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@Principium Nexus Modern society's idea of reality is the only thing that is an idea/concept. There is still the absolute reality that you can only attain through the practices of non-duality. So while that may be true, it doesn't explain everything.

@Principium Nexus How do you know? Like, how do you ACTUALLY REALLY know? For all we know based on our limited perception, we could actually be puppets controlled by invisible ethereal strings controlled by some mystical masterminds in the sky. Don't just assume that it's all thought.

@Principium Nexus Oh well makes sense to me. Oh I didn't walk home from work, I thought my way there. Oh I didn't just see you arrive, I thought my way to seeing you. Oh I didn't smell your body odor, I thought my way to smelling it.

@Principium Nexus The world is a concept that hides the world. When thought disappears, world disappears, leaving the world. Meditate on that. Potrzebie

Life Purpose Life Purpose Life Purpose and Potrzebie

http://rationalwiki.org/wiki/Other_ways_of_knowing I think the article linked above really presents a good example of how closed-minded rationalism really puts your head so far up your ass that you're not able to discover anything new beyond the paradigm you've locked yourself into. It presents an entire list that the writers think rationalists simply shouldn't touch just because they're "not scientific". Some of the items on the list really are likely to be hokey. But other things they listed actually turn out to be very valid ways to explore reality like: Meditation Psychedelics Ancient Spiritual Scripture (at least if you actually truly understand what they talk about) Intuition Contemplation of one's life Studying The Philosophies of Tribalistic Societies Shamanic Journeying Epiphany But of course none of these things have anything to do with rationality or logic so they must be false! Contemplating my life and inner emotions? Nah! That's pansy New Age woo woo shit. I'd rather waste my time being lost in thought.

@Patrique I noticed that most (actually, all) of your expectations of how art should shape the world is shallow and materialistic. Caring more about gross obvious traits of reality and not able to tap into more subtle nuanced parts of it like philosophical aspects or existential parts that art can bring to the forefront of human consciousness. If it were the case that realism was all that mattered, Picasso and others like him would have been homeless. It's up to you to really shape yourself to desire the subtle. Stop normalizing your self-identity that you are a low-consciousness human being especially if you're aware of these concepts. You ain't gonna get better if you keep normalizing low-consciousness in your life. Have the desire and do some real effort to pursue high-consciousness living. You're like a self-aware donkey that chooses to remain a self-aware donkey because "donkey's gonna do what a donkey's gonna do. That's just life!". LOL. You know artwork that showcases pain and suffering exists right?

I really need help with something. For the first time in my life, I experienced a strong surge of fear near the end of my meditation session. This was, by far, one of the most concentrated and focused I was during a meditation session and I reached an almost non-dual state near the end. But after a few seconds of being in that state, I felt strong sensations of fear from the lower portion of my body then it rose upwards then I was basically just covered in it. It didn't even feel like I was scared of anything outside of me, it was just pure fear arising on its own. Has anyone experienced this before? I really want to get to bottom of what this was and what this means for my meditation practice because I sure as hell want to avoid having more experiences like these.

Dunno. Interesting question, though.

@TJ Reeves Cool. I'm still a rookie kid as far as spiritual development goes. I'm still not even close to where you're at. in fact the most recent spiritual insight I've had today is that I really do have tons and tons of spiritual purification work that I still need to do before I get anywhere deep.

@SFRL Spit on a person's face. Their reaction is a good litmus test for how mature they are. No, seriously.

I don't really like to post much about my enlightenment work (or even results on much of any personal development domain) because I'm extremely introverted and don't have much desire to share them. However, I think I've made enough progress with enlightenment after the past few months of doing self-inquiry for an hour a day that I thought it'd be a good idea to share them. Nothing mind-blowing yet but there are noticeable changes. I now notice that there is no experience that is outside of me. An experience of a far-away mountain landscape occurs "within my head". And the experience of my head/scalp is itself not outside of "me", or not something that "covers" me. There is no difference between nothing/something or existence/non-existence. All moments of experience are something and nothing at the same time. And Nothing (with a capital N) is not "nothing" as people would conventionally conceptualize nothing but Nothing is synonymous with Everything. "You" are a lot easier to find if you just stop seeking. But the stopping of the seeking is more of a passive event rather than active decision but also feels like a bit of both. Like the active decision was a passive event. I now notice that enlightenment has no value. That's kind of why it's the most important thing for humanity right now. (Additionally, that also made me realize that nothing has value. Even things that have "value" have no value) I believe that I still have to climb a thousand Mount Everests stacked upon each other to get into some really deep shit, so this isn't me bragging about how far I've gone. In fact, it still feels like my enlightenment results are pretty shallow. I'll be pushing myself further to the best of my abilities in the future, or maybe play some video games or whatever.

Why not hold both mindsets? Know consciously that success will never make you truly happy. Pursue it consciously anyway.

