krockerman

I don’t agree with Leo that you are doing all of these things to have that moment of peace afterward. When I watched hacksaw ridge I loved every second of it. The moment of peace was at best a bonus. Feeling happy comes at bursts. Like when you experice chrismas with family, riding a roller coaster, expeirce a romantic moment etc. all of these moments you are feeling happy. But that does not mean you are happy. Being happy is What Leo talked about, being at peace when nothing is happening. Being present. I think the problem is people think black or white. They either go full being happy and just sit and meditate. Nothing wrong with that But i don’t think that is too far. The other is chasing the feeling of being happy. This Will make your life hell when you are not experice feeling happy. I think the way you should take to get the best of both is when you are not feeling anything and when nothing special is happeing is just being at peace and present. But when Good enjoyment comes along (Good as Things that are meaningful to your life narrative like being with you family friends and a romantic partner on Christmas, and not Things like heroin or winning the jackpot) Embrace all the joy 100% (and not think of them as egoic distractions) you should go for What you want. But at the same time be present and at peace. Wanting and looking forward to things can be a great experience i also get that being happy is something you must be to enjoy the feelings of happiness 100%

if you treat romantic infatuation as a bonus and not the goal. And your goal is a real realtionship. Is it wrong to feel romantic infatuation?

Yes 100%. I also find joy in saddnes sometimes

@Leo Gura well it's still hedonism. But I don't think you should reject that just because it's hedonism. If it translates to a real relationship after it. If it does then it's I think the honeymoon is a great bonus. For a true relationship, it has to end. But it's a fun first part

What I meant was many people treat it like the goal. But if I treat it like a bonus and something I know is gonna end. Should I see it as something bad?

yes, sadness can be beautiful. I loved hacksaw ridge even if it made me cry When i talking about felling happiness I am talking about eudaimonism. Not hedonism

If you just wanted nothing and you realized you don’t Want wating nothing?

Is realism = everything is real and naturalism = other people are real?

Do my parents and firends their own subejctive experience at the same time i have one? Or i am alone and are They just my Imagination without a subjektive experience on their own? i am just dreaming up this life? I am the only one right now that has a subjektive experience?

Do my friends etc have a separate awareness? Or is mine the only that has ever existed?

While it is true No one can get trapped in suffering absolute infinity . It is possible to get trapped in suffering in relative infinity. And because absolute infinty creates everything Good or bad. Like a heartbeat. There are beings that experience endless suffering because of this. This makes God both a god and a devil. That allowes brings to experience relative endless suffering without the option of grace or Enlightment because there needs to be that for reality to exists. Theirfore god is both a god and a devil. While Leo have experience the the all loving mind at center of infinity. The truth is that the outer parts can be hellish. Leo did not tell me this because he know i am afraid. But this is the brutal truth. And i think everyone needs to hear this @Leo Gura

@Synchronicity I have heard people say when you truly stop loving something you wake up. So in a hell realm you wake up when you truly have had enough. Is this true?

@Leo Gura @Nahm can you talk more about this?

Even the life i always dreamt of being. Do i need to worry about hell?

@Synchronicity does that mean that this awareness of this ego Will experience being in my favorite tv show at some point?

Will i experice the perfect life after i die and reborn? Or Will it be random? (I don’t Want to take psycadelics because 1 i am afraid of terror trips. One guy i talked to said he had experice the most painfull thing on this earth + 1 level (don’t Know What he took) hella scary)

There are so many different lives i want to experience. Like the lives of my favorite tv series characters, lives when the world is what i want it to be, life of my favorite movie charaters. All i am asking @Leo Gura will i ream and experience those lives just like this? Is the dreams limited to this universe? will it ever end? will the choice my next life be based on dumb luck? My fear of missing out on those life causes suffering. how many random lifes do i need to live before that?

ofc I want some variation. Like mby some drama. Maybe we get separated for some time and then find each other. I just feel some things you need to experience.

Are They me like i am gonna experience their life? Will i experience the life of my favorite movie/tv charters. Having their thoughts etc? Or are They just illutions that i Will never experience? @Leo Gura

I got off topic sorry. Just forget i said that @Leo Gura answer this yes or No. Will i (not i as my thoghts etc) But i as the watcher behind my eyes experience being my fav movie charaters? Will i experience being my bully in 6th grade?

To know that i Will not miss any happy moment. I want to experience all happiness that has ever been

this is confusing. I don’t Think i ever Will be happy.

You said i as god have been sittning in this spot for an eternity. Does it mean i have or Will experience the life of my favorite movie charater?

Does it work like in the story the egg? What is the factor that Will determine the next life? Will i live out all the lives in the Universe? Does it mean i Will be Kim Jon ung? Pewdiepie? Julien blanc? @Leo Gura you should make a video on this (before you say ”find out for yourself with psycadleics” i am of tripping hard because of terror trips and painfull hell realms that i might enter during the trip)

what do you mean?