Willie

Ok. Well. The past couple weeks for me have been mostly a bad headspace. The defeatist attitude of people not being worth my effort stops me from trying things. There’s a party happening this evening that has potential to either reverse or exacerbate that mindset. I’ve been looking forward to it for awhile, and I’m nervous and excited at the same time. It’s a BDSM party with 20 men and 20 women where male nudity is mandatory. And I think it’s the perfect example of a counter-intuitive move. I’m terrible at meeting new people. I don’t fit stereotypes well, but you get fairly close if you just see me as a stereotypical shy, introverted loner. This party is not something I would do normally. But what better opportunity is there to just be myself and see who connects with that!? There’s nothing complicated about it. Just be open to new experiences. I will update afterward. Hopefully only good news!

Short and sweet. Very nice!

What would thinking without feeling look like? What would feeling without thinking look like?

That was a very interesting conversation to listen too! I remember the thread of suggestions for Leo to go talk on podcasts or have a video talking with someone, and Kastrup’s name came up a few times. I think I know why that is, now.

Hey, if more people are willing to get vaccinated with this method that’s great!

*applause* There’s nothing wrong with skepticism or distrust that comes from flagrant profiteering from corporations, but it can be taken too far at some point. There’s more at stake here than the need to be right or “stick it to The Man”.

https://www.independent.co.uk/news/world/americas/us-politics/cnn-acosta-desantis-covid-b1899128.html I think this guy has a good idea. So, just a bit of context first. Californians have been moving into Texas in droves for most of the past decade, and the state is becoming more liberal as a result. There’s a big backlash against it, with merchandise saying “Don’t California my Texas”. Here, he’s taking that same sentiment with a twist. He says we should have “Don’t Florida my Fauci” merchandise, and use the money from that to help with funeral costs. Just some backlash against DeSantis handling Florida’s COVID situation terribly.

The thoughts don’t have to control you. It’s up to you to use the present to make sure the future looks better than the past. It takes courage and overcoming negative thoughts. Just be present and don’t let thoughts dictate how you act.

It’s not even subtle, really. The Dred Scott case, Plessy v. Ferguson, Jim Crow laws, many members of the KKK were politicians or policemen. Anyone who thinks the foundations of the USA aren’t blatantly racist are willfully ignorant. They get a lot of traction on “we keep businesses open and don’t force a mask or shots” as it is.

Another recent video from Academy of Ideas: Coincidence?

As far as I can tell, his whole M.O. is “fuck Biden, I do what I want”. Sure, that makes him veeeeery popular, but what does he actually do that seems competent and worth voting for?

Do you have friends willing to help you?

You can leave your family. Who says you have to stay miserable with them?

To vaccinate, or not to vaccinate? Which of the choices is based more on fear, and which is based more on love? It’s interesting seeing different perspectives!

I sometimes wonder what he or Bill Hicks would have to say about the fact that we elected Donald Trump.

I kinda get the same way with anxiety before an injection or having blood drawn. The needles they use for these vaccines are tiny, though. Your thoughts of the needle are way worse than the actual thing.

I’ve been in a pretty bad headspace recently. My defeatist attitude has been kicking my ass, and the next wave of COVID infections/restrictions is looming. yaaaaaaaaaaaaay ?

I think the answer’s obvious. It’s relatively dangerous, because it’s all relative. It depends on a person’s worldview and prior life experience. Some feel threatened and hate it, while others love it and confuse it for absolute truth.

Do you really want to want to be with men, or are you lashing out because of prior experiences with women?

Life is quite a journey, huh? My aunt’s journey ended this weekend. Apparently, it wasn’t the cancer she had. It was irreversible damage from the radiation treatments. But my journey is still moving along. Today I went back to the same place that held the Kink Exploratorium and practiced my whip throwing and flogging. But I don’t have a whip, flogger, or kink partner yet. So, I made quick and cheap zip-tie floggers and used a 3 foot Ethernet cable for the whip. For the target, I strapped a pillow to the cross with bondage tape. It was fluffy and left very nice marks where I hit, so I could see what adjustments I needed to make in posture or strokes. It was also good for getting some aggression out of my system. You know, the whole ‘life’s not fair’ thing. My aunt was a great person who loved life and was never really unhappy as far as I could tell. Cancer was just a speed bump for her, and she seemed fully recovered until the past month or so. Regardless, it was nice to get some practice so if/when I do get a kink partner and stuff to play with, I’ll know what I’m doing. Also, after work Friday night I went back to the pool hall I like. I’m friends with one of the bartenders there, and she said last week was rough because her infant was sick. I feel bad for her. I think she’s doing the ‘single mother with multiple jobs’ thing to make ends meet. And she previously told me she has anxiety due to violence in her past. I figure that’s just her journey, though. I’m a good listener, and she likes talking to me. That seems to be good enough for her. And I do love playing pool!

Ok, so I did a thing earlier today that was pretty cool. It was a Kink Exploratorium which sampled different types of play for those who are curious. I watched everything that was going on and actively participated in half of them. Apparently, I’m pretty good with a whip? Which is cool. I had dulled knives dragged across my back, various electrical implements dragged across my arm, fire cups placed on my back, and was caned a bit. Shortly after I arrived, someone fainted at the needle booth. I’ve always been squeamish around needles, so I didn’t partake. There was also rope bondage, flogging, and hard body impact that I didn’t do. I’m glad I went, it was a good learning experience and a judgement free environment!

Sure, we can use messages if you want. The short answer is no, but I still have the instrument I played way back in school as a side hobby for the nostalgia. So I attempt to play a bit here and there.

Lack of creativity and closed-mindedness.

Forcing help on those who don’t think they need help might not go well. Think of an intervention for someone with an addiction and denies their own addiction. Now apply that to someone who went to the Capitol on January 6 to “stop the steal”.