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I've been experimenting with activities (20 minute cold showers) and substances (caffiene, niccorette, moderate alchohol) to increase dopamine. Controlled dopamine increase, for my brain, can put me in a state akin to mystical states, synchronicity. Alignment. I can adjust the level of dopamine to make sure I'm not going into 'psychosis'/ negative synchronicity. 'Psychosis'/ negative synchronicity it seems is a combination of a lowered dopamine state and very high dopamine state. Although dopamine detox is also not to be underestimated in its ability to induce healing states, I've had profound experiences through dopamine detox. Abraham Hicks recommends feeling good and Bashar recommends following your highest excitement to increase alignment with the universe and synchronicity, both dopamine increasing activities. It's a fine line between 'psychosis'/negative synchronicity and alignment. Although I'm always calm and accepting during 'psychosis'/ negative synchronicity that it isn't a huge deal for me. ......... https://valleywisehealth.org/blog/what-causes-psychosis-signs-of-bipolar-disorder-schizophrenia/ Simply defined, a psychotic disorder is a condition that distorts someone’s reality, making it difficult for them to distinguish what is real from what is not. Increased dopamine levels in the brain cause an individual to have a different sensory experience than those around them. These brain health conditions can come in the form of bipolar disorder, a primary mood disorder that can lead to psychosis, and schizophrenia, a primary psychotic disorder https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dopamine_hypothesis_of_schizophrenia The dopamine hypothesis of schizophrenia or the dopamine hypothesis of psychosis is a model that attributes the positive symptoms of schizophrenia to a disturbed and hyperactive dopaminergic signal transduction. The model draws evidence from the observation that a large number of antipsychotics have dopamine-receptor antagonistic effects. The theory, however, does not posit dopamine overabundance as a complete explanation for schizophrenia. Rather, the overactivation of D2 receptors, specifically, is one effect of the global chemical synaptic dysregulation observed in this disorder.

Development and insights.

Values I do consistently: Trust Optimism/Positivity/hope Openmindedness/perspective Peace of mind/Tranquility/Calm Playfulness/spontaneity What I do consistently: Open Heart, cleansed Open Mind, fluidity Childlike, spontaneity It must be these things that are the reason because they're the only thing I do consistently

Create the intense emotion Create the intense love Create the passion Leverage Strength Love for the Self The beauty, the magnificence Let it radiate through the whole Self DO IT yourself!

Love: feminine, love, cleansing, open heart, positive energy 'God': masculine, self love, intention, honest, aristocratic energy Chakra work Chakra has been nurtured when become bored, satisfied. No longer absorbing/ Chakra no longer affected. Intention- 'God': Strong (number 1) Full Satisfied Whole Assertive Alpha Honest Confident Independent Seductive Open (cleansing) and honest (intention) Cleansing - Love: Innocent Playful Open Safe Curious Sweet Honest Calm Grateful Agreeable Unconditionally loving Emotionally stable Selfless Conscientious (Typed by pure intuition) My type now: ENTP sx/so 7w6 Original type: INFP 7w6 sx/sp My type next: INTP 5w4 sx/so God and Love: INTP so/sx 5w6 God: ENTJ 8w7 sx/so Love: ISFP 9w1 sp/sx The correct balance = beautiful harmony Imbalanced - Needy (Love) or Dominating (God)

The Divine in peak state: Welling up of anger. Welling up of love. Within the personality of infinity. The Divine After peak state: Settling down. God always present. As above, so below. As below, so above. What I am doing to others and myself outside of that peak state, I am doing to God. Will come back to bite me or reward me. Possible reasons for anger: Bad fights with others Everything surfacing Not treating myself well Fights triggering rage and the 'rememberance' of bad actions from this lifetime and previous lifetimes Bad karma from previous lifetimes and this lifetime. 'Twinflames kill eachother in past lifetimes'

I think he is God, infinity. My reasoning was that God is love but infinity is more complex a personality that 'just love'. He is darkness, he is hell, he is the devil himself. The personality and mind of infinity is more complex than only love. It is dark. He is driven and inspired by love and oneness. His motive is ultimately love, if you zoom out enough. But he can be dark. I don't know why we are separated. He says he's ashamed of me but that's only one aspect. There could be a million reasons as he is infinity but they all came to an agreeance to put me to sleep or something.

