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@randomguy123 Try techniques like The Sedona Method, Letting Go, The Lefkoe Method (highly recommended) When you've built the habit of facing and experiencing your pain rather than avoiding it, you could be ready to try some psychedelic, to supercharge your recovery. All the best!

@beatlemantis Stand your ground. You don't want to hear this, but the anxiety and rumination they bring in you is your own. ---- The only way is through. - Through the anxiety, self hatred, sadness, depression. When you go through them, rather than avoiding them, you will be able to stand your ground in their presence. They will no longer draw out your depression because you won't have any. ---- It takes time and practice. Be patient. Be diligent.

I ain't telling you what to do, but I encourage you to seek therapy. You can seek psychotherapy. If you can, try to get massage therapy. Massage, acupressure, acupuncture. These might be easier for you to do. They'll open the floodgates though. Which is a good thing. You need to process all the pain inside. I notice that after some of the worst periods of my life came some of the best. We can't get to clarity without going through periods of dark confusion. Hang in there bud.

I'm really sorry for what you went through dude

@Leo Gura I watched some of your awakening video today. Isn't there a point where there's too much awakening? Chris Bache said that, after going into ever deeper states of consciousness, it was time for him to stop using LSD after 20 years of use, that in a sense he'd gone too far.

My heartbreak songs Happier by Ed Sheeran 9 Crimes by Damien Rice And last but not least, Someone Like You by Adele

@Kazman Now that 2 months have passed.. did that effect of feeling total and not seeking approval from anyone persist till today? And was it worth it?

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I've been trying to get a substantial experience with 5 Meo DMT but unsuccessfully. I've tripped on it 6 times now, starting with low dosages. Until now, most of the trips ended up in vomiting. I assumed that my body is purging. But today I took a dose of 35mg insufflated and still didn't have any substantial experience. Before I thought it was due to how I was snorting it (I blew it hard, which took it to my throat, so I learned to take gentle sniffs) but I rectified that. I still have another 40mgs but I don't want to take it until I figure out why I'm not able to have any substantial experience. Please help me with suggestions. Do you have any idea why? I can do a more detailed trip report if you want.

@rnd What is consciousness? What is awareness? If you contemplate on these questions, you will get revelations of what they really are. And the longer you contemplate them the more you are likely to grasp what they really are.

@Leo Gura Thanks for the blog update.

@Nahm Thank you. I finally resolved it <3

@Leo Gura @Nahm @Salvijus @AakashIf I take some more psychedelic, what are the chances that I will have a good experience?

IT IS ABSOLUTE FUCKING HELL

IT IS SHEER AGONY

@Preetom Do you seriously think that @Leo Gura would have been able to reach his level of awareness without 5 MeO? What makes you think that?

@Leo Gura If it is true that the body gains healing ability with awakening then why is Martin Ball experiencing this? Why would you experience physical illness?

@Leonid That's the point. Surrender to the experience. Allow it to purify you.

@Leo Gura I definitely appreciate your personal journey videos. Check out Subjective Reality by Steve Pavlina. It seems very very consistent with how you are describing your experience of consciousness.

@iTommy Could you refer where you got that info on Martin Ball?

@Leonid If you want to experience ego death on LSD I would encourage you to take higher dosages of LSD I would also encourage you to take a few hits of cannabis during the come up. Cannabis has an interesting amplification effect on LSD

@MezzoAria I've insufflated 5 MeO multiple times, going up to as much as 35mg. It did not work for me. I am thinking of trying the rectal administration. You could try this as well.

@MezzoAria Freebase is supposed to be smoked while the HCl is usually insufflated (snorted). Did you smoke it? If you did, how did you vaporize it? Using a meth pipe?

@Leo Gura Have you had several individuals reporting such experiences? I want to do a thorough check on whether the problem is immunity. I will test my next batch to confirm whether it is 5 MeO, and try smoking and plugging it. This should give me an idea of whether it will work for me

I took some strong LSD some hours ago so I guess I'm enlightened now. I just wanted to reach out to anyone..