorrow at school I’ll feel it really won’t be appreciated. She knows far to many people there and the other guy she’s seeing is not completely a secret so making that move at school might backfire. But I Can for sure pull her on another date next week
  15. Sometimes even basic stuff like reassuring a friend after a breakup or whatever is challenging.
  16. @Yimpa from the Myers brigg test. By analyst type I mean rational, thinking, logical people. ENTP, INTP, ENTJ, INTJ but forget the personality thing. Just, how does one become more tuned in with the emotional world in general? How to break out of the logical mode on command ?
  17. https://psyarxiv.com/vg4dp
  18. @Leo Gura U could just unimagine the existance out of any illness anyways
  19. Some reading on how people switch religions, or how cults or religions recruit followers. How does one switch belief systems? What’s the psyche mechanics behind this?
  20. when is it dropping??? I need more books
  21. Kill Your Self by Dogo Barry
  22. @Shawn Philips So the problem usually is when it doesn’t reach deep enough? (past the epidermis and into the dermis would be the right way)