Azrael

5-MeO-DMT

Basic rule: Everything is normal in meditation. I can literally not think of any feeling I had in my life that I didn't have in meditation. 2ndly, your kind of question has been asked now a bizillion times. This wonderful forum a search function that you can make use of.

Karma is one of the most obvious principals that you'll begin to witness when you start to live in non-symbolic consciousness. I am aware of Karma as I am aware of my foot. I'll make a post about it in the future, but it'll take way more groundwork to give you the idea. So be aware

You have and are experiencing the most horrific pains without noticing. Look around you. People get tortured, killed, raped and it's all you. It's just that you don't identify with their relative bodies and minds as much as you do with "your own". You always experience a tremendous change. Your level of pain and in-pure love is directly correlated with how much you are aware of this change.

If you are not enlightened yourself, you cannot test if someone is enlightened or not. If you are enlightened, you can. It's easy. You can sense it just as you can sense whether someone if full of bullshit or not. But as long as you are not there, you may be mislead.

Yess, he learned it. You cannot not learn it. Read up on it if you like. Mentalism and magic is fake and every mentalist / magician knows that and actually is very open about that. It's not about whether it is real or not, it's about: "How does he do it?" That's why they hate people who pretend to have supernatural abilities and like to show that they are fake, too. My friend has told me some of the tricks he uses, to give me an idea, and I'm always stunned how straight forward and simple it is. It's just clever, that's it.

In the last couple of weeks and months I'm feeling pretty good. Last year I went through a lot of purging and realizing and I feel like a lot of that is just out of me now. That's great. Because of that I re-viewed my life and looked out for things that are still missing (in my own opinion). So what did I come up with? I got pretty cool friends and we do a lot of nice stuff here in Berlin. I got a job that I love - working as a software engineer, my computer science studies go well, I travel, my spiritual journey goes naturally but I still kind of didn't feel the level of alpha integrity that I shoot for in this life. +++ Background Information +++ Although I'm humorous, relaxed, cocky and good in conversations I don't have as much experience with girls and dating. That's just something I didn't really put my focus on in my youth and it always kind of slipped through my fingers. So I said, okay let's get that handled. I started looking into dating psychology when I was 15 and my mentor at that time (for business stuff) threw me on the street and had me do cold approaches. So, I began reading up about personal integrity, the alpha-male, being a man, spoke to a good friend of mine who is a very successful mentalist and former pick-up-artist and read a very good book on the topic and watched videos. On the practical side I started dating girls, practised and still do to this day. It's fun and I love it. I can see how it adds the missing piece to my integrity -- or at least to the experience that I should make right now. When I began doing this I re-watched Leo's video on acing life. I thought a little bit about it again and then did some funny shit. Basically, there are a lot of situations in my life in which I'm presented with two options: Do the easy way and back down, or do the crazy way and do something great. I applied this in the beginning to my dating - trying out ridiculous ideas and just looking how far I can go - and because it astounded me how great it worked and how much fun I had, I slowly began implementing it in my day-to-day life. And the results are amazing. +++ The Challenge to Your Inner Wuss +++ I want this thread to be a collection of little stories that you tell about situations in your life in which you went out of your way. It could be little things, where you had to go through your social fear or it could be big things like jumping out of a plane for what ever reason you would do this. I start with my stories, little and big, and you follow with yours. I'm thrilled to see what you guys are up to. And please note how you felt when you did this so that others and yourself get motivated to do more crazy stuff and grow. There is no growth in the comfort zone. There is no comfort in the growth zone. (But there is excitement.) +++ My Stories of Going Out Of My Own Way +++ 1. One little thing that I do is my "eye-contact" challenge. Because I wanted to improve my quality eye contact, I made the challenge to hold eye contact with people (man and woman) until they break it. That's cool and fun, but because I'm pretty good at it now and it feels good to do that I added a little extra. When I walk on the street I try to make eye-contact with strangers (man and woman) and hold it until they break it. That shit is creepy sometimes and you'll feel weird. Especially when you sit in a train and you look someone in the eyes for .. too long and just have to hold it. But they'll break it eventually (unless you have a psychopath on the other side) and they'll actually often be submissive to you in a non-verbal way. Result: Doing this, in the beginning it feels weird and creepy but with time it feels actually pretty exciting, people acknowledge that you really listen if you talk and it's a good way to get a conversation going with a complete stranger if you want to. 2. Another little challenge I put up is breaking my very tiny but existent social fear on a micro level. So for example I sat in a course a few days ago and drank a huge coffee. Throughout the course I needed to piss like a fucking horse but I had to go through the whole room, in front of the one who was giving the presentation and the 30 people listing to him. I felt some resistance, then the thought of the challenge came up and I did it. Felt good. Also, when I am in the train sometimes I look for the most beautiful woman in there and just sit next to her, even if there is enough other space elsewhere. Feels weird in the beginning, exciting after some time. Another one is chatting to people while you are on the train, standing in lines or wherever you are about stuff that is on your and their mind like: "The train's not coming", xyz. Just having a chat with strangers. And a third little one I can think of right now is being cocky and funny with random people and especially people you are not supposed to talk cocky to. Like, the other day I was buying coffee at a place and the waitress was out of bank notes. So I commented "You are not going to give me that change in coins, are you?" and smiled a little bit. She giggled, went back and got me some bank notes. 3. As a last example and in my eyes the most crucial one is testing out the boundaries in social interactions - especially in dating. This is why I started this again and the other challenges kind of came up spontaneously because of that one. Now, the principal here is: You can only know where a limit is, when you have gone past it. And I don't want to recommend this as your life motto or some shit, but if you wanna improve your social interactions, at least give it a try. Especially in dating. I've found in dating that most of the so called "boundaries" there are, like you can only kiss a girl when xyz, you could never say this and that - only exist in your head. I started doing this because it was a task in a book I read. But note, when you do this you should be able to rescue yourself out of the situation. So, if you do, prepare. In dating it's basically reframing, dealing with shit tests, etc. I gurantee this will fuck with your emotions deeply and you'll grow like a motherfucker. One thing I did is I gave a girl - that I had a crush on - a limit until she could write me whether our date we had planned would work for here (because she was travelling and didn't know it at the time). Then, a tiny bit before the limit I wrote her that I cancelled her out of my week planning and that I won't meet with someone that is unreliable. She went nuts. Like in complete drama mode. It pushed on me as fuck, but I re-framed it into sarcasm and she actually asked me out right away after that and we met. That shit was scary, because I had a crush and put her on a pedestal. That released that and I grew. Another thing I tried and still do is I write my uncensored thoughts to women and see how they react. For example, this one night I took a walk and thought about a date I had. Was a cool one. On the date the woman showed me her feet at some point because she had a operation and we talked about it. A few days later I had the thought "She has good looking feet" and I wrote this to her. Not easy for me, because that is normally one of the thoughts I keep to myself. Wrote it, reframed it, we both had a great time. I do similar stuff when I talk to people sometimes and test how far I can go. You'll notice it very soon. You can do this in so many contexts, it's amazing. In the beginning, you feel anxious about doing this, especially with women that you really like, but after some time it gets just really exciting and you'll actually get pretty confident doing this. -- Anyway, this is a little bit of my stories (of the ones I can tell... hehe). What about you? When did you go out of your way and how did you feel? Let us know! Cheers, Az

