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@Leo Gura Ok. Thank you.

@Leo Gura I definitely respect your experience but i am also concerned about snorting this substance when in the picture it states that H332 is harmful if inhaled... (I am no chemist and i have no understanding of these things).. But my brain is OCD-like & wants 100% certainty even though that is impossible... lol How can you tell if it is fake or not? How do you judge it? You said in a video that you judge it by the color.. Should i even try it if it is not a clear color? I really don't know what to do sometimes lol.

@Leo Gura I am not sure about that. Check the picture i posted on this post.. Have you tried snorting it? If you are afraid of not having the pure thing then what should you do besides trying a small dose?

@OBEler Hmm.. Kinda weird.. Because everytime you smoke something you probably breathe in some of the substance through the nose too because of the smoke.. Ok so i guess 5meo malt is not recommended to be snorted.. What about 5meo dmt? And can you recommend me a good roa besides plugging?

@OBEler Ok thank you. This is good to know. Yes..but it also says H332 is harmful if inhaled... I believe that inhaling 5-meo-malt is a common roa..

@Kingston Talking of torture.. that is actually my worst fear .. getting tortured by some Mexican Drug Cartel Animals.. lol. So from what i understand.. God has no fear because 'he' is formless and we have fear because we have a form. Also, i recently got a taste of Love while on shrooms.. But i definitely go all the way and try something stronger like 5meo..

Leo says at some point of the video something like (i am paraphrasing) Now.. this all seems very negative to me and i don't understand it... God has put in us those desires to chase pleasure, be secure, comfortable, have money, avoid pain,illness & etc.. But then i feel like there is something wrong to having these desires.. Does not God want us to do good , be happy and thrive??If not then why did he instill those desires within us? From what Leo said in this video i get the feeling like there is something wrong to want to be happy and feel good in your body just because God accepts everything or something like that... Maybe God is fine living a torturous life but certainly my experience is the exact opposite and everything inside me screams to improve things for the better... How do you reconcile that? I don't understand this. And it seems negative, perverse and twisted to me.

@Breakingthewall Yes i agree. No. I am Pure Consciousness. I was never even born. (I would like a definition of the absolute vs a definition of the relative btw, i am curious because maybe i don't understand these defintions correctly).

@Breakingthewall I don't know about that. Yes , i don't deny the appearances inside the Absolute. So what do you think when Michael Singer says that the world has nothing to do with us? I don't understand. This only makes sense if the world is random without a God behind it.

@Breakingthewall What do you mean it is useless? Also, i think there is only the absolute. The relative is a construction of the ego-mind.

What does it mean when someone says that Consciousness is an impersonal field. I don't get it... Sounds kinda negative.

@Carl-Richard I agree. But i am also constantly aware of a body and its feelings, thoughts , etc.

Hello everyone. I have been taking benzos (mostly diazepam) for the last 3 weeks. I have not abused the medication. I take it temporarily for a condition that i face. Anyways.. now i am preparing to quit taking diazepam completely. Is it ok to stop taking the medication cold turkey or should i taper off? Today i felt a "weird" sensation in my heart but i don't know if it is related to diazepam or not, and now i am kinda in a fearful state.. I do not feel any signs of withdrawal or a serious physical need for the drug. Keep in mind , that i have not abused the substance these last 3 weeks that i am taking it.

@flowboy Yeah... The doctor told me i can go either way.

Hello everyone. I want to try 100mg of modafinil tomorrow morning. But i don't want it to negatively affect my sleep. What's your experience with taking modafinil and sleeping at night? I read that modafinil has a long half-life and this is why i am concerned.

@Arthogaan Hmm.. Interesting.. So what is the dose currently that works best for you??

@Arthogaan Do you recommend this substance? What's your take on it?

@Cireeric Yeah.. it seems its about finding the right dose. Do you recommend this substance? I would like to know your opinion. Because i have very little experience with this substance and i wanna run an experiment with it.

@Leo Gura How many mgs do you use?? And .. do you still recommend this substance?? I just wanna try it for the experience. I took 100mg early in the morning. And i like the effect. Makes me a little bit more aware/conscious i would say. Also gave me a smooth light buzz which i like.

