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but I don’t have any expectations you’ll suddenly hear what I’m saying. I have only and do only wish the best for you. He nailed you down. You don't want to listen. Be my guest continue "your way". Keep offloading keep blaming keep someone else will fix something I have to do on my own. Keep running away as scared kid from non existant boogeyman.

Yes and being spoiled kid that doesn't want to face adult life will never realize that pursuit. Yes pack up solo mode without help because you don't need it. You just lie because you are afraid.

You want to be happy this is how. So instead of all whiny bitchy ass shit you write here. Want reports. What you've actually done. Did you stop playing LoL and everything else what are you supposed to do. Actual life stuff. No seeking, no spirituality no RASA none of that. Actual life stuff.

@Raptorsin7 What @Nahm wrote. This is a dream and you have to take care of yourself. No duality btw 2. Fantasy=Reality. Love in crystalized form. So that you can have experience and life you know. Ok actual stuff. Rent a small room. You don't have to buy house(I mean you cant') just rent it. If you really work with your family quit. Or ask your father for actual sallary but he most likelly protects you and you really don't work at all like most people. I am so sorry. He will also not give you any real. Amount of money because for him you are 14 year old. Find regular job. You have no Issues that needs therapy or meds. I am so sorry but that's the case. So instead of delaying this stuff start working on resolving. This is how to. Sounds rough but it is right and only way for you. Everything else is just you trying to avoid and you know it.

OMG. Thank you!Who would tell. Ok will sort myself. Hey maybe I can really be a greeny. Oh boyo have to sort my arrogance and that attitude of not "being bellow" and stop with ravings being looney and pretending that I am clown when really I am wise.

Also how the fuck he will find gf. What woman will spread her legs for him when she looks at him in this current condition. Lets no BS around. Tinder GTFO. I mean she is not stupid. Lives with his parents, plays video games doesn’t work, doesn’t go to school etc. Also even if he gets gf where will he sleep with her on continual basis?&o you really beleive gf will fuck with you and really enjoy that knowing in same house are your parents and your bro. Think about it @Raptorsin7 Also say to yourself I am 24 years old man. I've been adult since 18. 6 years of adulthood and I am still a teen.

@GalynaWhat childhood parenting problem he has. He is just spoiled and that's it. Psychologist for that, really? What actual trauma he has. None. I call BS. Lazy, immature, not responsible etc. Tgere is a solution for that and it's not psychologist, psychedelics or RASA sessions,new school etc. He will constantly try to find new ways of escape and never face his own shit. You know all this very well don't try to protect him. He had Enough of it and it is ruining him. Doesn't help him at all. Time to face life once and for all. Meds for what? WTF like for real. Love you my forum mistress. Yeah these North Americans do indeed need our loud Truth to be told attitude. So weak and soft.

No. Another escape. New school, therapy. You do not need psychogist. Are you vicrim of rape, had violent family abusive relations, have drug problems etc. Stop BS around you are perfectly fine no need for psychologist. Enough crap. Do what I say. Time to face fears and difficulties head on. Tine to grow up stop looking for escape. Will bite you like a dog and will not let go until you wake up regarding life.

I had a lot of sins and crimes. Hard to remember 'em all. You are welcome all the best, sober man that takes care of harmless drukyard. No worries not drinking anymore. As much as nectar is sweet makes me go nuts. We will meet again green master.

@Raptorsin7Also to face you with following stuff. About enlightenment and not mistify damn thing. For enlightenment you actually, literally die. You face and accept your own death. Now tell me and I bet that's True. You will shy away and be afraid for example to say your family that you want to live on your own. Let alone I bet that you are afraid to talk with ordinary girl in supermarket for example. How the heck you expect Awakening?! These people here enlightenment, awareness, toughts, spirituality, non duality and their seeking is BS. Most full of shit. Escape into spirituality for many reasons. Rasa folks you mentoined are not actually awake at all. Can fool you can't fool me.

