Sleyker

Hope you enjoy my trip report, it's kinda messy 'cause that's kinda how it wanted to be expressed. Took 1,75 grams of mushrooms on my hand, looked at them calmly, I told them "Show me what I need to see", "I'm open to whatever you want to show me". Ate them on an empty stomach, sat on my bed, meditated, then lay down. Closing my eyes. Waited, just calm, there was a bit of fear going into it but not too much. I had taken 1.80 gr of mushrooms before and they just put me in my body and enhanced my mood. This was my second mushroom trip ever, different source, 2 years after the first trip. About an hour later they kicked in. I was contemplating some questions in bed, like what am I? am I consciousness? am I Sleyker? where do thoughts come from? these were questions that just came to me, the questions came and then dissolved like the answers didn't really fucking matter, like asking the questions itself was pointless. I laughed my ass off at the idea of being Sleyker, like... Sleyker? HAHAHAHAAHA THAT'S FUNNY... SLEYKER HAHAHA The initial intention didn't make sense anymore. "Show me what I need to see" HAHAHA "I"? "I"? At some point approaching peak, I suddenly got MORE conscious for a second, all my senses ENHANCED by quite a bit, it was sudden and it scared me, this happened three times or so. This was interesting, after my initial scared reaction I kept kinda wanting it back again. Minutes later I opened my eyes and went to check my phone, I had told my gf I was gonna trip minutes before I took them, she's not open to psychedelics so she didn't like the idea. There was a message from her: "It's okay please don't text me today again, text me tomorrow when you're conscious. You know I love you bla bla" HAHAHAHA I was laughing my ass off at that... "TOMORROW WHEN YOU'RE CONSCIOUS" HAHAHAHA so she actually wants me to text her when I'm UNconscious HAHAHAHAHA. I spent like a whole hour marveling at how BEAUTIFUL, INCREDIBLY BEAUTIFUL everything is... my hands, the door, a set of pictures on my wall my gf gave me, the fan, the whole room, my pillows, my blanket, my dick... just how many details and ALL OF THEM WERE BEAUTIFUL. Turned on some porn, omg how beautiful it is, felt my turn on, how beautiful, warm, my body was really warm, turned on some music (TOOL - Parabola) Oh my God Maynard's voice is just incredible it felt like I could taste the voice, grasp it, see it completely, the changes in the energy of the song were so CLEAR. I was just AMAZED at how conscious one can be.... OH MY GOD, wtf????? My jaw just kept dropping and dropping. WTF????? WTFF???? EVERYWHERE I TURN... WTFFFFFFFF?????? I asked Chat GPT about peak state and it said: Altered thinking, visuals, among others. HAHAHAHHAHA ALTERED THINKING?????? When I was coming down from the trip I realized altered thinking is the thinking you do when you're not conscious. HAHAHAHAHA Visuals? HAHAHHAHAHAH WHAT DO YOU MEAN VISUALS????? REALITYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!! LOOOOOOOK!!!!! JUST CLEEEAR SEEING BROTHER!!!!!!!! HAHAHHAA Tasted some food, Jesus Christ, just started laughing at how good it tasted. Then watched some porn again when the effects were cooling down, noticed how much it grips me, sucks me in, but again so beautiful. I wondered how I could explain this to anybody without sounding like a drug addict, 'cause anything I'd say would sound exactly like what a drug addict would say. Drug addicts are just lovers of reality, they love reality SO MUCH, it's so obvious. It's very cool when you're coming down from it, you can see how conscious you can be and yet at the same time how unconsciousness keeps creeping in. There's still clear seeing though, reminded me of my state when I'm in a Vipassana retreat. As I'm writing this, I can not imagine what would happen if I doubled the dose, like wtf man.... I'm just amazed at the whole thing.

Incredible, just how much there is to explore. Mind-blowing experience for me really, like I was born again. Glad you liked it. Yes you should try it and I agree with you about the porn, even as I was just holding my phone I felt its frequencies in my hand, you notice how poisonous all this shit is.

That's awesome! Wish you the best as well. Hope it turns out in something that's gonna grow you both as people

What were the vibes in your interaction with her? Was it flirty? logical? fun/banter? friendly? To be honest I think there's only so much you can do over text, the real impact happens in person, if you made a good impression on her then you just continue the vibe you were having with her in person over text. But anyways I think this channel has really useful videos on texting: I think this guy has really good videos on texting, check these out and maybe watch some more from his channel. Since you're a spiritual guy, just get a sense of the feeling behind his texts. Just keeping it light, flirty, funny, and using texting just to set up a meeting in real life, because that should be your intention right?