@acidgoofy How many miligrams you take though ??

@Leo Gura If i take it early in the day, will it affect at all my sleep at night?? I am asking because of the long half life..

Hello everyone. I have obtained some modafinil and i wanna try it it. I would like to start with 100mg. I have not done much research on the drug , although i know some things. I read that it has a long half-life of 12 hours. But from my experience with other drugs those half life numbers are pretty inaccurate many times.... Anyways my question is this: If i take 100mg of modafinil at morning will i be able to sleep well at night? Thanks.

I am watching Leo's latest video about falling in love with life. Some great principles overall but there is something i don't like about the video. Basically what i don't like is that he presents a very very Contigent form of happiness and joy with life. (Some could argue that all happiness is contigent). I am of the opinion that you should strive for the best but not be attached to anything whatsoever. You don't really control anything. There are an infinite amount of variables out of your control. For example i am learning certain skills the last few years. Some very valuable skills. But i always know that anything can happen. Anything could go wrong and destroy all my progress in a heartbeat. Tomorrow a flower pod maybe drop in my head from a balcony and destroy all my skills. All my years of learning to do X,Y,Z completely gone. Stuff like this happens. Or maybe you get some unexpected dementia. Or whatever else. What do you do in such cases? With Leo's latest video logic , you will just end up killing yourself. Or always be super paranoid about stuff going wrong. There is no way to be 100% sure of anything in this life. All yours investments may never pay off. My point is this: Its good to do stuff but never cling to any of it. Otherwise you will end up killing yourself. Ernrest Hemingway killed himself after losing his memory. What would Leo do if he got a severe illness tomorrow? How would he behave? Would he still continue on living if he was quadriplegic or something like this where he couldn't do much?? It seems to me that Leo is the type of person who wouldn't handle something like this very well. It doesn't align with his character. He would probably kill himself . He even admitted that he would do such thing , if he was stuck in wage slavery... I see some people that are in very bad states with terrible illnesses that find meaning and joy in life without killing themselves. And that is my role model. To always find a reason to live despite anything that might go wrong. You can rely on contigent happiness but this way, you are always looking over your shoulder for stuff that may go wrong. I know this because i have struggled with OCD for years. Your mind is always ''What if this goes wrong, what if that goes wrong''. That's not a way to live either. Most people live this way actually. Their happiness is a house of cards ready to collapse at an instance. You can destroy a person super super easily. After a certain point, you get so tired of living like that, that you are like ''fk it i don't care anymore''. Something similar happens to many homeless people and etc. After a certain point they don't care anymore and they are more happy than they used to . Like the person below. Or another example is Charles Bukowski. The great thing about him, was that he accepted being a drunk and didn't care to change it. He was ok, dying a drunk. This made him more happy. (I am not recommending for someone to be a drug addict or something like this. My point is different. My point is that its good to not care too much otherwise you will suffer for it greatly. Life will punish you if you care too much.) What about this video advice? Is this relevant and valid anymore ?

I am trying to understand why some people are shy and others not. What is the fundamental reason/reasons. Can someone give me a good explanation?

The last period of my life i have been learning more and more about game, pickup , etc. Also i have been doing a practice where i ask people for directions when i go outside for a walk. I am still not ready to pickup a woman. I need more preparation. Every day i see that pickup is more and more a possibility for me. It seemed like an impossibility not long ago. Anyways the #1 thing holding me back if a lot of scientism type of crap that i have read/listened/watched online. For example i read a book and watched many vids from an evolutionary pscychologist named David Buss. And he cites multiple times how basically women are attracted so much to resources and men with position of power. There is definitely a lot of truth to that but i have seen evidence that go contrary to that. I don't have much money and power and this is why i am afraid to start pickup. I have this belief in my head that if i had more money then everything would be so easy for me with women. But from what i've learned so far this is an illusion.. Moreover, i've heard from this David Buss scientist that if you get many rejections , it lowers your mate value, your self confidence and etc. All this has left be very fearful of crumbling when i get rejected by a girl.. These scientistis have never done pickup or dated more than a handful of women. Yet they act like they know stuff. Its so frustrating.