July 15, 2017 - Saturday Did nothing LP-related today because I meditated for 10 hours because why not?

INTRODUCTION Several months ago, I started a journal here called Upgrading to the Maximum Level In Life. It lasted for only a few months before I stopped writing in it. Now, several months later, I realized why. I tried to make a daily commitment with a lack of true focus on what I actually wanted out of it. I saw it as 'Personal Development Journal' but I wasn't really focused on what I was doing, personal-development-wise, at the time. I was basically still at a phase where I was gathering self-help theory mainly from Leo's videos without really having a main vision or goal yet. So what happened was that writing every entry felt tedious because I usually didn't feel like I was writing about something I was excited about. So eventually I just stopped... However, over the last several months or so, I found myself slowly realizing a deep passion that I'm still struggling to fully express. I don't feel like I'm even close to 1% of embodying my deepest passions and motivations. Of course, I'm talking about Life Purpose. Right now, I actually have three different passions that are driving me, Drawing, Music Production, and Game Development. The problem with having multiple life purposes is that it's very hard to fully focus on a single project and really get good work done in any one field. Recently, I kind of decided that Game Development was going to be my main life purpose whereas the other two are going to be my 'lesser' life purposes. However, I find that sense of vision is still not crystal clear and that I really need to focus and contemplate more to gain a much bigger for what I want in my life and what I want to do with it. So, in the hopes of improving my sense of ultimate purpose in life. I decided to start this journal about my Life Purpose. Every evening, I will write about what I did during the day to pursue my life purpose further, even if I made it only a slug's tiptoe length for the day. (I haven't bought Leo's Life Purpose yet as I still live my parents and I don't have a job but it's on my wishlist, alright...) So. . . I'm going to start by assessing my current situation Right now I have two ongoing serious creative projects: A 2D Platformer Game Project Made In Unity A Daily Drawing Habit because why not? I've also been trying to get myself to make more music but I can't seem to motivate myself to find the time even though I love making music more than drawing. What I want to accomplish with this journal: Gain a clearer picture of where I'm currently at with Life Purpose Gain a clearer picture of what I want to do with my life Gain more high quality motivation and improve my level of commitment as I write about my accomplishments for the day Gain some help from the community here on Actualized.org I'll be writing my first entry later this evening. Unlike when I was writing my last journal, this time I have an actual clear goal. Here's to hoping I don't mess it up.

@Visitor Good for you I myself am very very far from being accustomed to that kind of lifestyle. I'm still pretty attached to my electronics and entertainment although I am still pretty young. i did just meditate for 10 hours today, though. It was to challenge myself. I believe I've gotten even more benefits from that compared to my 7-day no-power experience.

July 6, 2017 I was minding my own business, when suddenly the lights went out and the ground began shaking. A 6.5 magnitude earthquake just hit my area of residence. It was not that strong where I was and my house was basically unscathed but from what I heard, it hit the local power plant really bad. It would take a week before the power would come back. The power just came back a few hours ago as I write this and I thought I would like to share my experience of living with no power for about 7 days. (Through a personal development perspective, of course) My Normal Routine: Do some minor exercise and yoga first thing in the morning before breakfast then work with "hyper-speed" on various projects. I'm a recent Computer Science graduate with no employment but have convinced my parents that I won't look for a job yet until I pass a certain prominent I.T. fundamentals exam scheduled this October so I can easily get an I.T. related job without hassle. Unfortunately, I.T. has nothing to do with my creative life purpose. I'm seriously considering becoming a music producer (specifically a video game music producer). I also do a bit of drawing occasionally, okay,. . quite a lot of drawing, actually. Plus, I have a big indie game project that I started 2 years ago back when I was seriously considering becoming a game developer before changing my mind. However, the project still isn't finished and I don't want to abandon it completely and I believe it will still take several months before I can really complete it and focus on other things. I'm also the only developer working on the game, I make everything from the coding to artwork to the music. Bundle that with my 1 hour daily meditation habit and 30 minute daily self inquiry habit. And also me trying to squeeze in some reading there as well. And it's still not the full picture because of family matters, addictions and distractions. My Happiness Level: Not very high. I'm overworked and stressed out. No surprise there. My Routine After The Earthquake: My exercise and yoga in the morning was not affected at all. The only activities I could engage in with no power was meditation, reading, and drawing without the POWER of using google for image references. I had much less distraction. During the hours I normally would spend either working on a project or in entertainment/distraction was spent mostly drawing (I plan to post all the drawings I made soon). On two separate days I went outside and did nothing but walk around town for about an hour or so (Although I do actually do this occasionally during my normal routine as well). I did 1 hour of self-inquiry work a day instead of the usual half hour. I would also occasionally do long sits of doing nothing when I didn't want to draw, read books, or go outside. Unfortunately, I've already read all the self-help/personal development-related books I have so all the books I read during the week were fiction books for entertainment purposes. My Happiness Level: Mostly bored as hell but a few days into it, I noticed that I wasn't stressed out. This simplistic lifestyle was refreshing and I learned a few things about how I should restructure my normal routine in order to live a more conscious life. Even the fiction books were really helpful, I could lose myself in a world of fantasy instead of thinking about my work schedule like I usually do. Things I Learned: Peace is more important than Productivity I don't need to go on "hyper-speed" all the time. It's incredibly unconscious and it makes me feel miserable. Better to work mindfully and take breaks whenever I'm losing concentration. I can cut my workload in half and my distractions by a lot more but it will take a lot of emotional work. But the important thing is that I can do it. It's going to be especially difficult while my mind won't let go of that big game project but when I finish it, there will be a huge space that I'll have to handle strategically. I should probably be drawing more even though it's just a side-hobby for me. It's a really easy outlet for me to get my imagination out there. I should buy more personal-development-books. I clearly don't have enough personal-development books. All of the above should be implemented slowly and with patience.

