Aeris

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  1. From my experience. I cannot be angry. Even when it happen. I become conscious that god directly guide all my nature and will. It's a game. I m angry at the surface. Or is god angry through me ? See for me all evil is a projection. You should accept to be dead fully before death. But if you get there that's up to you. Living without ego will still be seen as egoic outside 'me'. This is the proof of ego. A 'need' a désire to answer. Just navigating is isness. Even if my body/mind would destroy the earth that mean. It is still god will. I believe you could be fully wake and still look very 'egoic' This is a proof are you triggered ? : Maybe Hitler was more wake than Leo gura. whatever true or not. Think of it. What's the difference ? It's all ego will/nature. But if you want to construct justice. Even this is possible. Pure hate or pure love are point of view. Monkey construct made from the feared body. And only someone that pass the ultimate surrender will understand. Don't project on me my 'value identity'. I only side in being
  2. If you have no value there is no way it stick. You'll stay needy and having toxic relations. Work more on Mastery and self actualisation. Approaching is easy. Keeping need internal work.
  3. Exactly. And this is exactly what I m currently working on. People who say 'surrender to your thoughts and reality' are deeply hallucinated. You can master all your réactions by deep reworking
  4. if you use it high quality, in the right setting ( not dancing, on random drug + alcohol ) like purely. and purity in the substances. there will be no comedown ~120mg lesser. I just did mdma 10 times in life, but with all my gathered knowledge for people who are not about drugging themself here : - 100-120 mg ( no comedown, and normaly none if you do it once every 5 years : you read right, every once in a year is ok too, every month is a very bad idea. ) different from psychedelics but has some potential, there is a low mood then, that stay almost for 3 days, but you'll not experience it below the ~120 mg there is psychedsubtance on youtube who talks a lot about mdma. it is used/try in setting in some country for psy-therapy. yes it can teach you in meta, what an absolute feeling of love & bliss is. but that's the thing, most people get hooked on it, and don't try to embody what can be teached by the substance. can help someone very down to see there is "high". I would be cautious with mdma, I didn't do it since 1 year, and don't plan to do it again, I always do half a pill of xtc in some random party where I feel for it, in my case, I like to be surrounded when I do mdma. ( But I will maybe never do it again, cause of the possible comedown, and because I already dig what there is to learn from it ( maybe there is more, but not for now ) )
  5. This is really utter bullshit. All child of god would want magic power. Who deny power isn't fit to be loved by god. God like power and magic. Why deny god.
  6. More Books about psychedelics. More knowledge before doing it. Then you'll understand bipolar is an interpretation. Not actuality. And there is work to do outside of it. Sometimes more needed. Psychédélic without grounded work in metaphysic' epistemology and psychology could be overloading and a waste.
  7. why not being a part of the community and sharing with us ? welcome. Don't pray for leo, pray for yourself, but that maybe lead to leo
  8. Spirituality in blue is mostly orange marketing in disguise. Sorry about this harsh truth. But spiritual ritual is equal to blue non sense. Spirituality as a pattern to improve consciousness and being enlightened is mostly green/yellow. Spirituality to be in the trend is or Green or at worst blue. If you need items for validate spirituality that's mostly blue/orange.
  9. 3 days should keep you off from all main symptoms then. eat well, try to sleep well, and don't work too much while going down.
  10. when you stop to do it fully and embody fully the work. if nothing happen, you do it wrong.
  11. got relation at 25. from the perspective of young age, it was like "hell" but now without any doubts, having a girlfriend before that is just "how to fail everything at life early". yes that's sad to be a noob at dating and sex, but guess what, you don't loose your time, you're like Napoleon working on a bigger strat that himself. self improvement can lead you to more than just "sex/dating". it doesn't mean you are not attractive neither, mind is feeding you with your fear mechanism bs to explain "why why" seriously just work on yourself, girl that will unfold at the right time, start working on dating later.
