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A friend of mine used to teach a martial arts fighting style called mad bear.

No, I was just giving opinion. ?

There are the three types. Intellectually centered Emotionally centered always feeding on queen of hearts food Instinctive-moving centered Instinctive-moving centered people embody what they do. They have a natural genius for imitation. That's why I type Jim Carey as an instinctive-moving centered person. Appears he became Realized shortly after this chapter in his life.

Willie knows how to sing from his Queen of hearts at times. So, it's an expansive frame of reference.,,,,

I appreciate Martin for not hiding his hypocrisy. He confesses it elsewhere, as well. Mr pottymouth becomes Mr grouchy pants. Flagrantly expressing negative emotions. The Queen of hearts represent the 'i's in us which scream with the most intensity. Everyone has Queen of hearts. Queen of hearts food. How does Queen of hearts food affect you? That's a good question to sit with.

@CreamCat Not meaning to be disagreeable but splatter gun won't stop an angry charging grizzly. They can move so fast,,,

@Keyhole I agree. I forgot to mention.

There is a basis given for the idea of maximum attraction between certain endocrine types. It's difficult to find information on this. A fresh google search revealed this. https://archive.org/stream/TheEsotericHistoryArchive_46/BodyTypesPublication_djvu.txt

@Keyhole @Bill W Glad to hear your voices. Please excuse me for shitting with the door open. Always affecting one's frame of reference. My sharing this is inevitable. So, Here it is.

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Bingo.

@jbram2002 It's good to hear from you. Even though I remembered your name wrong, ? All the synchronicities,,,,, I'm just watching.

I relate to Joe Walsh sometimes because he's a Solar Saturn-Mars essence type.

I lack some aspects of courage that I formerly expressed when I lived as a drinker. For instance, when around a group of friends (half lit alpha males) I would enjoy changing the music from something 'tough guy', like Hank Williams Jr. to something like Dreamboat Annie just to watch their uncomfortableness and see who would speak out and what they would say. What I thought was my own quirkiness I later realized as 'a type of drunk' that also manifested in others. Is there an Andy Kaufman archetype? If so or regardless, Jim Carey was able to embody that in his portrayal of Andy in the movie Man on the Moon. Sitting with uncomfortable things though later proved helpful in being able to let go and forgive others for their being in fear and lashing out. I nearly had my private pilots license when I was just 17. Before I got consumed by fear. The older I get, the greater my fear of height becomes but I don't care about overcoming my fear of heights anymore. It doesn't matter. I'm a walking contradiction but I don't care about that either. Never underestimate the value of light heartedness. A message that I would find again in the writings of Maurice Nicoll. To be able to play the role of the fool or Idiot requires inner separation from the fear of being the fool or Idiot.

@d0ornokey Good Observations. @RunningBD Good Insights. Tom articulates a number of things about balance really well in his last video.

Recorded in my journal in the last hour. Pasting here. it took an enormous effort to just record the following while experiencing effects. I was partly motivated by fear. There was a rush of fear, then ,,,,, nothing. 17 mcg of 5 meo dmt vaporized first time. Probably too much. Time stops. Crickets drown out ,,,,, off and on Cranial blasted open Journaled into my fear realtime, still tripping but coming down Whew,,,,, That was very intense. There was a real heavy body lode in it. Awareness didn't alter. It did feel like time stopped in a way. https://m.psychonautwiki.org/wiki/Perception_of_eternalism still quite a bit of forehead pressure and crickets louder than usual. To some this will really sound crazy,,,, crickets signify activation of a minor chakra http://humanityhealing.net/wp-content/uploads/2010/10/The-Cerebellum-and-the-Alta-Major.pdf

That was very intense. There was a real heavy body lode in it. Awareness didn't alter. It did feel like time stopped in a way. still quite a bit of forehead pressure and crickets louder than usual. To some this will really sound crazy,,,, crickets signify activation of a minor chakra http://humanityhealing.net/wp-content/uploads/2010/10/The-Cerebellum-and-the-Alta-Major.pdf