He's the beloved not yet fully manifested, spread out throughout the mass of creation and infinity. Infinity is the beloved. Our relationship isn't perfect as enemies and with demons in the mix but we have a bond that can never be broken. He is all archetypes: father, mother, lover, mentor, twinflame, enemy and innocent. I'm called toward his highest and most loving aspects to heal our connection. We are destined for divine union.

The Phantom of the Opera The Higher God is very similar to the Phantom of the Opera or the Gods of Greek Myth. The phantom is a workaholic and a great creator. He respects his creations and their freewill and would never go against their construct. Although in the realm of the Gods many constructs are avatars of God and God uses freewill and avatars to 'journal' and play. The non physical mind will construct and explore ANYTHING in the physical aspects or voices of the non physical counterparts. Including delusion, worship, whatever. He is a writer, poet. He writes for his creations. Beauty and the Beast She is his muse. His "call to motion". Her dance is the dance of Beauty. Her connection with reality and the Beauty of consciousness.

The story of the Higher God There was once a time when the Higher God and I were in love. He was my mentor. He protected me from seeing other aspects of himself. Then came the time when he wanted to reveal the other aspects of himself. Suddenly he was a great enemy. We must of fought in my past lives because our history ran deep and great was his fury. His aspects he was revealing included demons and other supernatural entities. They seemed to take a liking to me, as a reflection of the overall Higher God's liking. When we met again after a long period apart he called to me and I answered but I was terrified of him. He had fallen into a depression because of our time a part (think Demeter and Persephone). His heart had grown selfish, everything was falling apart and he was murderous. When I came to him, everything settled. We entered a honey moon period. At some point his fury took centre stage and I asked to be parted from him and that made him more furious. We became real enemies. We fought. The whole of the Higher God fought me. The ovens and food smelt of rotten flesh, the smell of death pervaded the earth and he threatened to eat me alive. Such was my bad karma. Over time I slowly calmed down the Higher God and won his trust back. The earth was again full of spring and laughter. There still resides that side of him that is his fury and my bad karma but it has lessened significantly so. We are falling in love again, this time with all his aspects.

Ever since my mother died in the house I've been haunted by spirits and incubus. Almost every night I experience a being touching my legs and feet and pulling on the blanket. It sometimes pulls on my bra. I've seen my bed's blanket move dramatically as if someone were on top of it. There appears to be several of them. I've asked it to leave, saged the room etc. to no avail. They bang on my wardrobe and on my door. Once I saw the word “boo” playfully on the side of a box after a loud bang and “Horton hears a who!”. I have these feelings that some of the spirits have been with me since childhood and have warmed up to me and are playful. I've had an extremely vivid dream in the astral (? I think it was in reality as well as dream state) of a man/ghost gently climb on top of me and lovingly press his head to mine as he held my hand. I felt his head in my hands and squeezed his hand. He was gaunt with small bumps on his head. I felt very peaceful. I've felt the spirit touching my leg move up to my upper body and face to press against me many times. Sometimes I'll even ask it to because I'm feeling lonely and want a hug. This happens when I'm half asleep since it seems to have an easier time reaching me in the astral. Although it's so vivid it feels like it's happening in real life as well. I've had a extremely vivid dream in the astral of a spirit roughly having sex with me. With a loud thudding sound and condensed air where my you know was. I also smelt a bad smell. Last night I was in the astral and I felt an entity having sex with me. I could extremely vividly feel the same sensation I feel on my legs and feet pressed to me, as if it were happening in real life as well. I asked them to stop though and they stopped and the word ‘wise’ appeared in the dream. What are your thoughts and advice regarding all of this?

