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Ted Nottingham just released a good introduction/summary about Gurdjieff. Sex sells. It's so flagrantly used in mass advertising. Maurice Nicoll in the Psychological Commentaries states that not sex but negativity is what actually'makes the world go around' in cultural sleep. Both perspectives are articulated in Gurdjieffs writings. People draw energy from the negativity that's so easily found in news and politics. He also says we have a right not to be negative. Excerpts from the Psychological Commentaries on the Teachings of Gurdjieff and Ouspensky- ‘YOU HAVE A RIGHT NOT TO BE NEGATIVE’ “Now the Work says you have a right not to be negative...To be able to feel this draws down force to help you. You stand upright, as it were, in yourself, among all the mess of your negativeness, and you feel and know that it is not necessary to lie down in that mess. To say this phrase in the right way to yourself, to feel the meaning of the words: ‘I have a right not to be negative,’ is actually a form of self- remembering, of feeling a trace of real ‘I,’ that lifts you up above the level of your negative ‘I’s which are all the time telling you without a pause that you have every right to be negative.” V. 1, p. 161 GIVING UP SUFFERING “A man, a woman, cannot awaken if they retain this dreadful weight, their mechanical suffering, and nourish it, by a continual process of justifying it.” V. 4, p. 1240 GIVING UP SUFFERING II “A man, a woman, must give up their suffering and sacrifice that first of all, because this can lead to a change of Being. For this to happen one must be able to see through self-observation what one suffers from...There is the suffering of man towards woman, of woman towards man...Then take all the mechanical forms of suffer- ing that arise from feeling that you have never been understood by your parents, your husband, your wife, or your children...It is exactly this suffering derived from life and all its awkwardness that has to be sacrificed.” V. 3, pp. 850, 852 GIVING UP SUFFERING III “To serve the Work means to obey what it teaches you to practice on yourself. You want to be gloomy and moody, to object, and so on, and you observe your state and begin to separate from it—then you are serving the Work. And in so doing you are giving up some of your mechanical suffering.” V. 3, p. 855

This old tune popped into my mind I did a search and found. First time I've saw what they looked like from back in the day,,, ,,,,,,,,,,,,, "I can't complain but sometimes I still do". Life's been good to me so far,,,,,,,,,, I've always liked this song. Joe brags but Joe also expresses gratitude. His humor is sometimes a healthy self deprecating. Joe is very mars/adrenal essence. Mars energy is just destructive by nature. Destructive does not imply negative though. Thank you for making this song, Joe.

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It's been an interesting day. Ive been reminded how reaching conclusions (judgement) about others can make one miserable. Sometimes it's difficult to remember to just,,, let go...

@fridjonk It feels great to connect with kindred spirits. ? I LOVE those pictures! Thank you! ??‍♂️

There's what I take as a jovial quality to a lot of Black Sabbath songs. The way they completely change tempo mid song sometimes gives me the giggles. They have such a rawness about them. Raw Red energy. Elan vital Pink Floyd's -The Wall is an album that I find is mostly dark. I don't enjoy it like I do Dark Side of the Moon.

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Black_Sabbath I never payed attention to the lyrics of this song until about an hour ago. Interesting,,,, This isn't the first transcendental Ozzy song I've stumbled over. He's a paradoxical character as well as guitarist Tony Iommi.

I remember pissing and moaning to my father several times over the fast pace of life we maintained. What the hell man? 2 or 3 small businesses besides the ranch. We were always going ninety to nothing through all four seasons. The constant concern I felt about my fathers bank debt growing up and working my ass off added to felt need for dissociation I sought through alcohol and drugs. I didn't really take up reading books until I was in my early twenties as at least a fairly beneficial form of dissociation. Doing my time in the nervous hospital right out of high school,,,,, I stayed poor most of my life. Not many options other than farm laborer, jack of all trades, go and do whatever was being pointed at. Putting out whatever was the hottest fire, so to speak. Go go go go go go go Goddamnit! Borrowed $10,000 from the bank for three years and bought a neighbors trailer house. Paid it off in two. I've always hated debt and borrowed money. We moved it down the highway one Sunday morning with 'the big tractor'. Go go go go go go go go go go. One time in the mid 90's in the horse-barn my father turned to me and said "When I die, I want to be in full stride and I hope my nose plows up the ground. I'm not going to slow down." In my mind I'm sure it was something like -fuckgodamnitfuckyfuckgodamnit. The Rolling Stones song 19th nervous breakdown held a special significance for me. I can't say I wasn't brought up right, though. In hindsight I can see I was definately brought up right. I just didn't appreciate it. I had no idea. I did,, but I didn't,,,

Life is too short to waste it on boring sex Negativity kills sex energy faster than anything. Quickie sex is energy depleting, just like engaging in shameful masturbation. You can do anything you want as long as you're present while you do it. Just say no to boring sex if you would rather masturbate. Be honest and present whatever you do.

If you have a song stuck in your head, hear's one to replace it. ?

Regardless of how her life ended, there's no denying Whitney Houston was gift to the world.