No worries, that's all normal. You'll have a lot of strange moments on your journey. It'll go. Mostly when that happens you literally have shifts in your nervous system / mind / body that cause your reality to be temporarily strange. It's most often a release of tension in some sense and that's good.

I think you mis-understood me. With superpowers I mean be able to be calm, have very little thought and not be confused. For a normal person that should be a superpower even if he doesn't recognizes it as one.

1. That's something you either have or don't have. That's the root not a symptom. I can't tell you methods to genuinely wonder who you are. Psychedelics can inspire you very deeply but this is something you have to find for yourself. I always wanted to know since I was a little kid, I was always curious what is going on here, so it was natural to find out some day. A lot of other people seem not really to be interested and just want the "super-powers" of being enlightened or what not. Be warned, it won't happen and even if it should, you'd go insane instantly. Enlightenment is insanity from your current standpoint any ways. That's the fun of it. 2. If I were you I'd do 30 min of HoloSync and start with that. HoloSync itself is so powerful, the first months can be quite difficult. Do one thing for 3 months and look if you are still interested, then you can add something to it. I don't know you so I can't say whether and when you should do psychedelics. I've spoken about this a lot of times now on this forum and I always recommend working up to something like 5-MeO-DMT. Don't start with it. Start with weed, then brownies, then shrooms, acid, ..., 5-MeO-DMT. Start when you feel like it. And go slowly. 3. I did that just by contemplating it constantly. I think this was one of my biggest advantages with my awakening. I contemplate since I can think. Contemplation is my main thinking. So, go contemplate. Just like, when you go outside wonder about how nothing has substance, if Leo is right. That behind you your world ends and in front of you is this colored reality. When you talk to someone, you can contemplate a million things about relationships. Just go for it.