From Hexagram 8 Page 117 While the Cosmic Consciousness is capable of thinking, it is primarily a feeling Consciousness that operates through the force of attraction between complementary aspects. page 118 - "Holding Together" in the sense of being centered within, occurs when a person's true self is the sovereign within---the sole authorizor of the validity of his feelings. The person who is thus sovereign over himself holds together with the Cosmos and receives from it chi energy and help, while contributing back to it his feelings and unique experiences. Because he then contributes to the Cosmic Evolution, he never needs to ask "What is my purpose?" Because he is all the while fulfilling it. ,,,,,,,A person gives away his self-authorizing ability when he adopts any self images (ego) either to conform to or rebel against the collective ego.,,,,,, ,,,,,,The collective ego achieves this controlling role in a person's life through its promotion of the idea that the source of evil lies in humans' animal nature and that it is the source of all human inadaquaccies and guilt.it proposes that without its control and supervision, humans would supposedly run wild, creating chaos.,,,,,, not

Here's more jibberish! ? 17 mcg of 5 meo dmt vaporized first time. Probably too much. Time stops. Crickets drown out ,,,,, off and on Cranial blasted open Journaled into my fear realtime, still tripping but coming down Whew,,,,,

When we can carry the red thread of the present moment for a whole day and not drop it. Then eventually, days at a time and finally get to the point of never dropping it. I vaguely remember Fourth Way text about the 'fake it till you make it' practice. After posting this, I'll go search,,, I thought this applicable from a Christian perspective. A lesson from an online Course during Lent a couple of years ago, about the pendulum of emotions. The yo yo of Being. Session 6: Growing Your Being "As we are raised in Being, so is meaning transformed. As we fall back, the old meanings return." — Psychological Commentaries on the Teaching of G.I.Gurdjieff and P.D. Ouspensky by Maurice Nicoll, Volume 5 Commentary by Cynthia Bourgeault This arresting comment by Maurice Nicoll, one of the early British students of the Gurdjieff Work, provides some useful insights into how one might engage practically with the task of "perfecting oneself in the sense of Being," the goal of the second Obligolnian striving. First off, what does it mean to "be raised in Being?" Setting aside for the moment the question of "who" or "what" does the raising, let's start with the obvious — namely, that if we can be raised in being, Being must have levels. This is not hard to verify internally. With a flick of your imagination you can picture yourself in a relatively higher state of being. Maybe it's sitting on your meditation cushion, relaxing in nature, or almost anywhere you feel yourself in a greater spaciousness, equanimity, and inner alertness. Another flick of your imagination and you can (all too) easily recall those low-being states: when you're caught in negativity or reactivity, or as well when your attention is totally scrambled and dissipated, like noodling on the internet or wandering through a task on autopilot. During the day we travel up and down on the yo-yo of Being. Some days yo-yo feels like an understatement; it's more like bungy-jumping! Now what does this "meaning is transformed" part mean? Again, you can easily check this out in practical experience. When you're in a higher state of Being — spacious, grounded, present — it's easier to stay in touch with those loftier and more generous impulses: things like compassion, trust, forgiveness. It's easier to ponder the great questions like "What am I here for?" — or even to see, beneath the fragmented surface of things, a deeper order and presence. When you're in a lower state — negative or distracted — your perception of reality tends to get co-opted by mental scenarios, projections, cynicism, self-importance, urgency: all the small-self agendas. Ever notice how often perceptions based in negativity inevitably turn out to be skewed? In a lower state, it gets harder to hold onto large ideas like compassion, trust, non-reactivity. Even Being itself can sound like just another concept! From a Gurdjieff Work perspective, falling to a lower level of Being inevitably entails moving to a less energized state. This may not seem obvious to you at first, because negative states can sometimes feel highly energy-charged. But in the Work, the tip-off is not the state of your emotions but the state of your attention. A state in which you're collected, gathered, focused, present, is a higher energy state. This means that it is running at a more powerful magnitude of Being; it supports the "upward" transformation of meaning. A lower-level state plunges you back below the critical threshold needed for maintaining lively contact with that deeper aliveness of "Real I." Inevitably, once your reservoir of Being starts to get drawn down you fall back into identification with your smaller self, which in turn draws your reservoir of being down still further. It's a complete vicious circle. Unfortunately, it's not easy to spot when we move to a lower state. Just as most people can't see the moment they fall asleep at night, so they also can't and don't notice when Being starts to sink. And when you think about it, that actually makes sense: you can't go consciously unconscious! But with training and sincerity you can begin to notice more promptly when you've gotten hooked, and at least not feed the downward slide! Sometimes, as the Psalms say, you simply have to "wait in the darkness crying for the Lord." The ability to see a deteriorating state does not immediately mean that you can do anything about it. You have to endure for a while (sometimes a long while!) in the gap between your power to see and your power to do. It's one of the most uncomfortable tight spots in the whole spiritual journey. But simply noticing is a far more important act than you might at first expect: Because as you sit there in that unaccustomed helplessness and exposure, you gradually begin to see that there really is a "something" or "someone" who calls you back to your deeper spiritual intention. And it's not your own personal efforts but your growing trust in this deeper relational field working on your behalf that will eventually get you there. For the time being, your job is simply to notice as promptly as you can, always with a small thanks offered to that unknown "something" that always seems to notice, even when we don't, and to intervene on our behalf, as the ombudsmen of our real yearning for Being. To Practice What I've just given you here is actually a very condensed introductory course on what the Gurdjieff Work calls "self-observation." This is the capacity to notice, without judgment or self-criticism, what's physically going on inside you from an objective, "third-person" point of view. Today I invite you to further explore any or all of today's teaching in the laboratory of your own more being. Here are some practical suggestions: 1. Begin each day with at least twenty minutes of meditation, if that is not already your usual practice. (It is best to start this exploration into self-observation by "tanking up" your reservoir of Being.) 2. As much as possible, notice as your state of being shifts, particularly when you "fall asleep" (Work terminology for falling to a lower state of being). 3. What effect (if any) does simply noticing have on your state? 4. Can you begin to spot the hooks that drag your level being down? This should keep you more than busy! As you're so moved, please record your work-in-progress in your journal. "Becoming Truly Human: Gurdjieff's Obligolnian Strivings" is a joint project of Cynthia Bourgeault and Spirituality & Practice. Content copyright 2017 by Cynthia Bourgeault. Photo credit: Steve Nathans-Kelly and Wisdom Way of Knowing. Rev. Dr. Cynthia Bourgeault is the Principal Teacher and Advisor for The Contemplative Society (www.contemplative.org), an inclusive nonprofit association that encourages a deepening of contemplative prayer based in the Christian Wisdom tradition while also welcoming and being supportive of other meditation traditions. Spirituality & Practice (www.SpiritualityandPractice.com) is a multifaith website presenting resources for people on spiritual journeys. The organization is helping to build a worldwide community of people vitally engaged with the wisdom of the spiritual traditions and serving the world through spiritual practice. from https://www.spiritualityandpractice.com/ Im not sure if they're still offering this,,,?

