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@RendHeaven This reminds me of the Buddha. Initially he used to starve himself in order to attain Enlightment. He was really hardcore. Close to the brink of death.

@Schizophonia What is your problem??

@undeather Most psychiatrists here in Greece, prescribe medications carelessly like candies without giving any warnings. That's what they have been trained to do basically. Anytime you got an issue, immediately here is a drug for it. A friend of mine has gotten all messed up because of medications he takes. It seems that many, if not most of these psychiatric drugs, solve one problem, only to cause another one.

@Schizophonia Now I can sleep well. I am not a smoker any more. And cannabis is super addictive for me. Benzos are not addictive though (for me) . I never abused them. They are not to be used longer than 1 month. If you take Benzos for sleep you can just take 1 pill before sleep and it does the job. That's what I did. Lorazepam has a long half life. Other Benzos have shorter half life.

@integral The funny thing with all these psychiatrists.. is that they are so eager to prescribe you medications without warning you about the downsides, while themselves they usually haven't taken any of the medications. They usually haven't been the ones being prescribed and suffered from medications. That's why they do not care too much.

@Sugarcoat Interesting story. You cannot completely trust doctors or any human for that matter.

@undeather Will the metabolism of the drugs and their effectiveness change if I am no longer ingesting food? Keep in mind I want to do only 3 days of fasting.

I've been prescribed lorazepam and olanzopine at night, to get more hours of sleep. Soon I'll be off the medications. I'm thinking about doing a 3 day water only fast. I have successfully done fasts before so I have some experience and know what to expect. BTW I love fasting. Its so much easier than dieting. This is an opportunity for me to do the fast now. Also with the medication I will be sleeping a lot better while fasting. Can I do a 3 day water fast while on these medications??

I remember few years ago.. when i was practicing semen retention.. and Leo made a sarcastic response saying smthing like : This was probably the most low consciousness thing i ever seen posted from Leo.. and it really shocked me..... I don't know exactly what he meant. But if he meant what i think then that's pretty disapointing. Because not reacting like an animal to all your urges is truly a practice. Not doing something can also be a practice and a super difficult one. Not reacting to all your thoughts, fears, urges and etc is the hardest thing to do (or not do ^_-) in the world. And Leo's video about Letting Go is similar to semen retention. It's exactly the same concept. Letting go, not reacting. I have experience with this because i recovered from my severe OCD by doing exposure response prevention. Where you basically stop reacting to all the sh*t your mind throws at you. And it was the most difficult thing i ever did. I think Leo has not much direct experience with semen retention and it's too hard for him to do(We all have our own weaknesses). Maybe in his 60s he will be saying something totally different.

@undeather Maybe I didn't write my thread the right way. I will be drinking water. Only water and a lil bit of salt.

@undeather Why is that??

I take olanzopine & lorazepam before sleep. I was prescribed these drugs for a short period of time by my psychiatrist. Anyways I am also taking 200mg modafinil (not prescribed) only at morning. I haven't felt anything wrong or weird in my direct experience. Only one day when I drank too much coffee I felt my heart a lil bit weird but nothing serious. The reason I'm afraid is because lorazepam calms the nervous system while Modafinil does the exact opposite. And both drugs have long half lives. I don't feel anything bad though. Also how many people for example smoke weed while they drink coffee. And they have no issues. Should I be Worried?

@ItsNick I've made significant & rapid changes in a very short time and had an awakening . This resulted in me sleeping only 3 hours a day. I didn't have problems going to sleep though. I was just full of energy almost all the time. My body for some reason wasn't letting me sleep more. That's why I was prescribed these drugs to sleep more hours. I'm very careful about using them strategically like I have in the past. And yes even the doctor told me that soon we're gonna come off the benzos. I don't wish to be dependent on any drug and I respect these drugs very much. I believe benzos are great drugs if used for 1-2 months very very sparingly. If used for more than 2-6 months, then you really get dependent and its no good. Also if you use them for like 6 months it can be dangerous to come off. I've used benzos once before . I took Valium at low doses for a month straight. Then stopped with zero issues whatsoever. I believe these drugs could be used strategically in super difficult times for a short period of time with no issues.

@undeather Thank you. I am just scared because I have been watching videos about stories of drug addiction. And there is this term called speedballing. Where you inject together at the same time heroin & meth/cocaine. Supposedly this is a very dangerous combination because one drug tells your body to go go go and the other one is an extreme downer. I don't know how much truth is behind this rumor. But I believe that if someone were to take anti anxiety medication and also drink coffee at the same time, he would have no problems whatsoever. In fact there are probably millions who do this every single day.