Once again you are running away. Finding escape in school. You abandoned it, face it, accept consequences of your decision, that's it. Wanted to sit at home playing video games and being protected living under cloud of your parents. Still As kid. Find real job you know 8 hours. You can also sign up for school anytime. Now we are growing up. Facing life finally after 24 years of being kid. Yes you do. Refusing to grow up.

Yup go do it. Just do it you won't regret it. Also stick with @Nahm too. There is no better guy here regarding enlightenment.Yes even better then Leo because @Nahm is integrated, mature etc. Yeah I am awake but still learning from @Nahm. Because some traps and difficulties you still don't know @Raptorsin7. So be fucking greatful. All these stuff is joke, your problems God damn joke.

@Inliytened1 Really have to cut silliness and start pretending I am some sort of clown. 10 points, you will remind @cetus he indeed has giving hand. If you are my friend pls don't do this. 20 points way to much. Like I am some sort of evil guy that insults or what not. Now with new influx of mods no fooling around. To much hands with ban hammers.

I am friend with @SoonHei. You know what today I met Him again. You really got me in trouble. I am also friend with @Inliytened1 and bunch of peeps here. Greatful.

Being so harsh on you but sweet talk won't wake ya up.

Oh I did striked the nerv. @Nahm want to be my partner?? @Raptorsin7 Stop with BS. All that anger use it ton actually improve your life. I told you how. See that energy that's motivation just channel it in right way. Simple easy stuff.No need for RASA, Ramaji, gurus and what not, you already have it all.

Then find fucking motivation wake the fuck up.Go take cold shower and star working on your independance. It's your lif do you want to be in mom's basement til age 40 with no gf or wife and to play video games and jerk on porns and bitch how world is wrong etc. Think about it. No you wouldn't. I left my household at 20 and I should've done that when I finished highschool at 18 but also was weak as you. I regret staying those 2 extra years with them. Your rock bottom.is right now.Your life right now. Is. Rock bottom. You can only raise. Once again don't blame @Nahm. Say to yourself. It's my fault and noone else. Stop blaming and judgin anyone. That's bad habit stop with it now. Ok so you ok with this. Now go work on that. Stop with BS. Just stop it. Ya know I have zen stick bigger then @Nahm when I am serious and not pretend that I am a fool.

Don't judge @Nahm. He is actually awake and really wise and good man. It's not his fault for that. It's yours. Stop blaming anyone. Will help you out.

Stop with BS. Now, right fucking now. Start organizing yourself and start planning and working on that.

That's very nice. Web site stuff keep as hobby not as something so important. Whatever once you leave just for that transitional time period stop that. You have all time in this world for that. This will be your anti depressant. When you recover actual self confidance your own responsability for yourself etc. Trust yourself for fucks sake. No brother you alone. I am so sorry if you really want best results. You alone. Ok but start looking and plan this stuff out. Fuck monestery again self pitty shit. Now you work and build life for yourself only. Building actual skills and actual wisdom. It's time to grow up. Once you do this,will help you out with what next. Sick if seeing your god damn struggle and with anyone with 2 gram of brain it's obvious why. Lets turn you into a beast.

Very radical but you got to recover your balls. You live in Canada easy stuff it's not like eastern europe where everything is risky. It will be difficult but once you do this you will be happiest mofo ever even without RASA shit and what not.

Cut all God damn addictions. Video games and LoL throw that God damn PC out of window. Start going to gym Meditation 1 hour nothing more throw all RASA BS and all spiritual crap down the toilet. Down even use psychedelics for time period until you build new life. Tell your family you want to live alone on your own. Be specific don't back off and trust me your fatger will respect you like never before Find job rent room or apartment.

Sorry if I hurted your feelings not my intent but this is same Thing I will say to my friend of brother. I see your struggle but it's not because enlightenment it is because refusal to grow up nothing else. First master life then go into. Mysticism. You don't have to be awake at all to live good life. Sage level shit and not everyone is capable of it.

Maybe @DrewNowswill post Gematria stuff.

Yes we do Ofcourse. But it helps me massively to regain some stuff I lost during "spirituality phase". So it's in a sense some sort healing. Makes me remember and makes me feel good. Really does.