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The small have the qualities of divergent and half-blood as they are not 'genetically pure'. They have the strengths of Gryffindor: bravery, and courage against adversity. They may not be blessed with brains or work ethic but they are brave. They have lion hearts and are driven by purpose (uplifting the consciousness of the collective). They also have the quality of being factionless if they are rejected for being 'genetically impure'. The big have the qualities of pure-blood and non-divergent as they are 'genetically pure'. They have the strengths of Slytherin: Ambition, determination, and leadership. They are the all-seeing eye, big brother: Erudite, intelligence, knowledge. They tend to be judgemental towards those who are 'half-bloods'. Yes I can be a Harry Potter nerd

The big: Slytherin, Pure-blood, Non-divergent, Erudite The small: Gryffindor, Divergent, half-bloods, factionless

repost Analysis Discrediting of the small. The encouragement of that kind of thinking. But then I remember. The raising of the collective's consciousness is built into the design. Everything is laid out fine. The guardian is the best of the collective (the big- the driven, the ambitious, the responsible, the guardian and protector) and simultaneously the root or worst of the collective (who we're trying to reach, the Erudite). The small comes forth to ease the energies of that kind of thinking. Balancing the equation.

Guardian It's not about being perfect or 'without sin'. It's about keeping the community running and stable and making sure avatars (whether banned or unbanned) have a platform for raising the collective's consciousness. A turquoise or yellow site. God uses the foolish and wise. The small and the big. There are protectors and guardians. We're all here to serve a greater purpose. God says "ye without sin, cast the first stone". God does not condemn, God embraces.

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Pain of 'Psychosis' I've been through two 'psychoses' in the last few years. The pain still lingers on. It feels never-ending like it will never heal. I try not to act out the pain. I make sure to stay within my integrity to the best of my ability, with some hiccups. The 'psychosis' involved an entity tormenting me for many months. How can I ease this pain that is never ending? Will it ever end? I sit and sit and wait it out. That's all I can do. To be kind. To be love and to act in my integrity to the best of my ability is what it means to transmute this for me. This may have taken a huge hit at me but it's my job to alchemize this as any other time. This may be the most difficult thing I've had to ever alchemize but that doesn't mean I can't do it. Even if I were a demon, I could and would alchemize it. Even if I fell from grace and couldn't get back up. Even if it were the end. I would continue to alchemize it until I was dead. Because. Thats. What. I. Do.

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That came from my heart.

An Ode to Leo Leo is a great voice to send out messages to the collective at his best. And this community is used by the universe to send out messages to the collective. This community will use avatars or vessels to send out messages to the collective. This community Leo is a guardian and protector of plays a vital place and role in the universe. Leo may be harsh sometimes but he keeps the place running. You have to appreciate that.

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Insights and development.

The Help I've been blessed in life to see the lighter side of those with mental illness and disability. I grew up surrounded by those with intellectual disabilities and mental illness as my parents were both support workers. I remember them being sweet to me as a child and teenager. I also had family members, an aunty with Schizophrenia who would bless me with her hospitality and her kindness, and uplifting spirit. The words 'mental hospital' or 'mental illness' does not phase me or make me think less of the person or make a character assessment about the person. But for many others, these words hold great weight for them in assessing a person's character. I feel this stigma coming from others. I feel I have a good heart. I completely understand why non-profit organizations appear that help those with mental illness. Once you see into the heart of some of these people, like my Aunty, you feel inspired to help. People are called to help those who are wounded. And then the love overflows to an unconditionality.

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Meditation update: I'm gradually returning back to my old self from several years back when I first started practising do nothing meditation and other meditation techniques for hours at a time. It's a purification. I feel calmer. I have sweet, blissful experiences that come and go. I include sleepiness as apart of my meditation because it works (Abraham Hicks recommends it). The sleepiness helps me to process and heal.

Me vs Reality

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The point of meditation and do nothing meditation is not to need so much stimulation all the time, to be content with nothing. Ambient rooms is low level stimulation. Meditation gets you comfortable with being happy with emptiness alone. This helps you get off needing stimulation all the time. It's an integration of the feminine: emptiness, being, receiving.

Exactly. I think more messages and education and overall communication are warranted. Some people don't understand for example where one rule begins and where it ends. For example, I was outside of that discord and gave an external source (can't say who or that would be recruiting). I didn't know that was recruiting. I thought you had to be inside the discord and specifically giving invites.

That's what I try to do in my journal. Self-reflection. If I veer too off course into another person's language then I lose my own inner language and lose sight of insight and learning. I suppose it's subjective. Sometimes I get caught up in the forum drama and toxicity and I try to convert it and digest it in my journal in some form, alchemize it. Apologies for being too harsh toward you recently.

I speak of the negatives but the Erudite has a lot of good to offer the 'small', if they can learn to empathize with the 'small' and place awareness they can learn to transcend the negatives of their ego structure. The 'small' has to be careful not to slip into their shadow form accidentally (very difficult).