Emotionalmosquito

That’s why I wear my trusty shoe boosters. Sad thing is many chicks are still just as or even taller, must be something in the water. (Joke) They’re still helpful though. I still just can’t get over the fact that it’s come to having to approach hundreds upon hundreds of women just to barely start getting the hang of it when other people just end up with someone (often going through a few or several different girls before they get there) just by the natural flow of life. Wtf is wrong with us? Or what’s wrong with modern women, maybe a mix of both? Idgaf anymore about my puny town of 50k not being good enough. I’ll venture out when feasible but otherwise I’m grinding it out right here until everyone starts noticing me as the town freak just for daring to attempt to have the most natural thing in the human experience. I’ll continue increasing my state, learning all the right methods and utilizing them to exhaustion. If nothing else it’ll be just to spite the overly optimistic normies who think “oh you’ll find a girl someday” “She’s out there for you!” ☺️ when they see I’m doing literally everything right without shit to show for it. @Majed tbf I think they’re right about the importance of not being overly reliant on a guru. Even Leo himself says to not take his word for things because finding the truth for ourselves is what matters. All he can do is nudge us in the right direction.

This is pretty much where I’m at at the moment. I’ll need to drive at least an hour or so out at least 2-3 times a week to get any real results since my city is quite bad for game, so job will be required. @Majed How far do you plan on venturing out each time and how often? Or did you mean you need a job more for buying drinks, paying for dates, that stuff?

It can get pretty depressing to see so much of the awful stuff happening in the world on top of already being burdened by the stresses of our own life. So let’s share some examples of nice positive things being done that make you believe it might just be possible to create a better tomorrow. It’s also great to see all the devilish sex trafficking shit coming to light. Awareness is the first step towards healing.

Never imagined I would’ve ended up this deeply twisted up in a web of addiction to scrolling, gooning, nicotine, hatred, and negative thinking. It’s gotten so bad it’s beginning to devastate my physical health as well. The longer it festers the more physical symptoms it causes like involuntary muscle twitching in random places, extreme fatigue, headaches, weird ass sensations around my scalp and face, and cognitive decline. I wake up almost every night in a state of total fear and a feeling as if my neurons are being raped by digital demons. (I can’t stress enough how horrifying it feels on all levels) Then what do I do? Sometimes start scrolling and gooning again at 3:00 in the morning knowing full well it’s gonna fuck me up exponentially worse. I know how fucked I am and exactly the things causing it, yet I’m utterly powerless to stop doing them. Meditation isn’t cutting it anymore, particularly because I’m far too weak to make myself do enough of it consistently to bear any fruit. I’ve spent a decent chunk of time here complaining about women and not having a girlfriend. But I’ve realized at this point if I were to land one my resentment would likely overpower any bit of sexual fulfillment or companionship such that all I’d want is to beat the living tits off her and abuse her as payback for how much work it took to obtain her as well as for these dumbass bullshit new trends where the girls think it’s so funny to hit us in the balls. I’ve dabbled in cold approach here and there, but as of recent all it does anymore is serve to make me hate women more and more. My brain is so fried it’s genuinely getting scary, my cognition is shit, my sleep is trash and I don’t know what to do anymore. Yes, I’m seeing a mental health professional, no it’s not helping. That’s despite the fact that I now have the best therapist I’ve ever had. What I need is rehab but unfortunately my situation hasn’t yet been identified as destructive enough to be eligible for it. Obviously this barely does it justice, but it gives a general idea of the predicament. I done goofed big time letting things get this bad.

You must have overlooked some of what I said. I’ve tried all those things to no avail, otherwise I wouldn’t have this problem. I have no money for healthy food. I can’t find a job even after dozens and dozens of applications. I can’t afford the amount of food I’d need to exercise properly because my metabolism is so retardedly high as it is. My will power/discipline is absolutely broken, so brute forcing anything is impossible. I would do SSRIs if it weren’t for the risk of akathisia (the worst side effect known to man)

In that case how about I give you or any seasoned pickup veterans a list of things I dare them to say “with good energy” ? Let’s put this idea to the test once and for all.

