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@SFRL I don't care about getting laid at least for this year. If i was to be living alone at this moment of my life i wouldn't have much time for self-developing because i would be constantly worried /working on my survival. Either way one day i will be forced to live alone but for now i take advantage of the situtation. I believe i am self-developing at my own pace. I understand your point of view though. Being able to survive & take care of yourself is very very important & definetely one day i want to be on my own but i don't see the reason to hurry. Nor do i want to find girls. If i was to live alone i would probably rent a small hole that i would be embarassed to invite someone or a chick inside. I don't know where you live. Here in Greece most people my age & older live with their parents. It's not an excuse though.You can survive on your own but it is extremely hard for most people when they barely get their needs met.

@SFRL Why not? I spend less money this way. I don't have to worry about cooking or washing my clothes. Plus i enjoy hanging out with my mother.

@SFRL No but i had plenty of sex before this incident.

When i go outside for a walk & a girl doesn't even notice me/look at me many times i get annoyed & pissed off. It happens only with women i find attractive. Why do i get annoyed so much? & What can i do to stop caring? -Thanks.

@John Iverson I have dealt with it. Maybe not enough though. I just want to understand why did i do it. I have accepted it now. But i am curious.

@David Hammond I have done it. They all said that they made tattos of symbols that mean a lot to them. Still though i couldn't penetrate more deeply as to Why they did it...

@Farnaby I do the above you said a LOT & definetely i have to stop it. I try to stop it but it's very very powerful to resist. Sometimes i am succesful at it, other times i give in the ruminations/compulsions... Thanks.

@Salvijus Do you have any source you can link so that i can visit & learn an effective form of yoga that will help me with my sexual abstinence/nofap journey? I see many things on the internet that i don't trust (Too many videos/articles).

@jbram2002 I agree & that's why i want to understand why they do it. (tattoos)

@Salvijus What should i Practice then to dissolve the compulsions? Buy Crash course of inner engineering? I need something practical.

@Emerald Very interesting!

@universe How can i grow out of that?

@ivory I am not denying/suppresing or avoiding anything. Having sex/masturbating is overrated. It gives you a temporary pleasure & then you want to do it all over again. It never truly satisfies me. I just want to transcend it & be able to control it much better so it doesn't run my life. Also i want to accomplish 1 year of nofap/no sex because i notice tremendous benefits with semen retention. The positive effects are so big that it's not even funny.

@Aeris Should i become a monk? I don't want to yet...

@Leo Gura Lol What can i practice to overcome sex?

@Salvijus Ok so if i practice nofap for years is it safe & in my "biology" / "normal"? I ask because i am serious about doing at least 1 year nofap/no sex. It's a goal of mine. I notice very positive effects when i am on nofap mode. Only side effect is i get very horny after few weeks BUT even when i have sex or fap the lust never goes away.

@Salvijus After many days of nofap i ejaculate in my sleep while dreaming.

@Farnaby How can i work on my self-esteem?

@Shadowraix Well i have been rejected a lot from women in the past whenever i tried to make something happen. Few times i have been succesful but it never worked out in the long run. My childhood was kinda good. But i was never particularly good with women even though some girls wanted me. In highschool i was very shy with women.

@flowboy I disagree. Women decide if they would even sleep with a guy in just a few seconds before they even get to know the other person. If they find you attractive first then they will bother getting to know you afterwards. With just a glimpse they make that decision and that's why i call it rejection. If she doesn't bother to look at me i take it as a rejection even though it's more complicated than that. Maybe i'm wrong but that's my understanding so far..

@Shadowraix This happens when i am outside, walking the streets & come across different women. I don't get annoyed every time. Sometimes i shake it off but other times i get a feeling of deep hurt inside & a lil bit of anger. Then my mind ruminates & obsesses about the incident that caused me the feeling of hurt.

@flowboy I can understand when a girl is interested or not. Some girls don't even bother to look at me & have an arrogant look at their face. This annoys me a LOT. It's not that i don't get attention from girls But for some reason i obsess over those who don't acknowledge my existence. I remember walking to a coffee shop & asked a girl who worked there where is the WC. She replied without even bothering turning her head to look at me. I wanted to kill her. I just don't wanna care anymore... It damages me & nobody else.

After watching Leo's last video i have some questions. What does working on your sexuality is supposed to mean & why should i even bother working on it? What if i decide to remain celibate for the rest of my life? Do monks who have renounced sex & intimate relationships work on their sexuality? I don't think so. Also personally i am not a big fan of intimate relationships because they are more like business transactions. That's why i am pursuing celibacy & nofap. If one, longing for sensual pleasure, achieves it, yes, he's enraptured at heart. The mortal gets what he wants. But if for that person — longing, desiring — the pleasures diminish, he's shattered, as if shot with an arrow. — Kama Sutta, Sutta Nipata The Buddha then goes on to say: So one, always mindful, should avoid sensual desires. Letting them go, he will cross over the flood like one who, having bailed out the boat, has reached the far shore.

@Shin LOL

@Nahm Yes exactly! I ask this question because Leo said in his last video about the importance of having the basic survival game dialed in & he also mentioned "working on your sexuality". I don't know what needs to be worked though.