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An answer I wrote in response to someone on the forum: The universe has balancing forces. The 'big' ('enlightened') and 'small' ('mess') balance each other out. That's maybe why you are drawn to each other. You may find that you might also go to war with each other as well as you differing or opposite perspectives. That's normal. The universe will maybe naturally separate you both when you are balanced out. .................. The Mess As I pointed out earlier there are two kinds of people that fall under the 'mess' category. Happy, healed individuals who possibly have disabilities of some kind or another or something that gives them the label of 'different'. And 'demonic versions' who rise up as a result of Erudite individuals constantly pushing them down. The Enlightened There are two kinds of 'enlightened' people. There is the bitter Erudite masculine individual who looks down on many small individuals due to a few bad eggs in the barrel. They are adored by their communities. Then there are the actual enlightened individuals. These are rare and on an equal footing with the small healed individuals who have disabilities/differences.

The universe has balancing forces. The 'big' ('enlightened') and 'small' ('mess') balance each other out. That's maybe why you are drawn to each other. You may find that you might also go to war with each other as well as you differing or opposite perspectives. That's normal. The universe will maybe naturally separate you both when you are balanced out.

Opposite I see I'm in the presence of my opposite. An 'Erudite' like an individual- they would call it in the divergent series. The 'Erudite' are the 'big', the 'masculine', and 'intelligent' like individuals that see themselves as superior to what was supposed to be characters that symbolize a spread-out version of the small. In so many fictional examples there are time and time again the example of the big arrogantly underestimating the smaller. In some cases, the smaller (usually masculine) then rise up and became 'demonic versions' of themselves tormenting the usually small feminine equivalent. These 'demonic versions' who live to torment others believe it or not create in some order or fashion create these Erudite individuals who look down on most smaller individuals regardless of type.

Retreat I feel called to travel and traverse inward and keep my silence more frequently than before. To delve into my own self. I've gone outward for months now and now I seek to go inward and go on 'retreat'. I have my own personal journals set up externally on my computer that I am writing in extensively. Retreat, retreat, retreat does my heart repeat over and over. And relief sweeps over me when I am soaking in and delving into all that I am. It is healing. In my healing, I can return and heal others.

Secure Congratulations – having a secure attachment style is great news! Either your needs were adequately met during your formative years, or else you worked hard at your relationships and circumstances to get to where you are emotionally in life. The secure attachment style is considered to be the most balanced and healthy of the four styles. The other three attachment styles are the insecure attachment styles: anxious, avoidant, and disorganized. One in three people have one of these forms of insecure attachment and, as a result, likely exhibit attachment disturbances throughout their lives. When working with someone with an insecure attachment style, the aim is to help them transition towards earned security by helping them to forge their way on the path of secure attachment. Score Mother/CG1: Anxiety: 6.00 | Avoidance: 4.33 (disorganized attachment) Score Father/CG2: Anxiety: 6.33 | Avoidance: 5.33 (disorganized attachment) Score Partner: Anxiety: 1.67 | Avoidance: 1.00 (secure attachment)

The beings I saw glowed with a radiance that had a quality of divinity about them as if they knew they were divine and they knew you were divine. They saw their own I-ness as divinity and they saw the you-ness or we-ness as divinity. It would explain why I clung to the term "I Exist" so hard, it was I-ness and the divinity aspect. It would also explain a lot of holes in the 'theory'. Maybe Life and Love only looks like Life and Love but is actually divine I-ness and divine we-ness. This goes back to my second 'theory' which is this: Anyways. This is all a distraction. I had the realization of smoking weed for the first time many years ago that aside from focusing on consciousness all of this is a massive distraction. I want to start this year on the right footing. I need to actually realize how "I Exist" and "Presence" are identical instead of just saying it through consciousness work. I can intuit it but I need to awaken. All this talk of the feminine and masculine and life energy is taking me off my path. My path needs to be strictly focused on consciousness and divinity first and foremost which was insight those many years ago. Even if all my insights sink as a result of a deep silence wells up in my heart. Mooji guided meditations in my audio productivity journal should set me on the straight narrow path.

@Tyler Robinson ❤️

@Tyler Robinson Why be cruel? This is my journal. Should be clear based on my writing style. I have dealt with so much this past year. My mother died. I was recovering from psychosis. Rejected by my family and community somewhat. I feel low value. Let me have this space to do my work. This is my solace. This is my haven from the pain. I've dealt the punishment of banning, let me have my journal.

The Bigger Picture You need everyone. Everyone plays a part. There are people who have something to give and a role to play. There is a bigger picture at play and remaining exclusive will have consequences. What I saw tells me as much, despite petty quarrels, foolishness, and silliness. Maybe it's best if we all remain silent. In our silence, an opening can be made. Our words and statements mean very little. I'm tired. I see the energy and I see the movements but I'm never angry enough. It always dissolves. I'll be forcefully isolated before I'm ever properly angry.

I believe I was unfairly banned. I was not on that discord. I made one recruit because my heart was soft toward a community I once cared for. It was a stupid, foolish decision that I'm beating myself up for. But I am a human with a human heart who makes foolish decisions. Thisintegrated made about 50 and he received 10 points for that 'crime'. I keep to myself. I'm quiet. I work very hard in my journals. It's the 'big' yet again trampling upon the small. Silencing the smaller. Ban me again for this if you like it will only prove my point since I only wish to work in peace without feeling like I'm lesser than.

Correction: Life energy has energy of 'Godhood', Greatness, Splendour, Beauty, and larger-than-life energy that demands respect and admiration, not "I Exist". Presence, which is an all-encompassing presence, would be more accurate. Correction: A Being who has not integrated life energy will attract Death energy to her. Correction - Splendour: Life energy Sublime gaze: Presence Splendour and sublime gaze is often accompanied by integrated feminine and masculine "We" and "I" I'm still on the fence as to this theory. This is a very good theory rivaling Life and Love, inspired by my partner.

I Exist and Presence are actually identical, there is no distinction. The Beings I met and what I saw in myself had divine masculine (I) and divine feminine (We) and life energy (Life) due to Presence (Love). "They are one, however, realizing their equality is no trivial matter. An ape and a human are the same thing, but it is not easy to see that. Took till Darwin to realize it, and even then many denied it. I once had a friend in middle school who denied that "fuck" and "sex" are the same thing. I tried to convince him that fuck just means sex. But he said, "No way! That can't be, because fuck is such a bad word, so it must mean something really bad but sex isn't bad." Imagine his rude awakening when he finally realized they were one So it will be with you, God, and consciousness" Leo

In a way this is a Death. I've come across Death in my path and now I'm being reborn (if I'm allowed to) as Life bursts forth. One mistake can mean Death. I feel like I've been punished for all my previous terrible postings.

Meditate for 10 minutes Read for 20 minutes Watched "Healing Core Wounds - Matt Kahn"

Many of my insights were off in my other journal, although I was integrating many core ideas such as "We" and "I". I Exist and Presence are actually identical, there is no distinction. The Beings I met and what I saw in myself had divine masculine (I) and divine feminine (We) and life energy (Life) due to Presence (Love).

@Tyler Robinson I was and am praying for you ❤️