🚩 🚩 🚩 Immediately start documenting every single bit of evidence you have of her consenting to everything you did. Take screenshots, record as much as possible. Some girls don’t take it too well when you win their heart only to cut them off shortly after. Always be prepared.

Leo has said when you die you dissolve into a sea of infinite love. That’s obviously best case scenario even if it means being forcefully ripped free of absolutely everything you’ve ever known. I can only hope we’re all blessed enough for that to be true for everyone. But that doesn’t account for the traditions that say there are karmic cycles where you have to either reincarnate here or take on some other form however many times before you make it all the way back. Doesn’t account for the claims of Hell realms and so forth. I’ve heard some traditions say things like whatever state of consciousness you die in, the same vibration carries over to the other side only amplified. I’ve heard it put like being a human is the highest blessing for a physical being because it gives you the most control over your spiritual evolution, and you can potentially get stuck in post life states of hell/purgatory that can subjectively go on for eons before you get this chance again. Is this likely just more fear based programming to follow a certain practice similar to how evangelical Christianity uses the threat of hell? Or could they be touching on something legit? If it’s the latter I’m in deep shit if I were to die right now or soon. Some of the dream states I often go into are so horrific I wouldn’t wish them on anyone ever. So I’m worried about the possibility those might be a warning or preview of what’s to come with much greater intensity if I don’t get to working very seriously. I still have so, SO much hatred in my heart, (which I’ve gotten better about over the last year) extreme addiction to cheap pleasures, laziness, etc.

In Buddhism they think whatever progress you made in your last life carries over to the next. Whatever impurities you eradicated or new ones you picked up will set the scene for your next incarnation. Nothing about becoming god or returning to absolute infinity, at least not until you’ve had enough lifetimes to do all the work it takes to return to the source of everything. Did somebody just make that up because it sounds logical enough or are they right??? What could possibly be more important than knowing this? The stakes could not be any higher.

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If this is true then yes, I want death more than anything. The social game here is abysmal, aside from the few genuinely good friendships I have as well as the occasional cool people you’ll meet. Also the financial system is awful. The only bits of enjoyment I get here are nicotine, video games, shit posting, and some healthy things like picking up litter, dipping in cold springs, going to beaches, and having some money in my wallet. The “Be yourself” meme doesn’t work for everyone due to reasons already discussed many times. Other than that the world is miserable. @LordFall Said, “God is offering you the infinite physical universe, I would be careful with assuming that's a lesser prize.” ❓ ❓❓❓❓❓ It’s a lesser prize because physical life is ridiculously hard. Millions of people in the U.S. alone are one paycheck away from eviction. It’s $3-4 a gallon to fuel your car in the cheaper areas. The affordable foods use ingredients that turn people into what looks like lab rat experiments. The job market is a joke. I’ve filled out dozens and dozens of applications and followed up, no luck. Life would be great if you could just travel around by foot. But things are several thousands of miles apart. The sun would burn your flesh off and dehydrate you to death even faster without copious amounts of water. You would turn into a skeleton from all the calorie expenditure if you’re not replacing it all with nonstop food supply. (The food thing is a problem regardless, I can’t stand eating and the requirement for it.) Life sucks massive donkey dick and I’ve been trying so hard to make it not.

Probably the contrast is what makes it special. Wouldn’t be nearly as meaningful to have it all if you hadn’t first been through a lifetime or more of deprivation. Although that still doesn’t explain why people go through unspeakably horrific waking nightmares. No individual would willingly subject themselves to things like gang rape, torture, etc. Even if the contrast once it’s eventually over is unlimited bliss in every way they ever wanted.

