Chumbimba

My grandfather had paranoid schizophrenia so should I stay away from shrooms ?

There are levels to this work. @Leo Gura is in full-on god mode but some people still may be wanting to know how to make a girl squirt because of thats their level of development. So I personally don't think it's fair to kick people out. Yes, the victim mindsets need to stop, but you really don't know people's situations from a forum post. A lot of people here are from different countries where personal development is not really a thing and this forum really might be one of the only tools they have to grow and connect with people. This forum keeps me sain because the deeper I go into the work I feel the fewer people will understand me and judge me. But I have never gotten a lick of criticism on here so that's just my two cents.

@TheAlchemist I like that idea. My idea is maybe to make a thread for advanced students/practitioners only. Because everyone on this forum is on different levels and has different types of questions. People grow over time.

@Leo Gura what if you are doing the work but you're confused about certain areas/topics/experiences and need advice. Like I can really come across as a victim a lot but I am working really hard to overcome that (I hope I'm not telling on myself )

As I am planning my year, I would like to do an Ayahuasca retreat or a Psychedelic Retreat. I am not sure if I should wait a couple years due to the fact that I am only going to be 23 when I do it. My intention is to: 1. Heal deep emotional traumas from my past 2. Reconcile some issues that I have with money 3. Get a direction on my life purpose 4. Heal my sexual repression/Deep issues with women (terrible relationship with my mother and sisters) Also if you know of any ayahuasca retreats in the US or Peru please send links or give names of locations. The money will not be an issue by the time I plan to do this. The last time I took a Psychedelic was April 17, 2017 Thank you for your opinions!

@Preety_India I deactivated everything. Totally worth it. You see the toxicity and bullshit our culture has developed through social media. It's not all bad but people do some crazy shit for likes and approval on there. My life is much cleaner without it.

Current Situation: 22 years old taking a semester of college due to financial reasons living with his Ex-Girlfriends Family. I just got a new job which I am starting to get acclimated to and like at a call center. Generally, I hate call centers though Problems: 1. I hate college. I realized I am better at being self-taught than I am with the structure that college offers. I am afraid to drop out and have that label "college drop out" and seem stupid to employers and not being able to find a steady income. 2. I am really conflicted about what I want to do. Part of me wants to try computer science and learn how to code, part of me wants to be a psychologist or a psychiatrist. Part of me wants to be an Au pair for 3 years and travel the world or save up money and travel the world and another part of me really wants to apprentice for Peter Ralston and really pick his brain and learn from him because he is someone who deeply inspires me. I don't know what to do with all these choices. 3. I DONT WANT TO BE A WAGE SLAVE. I am not a big fan of the 9-5 long term. I would love to start my own business but I don't know what product or service to sell and I don't know shit about how business works and I don't want to fail and look stupid. I also don't want to turn into a greedy business person causing more evil in the world due to my ego. My biggest fear: Trapping myself in life. Getting stuck in life. Miserable and suicidal due to poor decisions. I worry about my future every day and really need some help. I would go to a therapist but I am currently broke so you guys are my second best option lol

Agreed. I read about this in "The Way of the Superior Man" by David Deida. I flex this muscle often. probably 5+ times a day. My problem is that I forget to flex it sometimes.

@fridjonk where do you live again?

@supremeyingyang

What do you think about his teachings? I saw a few videos by him and sometimes I feel like he is putting up a fake persona and isn't as awake as we think he is.

Okay, I am going to focus on websites, apps, and computer software.

@supremeyingyang I want to learn Python, C++, and Java. Which one can you use to create games?

@supremeyingyang I remember as a kid playing video games and not quitting on a level until I beat it. This brings me back to that time in my life. That level of achievement and satisfaction. I feel it deeply. I currently work at WGU I get a 75% off discount on an Online Computer science degree. then I am going to get an M.S. in Software Engineering at ASU online.

Programming is the way for me. I found it. It involves problem-solving and it is super practical. I just need focus.

Who am I meditation Ramaji

I just received that book a few days ago I’m going to read it after I’m finished with it’s not about the money by Brent Kessel

@Raptorsin7

Yeah because I’m not really about the hustle in rat race. I will be able to do deep enlightenment work. American society has too much bullshit. Business, entertainment, Bad food etc. So yeah I a desperately wanting to just live simply, consciously, and peacefully

@Raptorsin7 how can I just live a simple natural life ? Like I want to live out on a farm or in an RV in the middle of know where. That’s my dream life

@Leo Gura didn’t Ralston awaken at 21 years old ? He’s been enlightened for 50 years

@Raptorsin7 basics are getting better. Implementing a kriya yoga practice and meditating 30 minutes a day because that’s all I have time for at the moment. My diet is a huge reason for my adhd, brain fog, fatigue and things like that

What about Byron Katie ? Didn’t she have a sudden awakening

@The Awakened Viking Yeah I studied in Spain for 4 months. Cost is much higher here in the United States and I am taking out student loans for school. I already have a lot of money I have to pay back for a major that I love but can't provide value directly out of college. The Ralston apprenticeship would line completely up with my values, life purpose, and lifestyle that I want. but I would be missing a chunk of school for it.

@Bill W I don’t think his wife would agree about the child’s porn haha