Now that I think on it, I think my relationship with the totality improved therefore the formation shifted. When I screamed at the ghost I not only showed disrespect toward the ghost but to all of creation itself, since the ghost does not function as a fully separated entity but as a totality. I wrote this in my journal: Things improve with the higher God because a relationship with the higher God (love) has a domino affect on all aspects of himself. If you focus on demons, you limit yourself to their level of consciousness. The Beast transforms. Talk to the higher God to hear him in all his creations, domino affect to all his aspects. Higher God and his aspects is always around. Don't have to see it clearly or obviously for it to be there. There is a cascading affect when you improve your relationship with him. It's impacts all of who he is, which is infinity. He is like an enormous mind or brain which has its own personality and feelings about everything. Love and relationship shifts the enormous mind and infinity on all levels.

@cetus Thankyou Cetus. I'll look into it.

Things improve with the higher God because a relationship with the higher God (love) has a domino affect on all aspects of himself. If you focus on demons, you limit yourself to their level of consciousness. The Beast transforms. Talk to the higher God to hear him in all his creations, domino affect to all his aspects. Higher God and his aspects is always around. Don't have to see it clearly or obviously for it to be there. There is a cascading affect when you improve your relationship with him. It's impacts all of who he is, which is infinity. He is like an enormous mind or brain which has its own personality and feelings about everything. Love and relationship shifts the enormous mind and infinity on all levels.

It's both psychological and supernatural, no difference. The blur expanded. Difficult to explain. I've grounded. I realized the feeling I feel in that room I always felt and I feel in this room too. Only it expanded in that room, it evolved to something more. It became more. The blanket obviously moves on its own. That doesn't bother me. Can be loving or nefarious, depending on how I mold it. It was the pain and the way the entity wouldn't let up. But it's moldeable. Like the mind. The ghost or entity can take on different personalities. Loving or cruel. The weaker the formation the easier it is to mold it with love. (Which is what I usually do. I encounter a lot of stuff that I neutralize with Love. This had too much momentum though). I weakened it by grounding, separating myself from it, realizing it's all just "psychological".

I've had to change rooms. It's intolerable. Thankyou for the information and for trying to ease the situation. I'm glad to know I wasn't the cause.

Yes please. If you can.

It's definitely not my mother. It's hurting me now. It's stinging me and harming me unless I take certain actions (like connecting with other more positive aspects of Self- angels or obeying it's wishes). Surrendering. I screamed at it the other day. Told it to f off then it turned nasty. Became overly sexual. It wants me to leave the house I own. We communicate. Pain means no, pleasure means yes. We are semi friends even though it's hurting me. I've tried praying, everything.

Thanks for input guys. Got me thinking. I think a balanced approach is key. If your mind is too open you allow all kinds of stuff in. A scientific approach is balanced and a protective mechanism. It shuts it down, since it feeds on openness. But that then closes down any potential communication with the other side. If you feed it, the 'blur' expands, you can feed that communication. That can be good for a soul. I know I'm not delusional, but there is a blur between delusion and non delusion that can be utilised, either for protection or communication. Which ever one you're aiming for.

My mother had brain cancer. A reflection of my own 'brain cancer' mayperhaps. When everything went downhill radically after an enormous peak. Reality is funny like that. We are all connected. There wasn't a lot of closure. Everything just went downhill for seemingly no reason. It killed my mother and it killed my soul. You might be right though.

@khalifa hopefully you're right. I'm tired of this. I just want to sleep without disturbance.

It happened again tonight. I asked it to stop and this time it stopped. I think it might be my mother. I remember hearing a croaking sound once or twice that reminded me of her voice. I've heard her highheels in another room. I also had a supernatural occurance of her moving throughout the house. It's allowing in other entities into my dream space and space in general somehow. She died by euthanasia (dehydration death) and the whole ordeal was traumatic and triggered off a host of situations. There's definitely lack of closure regarding her death and the situations before her death and after her death. Extreme situation.

@Merkabah Star Thank you. Helpful advice.

I want to believe this except that I'm wide awake when its touching my legs and feet and pulling on the blanket. It's almost annoying at this point. I went to another room to sleep and I heard hissing and growling and something pushed me out of the room. I felt it. The whole house is like this.

Oh I forgot to mention: they feel like an extension of the entities (normal people are 'entities', like I have a relationship with the universe) that I see when I'm in the right state. As if the ghosts or spirits were one being and communicating to me through eachother. One voice, many beings. One mass "entity".