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Hey, welcome to the forum. What are the results you're actually seeking to achieve? Do you feel like there is something deeper you need to release? Whenever I hit 'a wall'; it's usually because I'm not ready to face something. Emotional baggage, trauma, etc. It can happen consciously or subconsciously. One way or another; I block it out. Not saying it's what's happening to you too, but it could be. Also; taking a break is necessary - imo. Usually when these kinds of practices become a routine; the energy becomes stagnant. Meaning, there is no real 'progress'. I'd suggest you move on to something new that you find exciting. Come back to it later - if you recognize it as something relevant.

'I' is not just a thought. It's a far more intricate system. By that logic; a 90yr old who has dementia is enlightened. Have you been close to someone with that illness? In severe cases; they have absolutely no sense of self, whatsoever. Far from enlightened though. Don't mess around with your psyche - I'm serious. True confidence is actually a quality of consciousness. God. No need to parrot anyone's teachings. Or chew on the same bunch of words and ideas time and time again. True confidence seeks no confirmation from gurus. That's a method. A path. And a very outdated one - if you ask me. In actuality; truth and authenticity care nothing about all that crap. Don't drag the boat with you once you get to the land. Yes. But that means nothing if one doesn't actually understand how. Unless one simply doesn't give a shit. Which is cool too, I guess. I know little to nothing about cars. To me what's important is that it gets me from A to B. It's very simple. That doesn't mean that the mechanics of that car aren't extremely complex. Or that they don't even exist - as some would claim.

I like the word 'imagineering'.

@James123 'Nothing' and 'not knowing' can be hell of a limitation, ironically. That's how sneaky the ego can get. It will even hide behind 'nothing' just to survive. You cannot transcend duality unless you embrace both sides of the spectrum. Negation will only get you half way, and not even. It might lead to major setbacks and even severe psychological damage. Take care of yourself. Respect the individual.

I understand. But I was pointing towards the 'collective mind' - if you will. The mind as an absolute. Not my personal container. Also; I'm pretty open about my kinky fetishes haha. I'd say that's a step towards telepathy. Being as transparent as possible. Death is prior to it.

The closest I got to it is that it's some sort of a self-correcting mechanism. A code of some sort. It generates time-space and everything that's occurring within it. It's always complete, that's why it's always changing. Correcting itself. That is why it cannot be caught. Only dissolved into. It's generating a holographic transmission that seems to be unfolding in real time. But something tells me that's not the case, really. There is a lag of some sort. The lag vanishes when the vibration stops. I refer to it as 'frequency singularity'. It's like frozen awareness. Frozen Light.

It's a dream and the dream is as real as it gets. Got all the time in the world. Feeling closer with each breath.

?‍♂️ I get where you're coming from, but it's just a phase. ?Yet nobody seems to know how or why. But there's also many, many facets that can be explored and understood

This is part of 'my work'.

Indeed. Science of consciousness. I'd say that's unnecessary. All I really need is a strong enough will and sharp enough awareness. Yes it's infinite. And yes there is 'a root'.

@Vibroverse That seems like an 'easy way out' to me. It's possible to know. Not knowing is only half of the journey.

@Vibroverse So how the heck am I doing all of this?

Alright. But there is a mechanism of some sort. It's obvious to me. Yes, letting go and simply admiring the magic of it is beautiful. But it can be understood directly - imo.

Oh but there is. Making distinctions is intelligence, too. There is the thought of Mind, and the actuality of Mind. Transcending a thought is not the same as transcending the mind - imo. Yes? So? I'd say the mind could reach a deeper understanding of itself. Why not? Hear ya. How come there is this and/or that? How is duality 'generated'?

It sure does seem like it. But how so?

Ok. But let's go deeper. I'm interested in how does the mind function. The mechanics of it.

Meaning everything stays the same, you just see it for what it is? @Kalo Like how you put that. But...what is it? And what is that? Why are there two distinct words if 'the mind' and 'a thought' are one and the same?

If you zoom out enough; the past, the present and the future are all happening simultaneously and can be seen at once. Crystal clearly. Keep in mind; nothing is set in stone. There is no one past and no one future. There are infinite versions and configurations. Everything is now. And nothing is.

Can't there be an actual direct experience of Heaven? Aren't all ideas (potentially) directly experiental?

Whatever I imagine I know for sure.

In spite of that thought. Live a life worth dying for.

Two polarities, same spectrum. If a person is doing something horrible that harms other people; that person is already in hell. There is. Not a fun place. Peace. It is eternal. Like anything else. Things being temporary is an illusion. It's just like a radio station. You're either tuned in or you're not. Both coexist simultaneously, continuously and forever.

The sum total of all experiences is 0.

Can you hold space for the shadow despite of the uncomfort you feel? Despite your desire to eliminate it? That's what the shadow demands of you. To see it as pure divine perfection. To let it be just as it is. Without judging it, blaming it, demonizing it, trying to slay it etc. It's not as simple as just trying to avoid some thoughts - no matter how often that idea is being sold on this journey. You cannot ignore the shadow. Cannot compete with it, either. You will always loose. It is God itself - dressed up as the Devil. It's incredibly clever. What works for me is; I let it take over. I embody it - in that sense. I make an agreement with it. The only rule is; do not harm others. Other than that; be as dark as you wish. Stay as long as you want. And if that's coming from an honest place; the shadow will not stay that long at all. It will slowly dissolve into the light of my presence. Curse, hate, fantasize, plot, hit stuff, yell, scream... Do whatever it takes. Let it all out. Just do it on your own, by yourself. Others have nothing to do with this. If you can express that dark energy through some sort of an art form - that's a big plus. My two cents.

I recently stumbled across this song. I think it has the power to soothe one's pain. Thought it would fit nicely in this thread. It's so beautiful it hurts.