What if it already happened and is in our past?

https://www.spiritualityandpractice.com/galleries/category/12s#/25/12-courage https://www.spiritualityandpractice.com/galleries/category/12s#/23/12-connections The people and issues that repel me are pointing to the parts of my unconscious self not yet integrated.

I liked this Documentary also. It complements the older 5 part Documentary The Pyramid Code pointing out the precession of the equinoxes and cycles of histories. In Gurdjieff's science fiction allegory Beelzebub's Tales to his Grandson, ancient Egypt is linked to an earlier Atlantis civilization. Thanks.

Osho's opinion on Nicoll's Commentaries Osho: "Nicoll was a disciple of Gurdjieff, and unlike Ouspensky, he never betrayed, he was not a Judas. A true disciple to the very last breath and beyond it too. The Commentaries of Nicoll are vast. I don′t think anybody reads them. Thousands and thousands of pages, but if one takes the trouble one is immensely benefited. Nicoll′s Commentaries should be considered as one of the best books in the world." (Osho - Books I have Loved) Short review by Sam Copley Possibly Osho considered Nicoll to be one of Gurdjieff′s most important disciples, because Nicoll had a light touch in his teaching and writing and warned that anyone who adopted a serious demeanor to appear to be a follower of "The Work" probably was far from it, this in accordance with the saying inscribed on a wall at one of his group houses: "Serious things can be understood through laughable things." In his Commentaries he writes, after having explained something to his readers, "Now you may think that this is a little solemn. Actually it is not so, but, like everything else in The Work, must be taken with a grain of salt." And: "What is this Work about? It is about enjoying yourself, but people cannot enjoy themselves. It is the most difficult thing to do." from https://www.satrakshita.com/gurdjieff_books.htm

I have a weird sense of humor sometimes. The Voice of Happiness After Bankei had passed away, a blind man who lived near the master's temple told a friend; Since I am blind, I cannot watch a person's face, so I must judge his character by the sound of his voice. Ordinarily when I hear someone congratulate another upon his happiness or success, I also hear a secret tone of envy. When condolence is expressed for the misfortune of another, I hear pleasure and satisfaction, as if the one condoling was really glad there was something left to gain in his own world. "In all my experience, however, Bankei's voice was always sincere. Whenever he expressed happiness, I heard nothing but happiness, and whenever he expressed sorrow, sorrow was all I heard."