VeganAwake

It depends on "your" definition of desire. The body can desire/crave food, water, sex, sleep, nicotine. And then a lot of desire stems from social conditioning, wanting new things, materialism basically to improve "one's self" image. There's nothing right or wrong with desire....it's not good or bad.(of course society would say having a desire to hurt or kill someone is bad) But overall yes, the desire I'm talking about is that constant feeling of lack or incompleteness, that something isn't quite right and "I" need to fix it.....I need to become whole and totally satisfied. The whole thing is a crock of shit because awakening reveals this entire character called "ME" with all of its unquenchable and needy desires is completely unreal!! ❤

The apparent issue is that the everyday ordinary experience of separation itself feels incomplete or unsatisfactory. So this apparent sense of self attempts to figure out a way to make itself feel whole and satisfied. But these attempts are completely futile and only perpetuate the illusory experience that there is a real separate self with freewill & choice that can one day in the future become whole and satisfied.(with enough diligent training & focus of course?) And the cosmic joke is: there already isn't anyone that's separate or incomplete to begin with...it's an illusion! Or An unreal experiencer having an unreal problem! ❤

Yep, but it's more than just thought. It's the entire physical/mental experience of separation. And it's not just a moment, it's Everything including the experience of moments. ❤

There just isn't a particular something within everything to be called the truth. The word deluted insinuates there is also a clear or correct path. That's complete horse shit. There's no real goal which needs to be achieved or end result which needs to be met.....and so in that sense there is nothing incorrect/correct, wrong/right, bad/good or deluted/pure. There is only whatever seems to be happening regardless of whether a label of true and false is projected onto it. It's already complete, it's already freedom! ❤

The ego is the entire self construct or sense of self which includes the so-called healthy & unhealthy aspects of it. And of course that which labels behavior as either healthy or unhealthy is nothing other than this ego/sense of self. Simply put: Ego = Identity It's that which claims: "I AM" this physical/psychological bodymind organism. And when this illusory identity collapses, there's nothing left/no one there/nobody home & it's simultaneously recognized there Never Was! ? It was just an illusion of self identity or misunderstanding! ❤

Yeah man it's a total trip & completely ridiculous! What else to say right! Just WTF....? ❤

Exactly! Mind cannot grasp nothing because there's obviously nothing for it to grasp a hold of..... it has to turn the meaning of the word nothing into a conceptual something for it to be grasped. ❤

Exactly, it's an illusion of a self endlessly seeking for a better experience in the future. It stems from the experience that something is currently lacking. ❤

Yep it's both, there's a way and there's not a way! Self-inquiry/spiritual practices can perpetuate and prolong the illusion of separation AND/OR it can illuminate the futility of an unreal individual attempting to become awakened! There's nothing right or wrong better or worse with any practice or inquiry, there's just no one that's actually doing it!! ? ❤

Trust me I get it.... it sounds ridiculous and makes no sense! That's also why it's very rare. All I can really say is it can just become obvious at some point that this Seeker/Sense of self & it's entire conditioned belief system is completely unreal. And of course this Seeker/Sense of self absolutely hates this because it truly believes it's on a spiritual path acquiring multitudes of spiritual knowledge along the way to finally attaining something incredible called spiritual enlightenment. But there is no 'you' that finds or attains enlightenment. As the saying goes: "Nobody Becomes Enlightened" Enlightenment is the collapse of the seeker desperately struggling to attain it & simultaneously the recognition that enlightenment or this, is all there ever was without separation. And this revelation can become obvious after weeks, months, years, decades of desperate seeking without rendering any lasting results.... the futility is realized and becomes exhausted! ❤

Well that's why it's called awakening. And it's not an appearance, its an illusory experience stemming from an assumed identity as the body-mind organism. There isn't a relative self nor an absolute self....they are the same illusion but only seem to be different. There is nothing & no one behind the body-mind's eyes or anywhere else for that matter. And that can be a shocking & even terrifying revelation at first. (It's "to die before you die") only nothing really dies because it wasn't alive from the start. Its complete freedom but for nobody! ❤

There will always be something else....thats how the ego/sense of self keeps running in circles tripping over itself. It has to be clearly recognized that this desperate seeker that is jumping through endless spiritual hoops & believing it's getting closer to so-called enlightenment is just an illusion of self and never satisfied. The seeking ends because it's seen for the first time that this very individual attempting to become enlightened was never real from the start. ❤

The shocking and ridiculous part about this whole conceptual framework is that all these beliefs are stemming from nothing other than an illusory separate sense of self which truly believes it's real and can Hopefully figure out a way to escape death. And the cosmic joke is that there Already isn't a real living separate self.....it's an illusion! This illusory self lives in a reality where HOPE is it's only salvation. ❤

Hehe love it & glad to still see you around here and there ❤ Exactly, there isn't a real someone that experiences feelings of guilt....thats the dream story. Enlightenment isn't exclusive, it's inclusive. Feelings & emotions still arise, there just recognized as having never been arising for a someone. So feelings just come and go with ease & without getting caught up on the sticky illusion of self taking ownership of them. A lot of the feelings do change drastically though as there is no longer this personalized self agenda which needs to be met. It's freedom from no one & for no one! ❤

Maybe you subconsciously feel guilty about something. Possibly religious disobedience? Just a thought!! ❤

I would first try some hot and cold compression to expand and contract those muscles(20min hot 20min cold for 2 rounds in each area) ...maybe take some excederin an hour before, and if you're still not getting any kind of relief maybe try to get a prescription for a muscle relaxant. Also some insurances do cover physical therapy massages, I would at least give it a shot. A doctor should know what to do. ❤

Have you tried those float tanks? They are very relaxing. Have you ever been prescribed any muscle relaxers? Saunas, steam rooms, hot tubs and massages should be your best friends. ❤

Yeah man "forgive them for they know not what they do" ❤

You could try speaking with the person directly and let them know how you feel. And then if that didn't work you could go and file a claim with human resources(HR). A lot a times things get ugly because people are unaware or unfamiliar with the other options that were literally put in place for a reason. ❤

I like orange materialist....where else will you get all the nice used items for cheap when they absolutely need an upgrade. See think positive ? ❤

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Yeah it's not real at all! I've actually heard some really good descriptions. Not sure what you mean by accurate description......it's not like there's a standard ego experience to compare with ? ❤

What do you consider the TRUTH? ❤