@Raze Here’s the problem: I know what it’s like to be in my full natural authentic self. It’s fun as fuck, it’s freeing, it’s exhilarating and makes life seem worth it. The problem is, that version has gotten me into shit, especially when it comes to women, far more than anything positive. If I start acting with my sets the same way I am with my best friends more often you better be coming to pay my bail. Jeffy is like “Just be yourself, fuck the boring social script and just have fun.” If that actually worked then what am I doing here? Do you think I haven’t tried just that numerous times? Then you’ll say, oh but there’s a certain way you have to do it. You gotta be yourself but with calibration, social/emotional intelligence, wit, the right amount of push pull, and other such restrictive guidelines that only serve to complicate your natural expression. I’m not saying learning all that doesn’t work. I just wish yall would stop acting like pure authenticity alone wins most of the battle. I will invest in a reputable dating coach once I get enough money. Of course things like Dancefestopia keep getting in the way which makes it take longer to save up enough. The irony is big multi day festivals like those are genuinely tons of fun, and there’s a surplus of prime women at them. But apparently I can’t do much about it without hiring a dating coach first.

I peacocked a rave last Saturday and learned some things. It wasn’t a perfect one, people were doing alcohol, nobody was rolling, and there wasn’t quite as much unity as you’d expect from the classic style. More like a popping nightclub than a proper rave, which was rather disappointing at first but still ended up being a great time. Anyway, I ran my first experiment of the wedding ring trick on two 8/10s who were together while there. According to my findings, 100% of the two woman sample size did not respond favorably once I dropped the bomb by flashing my phony ring and saying “My wife would not be happy if she knew I was here.” Before that we were interacting very smoothly (as far as I could tell) and they were so chill and friendly. But once I told them they were OUT! Obviously two girls can’t be considered a fair trial so I still have preferably 10-20 more to try it on before calling the result. Apparently it’s a highly effective thing that can work like catnip on many women based on thousands of anecdotal reports and even a study done by the university of Oklahoma. It signals that something about you is desirable enough to lock down. I had ai give the most convincing ways I can act and carry myself like a married man, maybe I can even get my friend’s wife to agree to role play as my spouse on the off chance I need to call her up to prove it. Even better if I can pay $20 to a willing baddie to pose as my wife for a photo so I’m prepared to really sell the part. Of course it’s not flawless. I imagine it’s effective in a highly polarizing way where some will immediately lose interest very strongly (as per my first try) while others will be drawn in close with the same intensity. Now couple this with semen retention and you could be looking at a world of difference. SR also has thousands upon thousands of anecdotal reports claiming it’s a game changer. The guys who manage to quit squandering their sexual energy and start channeling it into their higher centers will all say it does something very noticeable by women to your aura that sets you apart. Here’s a girl explaining how she can feel the difference firsthand enough to know who’s full and who’s not just by vibe alone.

This is the one right here. This would be THE BEST thing in all of existence. We’re all doing just fine if that’s what’s up. You really think after death you’d get to temporarily hang on to enough of the ego to experience every last one of the desires you never fulfilled? Then once you’ve got your fill you can let go completely and merge with the infinite. What evidence could you provide of this being true?

You don’t need the utmost respect for each other to still have a good time. You can enjoy a no strings attached hookup without either party wanting commitment. Happens all the time. Raze said: “They obviously saw it before you brought it up, they just got weirded out by you randomly bringing it up and seeking a reaction. You also basically told them to go away. If a woman randomly tells you her husband wouldn’t want her there that would be a rejection.” They were about to leave anyway, just not that abruptly. I’ve done enough of these to tell when women are starting to get bored of the interaction and are about to politely depart. They weren’t even shit testing me so there was really no interest beyond friendly chit chat. So it was the perfect time to casually bring it up. Nothing was lost that wasn’t already headed in that direction regardless.

I like to think I have no reputation, therefore nothing to defend or lose. Barely anybody beyond my tiny circle knows I exist, much less who the fuck I am. I’m not on socials, (at least not with real name or face) I’ve spent most of my recent years low profile except the brief periods where I go out to practice a few sets of pickup, heck I don’t even show up anywhere by googling myself. The expanding my social circle thing could be valuable I suppose but the downside is then I’ll have more of a reputation to uphold, thus less freedom of pure authentic expression. Not to mention there’s practically no women here except for at Target and the college campus. I have to drive an hour or two out to find greener pastures.

So death forces people into a mildly annoying state of boredom? Well shit, that’s nothing to worry about at all.

