VeganAwake

Maybe you subconsciously feel guilty about something. Possibly religious disobedience? Just a thought!! ❤

I would first try some hot and cold compression to expand and contract those muscles(20min hot 20min cold for 2 rounds in each area) ...maybe take some excederin an hour before, and if you're still not getting any kind of relief maybe try to get a prescription for a muscle relaxant. Also some insurances do cover physical therapy massages, I would at least give it a shot. A doctor should know what to do. ❤

Have you tried those float tanks? They are very relaxing. Have you ever been prescribed any muscle relaxers? Saunas, steam rooms, hot tubs and massages should be your best friends. ❤

Yeah man "forgive them for they know not what they do" ❤

You could try speaking with the person directly and let them know how you feel. And then if that didn't work you could go and file a claim with human resources(HR). A lot a times things get ugly because people are unaware or unfamiliar with the other options that were literally put in place for a reason. ❤

I like orange materialist....where else will you get all the nice used items for cheap when they absolutely need an upgrade. See think positive ? ❤

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Yeah it's not real at all! I've actually heard some really good descriptions. Not sure what you mean by accurate description......it's not like there's a standard ego experience to compare with ? ❤

What do you consider the TRUTH? ❤

You definitely seem like the right person for the job. "Freedom to do and not do" Thanks for the share! ❤

Loved: When my mother would empathize with me really well if I got hurt or stung by a bee or something like that. Unloved: When my parents were just absent and not involved in my life. Basically not being there giving advise, support and guidance.

@CuriousityIsKey There isn't a real You that has something called an ego. The ego is the entire sense of self....the whole construct or experience of feeling like a separate individual (not just the so-called bad parts). And when that illusory experience ends, there is no You left to be found. There IS a conditioned body with its senses and preferences. And out of that experience seems to arise the ego or sense of self which believes its the body & thinker of thoughts. But it's an illusion of self, as in its completely unreal. So there isn't an ego and then a real You underneath the ego or something like that.... they are the same illusion! ❤

@CuriousityIsKey So you believe there is a omnipotent/omniscient entity called god. And then within the construct of this belief system a question arises, why doesn't this god heal my illness? If that entire belief system was dropped, there would be no one left to resent. Resentment is useless and drains life energy! ❤

The body can definitely feel a sense of confidence while doing things. But yes the individual that claims it as "MY confidence" is the illusion of self. As the saying goes "practice makes perfect". Repetition is always the key until you don't even have to think about it anymore. I would say confidence is at its peak when you're in the Flow State.... like Michael Jordan use to be playing basketball. He practiced so much and became so good, he made it look easy. ❤

The apparent issue with this question is there are already dozens of preconceived notions/ideas/concepts/beliefs being held there about what nibbana is or isn't. In other words 'you' showed up to the party gun fully loaded and glass overflowing. Its just not a something attained for a someone. It's not a state which is entered either. It's the end of state chasing for an individual. It has nothing to do with becoming, gaining or attaining. Rather its a loss of something that never actually happened. It's complete freedom for nobody due to the revelation that this socially conditioned individual identified as 'ME'......is completely unreal!! The 'ME' so desperately wants to be there to reap all the benefits which it imagines enlightenment to be like. But this is an impossibility because nibbana is the death of the illusory 'ME' which wants to attain or have nibbana for itself. ❤