  12. That mean I was truly satanist haha But my thought story was that I was giving my body and will to Satan. I bend my head and asked the power in me. Ultimate truth. Then I was thinking about my pharaon blood and the need to take over the World. Then I stumbled upon the picture that reflect self réalisation ( the one with multiple sun and the Guy crossing the veil of illusion with his head ) Thanks god it was not thought story. I m truly a satanic pharaon but I cannot tell everyone they would not believe it ! Synchronicities and all that showed me.
  13. God is everything. I never experienced possession and as self proclaimed satan minion that's annoying. People who lack grounded knowledges gives name to the 'downside' of the roller coaster.
  14. limit yourself at 2 cigs per day, morning + before night. and only with social bosses. ( you can drink a beer sometimes with friend, but you don't drink every morning ) don't cling to "over doing it" and don't cling to " I should cause X" the more you do it, the less efficient & the more toxic & the more dependant. coffee increase the need for smoking. cut coffee completely. ( if you do it ) I m cutting completely on smoking weed ( and smoking, cause I wasn't smoking cigs ), and that was my fuel for work, I sleeped 15 hours and my head is still a bit heavy now from quitting it. same, social friend smoking weed, very dangerous, but I choose to cut the friends. Not that I hate them, just another story will begin and those people drive me mad and at the bottom right now. I cannot motivate them, then that's their problems not mine anymore. motivate yourself for yourself, the number of excuse to keep doing a behavior our ego loves is infinite. then the fairy tail whispered in your ears than smoking makes you happy. and while you wait something there is a ton of things better than smoking. more than 4 cigs a day is pure addiction, no pleasure, all your cigs should feel like the first in the morning. I was smoking weed every 5 hours, but that was already too much, I m just cutting down and focusing on being healthy again.
  15. What will you do then in the cave ? meditate ? books ? writting ? fapping ? for me it will sound narcisstic, but I think I ve almost done everything, same as you, even met "famous musicians etc.." humans with "fame" doesn't give me any boner. law of one has been not a fairy tail to my meta knowledge but a deep realisation, I can truly become a master at everything, cause I nailed the method to mastery. I could watch my hand and get more knowledge from it than watching someone read 10 books of bullshit. ( this is just meta sentence here to claim what I know ) * but yes in reality there is still things that I m not aware of, but I m aware of the fact that I cannot be aware of absolutely everything cause my experience is limited * I know that I don't know everything, but even the tiny thing I still don't know, they look as second quest, not something I cling to validate my life, I could be dead tomorrow. ( but I wouldn't for the loved ones and the people that still suffer, I prefer work toward improving the consciousness of society through art ) > doing 5 MEO DMT > doing mushroom/LSD + sex > god mastery music, 3D, movies ( all about them ) but even those things, they look funny, but that's the only dual goal that I still own after enlightment and realisation that "everything is my interpretation since the start". There is probably deeper level, but I m already very deeeep. and they are not things that I m hungry to try, only things I wish to experience maybe for the lelz. only thing, I hate "farming experience" without drug, and why should I even farm ? I could be a master at anything ( and I m on the path of mastery in multiple art domains ), but time is a whore. can I ask just some things, how did you cut with "being borred" ? are you fine out of adderall ? still meditating ? would you advice me on a wilber book ?
  16. the topic is enough for sharing. I think if people want to share big project, then career/entrepreneurship is a good place for posting. ( maybe I m wrong about that ) it will be confusing to have more dissection on the forum. I think this is just good for now, maybe getting growth if the number of artist/topics pop on the forum would be a good idea.
  17. your interpretation of a thing is one in infinite possibility. even if you point to the essence of a thing. ( in a relative contextual experience, we can both be aware of the essence of the experience of a thing, but this isn't "the thing" ) there is not a single metaphysical representation of a thing. and if you do art, you'll see that there is not "eyes" here and "nose" there, but billions way of seeing them, I would even say, infinite, but maybe not, it just describe the potential of the interpretation. if the experiencer, experience a thing in his mind / aka a thought, this is a thought, an interpretation, not the only single metaphysical possibility of an object. to see an eye on a character you need to delimit where eyes start and stop, it looks from a lower consciousness perspective that things are only "one possibility" but with enough knowledge those barriers seams confusing and pointless. in reality there is no eyes, everything is alien in this world, but we give, meaning, value, and description to things that in the absolute have no shapes ,no forms and no limit. for skeptical, there is ALDOUS HUXLEY, He wrote about enlightment ( the divin within ) and "the door of perception" ( better suited for psychedelic experiencer ) I find those books good for scientifical rational mind, cause Aldous was not a mystic, he started to become one at the end of his life. One of the best way is imagine what an alien discover if he comes to earth and never experienced anything of earth. he would not be aware of all the relative distinction.
