Patrick Lynam

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  1. Recently Ive been going through what I feel is called emotional release where I have tears from beauty and it feels healing. have been experiencing this most days for the past week especially. And after this happened yesterday I felt a sense of loss once the bliss went away so i went for a walk and chanted om mani padme hum for a leat 30 minutes this calmed me down allot and then today at work i spent most of the day chanting this mantra in my head and realised it is quite good at dealing with my overactive mind. This afternoon whilst masterbating it felt good in the groin area but my chest had what felt like a massive hole in it. I'm wandering if this something to do with guilt about pleasure or is this my higher-self telling me that I am objectifying and masterbating without the love/ joy component? I've heard Leo say "guys really need to get over this thing about sex being a bad thing" so I figured maybe this is my body bringing this to my attention so it can heal and I just need to feel it. But could this be my intuition telling me to stop? I kept going before I was interrupted and had to stop. I have felt this feeling throughout my life for burst of maybe 10 or 20 seconds for as long as I can remember every month or so kind of just randomly, not just while masterbating. I know it used to be associated with the words "i want my mommy" in a very scared child voice. The words have stopped since I was an adolescent but the feeling has continued randomly for the small little bursts. Today I felt it for a long time like a full 2 or 3 minutes while masterbating because I wanted to see if it would move. It stopped once i stopped masterbating however. Is feeling this feeling healing or is it me ignoring something or doing something wrong and my higher self or whatever is trying to get me to stop some behaviour?
  2. Recently Ive been going through what I feel is called emotional release where I have tears from beauty and it feels healing. have been experiencing this most days for the past week especially. And after this happened yesterday I felt a sense of loss once the bliss went away so i went for a walk and chanted om mani padme hum for a leat 30 minutes this calmed me down allot and then today at work i spent most of the day chanting this mantra in my head and realised it is quite good at dealing with my overactive mind. This afternoon whilst masterbating it felt good in the groin area but my chest had what felt like a massive hole in it. I'm wandering if this something to do with guilt about pleasure or is this my higher-self telling me that I am objectifying and masterbating without the love/ joy component? I've heard Leo say "guys really need to get over this thing about sex being a bad thing" so I figured maybe this is my body bringing this to my attention so it can heal and I just need to feel it. But could this be my intuition telling me to stop? I kept going before I was interrupted and had to stop. I have felt this feeling throughout my life for burst of maybe 10 or 20 seconds for as long as I can remember every month or so kind of just randomly, not just while masterbating. I know it used to be associated with the words "i want my mommy" in a very scared child voice. The words have stopped since I was an adolescent but the feeling has continued randomly for the small little bursts. Today I felt it for a long time like a full 2 or 3 minutes while masterbating because I wanted to see if it would move. It stopped once i stopped masterbating however. Is feeling this feeling healing or is it me ignoring something or doing something wrong and my higher self or whatever is trying to get me to stop some behaviour?
  3. Is this system useful I don't think I have heard anything on this forum about it is it just too shallow of an understanding for this level of self actualisation? I feel I may be an INFJ but I'm always so skeptical about these kinds of things reminds me of horoscopes or something hahah thanks
  4. @Nak Khid haha thats funny i literally did that for the first time yesterday
  5. @Aaron p I honestly feel like i could i dont see why not its just when someone tells you not to its like omg what do i do haaha
  6. @Aaron p @Nak Khid THats really interesting and fucking creepy to think about, i feel like i already have trust issues too haha. i paid like $2700 for this breathwork retreat and to think it was a bloody scam or that i was taken advantage.. dammn, allot of the post i have put on this forum have been about me not trusting people who want my money weather it be therapist or even leo with the life purpose course. i have only really been able to trust psychedelics to help me find truth i feel like i might be stage blue and just looking for the teacher with the most credibility or something
  7. @Joshi3@Alissa @Preety_India THanks guys youre right i have recently become more conscious of this and how i had been doing self help as a means for validation and the idea of doing self help for my self is strangely unfamiliar haha. Much love <3
  8. is it possible that because i have no friends my life lacks purpose and i have become quite solum/ a victim
  9. @WelcometoReality perhaps its isolation i spent almost no time with friends and has been that way for the past year as i live in a very low blue/ orange part of the world in a town with only about 80,000 people in australia quite isolated
  10. @Consilience thankyou thats very helpful !
  11. @WelcometoReality yes i already exercise and i try to make myself meditate atleast 20 minutes a day and somtimes more i feel like it
  12. @Nak Khid is there a reason i should be on the lookout for this turning into . a sales pitch for bio energetic therapy? i have been doing bio energetics for about 1 month now and it seems to be working?
  13. @Nak Khid and they said they can tell that I'm disconnected from my legs because they have done allot of observing body's and training in other body based therapies. i have not had leg problems but i do have very skinny legs
  14. @Nak Khid perhaps i could be argued that meditation could be destabilising therefore making it harder to be grounded? im not super affluent with all of these terms like stabilising and grounding I guess I have not had enough life experience to have a solid understanding