What is What is? "All there is is what is . . . but what is what is? Well, there is no real answer to that question. However, it seems that what is could be just what is happening . . . reading these words, sitting on a seat, trees growing, sounds, feelings, clouds or thoughts passing by and so on. In simple terms these events just seem to be what is happening. But the perspective here is that the essence of what is happening is an open secret. It is suggested that what is is oneness appearing as twoness, the absolute being relative. It is the treasure that is longed for and feared most . . . the perfect lover and the grim reaper. It is of course the ultimate paradox, being simultaneously nothing and everything. There is no possibility of the essence of what is being described, grasped or known. The seeker attempts to be aware of or conscious of what is and immediately that function separates and objectifies and makes solid that which is wonderfully floating, effervescent and ungraspable. The essence of what is can’t be seen by me and so me never feels fulfilled because its experiences seem to have something missing. In what is is also what isn’t. This is the wonder of wholeness because it appears as both simultaneously. Everything that is something is also already nothing . . . there are not two! Everything is therefore real and unreal, but me experiences everything as only real. Within this illusion me attempts to transform this dualistic and unsatisfactory experience into processes such as “living in the moment” or “being here now” or accepting everything as “consciousness”. However, and again, the wonderful paradox of the play of wholeness is that the story of me is also what is. All of the dreams and hopes, processes and religious aspirations are only wholeness appearing as a separate entity rushing around looking for itself and also hiding from itself by already being everything. And in being everything, even the avoidance or rejection of what is is what is. So what is longed for constantly sings the only song of freedom that can never be lost or found because it is already all there is". - Tony Parsons (The Open Secret) ❤

Yeah this is it! Everyone thinks it's going to be this big mystical happening for a someone....it's not, it's an unhappening for no one! It can be quite an ordinary realization or it can feel big and profound! Its simply seeing that the characteristics and the behaviors (some conditioned some not) of this apparent body, do not amount to a separate self. The sense of self is like an illusory byproduct of being told you are a separate person from a young age....it's the physical and mental experiences of this assumption/misunderstanding. ❤

It can kind of feel like both simultaneously. Certain patterns may start dissolving while others can seem to intensity because there is no one attempting to control them. It can just feel very out of control for weeks, months..... it's a little different for everyone! ❤

Sure! Still feeling like an awakening happened for you even though you was seen to be a conditioned illusion. Decisions being made faster and without much effort which can come off as very egotistical. Feeling stuck between two realities. (awakened & asleep) Feeling separate and alone even though separation was seen to be unreal. Wanting to jump on a flight somewhere and start a new life. Wanting to change your name and identity or wanting to disappear. Wanting to travel and find others that have had similar experience. Feeling like I alone know the truth and others are completely ignorant of this truth. Wanting to do things that felt off limits or wrong prior to awakening. ❤

Honestly a lot of weird things can happen. If you have someone that can keep an eye on you and simultaneously let things unfold for you, that would be a good option. There isn't exactly any one solution I'm sure you have realized. ❤

That's completely normal. Energy will be getting thrown all over the place for a while. It will take some time for those patters to wear down. It can feel like your stuck in between two realities for months. As the self wears down, less and less energy will be put into these habitual patterns. But these patterns can and usually change greatly when there is no longer anyone entering them. ❤

Well that clear realization would be the end of the conditioned idea of good and bad. But that doesn't mean that the body would become ignorant of the fact that if it doesn't follow societies rules it can be thrown into jail or cause relationship disruptions and such. ❤

There is no such thing as enlightenment because enlightenment is the realization that the apparent individual which attempts to become enlightened or believes he/she is already enlightened, isn't real at all!! Meaning it's a seemingly real experience but within a misunderstood reality. Example: If your parents convinced you from birth that the outdoor oxygen was deadly and kept you locked in the basement for 19 years there would be all kinds of seemingly real experiences during those 19 years, probably most of them not very pleasant. Then one day the basement window shatters and the outside wind comes roaring into the basement and you are able to breath this oxygen without issue. Your entire paradigm/belief system is shattered & yet there is still the conditioned memories of all those past experiences when you believed the outside oxygen was deadly. An entire reality was experienced but within completely unreal circumstances/beliefs. So it was a seemingly real experience but under completely unreal circumstance. Making that experience REAL & UNREAL simultaneously. This is what enlightenment is like only the seemingly real individual (me/you) with all its conditioned beliefs and concepts, was never real from the start. It was an illusion of self within that organism there. What a mindfuck right? ❤

It could be recognized that the only thing that wanted to become a saint were patterns of conditioned thoughts. That recognition can happen anytime anywhere spontaneously! ❤