Peo

Is it possible to contemplate something you have never seen before?

I believe you, but why not try? What is the worst thing that can happen? You fail, then you try again, again and again until death comes for you. Life is fun that way. Just don't take some risky loans, that is a sure way to screw up in life. This is why they will never get rich. I am allergic to the sentence "I give up". Never give up in life, even if it takes you entire life.

When I mean serious spirituality I mean using hard-core pshychedelics like 5 Meo DMT, DMT and other pshychedelics in general. Long meditation retreat for 30 days or more. Several hours of self inquiry. kira yoga. Where you invest almost your entire day and the rest of my life pursuing awakening. This is why i also want a lot of money to be able to focus on spirtuality 100% without working needing to work.

After tripping on shrooms at 3 grams 3 times now I have realized that awakening is not all fun and easy as I assumed by watching Leo's videos. On Psychedelics is when you realize just how serious spirituality is, how dangerous it is. Honestly I am kinda afraid of spirituality and consciousness. I have realized that I must do some work on myself to be able to prepare myself for serious awakening/radical states of consciousness. This is why I have decided to go back to doing easy spiritual practices that won't freak me the shit out like 30 min meditation everyday, contemplation and practice open mindedness. I am done with serious spirituality. It is not something I should do at a young age. This is why I will follow Leo’s advice: mastering survival. I believe that in order to be able to surrender fully to awakening i have to do the following for the next 10-20 years: Master survival: Financial freedom Satisfy my sexual needs 100% healthy diet Working out cardio and strength Increase baseline happiness High self-discipline Personal development techniques: emotional mastery Body awareness Letting go Contemplation Openmindedness Go through karma Shadow work Develop deep love for existence Reach the top of “Human psychology development theories”: The 9 Stages Of Ego Development Spiral dynamics maslow's hierarchy of needs Once I reach the top of these, mastered survival and get older like maybe in my 30s or 40s I will start doing serious spirituality. I am not sure when I will do psychedelics again, maybe 5-10 years. I will follow my intuition, I will know when the time is right. Spirituality is for me the end game. I believe spirituality is a long term investment for decades. Anyway this is my game plan to one day reach god awakening. I just hope I wont forget it when i get older.

Focus on positive thoughts like hope, happy memories and whatever you like about life. Negative thoughts will destroy you and are a waste of time.

Worst advice ever.

Not sure what you mean. Responsibility for my actions? Using my brain before i speak?

Whenever I screw up, say something hurtful or stupid to someone because I talk before I think, I generally try to forget and hope they forget after a while. I don’t know why but having a serious conversation and saying sorry or I love you to friends/family feels awkward af. I did something nasty and hurt a friend a few years ago. The problem is he is still in my group of friends so i just hope he forgot, and pretend it never happened. Why do I hate apologizing so much? I just avoid it and try to forget. I hate awkward conversations.

Shrooms was pretty nice. Won't bother going into details, but let me say it was life-changing in unimaginable ways. So life-changing i am afraid of taking pshychedelics. (Not like traumatizing bad trips, but difficult to handle) Experienced everything from love, beauty, insanity and fluidity of consciousness. Not at Leo's level of understanding. Although after some few trips I have started to understand that I am not ready for spirituality, at least not psychedelics. I will do psychedelics in a few years until I have gotten older and mastered survival.

You might be right there, but I can always leave if it gets bad.

@Schizophonia Sorry i am heterosexual. I am not that into men. You know there are many men that are into that kinda stuff it is called BDSM or female domination.

So all men are the same too? Bruh so oversimplified you make the world.

Danm maybe i should try to go to a psychic so she can see what my future has in store for me. May i ask if this event that happened was a good or bad thing that happened to you in the future? Was it positive or negative?

Yes. I want a lot of experience in life. Like i want to be in a abusive relationship just for sake of experience and in a healthy relationship. I want to date a girl who is really mean and a narcissist for the sake of knowing what it is like. I want to date a kind and highly spiritually developed girl for the experience. Now i might regreat it later in life, but i am willing to take the risk. My dessire for a lot of experience in life comes from Life, psychedelics and this video.

You can use condom. You could also take Hepatitis B Vaccine and HPV (Human Papillomavirus) Vaccine just for safety. Condom would be number 1 importance and, 2 testing.