A H Almaas's book specifically on Inquiry. SPACECRUSIER INQUIRY. In this book he invites the reader to discover for themselves "the optimizing thrust of Being". On my 3rd or 4th rereading it finally sunk in and registered when he referred to what he calls the Diamond Guidance as another name for the Holy Spirit. My copy is slightly used. The Angel of Revelation In other traditions, the Diamond Guidance is sometimes called the angel of revelation, the holy spirit that brings the word or message from the source. It is the angel that guides us to Beingness that is our ground, our nature, our source. It is the true friend, the total friend, because the Guidance’s only concern is for you as a soul to go back to your source, to be who and what you can be, with total acceptance, total support, total guidance, total kindness. The soul needs to place herself in the right attitude for this kind of blessing to come. You have to do the work of correctly orienting yourself. Basically this means harmonizing your consciousness with the mode of presence and operation of the Guidance. This is what we are exploring when we discuss inquiry – the right orientation, the right posture, the ways of being and functioning that will invite the Guidance. Spacecruiser Inquiry, pg. 223 His book The Void- is a thin, intense, little book. The more messed up a person is, such as as in arrested development. The better the chances are for waking up. One of those counterintuitive things. It hinges on one's capacity for sitting with uncomfortable issues. Deficient states can then transform into spacious felt qualities of essence or beingness. Deficient Emptiness Depends on the Vulnerability of the Personality Structure The sense of deficient emptiness depends on how vulnerable or incomplete the personality structure is. For normal and neurotic structures -- where there is a stable sense of identity -- the deficiency is very much unconscious and successfully defended against. For those with severe mental disorders, the weaknesses or rips in their structures expose them more readily to this deficient emptiness and the anxieties and pains accompanying it or in reaction to it. The Void, pg. 128 https://www.diamondapproach.org/glossary/refinery_phrases/diamond-guidance https://www.diamondapproach.org/glossary/refinery_phrases/deficient-emptiness

Being on the radar of people who think they know me, along with their projections from out of the first tier gossipy circuits,,, Its why I totally enjoy going to Walmart at 1:00am. ??‍♂️

?‍♂️Stupidity is its own punishment. = A crushed analogy generalizing about the concept of sin. I've repeatedly experienced this subjective realization. What kind of shit have I gotten myself into? May be a good question to ponder concerning the hijacking of essence by false personality. The required journey of developing an ego and then transcending it. In going to order Diamonds from Heaven I discovered a comprehensive two volume set from Stan Grof just released back in August. In peddling my soul to Amazon Prime, I'll have them all by Wednesday.

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You are a luminous egg Both Castaneda and Ocke de Boer write about us as luminous eggs. This is a Seers description of our lower astral bodies, perhaps. I just added the adjective - 'lower', you should know. It seems this way but it may not be. I don't experience all of this. Just a part of it. The experience of having a clean atmosphere in the luminous egg is being completely present and having all of my attention collected. As Jesus puts it in ACIM, you then "have your being". Interacting with the cultural ego results sometimes in my egg getting holes in it. My attention gets dispersed when there holes in my energy egg and my atmosphere is polluted. If I fall completely out of Witness Consciousness, the egg stays in disrepair until I remember myself. It could be 2 days, 2 months or 2 years. That's the danger of 'sleep'. Luminous implies light from within. This came to me just now in a google search. I've observed the degree of my being, the being I have, fluctuates. This was a teaching from Contemporary Christian Contemplative Phd. Rev. Cynthia Bourgeault which she called The yo yo of Being. This was 2 or 3 years ago. Witnessing awareness affects this emotional/psychological yo yo of Being energy. Don't take my word for it. See if you can observe this phenomena in your inner world.

The power of sitting with it. C. Bourgeault says at 30:33 - "If all you can do is wave to yourself as you 'go over the waterfall', you've at least done something,,," About whenever we become hooked by emotional reactivity. The power of Witness Consciousness can eat/dissolve self importance, inflation, 'peacock feathers', as well as acedia, anger, self pity, confusion,,, etc.,, https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Acedia A little bit of Castaneda- Self-importance is another thing that must be dropped, just like personal history. The world around us is very mysterious. It doesn't yield its secrets easily. Now we are concerned with losing self-importance. As long as you feel that you are the most important thing in the world you cannot really appreciate the world around you. You are like a horse with blinders, all you see is yourself apart from everything else. Self-importance is our greatest enemy. Think about it--what weakens us is feeling offended by the deeds and misdeeds of our fellow men. Our self-importance requires that we spend most of our lives offended by someone. Every effort should be made to eradicate self-importance from the lives of warriors. Without self-importance we are invulnerable. The idea of death is the only thing that can give sorcerers courage. Strange, isn't it? It gives sorcerers the courage to be cunning without being conceited, and above all it gives them courage to be ruthless without being self-important. Sorcerers stalk themselves in order to break the power of their obsessions. There are many ways of stalking oneself. If you don't want to use the idea of your death, you can use poems to stalk yourself.

A case of less is more,,,