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Merging with reality throughout the day more and more consistently, sometimes I do it particular well and almost feel like I'm losing my breath and I start to feel happier, especially around my heart and arms. I'm certainly ready to come home, I feel like I'm pushing against a membrane or throwing a ball up a hill, the ball can't quite get to the top and roll down the other side. So to when I try to merge fully with reality, I feel like I can get to microdose on acid level, but just can't quite throw the ball up the hill hard enough to get to the other side. Want to atleast keep up my 3 hr a day self-inquiry, focused solely on non-duality and enlightenment work. On top of that, I will be putting some kind of mark on my hands or body in the form of permanent marker as a reminder throughout the day to focus on BE-ing.

No no no no no no, I've been on this journey now for a bit, and I feel so close to waking up, it's on the tip of my tongue. Was not hell, it's full of days of ego-backlash, some bad moods, but overall it's fun and exciting. Who doesn't love the click when something they've been trying to wrap their head around for months all of a sudden makes sense. If you don't believe me, just put like 30 minutes of meditation a day, if anything gets too hard, stop and pick it up when you feel like it again. I had a shroom trip Friday morning and insisted to myself that I should take a break for the day, but ended up at night watching like three hours of Moojiji videos because it's fun and interesting. How much could you be doing that it would still be fun and interesting without you feeling like you can't live your life? I don't know too much about "Dark night of the soul", I think there is a certain loneliness to realizing that you are just a dream character, but at the same time instead of it being me zambize and you traveler, we are united in the fact that we are dreamers, and I think there's a beauty in that too, it's not me vs. you anymore. You don't have to give up your loved ones, you have to give up your NEED and clinging to them. You still get to show them all the love you want, and can make their dream as beautiful as you'd like. You're trying to change your relationship with your thoughts and ego, not slit your ego's throat. As far as what you should do, go hang out with your sister and act normal, be whoever you want to be, just be aware while doing so

Put the nail in the coffin, should watch it with your sister

Genius video

How are you acting differently that she cried? You don't have to change your level of consciousness to communicate with them properly. I began listening better, helping them get their feelings out more, and just not being quite as much of a douche, although still very much so. Watch Moojiji or someone who is super spiritually advanced. I'll even link you because he's phenomenal. What you'll notice is that apart from this weird thing he does when he closes his eyes for 10 seconds and opens them slowly, he's really funny and personable, you could go out to eat with him and he'd be fantastic to be around. You don't have to act like Jesus, you can be a fun charismatic brother who just has a bit more emotional mastery and other benefits of this work

When answering questions, it's possible that instead of deeply clarifying everything, you should leave something for them to figure out on their own, or ask questions yourself back at them. The number one problem I see in this field is the inability to think for themselves. However, teaching someone to think for themselves is no easy task, be engaging, you can be better than google at answering questions because google will just give you the answer, it won't help engage their awareness and mind in an independent way

I don't think the girl of your dreams has a 5'11"+ height minimum, could be wrong though

http://vividlife.me/ultimate/26035/the-enlightenment-trap-when-ego-takes-ownership-of-spiritual-experiences-by-maria-erving/ Great article on how my ego has been taking ownership of my spiritual gains, every shift in perspective and consciousness seems to present an opportunity for my ego to start bastardizing my new values and insights

Until I've found the Truth in my moment, everything is an assumption to be tested. I feel like a big pitfall I fall in is being intelligent enough to realize that everything is pointing in the direction of this Truth, yet not realizing they will still have to go out into their experience and find that. Is the nature of reality love and oneness and whatever other bullshit you've heard, I don't know you tell me. You're solutions to your problems have always been best, that's not being cocky, that's what you've experienced. Trust in that.

I'm sure that was a real gem, but I went to youtube and it was deleted for inappropriate and offensive content

If you think every moment is a lesson, then it will be you observing the lesson, I.E, the lesson and you. Well that's a problem because the lesson just comes in as a perception, and so do you, don't split yourself up like that

Thanks for making this post, I had a super insightful mushroom trip this morning full of notes and notes, yet was left feeling a bit empty and hollow. Look forward to the deeper insights that are full of love, beauty, joy, because these feel very matter of fact and dull

Don't cling, yet paradoxically, don't cling to not clinging this is key

I'm clinging to my passion, I'm having a hard time relaxing without thinking about personal development in life. I still want to have these thoughts and want to have a vision for my future, but it's seeping into parts of my life where I just need to relax, and I can tell it won't be sustainable. How do you manage having a vision and being serious about it, without being too serious about it that it overtakes other areas in your life? Figure it out

