ivankiss

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  1. @Leo Gura Thought so, yup. Still fascinating though. @WhatAWondefulWorld Interesting. I think I heard of folks "leaving this place" behind on it, too. But what's really mind-blowing to me is how one is able to instantly hallucinate pretty much anything into reality and not have a single doubt about it being 100% real. For 3 days straight! Haha! That's just mad
  2. @Rilles Yup... I hear Datura is just bonkers incredibly powerful. @Leo Gura What are your thoughts on it?
  3. @Quantum Toad I personally prefer LSD over shrooms. At least when it comes to tripping. LSD seems a bit, hmm, cleaner to me - I guess. Shrooms can be a bit "messy". It could be totally different when microdosing tho. It surely is worth a try. Thanks for sharing!
  4. @James123 If you turn it into a belief or something you just keep telling yourself and others, rather than simply being conscious of "it" continuously. That's how. Yeah, I am God. So what? One who is truly and completely conscious of being God, has no need to tell anyone anything about it. Since, as you said, everyone and everything is already God.
  5. I really felt like crying these days... but it just wouldn't come out. The energy got stuck in my chest and I could barely shed a tear or two. It's been a long while since I watched one of your videos. But today when your video popped up in my news feed, I felt like there is something I should hear from you. I thought I made peace with my past and got over my traumas... But turns out that wasn't really the case. There are still some wounds. There is still some pain. Your guidance in your latest forgiveness video really helped me locate the pain. Not only that, I was also able to release a lot. I cried like a baby. Felt great. It was just what I needed. And to my surprise; you were the one who helped me through. Just wanted to say thanks. Bless ya.
  6. @James123 Indeed. However, even that can become a trap. Imo, all realizations should be integrated and let go of. No matter how deep and beautiful.
  7. @Galyna Nope. Wouldn't blame psychedelics. I did most of my "consciousness work" sober. If there was a "problem", I would say it was my inability to comprehend what I was becoming conscious of in my direct experience, thus inevitably misinterpreting it. Failing to properly ground and imply the realizations I had. @James123 Dizzy
  8. @WHO IS It's Buddha before realizing the "middle way". I too starved and neglected the body. Hunger? Pls. Who is hungry? What is hunger? No such thing. Only thoughts and sensations. There is no body here that could be hungry. Dark times.
  9. @WHO IS Ironically, in my case, it turned out to be a self-perseverance mechanism. Isn't that hilarious? Ego believing there is no ego so it could survive? God is a funny cat!
  10. I went down that (non-existing) path myself. And I did it the wrong way. Reality started falling apart, literally. Not a fun place. I understand there is no wrong path... But there is.
  11. There is THIS, and there is the interpretation of THIS. Consciousness is not just an interpretation.
  12. @ivory @archi Thank you both, appreciate your input. I went for an alternative, since I also had some DMT just "laying around" lol. Never tried it before, so microdosing was my first experience with it. Vaped around 5 micrograms since yesterday. Really pleased with the effects. Although I used it for healing purposes instead productivity. Curious to see how things go with LSD later on. I do hear you @archi on having a break in between and starting lower. Monday, Thursday sounds reasonable. Thanks! @traveler Will do!
  13. @Husseinisdoingfine Sorry to hear that. Wish you a fast healing. And yeah, the video is a must-watch, in my opinion. Just beautiful. @Leo Gura It might be just me...but in this video I also felt you, not just understood you. ?
  14. @Freakyboo Interesting. I guess I just have to try and see. I work from home and can arrange my schedule as I please, so that should not be an issue. I doubt I'd take acid if I actually had to show up at a job. @universe I've taken 50ug before and that was already a trip territory for me. I'd say I'm pretty sensitive to psychedelics. Decided to start with 20ug tomorrow and take it every second day. Increasing the dose a little bit each time. I just want to flow through the day and accomplish stuff in an effortless, joyful manner. Nothing wild. Time will come for a proper trip, too.
  15. @traveler Awesome, thanks! Reading an article on microdosing now... it says you should take 6 to 20ug every third day for best results. I'll probably try it that way in the future, too. But first I wanna see what I can get out of this week. Might report
  16. @Javfly33 Yeah, I figured... How about gradually increasing the dose a little bit each day? Thing is, I wanna stretch this 100ug tab over at least 5 days. And I'd like the effects to be pretty much the same every day.
  17. You are not bigger than anything. Nothing is bigger than You.
  18. Oneness can look like anything. Home can look like anything. Does it feel like home though? That's a question that requires a great amount of self-honesty. Is the feeling of hate, anger or sadness really the same as the feeling of love, peace and compassion - in your direct experience? It's all One. But not the same. I have experienced extreme levels of both segregation and unity. I find that to be my strength, if you will. Needless to say, I also fell into a lot of traps along the way. One of those is what I wish to mention here. It's that vibration of "I am already it, so who gives a fuck about anything". If you believe in tricks, this is a big one. A treasure fit for fools. Self-righteousness truly shines in this spot. Arrogance is your main weapon of choice. May all see just how little fucks you give. May all kneel before your throne as you declare yourself to be the one and only holder of Truth. The Almighty. The all-seeing. The all-knowing. After all...they're all asleep...and you're awake, right? Who could ever prove you wrong? There's no one here but you, right? Until one day you kick yourself in the balls hard and fall down on your knees in front of everyone. Dethroned and uncrowned. It's God's punchline. He's laughing his ass off, while you struggle to catch your breath and remember your name. Pain and agony made you forget it, not love. So you see, there is, after all; difference. Regardless of everything being made of the same "substance". Do you think your ability to make a distinction is an accident? Or an error? Do you think not being able to tell a difference between your mouth and your asshole is what Oneness is? Only if you die laughing, I imagine. Do you think there is no reason why your voice does not sound the same as your mother's? Do you think difference and distinction equals separation and delusion? Do you think Oneness equals Sameness? If you do; you have been compromised by a treasure that was fit for fools. In other words; you fell into a nasty trap, my friend. And you don't even realize it. That's what happens when you see something that you are unable to comprehend and interpret it correctly, let alone communicate it. That's what's called spiritual immaturity. It's as if enlightenment was literally a 16 year old teen. It's loud, cocky, distasteful and more often than not; disrespectful. But really just vulnerable, lost and confused - beneath it all. It's just a phase. If you are a quick learner... you will humble yourself back to the ground. Back to the centre of your being. You will drop the false sense of superiority. If you are stubborn and cocky... well... be ready for that kick in the balls. Except that you can never really be ready
  19. Experience is real, as I said. Whatever and however you experience "it" is totally legit and real (to you). This is not about avoidance or denial. Tomorrow, most likely, will come. And if you "have to" get up at 6am and go to work, that will probably happen too. But by the time tomorrow 6am comes...guess what? It will be NOW. This is about becoming one with the moment. Being present.
  20. @Someone here The you who feels thirst has always been thirsty. Will always be thirsty. The you that is not thirsty has never been thirsty. Will never be thirsty. Pay attention to the shifts, if you wish to see how exactly things "come and go". Hint: they do not. Everything is already and always here, now.