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I believe the awakening process is the most important pursuit of this life. I am still in school and faced with a lot of 'meaningful discussions' in various social situations, is this an idea worth sharing it should I just stick to my own pursuit? Also, it is surfaced that I am absolutely nothing. I think I'm having a similar realization of "oh okay I'm there", despite knowing there is much deeper I can go, what precautions should I take to not become a shit spiritual practicioner. I don't feel particularly evil in my 17 year old body, but there is some egoic excitement that pops up ever now and then which leads to the sharing of ideas that are simply not worth sharing, so the possibility of different undesirable traits that could be there that maybe could be perceived as normal but not pointed out as evil could surface in the future. Thank you for your wisdom, it is much appreciated.

I am 17 and have not yet lost my virginity. I am devoted to the path of enlightenment, should I forget about pursuing this experience as this is an 'unwanted desire'? There is desire to pursue this in my current material context because... Well, teenage girls are quite attractive. Is this something that could wait until later in life even know it is accessible to me and I would consider the consider the connection meaningful? Looking from a broader perspective, I realise that seeing the truth is all that matters; this obviously does not disregard partaking in my mundane responsibilities. But this realisation presents the idea of seclusion and the surrender of recreation to enhance insight, only partaking in institutional responsibilities such as school and work to maximise my practice - would this be excessive or unwise? Just looking for different perspectives.

Although I would not consider myself enlightened, I have found the beauty of expanding consciousness allows this attitude of chasing to present itself in awareness and thus allow it to vanish.

Does anyone have any good poet recommendations obviously exploring spiritual themes. Maybe some zen poets, I'm not too well versed in this area. Any material people have read that has made them react in positive way e.g. thought 'wow this is profoundly true' or ideally 'oh great! enlightenment has occurred'.

Does anyone know of any good resources other than Actualized so I can work on furthering my self-inquiry practice?

thankyou very much

I guess god has rules if you want to sleep in the nice parts of his cities.

Is the problem with 'neo-advaitas' that their dialogue is implying the world should be a certain way? By passionately exclaiming the truth to someone supposedly not awakened, are they pushing an agenda that assumes all people 'should' seek the absolute truth? I acknowledge there is an obvious reason why an individual should pursue the absolute, as there is not other true satisfaction, but am wondering if the dialogue is flawed if it implies a wide demographic should act a certain way.

The belief is strong belief that determines the 'tone' of the thought is also made of concept and imagination, this cannot be realised until it is presented vividly in awareness through expanding consciousness. BELIEF IS JUST ANOTHER TONE OF THOUGHT

When the mind is condensed to where it is, so where the words take place, the mind' eye, the infinite nothing clearly reveals itself. But when i let go if the mind seems to wander around attempting to subtly attach to things, attempting to decifer what it should be focusing on. I wonder if this is a delusion as it is clear the body and mind are not perceiving and just sensory information upon the plain of nothing, so what is the relevance of this mechanism that attempts to decifer? Can it be let go of? Have i just not practiced focusing the awareness of the mind into the minds eye and in doing so preventing it from spilling out and labelling everything? This feels like it takes a lot of energy, so i think there just needs to be more practice of letting go. Any feedback appreciated - please ask if anything i have said doesn't make sense

I am more asking if I need to develop intense mindfulness to maintain being the enlightened self at all times. When i am being, at least attempting to be, i feel as though the mind has a tendency to wander around reality and" notice" things. There is no entity to compare to people, and thus no entity to establish a conceptual hierarchy. Even if there is such a thought i am aware it is just that.

It is very clear to me that "that" is my true nature, i am aware of who is truly perceiving, and that the mind encompassing the mechanism of belief is the biggest irritant to transcendence. I apolagize if my inquiry has been outlined in Leo's material already, i am in my last couple years of high school so i get to watch them and absorb them in depth rather rarely these days. My inquiry/statement is this: I feel as though clarification is needed to let go of the desire to become enlightened, as this is a phenomenon of thought. The process feels as more of a retraction of thought rather than an ascension, as it was thought of previously by the entity. Maybe needing clarification is an issue in itself, just look for any guidance.

Also i am aware that i have used subjective pronouns, it is clear that an entity does nor exist as the mind not the body is perceiving. This is just out of habit.

I'm looking to do my first psilocybin mushroom trip next week but am unsure on how much I should take, I was considering doing Terrence Mckenna's famous 5 grams in silent darkness/heroic dose. I'm 17 years old and have been having some substantial insights from self-observation and meditation: My meditation practice has evolved over a year and my self observation methods pretty frequent for a few months - I feel my consciousness is expanded and I am starting to comprehend actuality as opposed to believed, conceptual reality. My psychedelic experience is limited, I have only done a 150uq acid trip quite a while ago which was interesting but at this point in my journey I was 'looking for answers' and my meditation practice was much more focus based which translated into an interesting yet rather pointless experience, although there were good intentions underlying the 'insight' gained, I would characterize the trip as a "virtuous" delusion. I feel my experience will clearly be different to those I observe on Youtube who give their 'heroic dose' trip reports, some instances people reporting not being able to distinguish hallucination from reality and I infer this is where most psychological distress stems from. On the psychonaut subreddit I get a straight no when I ask whether I should begin with a 5 gram trip. So from a 'high consciousness' perspective, I'm not saying this to brag about supposedly fitting into this category, but from people who genuinely explore actuality, would I get a lot out of a 5 gram mushroom trip in silent darkness of simply distress?

What dosage would you recommend for my first psychedelic mushroom experience?

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