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That's happening regardless of my dating life ? That might be true, but the whole emphasis is on me being single now ? Thanks!

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@Applegarden Thank you for sharing man. It's good to see how open and clear you are about all that. It takes quite some consciousness and balls to be that honest. I don't really have much to advise. You clearly know what's relevant for you now and why you are or aren't doing things. I can definitely relate to a lot that you said. In a way; I'm an an 'outcast', too. I don't really fit in anywhere, at all. But what I am really good at is 'adjusting to my environment'. Blending in. And I don't do it via pretence. Rather; authenticity. By being comfortable in my skin. I'm naturally good at connecting with people. Young, old, weird, cool, introverted, extroverted, shy, loud... all kinds. But I still 'choose' carefully who do I connect with and to what degree. It's an intuition thing. All I'm really paying attention to is; resonance or dissonance. And I adjust my act accordingly. It's a play that I'm still 'perfecting'. It's very delicate and subtle. But very fun, too. I'd say 'awakening allowed me to be at peace wherever I am and in whoever's presence. I simply am me. And that can look and feel like anything. What others think about it is not really my issue. Not my responsibility. It's who they are. I let them be; they let me be. And I can't lie... I am quite a sexual being. I love it. I'd say it's a part of my essence. I also admire the beauty of women. I find it mesmerising. Magical. So yeah. I don't fight that aspect of me - at all. I just do whatever I do now mindfully and with an open heart. To the best of my abilities. I feel like it's relevant for me to embrace and explore sexuality now. Maybe that will change, maybe not. And I think it's the same with you. Perhaps you are going through a phase. Maybe you will meet 'The One' and realize you have been saving yourself for her all this time. Maybe that won't happen and you will simply not be interested in exploring sexuality and intimacy, ever. Who knows? What matters is that you stay true to what you're feeling in your heart. Ps. Do send me some music - if ya created any new. Would love to hear. Keep rockin'! ?

@WaveInTheOcean True. Thanks. Last night I went out for a spontaneous date. It went surprisingly well. Smooth, fun and casual. She's newly single too and not looking for anything 'serious'. We connected quite effortlessly. Almost took things back to my apartment, but we decided to leave that for the second date. Good times.

@universe Great stuff! Thank you. Of course there is no issue. That's not why I created this thread. Rather; to see how single people think and view things - given that it has been quite a long time since I was single and dating. Yes, these are just thought patterns and nothing is stopping them from arising and being expressed. It's more of a curiosity thing. - Not anything that's bugging me.

@WaveInTheOcean Thank you for your response. Much juiciness. True, but this way it's more fun. Someone else might articulate things differently - from a different angle. It can do no harm ? That's a good point, yes. I think I define a relationship as a deeper, more soul-felt kind of thing. It involves strong commitment, dedication, loyalty etc. While just having casual fun with someone can be a surface-level thing. It still involves a level of closeness an intimacy...but not nearly as much as when I'm in a relationship.

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@electroBeam I am familiar with that, yes ? Do not see myself using it as a strategy though ? I'm sure things can be just communicated straight forward. Maybe my signals are somewhat mixed. I still hear the echoes of my previous relationship.

@Roy Thanks! Feeling what you said. Yeah, I noticed. I told this girl that's into me that I'm really, truly not looking for anything serious right now, and it does not seem to be working. It's almost as if she doesn't wanna hear that part. I'd like to have fun with her. But I can already sense her wanting more than just casual fun time out of this.

@electroBeam Haha, that's great! The first one who 'figures it out' lets the other one know. Deal? ?

@acidgoofy Appreciate it man ?

