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  1. Am also Dutch and I completely agree with MaxV. I would say Volt is the most conscious party at the moment, though unfortunately very small. Btw conservative parties are actually rising in numbers. A quick look at FvD should tell you enough. On YouTube alone they gather the most amount of views. NOS, for example, interviewed (using viewer requested questions) a bunch of party-leaders and it's clear with numbers alone how popular Thierry really is. He got +100k views on his interview, double of current minister-president Mark Rutte. His YouTube channel is just a minefield of hit after hit. Compared to his channel, GroenLinks and ChristenUnie (for example) are failing miserably. I don't know too much about politics in general, especially about my own country, but I can already tell that they are destined for something big. Their popularity is increasing with every controversial tweet. I don't think they'll be the biggest, not even close, but they'll definitely leave a mark in parliament. Am guessing at least 8 seats, if I'm wrong it just proves how little I really know about politics in my country. Piratenpartij is also great, they want to legalize shrooms!
  2. Hey I know Hasan! Good fella
  3. Hello everyone. Recently I discovered, after some inner work, how much attention I crave from people. I always fantasized about ways in which I would get a lot of attention from people I don’t know or people I do know. I’m talking about acting not like myself to stand out, try to gain publicity on social media networks or purposefully not approach friends but to wait till I get approached instead. I’m sure it stems from my past, probably something like not getting enough attention from my parents when I was younger. Is the solution here that I should stop caring about what other people think of me? Or is it something else? Have you guys ever dealt with this type of stuff? Thanks in advance.
  4. Good day everyone. As my last years of high school are coming to an end, I have basically made two options for myself: 1. I take a gap year, buy Leo's course and try to finish it within that year. I'll know what I want, how to get it and what I need to get it at the end of the year. 2. I go to university, get myself a degree so I am secure in that regard and then pursue one of many dreams which I have. As of right now I am not 100% certain what I want. I always thought I wanted to become something big like an astronaut, which is still something I really want to be, but I see now that it might be smarter to go for other options. Especially Leo's blog post about universities really made me question whether it would be smart to go to one. Psychedelics researcher, full-time video-editor or primatologist are my other options right now. My interest is high in these fields and maybe just going for the astronaut route might not be that fun. Apparently I'd need at least a degree in something like aerospace engineering, something which in and of itself doesn't seem THAT interesting to me, but is certainly something I'd consider doing if that's what it takes to become an astronaut. The gap year would really help me figure out what I want, though lets say the course doesn't take too long I would end up not doing much for the remainder of the year. You can only apply for universities every year you know. I would have loads of free time left not knowing what to do. If you have any advice, suggestions or general remarks about universities and stuff, please let me know. So far my only informant about universities has been Leo calling them all evil and personally I am still a bit skeptic about that. Maybe he's right, I don't know.
  5. Good day everyone. Life is getting real for me believe it or not. I wanted to search for studies and follow the intructions my school gave me today to prepare a bit, but realized very quickly that a lot of different studies seem interesting to me. For example, on one hand I want to do something in primatology, but on the other hand I want to study psychedelics too. As I was going down the entire list of studies which fit my favorite categories (33 pages total, 10 studies per page), I only got to page 10 before having to slow down. I have written down 21 studies already. Stuff is getting overwhelming. I think it would be best if I hear some personal stories. Where did you guys study? I was personally planning to go to university somewhere in Canada, but am open to any options really. What did you guys like/dislike about studying? How long did the study take? Did you have time to visit friends/family or just in general any free time? Did it take time to adjust to studying instead of normal school? Have you ever been to a university? Last but not least: How can I implement self-actualization into this? I want to connect my path here with my study, hence why studying psychedelics seems so interesting to me. Not trying to become the next Terence Mckenna or anything, but the scientific research behind all of it seems so fascinating. Cheers.
  6. I know I'm late here, very late as a matter of fact, but I felt like posting here something. Fasting and meditation go hand in hand yes. I have never heard of this: But am interested in trying out if this is actually true. Usually I meditate around 6 PM or the last half hour before the sun goes down (I meditate everyday for 30 mins atm) Though I have to say: it's very energy absorbing. It's difficult to concentrate on important tasks and if you have any deadlines or stuff like that you might feel even more stressed. Right now I have online classes and focussing/keeping up with the homework etc can be very frustrating. Then again, it's better then going out (it's summer where I live). Good luck.
