Zigzag Idiot

It doesn't matter what genre. It doesn't have to be inspirational. It doesn't need to be explained. Everything is welcome. Sad, goofy, angry, happy, inspirational, weird, profound, profane, etc.,,,,

Ted Neugent through the Ages. Ted playing guitar with Amboy Dukes and go go dancers. The galloping rhythm of the song is somehow both humorous and cringeworthy when hearing the lyrics. Ted is also an accomplished bow hunter. He’s a real bad ass. Being an advocate of hunter education and gun ownership reveals his down to earth practicality.

Actualizing our potential brings us together Birds of a feather who flock together Sometimes I'm a crow in peacock feathers I enjoy lightheartedness and sometimes I enjoy arguing Thank you for allowing me some space here @Leo Gura@Keryo Koffa and everyone here,,, "We have to bless the living crap out of everyone." - Matt Kahn

4th of July Digging out a storm cellar and moving around some old railroad ties, I sweated out 3 different changes of clothes today. I put each change of clothes into the shower and stood on them and let the soapy water run over them so that they wouldn't stink as bad, having had a prewash and not stinking up the bedroom and utility. Late in the afternoon I took my tools and drove to a friend's house to help him change out a tire on one of his front wheels. I was out of practice with this kind of chore. There were 3 of us and we were working clumsily against one another but finally prevailed. Midway, we took a break. He doesn't have running water at his house. He has an old hand dug well about 50 foot deep. He lowered a bucket down and brought up some refreshing water that had a great taste! About five buckets he brought up. The temperature of the water very cool. We filled our drink containers several times and took turns pouring the water over one another to cool off. Getting water out of that old well was a neat experience.

The Science of Idiotism is about the hindrances to becoming a Self Realized Being, plus other stuff. The term Idiot here is drawing an the old Greek usage of it as: being oneself,,unpretentious ,,,, But it is used also simultaneously as the standard modern usage of fool because until we 'have our Being', life is experienced on the emotional pendulum connected with dualistic thinking and we are pretty much just a torture to the world, of some kind or other. I used to be an a epic complainer in addition to Alcoholic and coward. After that, I went around depressed and with a long sad face because I couldn't drink alcohol and party it up forever. Some people can but I realized I couldn't. The Science of Idiotism is a little known teaching from the mystic George Gurdjieff. Bruno Martins - The Realized Idiot - is about the only book written solely about The Science of Idiotism. It's very good. I recommend it. You can find a little here and there with a google search. Zigzag idiot is #9 on the Ladder of Reason. Of all the Idiots, I thought this one made the best screen name. I've been working on my self for a few years doing self inquiry. Keeping this Journal out here in front of God and everybody meshes well with the Gurdjieff work of Self Observation and Self Remembering. The whole lot of us are just bad full of bullshit, says Gurdjieff. Justifying,,, self deception,,, Kundabuffer he called it in his book Beelzebub's Tales To His Grandson. I really like AH Almaas's The Diamond Approach. It's Gurdjieff,,, modernized plus psychological explanation of things like our defenses against inadequacy. Is it a schizoid splitting off and sticking ones head in the sand? or do we employ a Grandiose self to shield against inadequacy. This work which includes, very much processing our shadow material can be very painful and destabilizing. Being light hearted can amount to good strategy if it can be sincere and natural. This Work teaches we project any repressed guilt we may have out onto others. I've observed this in myself over time. Also, we don't have to be negative. The practice of not expressing negative emotions has shown me the existence of my own spiritual sleep. We wake up and although might never sleep as deeply again, spiritually, we take naps as E.J. Gold put it. It's very difficult sometimes to just simply feel , without repressing negative emotions and not give expression to them. It pays out big dividends in 'spiritual coin' though. Remind me of this, if, in later post, I go off on a angry emotional rant.