Life has never been better. 25 years of crazy ups and downs behind me. All kinds of feelings. All kinds of thoughts. All kinds of experiences. Everything was preparing me for this very moment. My moment. At last; I can take a deep breath and say; 'I made it. I am home now. I am my own.' Two words keep coming up: 'Thank you'. Just fucking thank you - from the bottom of my heart. I am basically living in a constant state of fulfilment and centeredness. It's ineffable. And it's here to stay. I simply know. I simply am. Things are so gorgeously and divinely aligned. Perfection itself is becoming transcended. All there is now is pure Magic. This is IT. This is what I dedicated my entire life to. This is what I've been dreaming of. Yearning for. Sweating for. Bleeding for. Dying for. This is why I am - at all. And it's flowing in all directions, now. Through all dimensions. It is unstoppable. I am Infinity. If there is such a thing as 'enlightened living' - this is it. It's not anything you think it is. It's not anything I thought it was. It's this. It's casual. It's calm. It's barely noticeable yet undeniable. It's Being loving Being. No matter what I do, no matter where I go...Light is always here; now. Love is. God. And it's doing its Magic. To be the witness of it is the most beautiful gift one could ever dream of. And not, even. This is not a destination. This is where everything comes from and returns back to. This is the centre of The Universe. It is both an end and a beginning. And it is also neither one of those. Because... Magic. I don't need to know what I cannot know. I know what is it that I can never know. I don't need to be what I cannot be. I can only be what I am; right now. I don't need anything to change, but change is surely welcome. I don't need to hold onto anything. I don't need to rush. I don't need to drag. This is the perfect momentum. I am floating. I am gliding. I want to thank pain and suffering - my greatest teachers throughout this journey. And something tells me; suffering wants to thank me, too. It wants to thank me for allowing it to transform me. To work through and for me. It wants to thank me for letting it in. For acknowledging it as a part of the Magic. For not pushing it away. It wants to applaud my bravery and commitment. My passion. My fire. It wants to thank me for being there for it. For opening myself up. For transforming it. If suffering ever knocks on my door again; it will surely have a place to stay. It is welcome to sit at the same table. To breathe the same breath. I want to thank myself. Thank you for daring to be what you are. Thank you for listening to your heart more often than you listened to any advice of another. Thank you for never letting go of your Truth. Thank you for waking up and falling asleep for that Truth. Thank you for being the warmth in those cold nights. Thank you for carrying this Light into the darkness. Thank you for your stubbornness. Thank you for your arrogance. Thank you for your cleverness. Thank you for your foolishness. Thank you for your desperation. Thank you for your choices. Thank you for your sacrifices. Thank you for your resistance. Thank you for your Will. Thank you for your company. Thank you for your absolute awesomeness. You are one of a kind. I know this is only going to become more and more epic now. There is no end to God's goodness. I fear no ups and no downs. I wish for nothing more, nothing less. That's how welcome all is. That's how free everything is to be. That's how magical this is. And the funniest thing is; to every passing eye... it would most likely seem as nothing that special at all. Such is the True Magic of Being. ?

@VeganAwake Fun fact; both Buddha and I went through starvation before discovering the 'middle way'. Or so the legend says ? For sure, brother. It's all happening exactly as it should, no matter what we think about it ? The timing is always perfect. Simply try seeing how flawless everything already is an why. Even if the 'why' part is made up. As long as it feels right in your heart - go with it. Trust me; I am dying to hear it myself haha. But as said above... Things are unfolding on their own. I know it's around the corner, but I cannot go chasing it. Music makes itself now - if you know what I mean. Will surely let you know upon the release. ? Thank you very much. That means alot. I thought of stopping... But I enjoy it too much ? I suppose - in the future - my posts will only become moderated. Perhaps less frequent. No matter what tho; I'd be very happy to stay in touch. Bless ya!

This might be a helpful perspective: Your work is a part of your spiritual journey. It's a test - in a sense. It's where none of your spiritual stuff matters to anyone, but all of it is required from you to be implemented. How spiritual can you be amongst people who don't give a damn about your spirituality? How smooth is your thought processing in times of pressure? How quickly or easily do you get agitated? How often do you dream about stuff that has nothing to do with what you're doing at that precise moment? How frequently would you rather be anywhere else but at work? It's easy to be spiritual in the forest or on the top of a mountain. Work... is a different kind of spiritual business.

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@WaveInTheOcean So young and so timeless ? Thank you for adding your thoughts ? ❤ @Nahm Feel this ?

Thank you, everyone. This forum helped me alot. I am very grateful for being a part of it. Much love and respect to you all. I enjoy everything that I bring joy to ?

Pay no mind what other voices say They don't care about you Like I do Safe from pain and truth and choice and other poison devils See they don't give a fuck about you Like I do Just stay with me Safe and ignorant Go back to sleep Go back to sleep

Except that while you're there you're absolutely convinced you'll never make it out. Such is hell. Eternal fire, madness and agony. Imo; it's much, much worse than anything any religion portrays. But yes. You do make it out eventually. Because... Love. Everything is real and possible. Even if right now it does not seem like it. Choose your steps wisely. Keep your heart open. All is well.

Of course hell is real. Try taking 400ug+ of LSD and resisting the crap out of it. Hell will get as real as it gets. And it will exceed any expectations that you now hold onto. Both heaven and hell are right here, right now. Or not at all.

Breathe through it slowly. Allow the breath to align your body.

@seeking_brilliance @The0Self Much juiciness. Thank you! Exploration is never-ending. So exciting!

I'm connecting some dots in my mind between heart rate and reality. I think there is a strong, direct link. I am wondering about the metaphysical implications. Could one's heart rate somehow shape and form reality and/or the experience of it? It seems so simple. But I know that means it's also incredibly and beautifully complex. The heart simply beats. Now. One beat at a time. Acceleration. Deceleration. Frequency? Is that why Light is flickering? Vibrating? Hmm... Hmm, hmm, hmm... Earlier I measured the rate of my heart. It was 88 beats per minute. I set the metronome at 88bpm and listened for a while. It felt...Right. Kinda hypnotic. I merged quite easily, naturally. Breathing through the beats. I'm interested in connecting the dots between heart rate, the breath, frequency/vibration, alignment and synchronicity. How does it all interplay and why is Light so goddamn awesome?

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Absence of Light is impossible ? Darkness is just a different shade of Light - if you will. Light is all there is.