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I can't wrap my mind around acceptance... For example a therapist told me to accept uncertainty . He says acceptance is an undoing , not something you do. So how do you accept something ?? What is Acceptance after all??

If I could talk to God I would ask him why there is so much suffering, misery and pain. I don't understand why there has to be so much fn suffering and it bothers me. Fear, mental illness, corruption, Poverty, beheadings etc. I can suffer tomorrow just because someone harms me. I can be born in an abusive home. Maybe I'm so unlucky that my country is at war. It's very difficult for me to accept all the misery and brutality that comes with life. On the other hand I see the beauty and intelligence behind life. My problem is that life will never go as I want it to be. Life doesn't care what I want. I'm forced to accept all the BS that I don't like. I have no say in the matter. I'm like a river with no choices but simply to flow. Wish I had more control. What kind of God am i ??? The powerlessness really gets at me sometimes. I'm forced to constantly watch a movie (my life) with no say in the matter. Just an illusion of control. And I have to deal with all the crap the movie throws at me. So my conclusion is yes life is beautiful but also really messed up at the same time. Nobody can deny the inherent misery and pain that comes along with life.

@Nahm No, if I calm my mind then everything is peaceful. But many times my mind gets stuck repeating negative events of life, which create suffering to me as unpleasant feelings in the body.

I don't know if my question can be answered in a symbolic way

@Barna Thank you, I really liked this ?

@VeganAwake God = Reality. ( for me.)

This is my 2nd time attempting a 1 year NoFap Challenge. My best streak so far is 64 days but i could have lasted longer if i had a vision. Now i am going to be visualizing for 10 mins every day myself having accomplished this challenge. We'll see how that goes. Besides that i practice meditation every day & a lil bit of yoga. Day 1/365 is 18/11/2019. Why am i doing this? Because i want to see what happens. I am curious. Also because i want to be as strong , focused & powerful as possible. I want to direct my energy on other things. The last reason is quite egotistical but it is because i don't know anyone close to me who has achieved this. It is like an achievement to me. I want to challenge myself. I want to go through hell & come back stronger!! I want to say to to myself yes i endured a whole year without sex and masturbating.

Thank you all for the wonderful insights!!!

Everyone talks about thoughts & language creating our reality but i would argue that feelings create more reality than thoughts. Why? Because you feel something is wrong. You feel you are ugly. You feel understanding. Understanding without the feeling of understanding probably wouldn't even exist. You feel certain. You feel right. You feel wrong. You feel succesful. Many of the things you hold as true are a bunch of feelings.

Your statement in your Understanding Meaning, Purpose & Value video is that Everything is Meaningless & Pointless & that all meaning is relative & a conceptual construct. If Everything is Meaningless then why do we talk about Love, Intelligence, Beauty. Aren't all these just meanings? If Everything has no Purpose then why do you say in your What is the Point of Life video that God wants/desires to know itself? That is a purpose! I understand how all meanings are relative but i don't understand why they are conceptual constructs. Sometimes they are conceptual constructs but other times they are not. For example an apple means tasty food for me. It makes me fool good. That's the meaning of an apple for me. This is a fact, a relative truth not just a conceptual construct. An apple is not meaningless to me. I am not projecting the meaning that an apple is tasty. This is just the truth for me in my direct experience. Even when we say that something doesn't have any meaning that's still a meaning. It means that it has no meaning. So everything means something for a living creature. What do you mean by saying that things are meaningless? I don't get it. I'm confused...

@zeroISinfinity Why? I can say that Love is Everything has meaning. Seems more true to me in my direct experience. Meaning clearly exists for anyone with a subjective experience. We can't deny that. Love itself is a meaning because It means something.

@Matt8800 @Matt8800 How is everything meaningless objectively when all we have is subjectivity?

Check this video out. He is a high quality source (for me). He talks about ghosts getting stuck & past lifes etc. Doesn't all this contradict non-duality? Past lifes implies Individual Souls/Selfs but Leo talks about One Self, The Self. I am very confused.

God didn't create anything willingly from a position of free will. That's what i mean.It just happened or you can say it was just there forever. Not even God knows how he did it. It's not like he planned & designed it before he actually created it. And that's the most scary part . God had no choice but to exist. At the same time though he doesn't exist. It's kinda depressing from my current limited egoic perspective. This is what i can recall from my 2 tabs LSD experience two years ago. Maybe i am wrong/deluded. Anyways it was such a mindfuck. Infinity is such a scary thing...And the negative thing about it is that it is inevitable. Anyone has a similar experience?

Why do i fear losing my hand? Because i will lose a part of myself. But why do i fear losing a part of myself? Because i think that will create suffering and misery to me. Why am i afraid of death? Because i will lose everything. But why do i fear losing everything? Because i don't know what death is and i fear the possibility after i die things will be worse. Why am i afraid of losing my youth? Because i think that will create enormous suffering in my life. So all fear boils down to fear of suffering. I don't care about losing my self as long as i don't suffer. As long as i am happy i am ok with losing anything. Maybe other people are different though. Would love some feeback.

Leo hasn't addresed this. What happens if you actively visualize the worst case scenario that you fear the most happening in your life in order to overcome the fear. I found this technique to have helped me a lot. For example i visualize myself on the streets as a retarded person suffering & in massive pain. Then after a while it doesn't seem that bad. I also visualize the death part. Only thing is now i am afraid of manifesting my fears lol. Can this happen?

After watching Leo's last video about Fear i got extremely confused. First of all it seems that Leo implies that visualization of fear is not enough to overcome fear & you need to create some identity level change alongside. But from my personal experience Behavior Change Alone Creates Identity Level Change. For example as someone who suffers from OCD , after few months of cutting compulsions my Anxiety greatly diminished & i believe my identity changed as well in the process. I no longer react to anxiety with compulsions & have learned to accept uncertainty. (Still though i have tons of work to do). Just after couple of days of practicing fear visualization (i imagine and live through the worst case scenario) i noticed some changes & i am mind-blown by this information. It is what i needed my entire life. How to create identity level change? What is the process? - Thank you.

How do i surrender all my personal needs?

I don't like Richard Dawkins because he is as dogmatic as an Islamist terrorist. Anyways he claims that Greed & Competition Motivate Human Nature in his book the Selfish Gene. Is that true? And even if it is true, is there a way maybe we can transcend this & replace it with Love & Compassion? We are in need of some Evolution i think and maybe have to let go of Greed in the future for the best of all living beings.

Go to 27:43. Radhanath Swami is asked to give his opinion about Psychedelics. He replied: My opinion is that if Radhanath hasn't done psychedelics then his opinion on the subject isn't worth much . What do you guys think?? My observation is that almost all people act as they know things which they have 0 experience with. Including celibacy, psychedelics, etc. We're self-biased monkeys. We act as we know things which we don't really know.

Leo says that sex is a base need & it looks like sex is mandatory to survive. Do i have to engage in sex? Can i live a happy & content life without sex? Is that possible?

@Jkris Thank you sir!!

Leo Why Survival is Falsehood? I don't get it.

I personally know people who live without sex for years & they are ok. They are almost as ok as people who engage in sex. Both those groups are starved dogs. Who does get enough sex nowadays? Even Dan Bilzerian doesn't get enough sex. The more you have sex, the more you wanna have sex. Like an addiction & you suffer. You don't have sex? You still suffer because of the desire. So it's about which sh*t sandwitch are you willing to eat. I am just tasting a new flavor now.

@ajasatya So far yes. We will see how it goes.