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Honestly the whole concept of game is useless. You're a man and you're designed to attract women. Period. What else do you need???? What happens is we have trauma, stored emotions and beliefs around women, that get in the way of this natural attraction happening. Purify these and all that's left is you authentically being a man that EFFORTLESSLY attracts women, no fucking game theory, no lines, no nothing

@Soul Flight Thanks for your response, I'm a newbie in this world so I definitely learned some lessons on my first time

So I took mushrooms for the first time today about 6 hours ago. I was having high expectations and wanted to use this trip to think about my life purpose and my emotions around girls. I took 1.25 gr on an empty stomach, sat in my bed for an hour, nothing really happened so I took like 0.60gr more which was everything I had available. After an hour or so I began feeling super relaxed, very aware of my body, my mood improved and I was laughing and enjoying this feeling. It felt good. Didn't feel introspective that much or had any cool visuals or anything like this and if I'm honest I wasn't particularly surprised by the relaxation and mood improvement because I've had this before during meditation retreats or even just meditating at home so I'm a bit disappointed. I guess I just have high tolerance and should take more next time but wanted to ask if anybody had this experience of taking almost 2 grams and feeling mainly relaxation and nice vibes?

I didn't think putting them into a tea would have a better effect, I just went ahead and ate them. I'll try that next time, thanks for the responses guys

They were dried Teonanacatl Mushrooms, this is all I know

They were dried

@Thought Art These were Mexican. @Soul Flight Not at all, I had never used any drugs before today and I'm not on meds. In fact I have very low tolerance to alcohol for example, I drink a beer and already feel half drunk. I don't know if that's relevant but that's why I'm surprised mushrooms didn't do much for me. Also, I paid 20 euros for this dosage, is this okay or was I overcharged? I'm honestly feeling ripped off and salty about the whole experience.

The lady I bought them from said they were very high quality but I guess she wound't say the opposite right?... I'll maybe buy from a different source next week and try again

I feel you brother, we've all been there. I have to be honest, you might not get this girl because you already put her on a pedestal, but who knows. What I think is lacking in your interactions is polarity, she has to feel your masculine energy, the one that lies in your pelvis, balls, cock. When you talk to her, do you get turned on for her? If so, she's gonna feel it and respond to it, maybe positively or negatively. Tell me what you're feeling/thinking while you talk to her, that's important. Because what you're feeling/thinking comes across in your sub-communication and girls only respond to that, not so much to the words you're saying.

As they should, did you pull to your place at least? You gotta take your chances bro

@Yimpa Lol, why do you think so?

Sounds like approaching a woman is too much tension for you. So I'd say start warming up by waving to strangers and saying hi as you walk down the street. Maybe even only do that for a day, week or month. But the key is that you relax more and more as you do it. Very importantly my man. Open your heart to the stranger you're saying hi to, let them in for a bit, appreciate something about them, see how beautiful they are. This is how you connect with people.

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Day 14 Singing practice (1 hourish): Nice session, didn't feel like I corrected some mistakes but I'm digging the breathing exercises as they get me very present. 12 minutes of grounding practice: I felt relaxed and somewhat grounded, most of the time I was in my head though. 20 minutes of releasing meditation: I could feel a nice release on my heart, I felt it peeling layer after layer of sensations and going deeper, it feels very nice but also a bit scary to get that vulnerable and alive. Approached some ladies: Here's a highlight: Saw this cute girl walking fast, she had scrubs on and was very petite. "Excuse me, I can see you're in a rush but you're a nurse, holding a fake baby (she actually did lol) and you're petite so I can't let you walk by I have to stop you" She was so cute jeez, also looked at me with a spark in her eyes. Turns out the baby doll was for a class she was going to. Her: "The baby is for a CPR class" Me: "You can practice on me I'll let you do that" She laughs and we continue chatting She gave me her number at the end. Cute girl, we're texting right now. I also texted my ex, I was missing her a lot so I told her that, we texted for a bit. I really miss our connection. Nice day overall 'cause I also jerked off real good at home. I'll be back at it tomorrow.