To everyone on this thread. Thank you for your opinions and expressions. I wish you well. If you're in a highly stressful or hostile environment with someone in your face screaming, the behavior you exhibit is probably going to be different than it would be in a calm, peaceful environment. The capacity for self-deception in humans is awesome. We can be so idealistic and hooked into our self image in so many subtle ways. To divide oneself into a higher and a lower nature immediately divides us against ourself/selves,, ,however you want to frame this perspective. We have our instinctual drives that vary among different endocrine types. Humans are oversexed. Some more than others. Men have on average 10 times the amount of testosterone than women have. (Adrenal types ; mesomorphs) are way more physically active than sedate types like those heavily influenced by the (parathyroid,, endomorphs,,, those who are more fleshy). Apart from genetic influences are those of conditioning which influences the personality/ego of the individual. To frame an ideal of what constitutes a person who is interested in actualizing puts a lot of constriction on the subject immediately. But we do it anyway. We need a map of sorts. Thats normal. Phases and chapters of development. We go through times of throwing away our maps and burning our boats. Maybe we decide to lose all discipline concerning diet or reading. What the hell. I can't do all this stuff at one time simultaneously. Quite often I probably appear to be someone who is extremely irresponsible. What is your degree of Being? Do you observe that your degree of Being or Presence, fluctuates in the course of a day. No one stays the same. Expressed hyperbolically- They become a different person every 5 minutes. Rome falls nine times an hour,,, The following is from the I CHING Oracle of the Cosmic Way The idea of attaining peace, as presented by the collective ego, involves retreating from the everyday world, spending hours in contemplation or meditation, and engaging in ascetic practices. Such efforts come from spiritual ambition, which possesses a person once he has adopted the flattering self-image of "being spiritual," or "becoming a superior man. " Berlow is a link to nine separate excerpts concerning actualization by A.H. Almaas Ridhwan (diamondapproach.org)https://www.diamondapproach.org/glossary/refinery_phrases/actualization

Realization can arrive quietly and in an unexpected way,,, What almost inevitably happens? We start napping again by losing the inner quiet that was encountered through understanding. Becoming identified with some idea, emotion, or physical object in our outer world brings back distortions. That’s how it seems anyway. Interesting part of my I CHING reading this morning. Line 6. He meets with firm allegiance, and is still further bound. The King introduces him to the western mountain. "He" in this line refers to the person who has been freed from a loyalty spell that has bound him to the collective ego. The king refers to the Sage, that reintroduces him into unity with the Cosmic Whole, which is here represented by the "western mountain" as a place of harmony. This line informs him that through following the Sage and his inner truth, he has left behind the turmoil of the parallel reality, where opposites rule. The idea of attaining peace, as presented by the collective ego, involves retreating from the everyday world, spending hours in contemplation or meditation, and engaging in ascetic practices. Such efforts come from spiritual ambition, which possesses a person once he has adopted the flattering self-image of "being spiritual," or "becoming a superior man " "The king introduces him..." can refer to this kind of self-flattery, but also to someone who, through such flattery, has devoted himself to becoming the best scholar, athlete, competitor, etc., as mentioned in the main text of this hexagram. This line informs him that he has created a fate by following the path that leads to attaining recognition by the collective ego. He can free himself of that fate by ridding himself of the self-image he has adopted, and asking the Sage for help to restore him to the Cosmic Whole. From: I CHING The Oracle of the Cosmic Way

Karma Yoga The essence of the idea of Karma-Yoga is to meet with unpleasant things equally with pleasant things. That is, in practicing Karma-Yoga, one does not seek always to avoid unpleasant things, as people ordinarily do. Life is to be met with non-identifying. When this is possible, life becomes one's teacher; in no other sense can life become a teacher, for life taken as itself is meaningless, but taken as an exercise it becomes a teacher. It is not life that is a teacher, but one's relation through non-identifying makes it become a teacher. Nothing can change being so much as this practice - namely, to take the unpleasant things in life as an exercise. (Maurice Nicoll, Commentaries, Vol. 1) I listened to this a couple of times today. When working and listening to a YouTube I’ll often play it twice because I’ll usually miss bits of it, Below is another that I recently listened to. I like the gal who gives the introduction,,, Enjoy the life all you can and don’t try to change how you feel. Every feeling you have is correct. There’s a lesson in every feeling we experience.

Looking without expectation Faces are everywhere Their voices are heard but are mostly outside of Time The messages are heard as lies mostly and are not in agreement with the world The messages of the voices from the faces ,,,,, Are they a more involved psychological projection? Am I dipping into the collective unconscious? Intuition whispers this to me Who knows,,,,, Who knows? Only those who are not in a place of concern it seems They have no vested interest in having a body Rare is the individual who has a body and hears some of these messages from the voices of the disconnected faces. I only know of one such person but the messages he hears are not the same ones I hear. He is a poor listener most of the time and to be honest, I think he’s crazy.

