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@DrewNows I understand what are you trying to say but I really have no desire to. I am ok if tommorow I Will die from cancer or in car accident. Got enlightened because I am pure in mind and heart not because I am interested in egoic bullshit. I do not care. Really I do not, maybe it is better for human race to get exterminated so other life forms can recover and New one emerge. Better unity more variations same God. Sounds so harsh I know but this is how I Feel. I am not really needed at all.

@Aakash Well you have option to join pyramidal scheme game which society is. To be Just another rat chasing cheese. Nothing wrong with that, you will have to do it because that body of yours has to survive. Trick is to really understand what is that all about and not get attached to any possible identity or projection casted out on you. To stop imagining you are doing this or that you are something.

@Aakash Well you can change things ofcourse you do. Love of God is uncoditional. Problem is that humans abuse it so much it became norm. But humans are also God. Do Whatever you Feel need to do from your heart. Me personally, I do not have any desire to change or impact society or other human beings. Reality is perfect no need for "me" to change manipulate anything. I am done, really had it enough. Honestly I started this work Just to discover is there a God and what is the Truth about all of this. Really not after bliss chasing or pleasant emotions. Have done my work. Think I deserve rest and life in peace and harmony with nature not with society and devils. Time to clear the stage.

Lol. Well Truth is Truth. All is One, One is All. Alex life has to be played out has to unfold before merging back to One. Did this life had any importance any value any meaning no not really. Was Just small portion of the whole. So for future Ones it is better for this guy to suffer immensly so future Ones don't. ❤️

@Nahm No I mean this point of Awareness is not interested in exploring anymore. Probe as Leo calls it wants home. Here I have sense of self, "there" there is none. No need to continue as "me". Even no need to continue as Awareness.

@Nahm Yeah you are right. It is a play. But kinda you want to clear stage from dancers. Had it enough. All I have to do is wait for this idea to end. God saw it how is to be Alex. Got another part of him. He Will Explore other ideas.

Nobody to heal and no one to move on. It is about heart it is full of scars and I Feel every one of them. Meditations works wonders but I have to go to work and talk with "others". I do not feel any Joy in These activities. Ok job is fine for body awareness nothing against that. Dream Will end. I already know how easily I Will surrender idea of "me". So in the end it doesn't matter Will "I" heal. Victims of narcissistic abuse never fully heal. I know that because Very much I am expert in narcissism and psychopathy.

You can't avoid it. Every animal in nature kills highly effectively causing least suffering. Killed animal Will indeed feel sensations of killing but if Consciousness realizes death of the body will come for sure it will revert back to Formlesness. Humans should done the same but we kill for egoic pleasure too. We torture rape and do all kinds of harm Just to get that dopamine hit. We abuse everything. I can't become vegan because I do hard manual labour for small wage.

@Nahm Ok I am all that is but I do not want to be it. Having such hard time accepting this because Awareness created horror story for imagined self. There is deep distrust in it coming from mind. Here is what problem I have with other egos. Started renovating house(cool lets create) so I called in brother to help me with this. Now he moved in because my place is better then his without even asking me. He doesn't have any money even if he earns twice as much I do. Because he gambles it away first day he receives it. So basiclly I got New parasite. This is Just one, most recent example. Want harsh one. Mother beating shit out of you. Lashing you with electronic cables with full intensity if you didn't got highest grade. I know devils Very well and I do not have any desire to shine light of awareness on them ever again. Want rest and to be alone. Learned my lesson. Payed price for desiring to be human and not what I am really. Formlesness /Nothing that is what I am really. Everything else is sharade.

@Nahm What really confuses me. Is that I am actually those people talking to "me". "Me" is complete lie. "I" never existed it was always illusory. Doesn't matter how Being gets manifested since there is no self in it. Nobody to suffer nobody to enjoy. We do not exist only God does.

?❤️ Life as True Self and life as false self are much different. It is impossible to lie cheat deceive kill (only when you have to eat and even then you Will slaughter animal in most effective way). Seeking physical and emotional pleasure, neediness, approval etc. You are free from all needs because you realize there is nothing to gain or lose etc. Yeah pretty much Saint. Good luck to all people chasing enlightenment for personal gain ?

