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I'm a crazy dreamer too. I often meet aliens or other beings in my lucid dreams. Sometimes I wake up only to realize I'm still dreaming. No worries. You get used to it and even find beauty and cool insights from this craziness. And I got a feeling these dreams won't be a part of your life for too long.

Conversations like in this thread makes me reconsider everything I think I know and what I should be doing and how to think about my life. A weird anxiety and a little peace somewhere in it. Thanks, I hate and I love it.

The virus is as real/unreal as the brain. Leo has a video on brains "not being real" because there is a widespread materialistic paradigm at play in our culture today. He is trying to change the paradigm, not to make people take the brains, or viruses, as something not serious.

this suffering, this separation, this pain, being bound to time, fate and a truth... wanting to cry for help but being afraid

I often feel kind of the same way. It's quite hard to really open up to someone because the stuff inside is very hard to be put into words and to be expressed. I have this deep longing for meeting someone who truly understands. Someone you don't need to explain the suffering to. Someone who is truly present and unconditional. Pure love and compassion. I would like to just cry in the arms of a person like that.

I have felt bad for a long time. This started when I was about 15. Now I'm almost 23. Depression, anxiety, loneliness, drugs and alcohol, even some psychotic symptoms... It's been really hard. I might get an ADD diagnosis soon too. I don't know what to do. Sometimes I feel okay. Sometimes even "good". But mostly I'm tired, sad and anxious. Can't focus. Can't enjoy the moment. Been trying to "figure it out". Been trying lots of things. It's propably going to get better at some point. Right now I'm just feeling like shit so I'm writing this because I hope it would be helpful. Putting things into perspective. I know the usual stuff, that I should clean the diet, exercise, and fix the sleep routine. And meditate, of course. But I just can't do it. It's too hard. "I don't have what it takes", at least right now. Hoping that maybe the ADD meds could help but at the same time I would not like to take pills. Fuck I would like to have a good cry too but it just doesn't happen. I just can't cry. Been focusing on feeling a lot lately. It has been helpful. This post is propably due to this "cleaning up". I feel the bullshit in me. The dishonesty and the deception. I'd like to just vomit it all out. I also often feel this longing. My mind feels so limited. There are moments when I see and remember this great freedom in me. Can't really touch it, but only look at it from afar. I'd like to feel free. I'd like to feel lightness and joy, depth and boundlessness. Give a thought if you like.

@Preety_India Thank you very much

I have done psychedelics. Went a bit too deep and almost got psychosis and killed myself. lol Still in recovery. I want to be emotionally stable if I'm going to use them again. Maybe after a few years.

Thank you I sense good energy from your writing. Makes me feel better.

I'm interested in Wilber's integral theory and the AQAL thing. I'd like to know which book would be the best one to read if one wanted to learn the theory. Integral Psychology, Integral Spirituality, The Religion of Tomorrow...? I'm interested in all the stages, states, lines, quadrants etc. Would be cool to read about the highest levels too. Which book is the most comprehensive on the matter?

lol, maybe Kinda funny to see myself & others trying to think ourselves to a conclusion on UFOs when at the same time, most of us if any, have no fucking idea what "truth", "logic", "thinking" or even "reality" is.

Love Love that Love Love Love. Love Love!

Just wondering... What exactly is this "consciousness" that "rises" from the "current state" to the "super human level"? What exactly happens when you take a psychedelic or meditate daily? What is "more", "higher", "a level", or "change"? There must be something in my current situation that is shared with this "super human level". What is the thing that changes, and the change itself? How can a thing (in this case, consciousness) become more itself, as "more" is made of consciousness already. Get what I'm asking? There must be some kind of a direct connection to this "change" and to the thing that "becomes super human" right here, now. Nothing is hidden. So how come I feel and seem so unconscious? This one is for @Nahm too, and all the mods.

