Scarecrow

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  1. I enjoyed this video. Not sure if anyone will get anything out of it but i thought I’d share
  2. awsome. Glad it was a cool experience. Looks like you had a pretty good seat
  3. was going to try to see him in Louisville. cant wait to hear your thoughts on it
  4. In a couple of months I’ll be traveling for a year. Not Sure where I want to go yet. But I’m a off the beaten path person. I like unknown quiet places. Just wanted to know if any one has a certain place or places they like to go to around the word like different monument sites and places with beautiful nature that they like to go to to connect with life. Preferably somewhere outside the United States. Inspiring places where you can contemplate and write
  5. Hello. This is a typical issue that’s heard a lot. I’ve recently became roommates with my best friend. We have been friends for 5 years. She just got out of a relationship and we both needed a new place to live. Very attracted to her and she knows. But she don’t see me that way and that’s fine. But it hard to get over the feelings and just focus on being a good friends. Which she is to me. we also have a 3rd guy roommate. There is clearly something going on between them. They are a friends with Benefits. And have asked if I am ok with that. She accidentally sent me a few dirty texts meant for him by accident. I can’t fight the jealously. I really want to detach myself and hope the best for them but it’s hard. Lately I’ve been more of a tag along. wondered if anyone had any suggestions to get over this
  6. As you get deeper and deeper in to spirituality and enlightment. How do you feel about life purpose. As you go deeper would a writer still want to be a writer or a musician still want to create music or ect?
  7. Its not a deep insight or some profound existential insight. More like a obvious newbie realization. But i thought it might be worth writing down. .My whole life i thought i was independent minded. In truth i'm not at all. I have social conditioning implanted deep in my brain. . Every decision I've ever made was based on what society says and what figures i look up to have said. Which sometimes can be all well and good. But in reality i'm basing everything i know and everything i am based on a world view crated by other flawed people just like you and me. All the people i ever been envious of and everyone who i took as a authority on my life direction are miserable, depressed, confused, mean, needy, selfish. I don't mean it in some humans are evil way. I'm literally just saying we are all human with issues. 99% of people have not transcended these issues. its scary and hard. We are on auto pilot with these roller-coaster ride of issues and emotions, . I mean i have always tried to improve myself and felt more aware and unconscious then the general population i have been associated with my entire life. But even so i'm still in the same bubble contributing to the recycling of the same theories the same advice that have been passed down. Obviously no one has cracked the code in normal society. You completely step out of the bubble and its terrifying at least to me. Here out of the bubble i have to 100% think for myself and go down some uncharted path for real answers i may or may not find. No one wants to help you or guide you to find the answers that the world that raised you haven't answered. Is there more to life, Can i unconditionally love, can i structure my life exactly the way i want, can i find the root of my suffering, Can i actually truly think for myself? According to my bubble you cant find those answers. We are all suffering in some way, i can feel it. I feel bad and i'm looking around thinking is this it? what am i not seeing? I got fed up and now i'm out of this bubble going down a brand new path. Have no idea whats in that direction. Scary as hell and no don't have the comfort that i'm used to with people telling me its OK. Its like a clean slate now and i got to figure stuff out from the beginning and also see what information within me is actually useful. I don't know who i am, what i am, What i want, what everything means. Its a lonely but necessary. Need to do some critical thinking and piece things together and see where it leads me
  8. More commonly now I get suicidal thoughts out of nowhere. I think it’s because of my loneliness. I’m a very quite person and feel very isolated in a friend group . And usually get these strong feelings after being around people. But I have a nice life. Have a good up bringing and passions. What frustrates me is I can’t figure out why I get these strong overwhelming feelings. Anyone got any tips or suggestions?
  9. Recently my best friend asked if I’d be willing to stay at there house for a week and watch there dogs. I politely declined. Just don’t feel comfortable staying at someone else’s house for a week. Recently she has been very distant with me. And has said I’m selfish for saying no cause I had no excuse except for I didn’t want to. Pretty much she lost a lot of respect for me. Said she proably be sure never to ask any favors from me ever agian. Which hurt cause we are the closet people to eachother. Been feeling like a horrible person lately. Don’t know if I’m just a bad friend or if they are just petty. Would like to know what other people think.
  10. Can one still be a efficient creative writer as a enlightment person or still have Interest?
  11. I'm 23. I've never dated or anything before. I've never really been able to speak to women. Been in countless scenarios to practice. I Completely shut down. My brain gets foggy. I feel frozen, and throat feels like it closes where I can hardy utter a word. Women usually like to engage conversation with me. Usually ends really awkward. I've grown up diagnosed with social anxiety disorder. that for the most part I grew out of. But this current issue still remains the same. I'm always around women. I just cant figure out why I'm this way. It stumps me. Its making me really nervous. The older I get the harder it will be. Wondering if anyone has any input.
  12. Link really helped. Thankyou
  13. Do you plan to shoot a video solely about creativity soon?