I will be writing about my progress in life and daily habits here. I want to document this for myself so I can look back and assess my progress. I want to work on my singing, guitar playing and get back into salsa dancing again which I'm really good at already. Most importantly, I will work on my grounding and releasing practice, as well as incorporating those when I'm out talking to girls, cold approaching strangers and so forth. I'm also trying to check my phone less, avoiding getting caught up looking at girls' stories on Instagram as well as random YT videos. Day 1 Practiced my singing for 40 minutes Practiced guitar for around 1 hour spread out during the day Did 10 minutes of grounding practice: Not gonna lie, felt really sleepy during this one but I relaxed myself a lot and felt my legs and the ground. Did 20 minutes of releasing meditation: Felt kinda dense and numb in my throat, chest and gut but relaxed overall, lots of tingles in my pelvis area, and grounded in my ass and legs. Read a chapter from No More Mr. Nice Guy book Went out for walks when I felt anxious and wanted to bust a nut Checked my phone way less than usual Listened to a Porcupine Tree album I will progressively increase my grounding and releasing sessions time, Day 1 was just to get the ball rolling. Excited to get after it again tomorrow, maybe I'll go out approach some strangers and talk to people. Hope you all have a beautiful night and and great day tomorrow!

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Day 13 I went to singing class (3 hours) I loved class today, I felt great, confident, happy. Even thought the teacher still corrected me I was feeling great because I noticed improvements in my singing. I was also able to express emotions of love, fear, anger, nervousness in an exercise we did. I feel so good that I decided to skip meditation today lol. Fuck it, I'll be back at it tomorrow.

Day 12 Practiced guitar (Learned Wonderwall) 25 minutes of grounding practice: I felt relaxed, kinda getting used to the feeling of grounding when set myself to do it, the hard thing is to do it while I'm talking to others and going about my day. 20 minutes of releasing meditation: I was in my head for a big part of the session, my body was fairly light, some back pain as well. I do feel I'm just doing my habits very mechanically at this point, not paying much attention, and do feel the pressure to keep this journal up to date as if it was important or something, but whatever, let's see where this goes. Either I'll get my shit together or stay writing shitty meditation reports. Tomorrow I'll have singing class, I'll go mentally prepared to be obliterated by my teacher correcting me every second, I'm humbled now since last week I left class pretty sad and disappointed. I'll give it my all though. I'll soon be going out as well and approaching some gals. I've been binge-watching Mark Normand, my new favorite comedian. Goddamn I love his style and self-deprecating humor. I do want to work on being more humorous when I'm with girls and other people in general.

Day 11 Singing practice (45 minutes): I felt so insecure today about whether I'm doing it well or not and thoughts started coming up of "I can't sing" "I'm gonna make a fool of myself" and so forth. Practiced guitar (just messing around, strumming and changing chords) 25 minutes of grounding practice: Felt relaxed, a bit lost in my thoughts, but grounding really centers me. 20 minutes of releasing meditation: Felt a bit tense in my jaw, throat, chest and stomach fairly light, turn on a bit numb and good grounding in general. Girl I met online came over, NOT a pretty gal. Anyways we talked about Onlyfans, anal sex and just random sexual topics lol. I did notice the difference with her vs other girls, I'm way more relaxed, I say whatever the fuck I want. Less forcing and more relaxing. 30 minutes later I told her I had to do some things and she left. I would probably smash but her face and teeth are just not pretty so I'll pass on that. Noticed: I'm missing my ex today and feel empty, without a purpose. Sorry to be so negative if you're reading but I'm trying to let it out here. I wish I could work out a relationship with her but I know it's not gonna happen, best thing I can do is not reach out anymore and move on.

Day 10 Practiced my singing (not serious practice just fucking around really) Goddamn I love my deep voice, I'm a bass singer and I'm really digging this amazing bass singer: Geoff Castellucci. I really enjoy singing his low notes. It's exciting for me to think that in one year I'll be pretty good at singing. I do feel shy when I practice at home 'cause my family hears me. Practiced guitar (25 minutes) 25 minutes of grounding practice: Felt pretty good, relaxing and grounded. Sinking down and letting go of wanting to control it. 20 minutes of releasing meditation: Nice session, I felt lighter in my throat than usual, light in my chest mostly (some light pain in some parts), lighter in my gut as well, my turn on a bit numb and good grounding in general. - Big procrastination and jerking off day, gotta start doing some activities outside because I'm spending too much time inside my room. - Tomorrow a girl will probably come over to dance and hang out so there won't be much jerking off because well... I gotta be able to get hard. - I do notice myself less excited about my habits, there's more resistance to do them and not much motivation.