@DrewNows Keeping the mask on. Have no desire to do so but do not have desire to take of masks of "others".They are Perfect as they are. I do not Wish to create suffering for anyone so I do not really Feel my mask is needed at all. It Just doesn't matter. You can be Happy all the time with "mundaine" stuff. Washing dishes or chasing that hot asian hippie girl and Creating suffering for both of you.

Yeah timeless limitless now. God idea of @Nahm life Will end. God idea of "my" life Will end. We will all merge "back" as One. That One will live all "future" apparent lives inside One as One. So none of lives has any real importance in full picture. Because life itself is Just an appearance. @Nahm has ability to remove veil and discover Truth. But most of his appearent kind do not Wish to do it.

Well I am talking about entire self construct. Society and humans expect you to hold on such fabrication. Personally I do not remember when last time I tried to defend self image.When you see falsity of your own why would you buy into falsity of all others. To live and thrive inside society you have to keep firm hold onto it. Talking with other human is like mutually exchanging bullshit. Full of lies deceptions projections etc.

Yes I know that. I really do. That is why I talk about surrender and acceptance. Problem is that "me" inside people expect to be there is just isn't there. I have to fabricate it. I have to lie and I do not want that.

@DrewNows Thanks. Well what I really want to say is that it is much better to walk in nature, drive a bike go to gym eat healthy etc. Compared to building your fantasy identity getting involved in all kinds of drama manipulations coys. Talking about who bought New car, what girl is whoring around etc, monkey bullshit. You improve quality of your life not diminish it. That was what I meant to say. Human society and humans in general are not more worthy then all other creations. ?❤️ @Nahm Source lives as all, everything. All equal. In the end, Life doesn't matter at all. Because no matter how much Source fantasies it will always get back home to nothigness. Some "versions" of the Source are really not into fantasies. But that, not into fantasy is just another fantasy. So what is left is to surrender to what is until time comes for "reward".

Sorry. Sounds bleak I know. I do not deny anyone anything. I am acting perfectly fine. Reality is perfect as it is. No need for "me" in it. If my ego is really needed Reality Will call for it. I Just do not Wish to manipulate lie deceive or to end in such situations. My life is Just an idea it doesn't matter at all. Yeah indeed sounds bleak but in actuality it isn't. ❤️

@Gili Trawangan No, not really. If you ask me I have nothing against to spend my life in prison or monastery. None of them love you or give 2 cents about you, what they are only interested is how you can serve their agenda. Egoic substitute for Love is power. That is all human interaction are about. More power your ego aquires more you Will be "loved". Do you really want to dance with devils and suffer.

Well higher consciousness higher wisdom. Personally I have no desire to talk with people irl. I do if I need to, but have no desire to. Honestly I am not really interested what their ego has to say. It is always same, something that decreases or increases their perceived self serving agenda.

Yes your unique personality is used for creation of Reality. Personality is never lost so don't be afraid, your personality becomes much more authentic free from neurotic behaivor etc. God is Good. ❤️?

@WHO IS Do your practises. Meditate self inquire etc. You can directly become God in full mode. Not aware of, not concepts but you can get all your desired answers by becoming Truth fully. Truth is not hidden from you, it is you all the time but price for it is ego death or end of your apparent human life during meditation or self inquiry or on 5 meo dmt Whatever. Lets say that you Will look at funerals with different eyes for example.

@WHO IS Well you it is not meaningless. After you Will realize that you are creator of Reality this is why you are here. To create to love. Don't jump to conclusions early. With enlightenment you are basiclly returning back to Truth of who you really are to your True selfless nature. Funny how "stage blue and red" societies knew more about true nature of God then today society.

@Shaun Consciousness is identical to Love. Remove imaginary border btw "you" and the world. Surrender completely to what IS. Allow it to wash you with infinite Love which is You really. Being is always there but you want to exist as self that is all there is to it. One day you will realize you are Source itself and your life Will switch from love to the self to Love of THE SELF.??️❤️

@Inliytened1 Yes indeed. But you can only suffer as conceptual self which is a lie an illusion as Awareness Consciousness God you can't because it is Truth and Love. Always forever. Story of You is not actual You. Real You is always Present, Real, True, Compassionate, Loving etc.

@Shaun I said to you before your ego that thing behind your eyes /small mind/self claims to be owner of Awareness. @Shaun entity who thinks is aware and owns life of the body is illusion. That creature is solipsistic as fuck because it is it's main modus operandi. Thinking, Judging making interpretations world views projects. That thing thinks it is separated and aware of external Reality.