@Leo Gura I just want extra information. And to be honest even if I ask my doctor she probably won't have a clue.... I don't feel like I am mixing these drugs but I understand your point. I specifically take one drug at morning and the other at night. The half life is long but from experience.. I feel Modafinil working for about 8 hours. This whole half life thing doesn't make much sense when you don't even feel the drug working anymore. Also how many people are there who take benzos and also drink coffee that have no problems whatsoever. I don't feel anything weird. If you were to mix cocaine and heroin then yeah that could make your heart stop supposedly. But even then it usually doesn't happen.

@integral 3 days

I live in an apartment in Athens, Greece. My bathroom uses a ventilator that connects a bathroom below my apartment. Recently my bathroom has been filled with disgusting cigarrete smoke.I figured out that the woman in the bathroom right below me smokes inside her bathroom. Anyways i spoke to this woman calmly numerous times asking her to stop smoking inside the bathroom because i don't wish to be a passive smoker. Keep in mind that this woman is obese and suffers from schizophrenia. She has been gaslighting and lying to me the whole time. To make long story short, what i found most shocking about this whole incident is how other neighbors and even the police basically told me . It's really true that most people are d*mb as fking animals as Leo has said. This experience has really shook me and made me much more motivated to become financially free as much as possible. People are so d*mb to deny you the obvious. I am really disapointed by how low consciousness most people truly are. It's shocking, It's jaw-dropping.

@Michael569 Thank you. Michael this drug has been a pain in the a$$.. Because it so easily messes up your sleep lol. I took 200mg one day and no problems. The next day I took same dose and at night I woke up after 4 hours of sleep feeling like crap lol. I've found out how the drug builds in your system and can stay for days. Very tricky drug. Only if you take like 50mg per day you don't have to worry. What's your take on it? Have you personally used this medicine?

Is Modafinil Safe for the heart? I've taken from 50mg up to 200mg. I've heard that people with heart issues should avoid it. But I don't understand/know the reasoning behind this argument. The 200mg dose makes me feel a slight pressure sensation in my heart. It doesn't feel bad bad but still worries me. I guess my blood pressure goes up. I have no clue really. Would love some constructive feedback. Also i drink coffee. Don't know if it contributes to the sensation. Also the sensation lasts a couple of hours only.

@Kksd74628 Hmm.. Interesting.. Why the whole system cannot be changed? Is this negative? I can understand that things like your innate love of learning or curiosity not even changing, & that's a pretty good thing.

@Leo Gura I don't know.. This all seems pretty negative & hopeless to me. What do you mean the core of me won't change? Can you give some examples so i understand? If you mean my Kindness or Love of Learning or Curiosity , then yeah i agree with that. The brain is always changing. You just need more attention and effort to change it as you grow older. I continously change and learn new stuff. I consider my mind very very flexible. As i said previously, if someone is a smoker or a drinker and then stops & lives a completely different lifestyle that's a changed man. Or another example is with people who suffer from OCD. They literally have to change their brain over time doing while doing ERP and they become different people. They no longer react to fear and uncertainty the same way. That's a whole 180 degrees reversal to their orientation towards fear. I speak from direct experience here. Examples of a changed person below. This guy was a hardcore criminal and drug addict. Now he is sober & a counselor helping drug addicts to recover. This guy was a harcore gang member full of hate. Now he goes to church every weekend and has loving relationships around him.

@StarStruck

@Leo Gura Ok. So what you are suggesting basically is that by doing these small practices year by year eventually after a decade you become a completely new person. Although i would argue that some things you rate as small improvements make you fundamentally different (for example being a smoker vs non-smoker). Or another example that's connected to me. Facing fear vs avoiding fear. That's a fundamental difference and not a mere small improvement in my opinion. How would you define someone being fundamentally different?

@integral I have a very good foundation of the basics of HTML, CSS & Javascript. Working for Google is a very difficult task to accomplish. I am currently in the process of making a portfolio so i can apply for jobs here in Greece. If things don't work out here, i may need to go to the Netherlands or somewhere else where someone will give me an opportunity. I have what it takes but it's really hard to enter this industry. Most businesses are ruthless and they look for all sorts of diplomas & etc. Keep in mind i am self-taught. This guy is a motivation for me because he got into the industry in his early 30s and now makes 6 figures.

@Loving Radiance What does contratry action means? Yes i completely agree that being spiritually connected to God is very important. And thankfully i am connected to God more than ever before in my life. I am receiving guidance and clues.