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  1. The first time it happened it bothered me cause I was heavily moralized by Green people, but now I'm fine with it. Looking back, it was funny cause they didn't know exactly what to criticize(cause I already integrated many Green values). As I said, I understand why they do it, so now I just shrug it off.
  2. How deep are you into your university course? I quit 1 year into Mechanical Engineering and went to Psychology cause I knew I would be miserable as an Engineer. I thought deeply about my future and I would probably out myself cause the work would bring me too little joy. If your major doesn't help you to advance in your life purpose, yes , It would be better to quit. And I do have lots of ideas I could implement in this domain of work. You don't have a life purpose yet? What the hell are you doing then? Find it. You don't have infinite time in the relative domain. Time to start thinking about this. It being "interesting" isn't enough. It has to be interesting but also have demand and contribute a great deal to society. If you have a novel, ground-breaking idea in your field maybe it'll work. Otherwise you're wasting your time. That being said, you have to have a backup plan. You can't just outright quit and do nothing all day. Are you going to be an entrepreneur or what? Do you have any practical skills? I'm just offering some tough love here. Don't take it personally; I've gone through a phase like yours some time ago.
  3. Hey buddy! I hope you're having a nice day @Thewritersunion Do you mean it would be good to not get fixated on the models? To think whatever I want to, regardless of what tier it belongs in theory?
  4. Lots of XXXP and one EXXJ Probably won't be successful but it will be fun
  5. Better to do it sober... But hey, if you really want to do it, a LSD microdose from 5ug to 15ug works If you feel rumination is what is preventing you from acting social, N-acetylcysteine could help you too. And it's not a drug.
  6. Very rarely. Only if I consume drugs that alter my state of consciousness significantly (outside of psychedelics). There's a level you can reach in spirituality where you see that you can't really die because you're not the body. That being said, I don't see what's the point of doing it. But I do have empathy and I can see that if I was suffering enough that would be an appealing idea.
  7. I bought a 25 tabs batch of what I believed was 250ug each. It had lots of good reviews. I almost always took half a tab and it gave me the normal LSD experience. The day I took the whole tab I didn't even want to touch psychedelics anymore for years (already got over this lol). It took me several weeks/months to understand everything that happened during that trip. Better be safe than sorry and traumatize yourself; take half or 1/4.
  8. If you think there is, there is. If you think you'll deal with low consciousness jerks who will try to fight you then it could be useful. For me personally it's useless really. I can't deny it is cool to watch though. If someone wanted to kill me they could do it ? . Only a bullet would be needed
  9. No. This. Maybe do it on a microdose. Watch the 30 facets of awakening video.
  10. Many e-books have built-in shortcuts to chapters - I have a 7 year old Kindle I still use to this day. I prefer to use e-books because: I can read any book I want, anywhere, without carrying like 1kg worth of books. It's possible to adjust the size/type of the font. On the other hand: it's very annoying to write notes. If I want to write down notes about a book, I'll need to actually have a paper by my side. Regarding using a tablet: e-ink readers don't put so much strain on my eyes as tablet/smartphones screens do. TBH it's just like a normal book.
  11. What was happening before you were born?
  12. I am God
  13. I have noticed something similar. People on different spiral/ego development stages react differently when I tell how many drugs I've tried (the answer is yes). And it's still shocking to some how I'm not addicted to any of them. And... I learned the hard way to never mention I've done any drug except alcohol to Stage Blue and below. But I think they intuitively know I'm not "pure" lol
  14. I have done that. I don't recommend you do it. You're gonna become a weirdo and cringe in the future when looking back.
  15. Yes go to parties. Socializing isn't just for picking up girls. Socialization is also a healthy need and if you have it, go ahead and fulfill it.
  16. Relative to the materialistic and modern stage-orange psychiatry, psychosis is an useful label to use for treating people. It could be defined a "loss of contact" with the common, socially-constructed reality. It could be defined more broadly as a temporary radical change of the state of consciousness, for the purposes of the work people do on this forum. If it's frequent and interferes with the ability of an individual to live in society, then it can be considered an illness. I think that's a broad question Nevertheless, the science so far bets on an unbalanced (relative to ""normal people"") level of neurotransmitters in the brain, causing perceptual changes. GABA, glutamate, serotonin, dopamine, norepinefrine and many more,if enoughly increased or decreased, could cause immense consciouness shifts. In addition, changing the amounts of those neurotransmitters in specific parts of the brain could also result in completely different experiences. Specific to most psychedelics, most seem to reduce the activity of the Default Mode Network. As a simplification, it's mostly responsible for the sense of self.
  17. I, as Leo, have taken down the video. sorry guys
  18. Yep... I was 30 minutes in and it has been taken down. I was even going to prepare some popcorn
  19. Secure. I'd be surprised if the result were otherwise, considering both my routinely self-analysis and other peoples comments about my personality.
  20. Finally some quality content lol jk