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@HiddenAway Despite his alcoholism he carried the Crazy Wisdom Lineage of Tibetan Buddhism to the west and founded Naropa University in Colorado. His book Cutting Through Spiritual Materialism is a favorite of mine. He was certainly a controversial character. My practice is pretty light. 20 minutes of Centering Prayer in the morning and another sit in the evening. 'Exercising the muscle of objectless or non-conceptual awareness,,,,,, Sometimes I call myself a rogue student of the Ridhwan School aka the Diamond Approach. Sometimes I'm just an Idiot.

Marc, Sometimes that's how my 'impromptu engineering' turns out,,, ? ////////://///////////

Howdy, @HiddenAway Sage in the attic reminds me of the story of Chogum Trungpa sitting in the attic of some folks house ( I forgot who) in New York for several weeks just drinking one beer after another when he first came to the United States. I think the story was told by William Patrick Patterson in his book Eating the I. I share your interest in keeping monkey chatter low. When the monkey mind gets out of control, I turn into an unguided Golum. Welcome ?‍♂️

Cut twice and it's still too short,,,,, Damn, where's that board stretcher. ? ??‍?

Enjoying this Joe Rogan podcast with Russell Brand. It's good to see how lighthearted and civil they are to each other when discussing topics that they don't necessarily agree on. At about an hour into it, the discussion goes into vegetarianism,,, hunting elk,, etc., After this, they touch on addiction, use of psychedelics. Ive avoided watching/listening to Joe Rogan very often in the past because the length of his podcasts. This has been a great conversation and I'm only half way through it. I have a new respect for both of these guys.

I'm a novice carpenter. Still waiting to see a board stretcher hit the market. ? I'm my best friend as well as my worst enemy. We're all going to hang out together this weekend.

Psychonaut report On Lsd my boundaries disappear for the most part = Love Although chemically induced, it provides one with the experience of 'stepping onto the ground.' Under the influence I've noticed I'm really in tune with my cat as opposed to when I'm in narrative consciousness. No problems. Terence McKenna prefered mushrooms as a psychedelic over Lsd. He said lsd was like Psychological drano. I get along with both ok. Everyones chemistry is different. Using psychedelics needs to be approached with caution and common sense. Being in tune with ones inner truth every now and then as a signpost on the path is a necessity.

Watching the movie Terms of Endearment works for me.

@GrowthPilgrim @Waken I very much agree with both of you. Pardox is near. ?

I got started making comments above about the Terence McKenna clip below regarding the idea of the noosphere. Guess I should have mentioned that and maybe include the clip.

I thought some contemporary students of Teilhard de Chardin had proposed the idea that the internet was connecting us together, manifesting as the noosphere or global mind. ?‍♂️ There is probably more to it than what I summarize with just one sentence. Jung brought the notion of individuation being a crucial aspect of Actualization. Individuation requiring integration of our varied aspects. This is where I see the genuine True Self and false self acting as basic mirrors or templates to one another. The false self acting unconsciously and the True Self rising from the ashes of the Alchemical fire or switching metaphors being born out of the processes of integration and individuation. Ive said that what Almaas refers to as the "Diamond Guidance" is the same thing as the Holy Spirit in the Christian Tradition. This note is just a preface to a quote of his below from The Pearl Beyond Price. Ever-Deepening and Expanding Individuation The presence of the Personal Essence makes it possible to have direct contact with present-centered experience, to be present, open and vulnerable to experience. This capacity, aided by the operation of the objective understanding of the Diamond Guidance, makes it possible to absorb present experience readily. One’s life becomes the metabolism of the interaction of the essential aspects with the environment. This continuing and ever expanding integration is the process of development of the Personal Essence. This ever-deepening and expanding individuation and maturity leads ultimately to the nonpersonal realms of Being, like those of Cosmic Consciousness, Nonconceptual Reality and Absolute Truth; this is the natural and spontaneous outcome of the development of the Personal Essence. It is part of the human potential, and if the process of maturation is proceeding in its correct path, then it is bound to occur. The presence of the Personal Essence is a sense of Being, of experiencing “I am.” There is presence without resistance. So it is bound to go deeper into more expanded realms of Being. This understanding that the experience of “I am” can lead directly to the nonpersonal realms is not an uncommon one among teachers of Being. Pearl Beyond Price, pg. 195 from: https://www.diamondapproach.org/glossary/refinery_phrases/individuation

