Eric Tarpall

I knew he was smart haha. I value power but only using it for good.

They can think it all day long as long they don't act on it. I'm more concerned with people's actions than with their thoughts.

Maybe because that increases the chance of being murdered? I don't really care anymore about what people think but I am still afraid of being attacked. I don't know what Sanshou means but you were probably surounded by lots of strong guys. That would explain the anxiety.

There should be a gura's cakery that sells pyramid cakes. And the tip of the pyramid is turquoise and below that are yellow, green etc. And each color has different psychedelic baked into it.

You didn't have to answer it. You could have spent that "time" on eating grapefruits. That makes sense. Maybe adding chaos to the daily routine can help dissolve the ego. Like for example doing something that's not aligned with your identity every day. Something out of character.

In my experience affirmations are the most effective when you say them to other people. For example when someone asks you to introduce yourself you can say to them that you're a very aware person.

Whenever I feel fear or worry I don't look at it. I notice the more I look at it the stronger it gets. Or as they say what you focus on grows. I've done this many times successfully. Ignoring fear causes the fear to dissapear & die. It took me about two years to get good at doing this. It's like a mental muscle.

What most people mean by self acceptance is believing that you're perfect just the way you are. That's a trap. You're not perfect. If you think you're perfect there won't be any desire within you to do self improvement. The proper way to do self acceptance is not by deluding yourself to think that you're perfect. But by accepting that you're not perfect. Accept your weakness, stupidity and inferiority. It can be painful to accept how low down the totem pole you are. But you gotta start somewhere. You can become "perfect" but it takes work. Are you gonna strive for perfection? I am.

I prefer ejaculating on the back of my left hand and then I lick it off. So I don't lose any nutrients.

Get busy doing something else. Your mind can't focus on two things.

Laziness perhaps. I usually fantasize about being taken advantage of by girls because I'm lazy. Being on top is exhausting.

You might want to keep track of bad things that people do to you in your commonplace book. This will prevent you from getting emotionally attached to bad people. I'm going to do this because I keep forgiving certain people. And I let my guard down. And then I'm surprised when they lash out at me again. That's pure stupidity. People say that forgiveness is hard but it's very easy. That's why most people allow themselves to be abused repeatedly. The emotionally difficult thing to do is to hold a grudge. & Be conscious of the fact that bad people do exist.

I didn't say that you said that. I don't hold onto anger. I hold onto memories of people mistreating me.

You don't necessarily have to crave perfection. You can enjoy slow progress. And if someone's better than you that's okay. You will surpass them eventually.

Sometimes the weak boy that I used to be pops up and I become him. It's like I'm possessed. This only lasts for a few hours usually. But during those hours it feels like all my personal growth is gone. And I'm back at square one. How do I kill this bastard?

I heard Elliot Hulse talk about that stuff once. I'll put that on my read list. I know I'm able to handle any pain. But only because I believe or "pretend" that I can. That's the opposite of being a little bitch. When I say king I mean a strong independent being. And I believe that other people's happiness is not my responsibility.

Maybe she's his sister. I've never tried to get sex because I don't know how. I had a girl on my bed once and we were playing video games but I didn't know what to say to her.

This idea that anger is a negative thing is completely wrong. Anger is energy. And you need this energy to be able to stand up for yourself & defend yourself. And sometimes offense is the best defense.

They love guys who are popular & famous because it elevates their own status.

I think it's a good idea to make a list titled "reasons to be happy". And make this list as big and juicy as possible. And whenever you feel shitty you can take a peek at this list. & It should lift you up. I think the most effective way to do this is to write down positive things that are going to happen in the future. Things that you can look forward to. Here's an example. I will learn how to create the perfect hamburger sandwich. Better than McDonalds. I will learn how to read lips, sign language, braille and morse code. I will obtain shoes that will comfort my kingly feet. I will touch and taste the female youth of every nation. My seed will sprout in many wombs. And my bloodline will branch across the globe.

Make each approach different. Until you find one that works. And then keep doing that. And if rejection gets to you just stay busy. If you do nothing your mind will dwell on the rejection.

Here's an example of youtube censorship. You can't find this video if you search for it on youtube. But it has over a million views.

Youtube might be censoring your comments. Are you talking about controversial things?

That's a limiting belief. I think being passive is not going to change anything but I can try it. Small. Fragile. Weak. Victim. Afraid. Ugly. You mean like buying him so many chocolates that he gets diabetes and dies? True! And you can also create any personality you want and become it but it's difficult. Haha I don't want to have to fight those brown zombie things. Mine pops up in random moments. Usually when I'm tired & low energy. The King.

I dream of a future where robots do all the work. And everyone gets free money from the government every month. A nice big paycheck. Public transportation and health care are completely free. There are no more borders between nations. And crime doesn't exist because everyone is rich, fulfilled and loved. What's your vision? Edit: Also free electricity, internet, phone calls & texting. Infinite batteries. No more cables.