One of Our Deepest Attachments is to Our Self-Image How does attachment manifest throughout our lives? It manifests in all areas, in all corners, at all levels, in all its gradations. One of our deepest attachments is to our self-image, both how we see ourselves and how others see us. Our self-image is who we think we are, how we want to be, what we want to have in our life—whether it’s a house that looks a certain way, a certain lover or mate who fills certain criteria. “I’m a good person and deserve this,” or “I’m a bad person.” The self-image we are attached to is often negative. Everyone has some negative self-image. If you’re attached to being good, then you’re always finding proof that you’re a good person. You might be attached to a self-image of being good, strong, powerful, rich, beautiful, popular, being married, single, etc. This is the most superficial layer; and it’s where most people live. The most common level of consciousness is focused on this superficial image level. Diamond Heart Book II, pg. 51 Source of Self-image can be Revealed by Essence This is where Essence is valuable; it will give you the knowledge and understanding that no one else can. If you deeply investigate the issue of self-image, you'll come to the essential aspect that corresponds to self-image. When this happens, you will experience Essence in a way that has no self-image; instead there will be space, openness, inner spaciousness. This is the essential aspect that was lost when you developed the self-image and believed that the self-image was who you truly are. The self-image always has a boundary -- physical, emotional or conceptual. When you experience space, you experience yourself as being without boundaries, without definition, just openness. Diamond Heart Book II, pg. 36

Synchronicity = an accident that is waiting to happen.

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The gruesome video above may have not been authentic. Here’s some intimidating footage of bombs being dropped on a roadway. War is stupid. Sometimes necessary I guess. I felt my expressions about the possible future of the U.S and world economies were clumsy. Anyhow the pace of our changing world seems to be speeding up with A.I., robotics, and nanotechnology. I don’t like killing anything. I’ll kill red wasps, scorpions, some spiders and 2-3 kinds of poisonous snakes. I killed a red wasp with a fly swat the other day. It’s pretty do-able. A friend of mine used to hunt them with a BB gun. Have a nice evening,,,

Ooo We have Artificial Intelligence and Robotics linked together and growing at an exponential rate of increase. In the near future this will impact G.D.P. In many ways. By increasing productivity of products and services while lowering cost of productivity which will also involve reducing human labor. This might be an opportune time to initiate the Universal Basic Income (UBI). Everyone gets a paycheck for just breathing air, basically. Here we have a high rate of unemployment and the resultant increase in sexual activity,,,,, masturbation, sport-fucking, and such. An awareness of human shadow ,,,,education ,,,,? How do I phrase this,,,,? Sexual repression is linked with people being shamed and the result is often more compulsive negative behavior (psychological projection) which leads to forms of violence. Conscious awareness is reduced by this pernicious phenomena called shaming others. Problems of comparable magnitude- $ spent on Military and Defense How terrible wars are and ultimately how unnecessary. This is a guy getting his appendages blown off by a land mine. With only one arm left, he flops around and struggles and probably bleeds out fairly quick. Put yourself in his place. How precious life becomes,,,,

@Soullee I like! Thanks!

Kosmic hopscotch I read Yogananda’s Biography of a Yogi years ago and was fascinated yet had reservations regarding some of the more outlandish seeming metaphysical occurrences. In the mid 1990’s my pastime was spent reading books about life between lives,, books regarding hypnosis of people telling of past lives. Edgar Cayce and other authors like Sylvia Brown and James Von Progue ,,,, Channels like Seth,,, There was definitely a range of credibility with these and other Authors. Todays chores working out in the heat with different YouTubes playing provided for some interesting insights and felt sensations. It’s nice to feel so good that you cry. I’m going back in the house now to take a bath and eat like pig.

Did Jesus Christ ,,,, Does Jesus Christ want people to worship him?