What I am trying to do, is to create a path for myself to live a more fulfilling and profound life, that others may or may not choose to follow. How can I expect to beat myself over the head with 80 hours of work a week in a never ending cycle of optimization, and then at the end, come away with happiness for myself and others. People would look to me and the path I followed with dread and never follow it. However, if I can prove that a more profound life is achievable in a reasonable amount of time by focusing on the right areas of your life, that's a path people will follow. I'm trying to live the most profound life I can live that other people could reasonably follow, and see what I'm doing and think, yeah I could do that too, not look up to me like I'm some god who busted his head open and sent himself into psychosis to find the Truth

I want to create a path for myself and other to live a more profound life, a template. I can't expect to bust myself 80 hours a week and expect at the end i'll find some magical truth to set us all free. I don't expect others to do this, they won't. By being reasonable and smart though, I can create a convincing path that one can follow while living a BALANCED life of thinking and improving your moments, and just ising out

I want peace from thought, yet expect these thoughts to bring me towards peace

Taste like fucking shit

Focusing on the "I amness" has gotten easier and easier, it manifests itself right in my center of gravity, right in the middle of my brain. I try to put my awareness there, I'm not used to trying to be aware of the center of my brain, I cross my eyes struggling to get my awareness pushed back into the middle of myself where this vibrating sense of "I amness" is. However, as you examine it, it's clear that it's just a bodily sensation, a tingling in my brain no different than a tingling in my arm. As I overlap my awareness with this bodily tingling, it seems to squeeze away, I follow it and follow it around my head, to the crown of my head, to the tip of my nose where I don't usually go. It runs to the front of my face, but I've been here before, here I'm good at being aware, I've got it. I hover over the sense of "I amness" with ever more awareness and intensity, it's ran to the wrong place. With my awareness shining it's light, it realizes it's too bright here and quite literally goes down into my chin and almost as if it were one contained amoeba of "I amness" slips down my chin and down my thought into my chest, stay there I think as I feel the warmth and clarity, I wonder if I've won or something, I don't feel a strong sense of "I amness". I check back in the center of my brain, a lighter tingling sensation is there. After repeating the process, I realize that a small piece of this broke off while I chase it around my head, and slithers back to the center of my head. I try to play goalie as I chase this sense around, making sure that it doesn't reach it's way back to the center of my head, I need to increase my awareness. Today we do shrooms with the intent to really bring out and make clear what my deepest values are. They seem to be knowledge, teaching, and clarity. I want to not only figure this path out for myself, but also optimize it wherever possible, maybe enlightenment of the future can be simple, the norm.

Fake humbleness is not the way, if you can make a difference, make it. However, don't let your ego find out you think this.

My question is, can life be a game?

Can you imagine a planet with only ISIS members ^_^?

Although this sounds like an epic "RoboCop" sequel, there is not separating different ideologies in this world. If you saw an island whos ideology was having kids, and throwing them off a cliff if they weren't fit, you'd probably at least say something. Tensions would rise is my point. Ideologies clash. I like the idea, but this ends up causing a lot of demonization between groups of people, it just wouldn't work out and as Leo said, did not work out in history. Also, just because we are on our own islands, we still share the same planet. Issues like "who gets to fish in these waters" would come up. I actually just remembered one of my favorite shows "whale wars". I think the crew was like U.S./Canadian/Australian and they were lobbing like acid at Japanese whale boats to make it difficult to whale. One country believes whaling should be illegal, the other legal. These ideologies clashed in neutral territory

Were you scared at all? I had such bliss/love/adrenaline while at the same time my ego was acting like it was in a plane that was crashing. I couldn't stop laughing at how big of a bitch my ego was after it was all over... Low key wondering what other people's experience after just smelling tracks/seeing the ox is like

I think people who work 80 hours a week mean they are at work for 80 hours. They could be being complete idiots, talking, pretending to go to the bathroom every hour, and get almost nothing done. But, they were at work for 80 hours. I can't really tell you how much I work, I just work, try to be efficient about it, and I know when that efficiency starts to go down and I need a break, I take it right away. You're putting work into worrying about how much work you're supposed to put in. Don't. That time could be spent doing work, or resting better so that you can come back even fresher. People love to exaggerate what they do, you're completely normal, probably a harder worker than most all of us, don't stress it!