All of it is hard work. I’m just looking for anything and everything to maximize my chances. Having the tism and living in a relatively small city of under 60k, I’d say pretty desperate. I had to drive an hour and 15 minutes out to get to this latest event. Ideally I’d just move, unfortunately that’s not at all feasible right now, and I’ve never known a time in my life when it was. On the bright side, as desperate as I get, I’ll never sink as low as the porta potty peeper. This mad lad made a habit of going down inside the porta potty toilets at yoga festivals hoping to get crapped on by the goddesses

That’s perfect if she doesn’t want to date me, easier on my wallet. And I don’t want to be official with a girl willing to jeopardize another couple’s marriage and she probably doesn’t want to lock in with a guy willing to cheat. Everybody wins. Raze said: “Also you just waving it around and bringing it up like you’re doing it on purpose probably came across as tryhard and self qualifying. Thats not what a normal person would say.” Maybe I didn’t do it perfectly, it was the very first try. Remember, it’s not like I opened with it. I casually mentioned it with the same energy we already had going. They literally became this emoji 😮 and burned rubber to peel out of there. Thats not a reaction to an annoying tryhard, they definitely believed me. Raze said: “Stop focusing on parlor tricks and learn solid game.” why not both? The overwhelming default for women is rejection. We need every little boost we can possibly get. Hojo said: “By putting this ring on you are saying there is nothing desirable about me to lock down.“ Appearing married says quite the opposite. If there was nothing desirable about you then why did someone stick the ring on it to begin with? 🤨 Why else would there be so many people confirming this phenomenon if there wasn’t something to it? Ps, My “quote this” feature isn’t working. I can’t use it more than once per post. That’s why I’m doing it this way.

Wtf, you mean like he had a wingman who was openly a fan of rape? Is there a video?

I’m sorry but how in god’s blue marble am I supposed to just spit witty, well calibrated lines like that within seconds? My stunted ass brain works so slow it takes me upwards of half an hour just to type out a semi intelligent sounding post in comment sections or forums. In real life you’re working with mere seconds at a time and you don’t get to retract your words once they’re said. My improvised lines would come out sounding more like “Uh oh. Don’t you be a dangerous girl on me!” 🫵🏻 Or, “Oh you like super heroes? Well you better not come at me like Gamora did to Quill when she didn’t recognize him.” Or something like, “So you like food? We’re gonna have to change that before we start dating or else I’ll get jealous seeing you eat so easily.” Also wtf do I do if she just stands there with the fluoride stare and gives one word answers I can’t do anything with?

Lmao, based! I’m with Leo on the no kids thing. I’m sure it’s wonderfully rewarding for most good parents, but I just can’t, and it would be highly irresponsible of me to bring a being into the world that I don’t want. I wish more people had the awareness to know whether or not they’re a good fit for parenthood because millions of little ones a day are being fucked up good and proper by suffering parents who should’ve sorted out their own shit first. That would be me no doubt, in one way or another. I like women, not babies.

After all these years and several more attempts I still don’t understand why so many people still think this is the case. I’ve literally been removed from bars for nothing other than embodying this EXACT energy. I’ve approached like this at target, the mall, Walmart, etc. the girls just aren’t having it. What has gotten me better responses is by doing the exact opposite. Being more chill, toning it down, making myself more boring and socially polite than my natural self. I even directly asked a woman at a health food store which behavior she prefers to be opened with: Talking about normal things relevant to the situation or weird/unpredictable topics. She said she prefers normal stuff. What gives??

So back then you basically just get skull bashed in if you try fucking the wrong females without the strength to back it up. Then you’re gone and might get to be a more alpha cave man next time around. Maybe not less brutal in that era but certainly simpler. All you needed was to be stronger and more dominant than the other guys. Let’s run with it. Imagine we take an alpha cave man and put him into the modern dating climate. Watch how fast he goes to prison or a psyche unit. There’s no way you’d be able to brainwash out the pure animalistic drive that got him all the ladies back in his world. The irony in this thought experiment is nobody could possibly exemplify not giving a fuck better than an alpha Neanderthal. It’s all about learning to play retarded social games now.