July 14, 2017 - Friday One Week With No Power

July 5, 2017 - Wednesday Currently working on a new music track for my game project. Starting a new song is usually tricky but was met with more resistance than usual with this particular one because I was having a hard time trying to come up with creative ideas. I noticed that this is all a matter of just pushing through. and making sure that I take real steps each day. i wish I had more time during the day or had less of a sleep quota so I could move to mastery quicker but I have to keep reminding myself to be patient. Oh and tomorrow I really shouldn't forget to write a secret message in my entry for the day like I did yesterday.

July 4, 2017 - Tuesday I forgot to post this in my last entry. I've been wanting to seriously pursue electronic music production for a long time. I don't know yet where it will take me in the future but I should really just focus on gaining more and more practice each day. I'm also currently studying for a Fundamentals of I.T. Engineering exam to hopefully get hired at my first job. It has nothing to do with my life purpose (not directly anyway). Just something I'm doing to hopefully earn some money that will definitely help but it is eating up a significant part of time. Also, I'm still making tiny babysteps progress with my game project. P.S. If you listened to the track, you may have noticed that I used a sample from Leo's What is God video? I just thought it would be fun.

July 2, 2017 - Sunday I haven't posted in a while because I got caught up in various festivities involving my family. Basically, I had little time to get creative work done. I don't really have much motivation right now to write all the details but I will say that I've considered getting into classical Indian-style yoga today inspired by one of Leo's recent blog posts. I'm doing it in the hopes that it will help me to become more focused and productive and of course, also bring a ton of other great benefits as well especially with emotional mastery. I'll be talking about this more tomorrow. And tomorrow I gotta be cheerful or Santa will put me in his naughty list.

In my opinion, the problem with Sam Harris is that he puts in the effort to achieve some spiritual experience then instead of embodying the truth in his daily life or putting in even more effort into going deeper, he thwarts his own efforts through mental masturbation.

June 28, 2017 - Wednesday Pretty much just more work done today. In regards to my game project, I really am still in the middle of a very slow process. I'm in the part where the excitement of the initial idea has run out and I have to just keep pushing through the boredom and monotony of the work. I don't think it's likely that I'm going to be passionate of a game programming job in the future. I've always had this dream of becoming a video game music composer, though. Ever since I was a little kid, I was obsessed with the soundtracks of various games that I played. So, naturally, I still spent quite a bit of time working on a music track I'm currently producing. Didn't have much time though because I spent so much time on the game project. I pretty much did what I wanted to do today. I hope tomorrow is the day Donald Trump gets impeached. . . I mean gets him a peach.

June 26, 2017 - Monday Looks like I couldn't go back to regular routine today. i forgot that I still had college graduation ceremonies to deal with and it ate up quite a significant chunk of my time today. I still managed to get some creative work done but only a little. I've been learning to feel okay with it regarding the fact that I'm also going to be pretty busy with other occasions as well this week like my actual graduation ceremony and an annual Fiesta tradition my culture has coming this Friday. But that's Friday, tomorrow I will find a piece of chewed gum under my shoe, I will name it Alfred.

June 24, 2017 - Saturday I decided to take a little break today. I was feeling both stressed out and bored with my game project so I thought I'd just lay back today and play some video games all day. I do, however, still have that new music-production practice I started this week so I did spend more time learning from internet videos and directly working on a new track. I still feel a lot of resistance when making music because I don't have much experience so I keep encountering problems with deciding what to do next and how to do it when making a song. Tomorrow I'll get back to my normal routine. Today felt good and was really effective at easing out the stress so I plan to try to do this once a week to avoid burnout. Oh and tomorrow JKG, stop liking my posts you annoying worm! (it's a joke. . . you may now laugh hysterically).