zeroISinfinity

There is huge Reason why I am sceptical about all this. Mind controls everything so it can produce this state to get you "in play" back into world of illusions where you Will be super motivated "to do" stuff. Open mindedness sure since every possible phenomenon consciuosness can create but also radical scepticism to not fall into traps of Self or self deceptions.

Yeah had exact same experience but even more loving. That happens when you go straight into the core of Being. Do you experience your self now as this space where phenomena happens and not someone Who is experiencing? It shifts perspective, yes you love all ofcourse but you can't attach to them. In a sense I felt my life as I know it is over I still think that it is. I felt exactly how I felt as kid felt reborn again but didn't lasted for long so I disregarded it as untrue.

Practise zombified me again. No that is not life. Not fun when "my creations" call me depressed and without life. But I Will continue no worries.

You are the source of that experience it didn't happened to you. Big difference.

Yup had it too. Temporary experience disregard it is not it. What is real is permanent what is unreal comes and goes. Attaching to it Will make you suffer let it go.

But why the fuck this formless thing wants this perspective when this ego seen fraud and basicly killed it's subjectivity. No point in playing "self-game" since this ego doesn't trust it's toughts and feelings or any phenomena what so ever.

Where you are "screen" all the time.

Depersonalization and derealization is serious stuff need to go to psychologist.

Yup it seems that is all about and this spiritual stuff makes you less and less efficient in that. I was at the party and many girls watched me since I go to gym and I doesn't look bad either. But I become so passive so dead. I don't want to manipulate deceive talk or anything I am Just this dead stare. As male you have to be active but dunno I don't even consider myself human anymore.

My advice to you is to start deconstructing your entire life. Stop beleiving all events ever happened stop beleiving in your entire thinking in all your emotions and everything you perceive. Sit in silence and discover what you really are.

You can't become enlightened since there was never a you there in the first place. But YOU can.

See sense of self still present. So you are far from enlightenment. Do the practises.

Sorry but doesn't make a difference is it.

In a dream nothingness can imagine to create "I am God" topic on Actualized.org forum. ? Or find the girl Nahm suggest.

You are it. Infinite Dreams all ephemeral all without substance. Without you experiencing it. That's the greatest illusion of dream.

Well this forum is actually you but you enjoy separation small self creates.

You swallowed entire Universe.

What If all is nothing at all. And nothing looks exactly like this. ?

There are no problems and no solutions. Just happenings. Nothing is unfolding you always are.

You Will see oneness when your mind stops creating distinctions and separations.

See you desire everything. Desire as cause of suffering

Good luck with that realization, you Will be depressed for months then real work of getting rid of all distinctions values morality meaning purpose has to get rooted out and everything has to be seen as you. Real work only start after enlightenment.

That is your thinking. What's that oh right it's ego it's self. Let it go and be mesmerized with your real self. Big mind not small one.

Imagine you don't have head. And look actuality. Voila still depressed. You don't have to Imagine it it is already the case.

Yes it's True. But words I am using are not ?. I Just do not like telling People they are God because they are not and they are in same time. But they need to do the work to discover it. What they think they are is Devil. God is transcendental yet imanent at the same time. Egotism is what prevents then to see this and telling them "you are God" won't help them. Maybe I am enlightened but for sure I will never share it with anyone.