  18. and there is a lot of girls that knows that having kids is only a pure egoic need. the most egoic thing you can do. think of it, Donald trump had a mother, tell her about this. not having kids it's increasing your chances of not having a baby Hitler. ___ I m 25, male, I don't see why people would want a kid in this world. Probably a brain disease or living in total delusion. when you live in pure truth, having kids right now is the last things you wish to do.
  19. for me when a country or a governement allow someone to hold in power the life of more than a billion people, that's a crime against humanity. ( but just my view ) someone in power should put his power to improve his community, cause he IS the community. And the current state of France/USA, invisible hand that control you to be an obediant, taking all job bs slave. I call that being put in non visible chains, it's not receivable to just let people "find a work, become intelligent, reasonable, and stop being lazy and poor. this kind of thought is a disease. there is no way to grow when you're in fucking INVISIBLE CHAINS, Of course I could work instead of taking the welfare, like in a restaurant ? become then like everyone, depressive, and kill myself. I don't see the point in living for surviving, my situation for me is good, but not good enough, AND WORST FOR OTHERS ! getting the equivalent of 5$ an hour in term of absolute gain right now if I start to work ( yes you read well ). ( when you take holisticly the welfare/etc ). it's not about "being lazy" it's about having a stable ground to work from and a system that update itself from 0.0005 to 0.2 In fact that's just a bullet in the head, not that you should give a lot to everyone, and it's not about "monney", it's about power to do things. ( I m tackling the economic debate ) give people the right amount of power to being allowed to growth. if one guy own the power of a billion, then the system is a falacy. our current society, it's a multi dictator tribe that looks like a hot girl. fear of being dead because no work, that's the best way to FUCK your country. but I m with sanders, as long as there is a problem within big corporation the tentacle cancer that is "dictator ship corporation". big monney corporation should NEVER be private in their choices, they should be a pure extension of governement. I m not talking about being communist, I m talking real meritocracy, after being cured of the disease firstly.
  20. What would be divine is no suffering and no craving for addiction to things in the firstplace. Only pleasure as on mdma all the time. If there is a down. That's not because god is virtuous but only cause he is a whore. God is the girl that trump fuck everyday. Right in the pussy If god was good he would never have created dualities. For me there is no god. Only satan. And he is so satanic that he makes human believe that they can act selfless/love. Another satanic delusion. All dualities is satan work. And god is equal to Satan cause he is everything. When you do good. You are working toward your own self. There is only ego. Should I love god for making me ? Or should I hate him for the all dualities. Anyway doesn't change a thing what I believe. God is always laughing. Maybe I should try 5 meo. But it will probably just validate my view.
  21. Don't be needy. They loose you. You don't loose them. Maybe your high conscious friend lack energy or is afraid to be a part of the ban by protecting you. This topic and this experience show the conventionnal Dynamic of tribe. Me I have this kind of tribe. But I don't argue with people. Or I m right and true about being me or they loose me. I don't have any neediness cause I know I can have new Friends and learn about new peoples all the time. Why would you stay with people that doesn't make you feel great at least, most of the time.
  22. Don't loose your time. If you want hardcore méditation do it by yourself. You Can vispa alone. This Will train your full will.
  23. one of the biggest realisation this one, well done, the rest will start to crumble. imagine that all the things that exist, have only been "made" by others deluded, interpretator. most things are bullshit, cause even what you hold is probably cloud of bullshit. I was in Paris waiting another bus for home and the realisation stuck another time, I entered a non dual state where all thoughts seamed pointless to talk about what is around me. like if I was a character entering reality with a new breath. Reality of everyone is so far out from mine/I/us, everyone is like another planet. Everyone is a star