Good video! ? Thanks, Marc

From narrative (egoic operating system) to witness Consciousness Going back and rereading in my journal has helped me to see how much I repeat myself. Some of what I've written, I feel, is pretty good, though. Some of it is a little embarrassing. I probably quote A.H. Almaas too much but that's okay in part because no one else hanging around Actualized.org. quotes him at all and he deserves to be quoted some. One reason for my reviewing was to look for and retrieve the following quote by Cynthia Bourgeault. “The repetitive motion of finding oneself through Identification (even true and worthy descriptions) keeps the being energy just below the critical velocity needed to escape the gravitational field of narrative selfhood.” - Cynthia Bourgeault The internal dialogue you keep up inside yourself, regardless of whether it's praise or blame, cuts you off from Witness Consciousness. Witness Consciousness is a state of consciousness that's a treasure which is also a container of being. Witness Consciousness is a state of equanimity that has within it the inherent capacity for self observation. Not so when I'm caught up in my own narrative and opinions and looking for validation of some kind. To bask in the inner silence of Witness Consciousness is unexpected and a felt blessing that was never anticipated. For me, anyway. Witness Consciousness is a state of consciousness. States of consciousness come and go. States of being identified with the story we may have in our head is like unknowingly hitchhiking into hell. The "gravitational field of narrative selfhood" is a state when one is identified with one's own thoughts and emotions. It's easily seen at times in the facial expression of others but rarely recognized about oneself.

Life is beautiful. The paradox of existence. Maurice Nicoll referred to life on earth as a pain factory. “Saints are the eaters of suffering.” said Ocke de Boer Life is still beautiful.

I know a little of what you're dealing with. It seems to me there is more disfunction within families than is usually thought because it's so often covered up when around friends and aqauntances are around. I introduced the word and the concept of shardenfrued to a couple of family membors who are college educated that I thought might be open to pondering the phenomena. It seemed to pique their curiosity and as a result,,,, just may be doing some good. Other family members simply don't care and don't want to know. I would wager that most of the emotional pain we endure come from dealing with semi-toxic/toxic family members. With this element ,, it reminds/helps me to double up my efforts practicing forgiveness and letting go and not being reactive which just feeds the turmoil. Good luck,,,,

I did a trip on an auyawasca compound today. A friend was with me who took 5 dried grams of Cubensis. During the peak of the trip I had a vision of sorts. We were in my bedroom letting the conversation flow where it wanted to. I've painted this room black and have strung some Christmas lights around so It makes for a good setting. Staring into a bookshelf, some small items within transformed into an image of a person sitting in meditation next to a tree. The canopy of the tree no longer stretched toward the sun but instead bent over and drew to a concentration over the top of the meditator where it was then feeding on chi energy flowing out the top of the meditators head. ?‍♂️

@mandyjw I appreciate the spirit of integration with different Teachings which you suggest in your last podcast. One of my former Fourth Way teachers could be described as a lineage holder in a certain line of the Gurdjieff Work. I was really into Castenada at the time as well as Ken Wilber and Eckart Tolle. He would not engage in talking me through the commonalities from these different Teachings and it really turned me off from wanting to continue with him. Lineage holders by nature are often very conservative about what might be considered systems thinking. I was unable to just drop my 1/2 understandings of these other teachings to only concentrate on what he was offering. I know there are some good arguments for my former teacher to have had this stance but the point you made about resolving the disparities between these Teachings which are pointing at the same truth, could be a big boost for a definite percentage of seekers. I may offer possible bridges or common denominators between Abraham Hicks and The Girdjieff Work at some point using the language of Law of Vibrations. Perhaps it's already been done and I'm just not aware of it. To give a peak at this possibility, I googled Gurdjieff law of Vibrations and picked a random result to paste here. -- The law of Seven is a law of vibrations. Just as in modern physics, this ancient idea considers the world to consist of vibrations, and this is a general law to help understand this, for practice use. To increase the rate of vibrations of a material, we need to apply energy to it. E.g, to raise the temperature, you need to apply heat to a substance. In popular physics not much attention is given to the fact that the increase in the rate of vibrations is not always directy related to the rate of application of energy, i.e. applying energy at a constant rate does not always give a constant increase in the rate of vibrations. A very simple example is in heating water from ice to steam - there are two points, the point when the ice is at 0 degrees C, but not yet melted, and the point when the water is at 100 degrees C, but not yet steam. At these two points, one has to keep applying heat for a longer period of time for the temperature to rise... taken from- http://fourthwayschool.org/7law.html ???‍?

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