What exactly does science say about reality? What does it say about consciousness? Matter? Time? Being and nothingness? It seems to me that you are actually bying the materialist paradigm, not "science". You are veiling your metaphysical assumptions as science and objectivity. There is philosophy beyond scientific method. For example, what is direct experience? This cannot be answered by scientific method, as science appears within direct experience. I believe the problem here is what you think spirituality is. Spirituality is not really just thinking and philosophizing. It's not about knowing and being right. At least for me, it would make a lot more sense to think of spirituality as a feeling-thing. What makes you connected to life & reality? What gives you that childlike wonder? What makes your body fill with joy and true depth? If it is science, so be it. The real center of spirituality is feeling, the connection to the depths of reality. Science is just the tool.

I thought it would be cool to have a thread for histories of different societies. It is very mind-opening to see the history of a society unfold in a single video: Makes me wonder... What's the point? Where is the mankind going? Share your thoughts & favourite history videos here!

Thank you! Read Conversations with God if you haven't already. If you do, let me know what you think. I love the books. Got a feeling you would especially like Communion with God. It's the most direct one. Might even be helpful in your work with people.

I'm having trouble understanding the two spheres - analogy. It's kind of weird actually, it feels like my mind just stops working when I hear him talk about it. It just doesn't compute. I'd like to understand it, so it would be cool if someone can explain it to my weird little brains. So one sphere is the "world". In direct experience, is this sphere the sensory experience? Shapes, sounds, colours, sensations? And the other one is the "mind", which is basically whatever thought is arising? And both spheres are held within nothingess/infinity? Am I wrong to assume that this analogy is what's often called the Holy Trinity? (Father, Son and Holy Spirit, or Meta-physical, Non-physical and Physical) @Nahm (or anyone)

Yeah this stuff can be useful. I used to be in this facebook group where a woman posted light language and intuitive singing videos. I felt the energy. Nothing crazy, but those videos certainly opened up my sensitivity. Got those fun brain-zaps where it feels like you suddenly connect into a fucking nuclear reactor and recieve energy and intelligence that shuts down your brain for like a second. After a while her stuff didn't resonate anymore, so I left the group. Her work with me was done.

Every person on the face of the earth thinks they are either blessed or cursed.

I've been thinking how lucky I am since I found Actualized.org when I was something like 17 or 18. Now, quite solid Tier 2 at 22 years. I wonder what will happen in the next 40. @mandyjw Spiral Cheeseburgers

'Problems' like this are quite complex and deceptive. Keep in mind that you won't simply think or philosophize yourself out of this. Things like this are interconnected from your everyday emotional life, your own self-deception and unhonesty, to your philosophy and to your politics. At least for me personally, the most useful tool for these kind of things is simply focusing on my emotions. Let your mind do what it's doing, but keep your focus on your emotions. By simply being more aware of your feelings, the mind will automatically begin to unravel itself. https://www.actualityofbeing.com/emotional-awareness

Yesterday I had this experience where I became more conscious of my fears, and how they play into the general suffering in my own life and others. Basically I realized that I am terrified of existence. The fact that there is colours, shapes, sounds, sensations, or any experience whatsoever, terrifies me. Weirdly, I also realized that in this terror, the thought of death becomes kind of soothing. This might mean that I am more terrified of life than death! What a weird thing. Then came a new thought. I am reality. How (and why) would reality be afraid of itself? The fact that I am experiencing fear, or any suffering, must mean that there is something I am not seeing "correctly". There must be a misunderstanding from my part! All suffering is a mere misunderstanding!! Now, I'm sure you guys can tell me what the misunderstanding is. Let me guess: It's the I - thought. That there is someone experiencing fear. That there even is a reality. Yeah, you're probably right. Doesn't matter though. I must look into it by myself. I'm the only one who can find the misunderstanding in my own direct experience. What an exciting mission. Probably the most joyful thing in this experience was that I became a lot more compassionate towards my own and others' suffering. This was the real juice of it. So happy! So excited.

Of course it's a statement from the ego. You find "ego" wherever you look at in politics. What Leo is pointing at is that not all egos are at the same level of deception. He is using the different stages of ego development to understand politics. And its very useful. So yes, Leo and many people on this forum find Trump & MAGA a threat. This is because they have good wisdom. That is, a more highly developed ego & politics.