My I-CHING consultation this morning. This is good advice. Actualizers should be aware of the pernicious effects of spiritual materialism that are essentially born out of the mindset of the collective ego. Hexagram 1 Line 3. All day long the superior man is creatively active. At nightfall his mind is still beset with cares. Danger. No blame. The Sage is informing a person not to approach his effort at self-correction (or correcting anything) ambitiously, as if it were a religion, whereby he ignores his normal life. The danger refers to ambition as an activity of the ego; it would seize the development of the true self and impose it upon the person as a belief system, with rigid rules and duties, in the self-flattery that the more conscientious and self-effacing he is in his efforts, the more swiftly he will attain his goal. "Danger" refers to harboring and acting upon the idea that self-effacement and self-sacrifice constitute humility. This idea falsely equates effort at self-correction with asceticism: being poor, working without pay, or being otherwise selfless. This idea is based on the collective ego's idea that the self is the source of evil and therefore needs to be overcome through self-sacrifice. It is the ego that claims the victory when the self is sacrificed. "No blame" refers to a person's freeing himself of all kinds of ambition. At the core of spiritual ambition is the idea that it consists of "work" at "self-development," with the implication that there is a spiritual ladder that ascends upward to heaven. All ambition belongs to the ego, and is dependent on the person's believing in his "original fault," or "inherent deficiency." (See Line 1.) Freeing the true self involves no striving. It is a process of deprogramming layers of mistaken ideas that have repressed and concealed it. All self-images of high achievement, whatever forms they take, only distract and divert a person from freeing his true self. (See p. 541, Freeing Yourself from Self-Images.) This line is also about misunderstandings that surround the nature of creativity. True creativity is a partnership with the Helpers of the invisible world. The presence of ambition is the mark of the person who believes he must do it all. On this account, his creativity suffers. Only when he asks for help from the anonymous Helpers will he collect the help he needs for his inspiration, and also to complete his work. To make this happen, he must first deprogram the ideas behind his ambition, his dependence on the values of the collective ego for his inspiration, and his ideas of insufficiency of self that block synapses in his brain that would connect him with his feelings. (Also see the main text of this hexagram.) Hexagram 10 The Judgment: If the person treads upon the tail of the tiger, it bites him. Here, the Sage describes how certain hidden Helpers a person is born with cooperate to enable him to conduct himself in harmony with the Cosmic Whole. These Helpers are concealed senses, for which the tiger is a metaphor. They are not the commonly known five senses, but are, for example, a person's sense of appropriateness, the sense of loyalty (to his inner truth), the sense of fairness, and the sense of wholeness. These senses are referred to throughout this book as the "metaphorical senses." One of their general characteristics is simplicity, as mentioned in Line 1: they allow a person to respond harmoniously and appropriately to circumstances without the necessity of thinking. They operate as involuntary responses that keep him centered and complete within himself, therefore in harmony with the Cosmos. When a person lives his life in harmony with all his senses, he remains "without blame," meaning, he does not create a fate. The metaphorical senses mentioned here are perceptible by the conscious mind only if a person tunes into them. However, when the conscious mind comes under the domination of the ego, thinking becomes exalted and these senses, as a feeling consciousness, are subsequently diminished as "primitive," repressed into the subconscious, and disregarded. Because they continue to act on their own, subliminally, on behalf of the whole, they have been assumed to be of a purely mechanical nature, as the name "involuntary nervous system" suggests. Their cooperation with the conscious mind can succeed, however, only when the person validates their importance. The senses mentioned are located in muscle tissues throughout the body. They bring about involuntary responses such as blushing, retreating, fleeing, and also advancing along the line of no resistance; the latter is another term for saying they achieve things through trans-formation. One of the functions of a person's metaphorical senses is to protect him from harm coming from outside that threatens his completeness. In short, they enable him to do the right thing in relation to the circumstance of the moment. "Treading on the tail of the tiger" is a metaphor for what happens when a person acts against these senses, because they have become suppressed through conditioning. Then the "tiger bites," in the form of Fate. The suppression of a person's metaphorical senses starts at a very young age, when a program is introjected into the child's psyche that demonizes his "animal nature" as dirty and undesirable. The goal of this program is to have the child regard every fluid and material that naturally comes out of his body as despicable, and every exploration into his sexuality accompanied by guilt. Since his animal nature and sexuality are the very sources of his life force (chi energy), these mistaken ideas trap the person in an impossible paradox: he must regard the very things that comprise his nature and supply him with nourishment as his enemy. A further program is installed by the collective ego which tells the child that he can redeem himself by developing his "higher nature," through following the dictates of the collective ego. However, his rejecting the body as inferior puts spells and poison arrows on his body, creating illnesses and other forms of Fate. A person receives this hexagram when he is experiencing a fate due to the above false program that has disabled his metaphorical senses. (See p. 546, What are Spells and Poison Arrows?) The Sage draws our attention to the difference between self-development defined by the collective ego and the natural desire to free the true self from the ego. The collective ego first cultivates a sense of insufficiency and guilt in the individual in order to create a false dependency on it; in slandering a person's animal nature as "wild," it provides a reason for its hierarchical control over him. By accepting these slanders the person incurs Cosmic blame. When the blame is continued over a period of time, a fate is activated to make him aware that he is in conflict with his true nature. To free the true self, the Sage encourages him to rid himself of the idea of guilt, and then of the entire program of cultivating his "higher nature," which is based on guilt and the idea of insufficiency of self. Part of the collective ego's program is the development of so-called qualities of character and models of conduct that would make him a "superior man." Implied in this program is the self-flattering idea that by becoming guilt-free, the person can become "like God." This hexagram makes a clear distinction between conduct that leads to the fulfillment of a person's destiny, and conduct that creates a fate. Fate is not, as the collective ego would make us believe, something we are born with, that is written in the stars, or is the result of a hostile Cosmos or Nature. It is rather the consequence of conduct resulting from mistaken ideas and beliefs. Fate is a signal that the person is diverted by these beliefs from fulfilling his Cosmic destiny. Spells and poison arrows connected with this hexagram contain phrases such as, "humans' animal nature is the source of evil" "in and of yourself you are not enough to cope with life," and ideas that a person is guilty by nature. Related phrases are, "you have to develop character,"you have to become something," and "you need to become like God." Related spells come from calling things by wrong names that create confusion about their true natures. Among them are calling the ego "the self" and inventing things that do not exist in the Cosmic order of things, such as "soul," for the psyche, "instincts" for the metaphorical senses, and "culprit" for a person who is trapped in mistaken beliefs.