Hey man, good to have you on board. Being a strength athlethe will probably help you with the discipline of having a practice, that's nice. But you also probably know as strength athlete that you cannot do a 515lbs squat in the first week of training, it takes time to get there. That being said I can really recommend taking things slowely. Watch Leo's video on Backsliding. It's critical in every phase of the journey to slowely increase the practice so that you can adjust to it, if you wanna increase it at all. In my personal experinece I've found that the "success" you have on your spiritual journey does not fit the amount of practices you do, but more so a genuie interest and holistic integration of spirituality into your day-to-day life - basically you gotta love that shit and connect eveything you do with it. Then it hits home because you see every aspect of your life change. Meditation, self-enquiry and the other formal methods are powerful and at least one should be applied to make sure you get the momentum going, but the will to wanna know will bring you much further because it'll occupy your mind until you have the answer. If it doesn't really itch you to know who you are, you'll never find out. That's the key here. All of the other techniques and little games we play here with ourselves just support that very fact. So, go slower. You'll spend at least the next few years with this stuff until shit gets really crazy and you'll need that time to integrate the change. My general recommendtation is the following: Have one or two formal practices going (in the beginning) while reading up / listening to all of the good material that is out there from teachers, old teachings, modern stuff. My all time favourites are Alan Watts, Rupert Spira, Mooji and @Leo Gura . You can spend the next two years just exploring their material on YouTube and in books. You'll be highly educated if you do. And that's just a few. There are probably hundreds if not thousands of other good sources if you are willing to investigate. Find your sources. That being said, have a good journey and don't go to fast. It's a journey, not a race. Nowhere to get to, nowhere to start.

What are you when you don't ask that question? What are you when you fight with your mom? What are you when you fuck your girlfriend? What are you when you mourn at a funeral? In all of these scenarios you are. the last three of them are very intense situations for the mind and body, completely different states. But in all of them you still are the same. So throw away all of your concepts about consciousness and awareness and sit for a second contemplating: Who am I when I am asleep? Because you are the very same if you are asleep or if you are awake. So find out.

Will a device mimicking the actions of god ever be able to be by itself?

You make it into this difficult question by putting it into a question with very big words in very complex relations. Awareness and experience are completely basic to everything you know. They are basic to a young kid that can't talk and think. So as long as you cannot answer these questions on the level the young kid can, you will never get at it. A very interesting mindfuck you'll have down the road is the following: Spirituality is not spiritual. Spirituality is completely basic. So keep it that way, otherwise you are not concerned with it any more.

Are you gone when you sleep?

"Do Nothing" isn't really a meditation in the typical understanding of mediation, it's more like an anti-meditation that leads you to the same result: awakening. Its like this: When we look at your normal state of being (unintegrated egoic conciousness) you are like a hurricane. Meditation is supposed to release this hurricane to the point where only calm air is left over. With a typical meditation like mindfulness you try to manipulate and train your hurricane so that he is able to release its power by skill. You kinda like show him "how to release it". With "Do Nothing" you simply do nothing and let the hurricane figure it out by himself how to release it, you trust in the fact that as long as you don't fuck with the hurricane he'll realese himself at a point in time. So it's a conscious decision "to give up", "to not manipulate" and "to let it rest" so that it can return to its normal state. As shown in many cases both ways work although they are completely different. I've gone totally with the "Do Nothing" approach and can report that it works, a 100%. Also, both approaches are symptoms or let's say techniques of two very different kinds of schools of awakening. Maybe you wanna read up about the background and get educated on the matter, it's quite interesting.

Because you can't do shit if you are present and society is concerned about doing shit so that its people has its basic needs fulfilled.

Yeah you're right, a test-kit is the way to go.

Show me your "spirit" and I'll tell you.

It might help to visualize waking up in a dream. Awakening is like that.

Now I'm gonna say the opposite of what @Leo Gura just said: When you do it, only trust yourself. Now, who is right? He or me? Both? Nobody? Find out when you get there. The thing is, you can talk all you want. Get there and just see for yourself. That's where the gold is.

A lot. Not just one. Find you own by getting enlightened. No, you can't really get rid of the ego but you can integrate it. Your ego on it's most basic level is the way you perceive as a human being and then everything that you make out of that. You can integrate the battle that is created in you and you can understand who YOU really are, that's enlightenment. Beyond enlightenment is everything that enlightenment is not. You can get enlightened about an infinite amount of topics. As I said, there is an infinite amount of things you can get enlightened about. Pick the one you want to know. There is no "god-given" manual here. Can you experience the Absolute (infinity) through an finite, illusionary construct called the ego? I doubt that. Try 5-MeO-DMT for yourself and your question will be answered. Otherwise you are just a character in a movie making claims about the person that watches the movie on his television. Think about that.

You are not there yet. Once you get it, you won't be confused any more. It's like finding out that you are a man / woman. Once you know that you are a man, you don't need to do anything to get it. Because it is recognized by default. It's the same with enlightenment Being enlightened is binary, in or out. There is no depth to this realization. But then, there is infinite depth with what you make out of it. Like, there are pussies who cry all day and there a man who make something out of there lifes. You can argue that the later made more out of "being a man". The same applies to the enlightenment realization. So, just go on. Confusion and depression just let's you know that it's working because all your shit gets out.

Research is something you have to learn by doing it. It involves being very good in using google, reading multiple sources, watching videos, cross-checking facts etc. Just try. You'll learn it on the way. Btw., this is by far one of the most important skills to build in the modern area.

One word: RESEARCH.