“Your being attracts your life.” - Maurice Nicoll. Profound YouTubes I stumbled across this morning. The following would not embed. Here’s the link anyway,,,, https://youtu.be/dFdukzKmwWU?si=UPl8iETtpUB1K_Da

Self observation and Self remembering Do you ever forget yourself? What about the notion that there is no self or that there is a lesser self or ego to let of to make contact with one’s higher Self,,,? Over time, different Teachings utilize language in different ways sometimes creating new usages and definitions. What is your capacity for putting new ideas in an as-if-it-were-true mental file folder in order to learn something new? To not be blinded by one’s own certainty.

Wonder how long it will be before robots connected to artificial intelligence will be waiting tables, stocking shelves, laying bricks, mowing yards, pizza delivery, Ferris wheel operators, baggage handlers, elderly assistants, unemployed steelworkers.

Last night I had prolonged and detailed dream of traveling to Houston regularly. For some reason I had taken up bull riding in rodeos. Yesterday I got my old 1995 1/2 ton 4w drive Chevy running again. It hadn’t been started in 7 years. I put another fuel pump and filter in it and it started right up. In 2017 I had stopped to patch some barbed wire fence on top of a large hill. I failed to set the emergency brake and let it roll off a hill and crash into a wooded area. That was a strange feeling to turn back to where the truck was parked only to see it rolling off down the hill with increasing speed. I dug it out of the woods with a front bumper and windshield completely destroyed. Amazingly the motor was intact and even the radiator I had installed just a week prior was spared.

A small passage from my I-Ching consultation yesterday,,, This line can also refer to a person who, in following a spiritual path, has not experienced the benefits he expected. Instead of questioning whether he has been following the correct path, he interprets the counsel "to return" as saying that he has not tried hard enough, and needs to try harder. He must recognize that a spiritual path, as described in the main text, is a forward-leading path that leads to more and more separation from his true self, as he tries to become something special (i.e., a "spiritual being"). The path of return indicated by this hexagram is the path of divesting oneself of all self-images and attempts to be special. The person needs also to rid himself of the blame spell he has put on himself for not doing enough. (See p. 550, Deprogramming Procedure.) Pertinent correlation from Almaas’ Teaching- Ending Up with a Mental Image for an Identity An important question remains unanswered: Why, when Being or its aspect of space is lost, is what remains nothingness and not something else? In other words, why do we end up with emptiness and not another content of experience? To answer this question we have to discuss the point at which psychodynamics touches phenomenology. We need to see how psychodynamic processes—which are processes in time—affect felt phenomena—which always involve spatially experienced objects of perception. We first consider how specifically the loss of space leads to deficient emptiness.pace is lost as the mind takes self-image for identity. We have seen that this leads to the building of boundaries in the openness of space. The final result is that instead of the experience of Being without mental images, one ends up with a mental image for an identity. So instead of space being pervaded by Being it gets filled with a self composed of many self-representations. Now, what is the phenomenon of space when it is filled with the self? In other words, what is the mind filled with the psychic structure? On the surface it is the usual experience of the personality with its various manifestations. But, at the core, it is the deficient emptiness. The Void, pg. 135 We Know Ourselves From the Veil of Memory The mental images and attitudes that determine how we experience ourselves form the basis of a whole implicit worldview. We also experience ourselves only indirectly, as a subject experiencing an object. We are aware of ourselves as an object like other objects, seeing ourselves in the world as one object among others. Even when one is aware of oneself as perceiver or subject, this perception is different from the direct sense of our facticity, from the fact of our existence. We still know ourselves from the veil of memory. The Point of Existence, pg. 21