  7. I'll save you the trouble if you won't mind. I had this with TVD as well yes.
  8. Hello everyone. Recently I finished what is in my opinion the best series on earth. However, besides that this is the second time I have finished it, I have this empty and sad feeling. I miss watching that show now. I miss the characters, the fun, the plot. I am sad because I’ve already seen it. This might sound irrational for some people, but this also effects me in other ways. I have no motivation to do anything at all. Be it making homework, talking with family or friends online or working on something. I don’t experience joy anymore. I feel depressed. Didn’t really know where to put this. I think the “Serious Emotional Problems” sub-forum isn’t meant for these types of posts. I am posting this because it also brings back older thoughts and emotions about ending my life. I keep having the idea of just ending it. I will no longer experience that kind of legendary bliss again, and currently with quarantine I’m stuck with tons of homework and school assignments. I hate my teachers. Everything seems so depressing and sad compared to the joy I had watching that series. Maybe I went a bit off-topic there, but I hope someone can help me. I am currently focussing on meditation to help my mind calm down.
  9. Happy birthday Leo. I can’t thank you enough for changing my whole perspective on life. I hope you are safe and get loads of gifts (if that is what you are into)
  10. Meditate, meditate, meditate...
  11. @PlayTheGame I tried almond milk for a long time, saw Kurzgesagt's video about milk, switched to soy. Apparently soy does have more benefits for the environment. Video of reference:
  12. Nice vid man
  13. Just when I started replacing milk with soy milk you guys come with this...
  14. So I went on vacation with my sister and mother to Istanbul, Turkey. I have been here before, but that was back when I traveled with my dad (and sister etc.) My parents are divorced and so I decided to travel with my mom for a change (sister made the same choice). I am a decently build male, people think I am at least 18 years old and if I don’t shave I reach 22 sometimes! However, I notice how wary I am of other boys (or just old men) staring at my mom and/or sister. I always feel this slight sensation of NEEDING to defend them (formally my dad used to carry this burden). Shit is driving me crazy sometimes. Whenever they catch my presence they start to look away, but I sometimes notice people still trying to catch a glimpse. I don’t blame them. Porn is banned in Turkey. Most people here are muslims and have only had one sexual partner. Personally I do it too and I bet I have made many fathers and brothers here go nuts. Hell, I have never had any sexual partner. At least these grown ass men have made some progress. When we went to take a Turkish bath, there was a fitness room. I saw a young dude with his chest out coming all the way to the front practice machine and starting to work out heavily. He kept looking at our direction. Not gonna lie: He looks decent. But I hope you can understand the amount of pity I felt for him. I don’t suppose he can walk up to any girl on the street here (could be a taboo idk). Anyways, what would you advice me to do? Should I just try to worry less? I am also constantly wary of pickpockets and other scammers.
  15. I honestly do not know where else to put this. I thought I should at least give this forum a try before consulting a professional. Lately I've been getting ''nightmares'' about a girl. I don't know the girl personally, but I know OF her. My friend is good friends with her. Last night I dreamed of her again. We were normally socializing and playing a game. In the dream she expressed how she was surprised how good I was, and soon enough I was getting all kinds of notifications. Somehow people on the internet knew how she thought of me and wanted to play against me to see if I really were as good as she claimed. How is this a nightmare? I have had dreams of her before, but then she... ''stole'' my friends. I caught good friends of mine hanging out with her, calling her chill and stuff. Having a past with loneliness, you can understand how I felt during these dreams when all of the sudden my friends were one by one leaving me for a girl I didn't know. A girl with apparently huge influence. In real life, this same girl actually became friends with one of my closest friends. And yes, that friend eventually left me. I know from a rational point that I am being too irrational about this. The fear of someone stealing my friends is just a projection. But the dreams don't seem to stop. I wake up everytime because of these dreams, being extremely scared (breathing heavily etc.). At some points when I woke up because of it I was 100% convinced all my friends would leave me for her. Any advice will do. Have a nice day.
  16. @bejapuskas Talking, laughing, hanging out more with the girl than with me. Even though before I used to be incredibly close with these people. It’s a dream after all...
  17. A week ago I talked to an ex-bodybuilder. He said that his goal was to become one again, while at the same time helping a friend out with losing weight. He asked me what my goal was, with which I responded that I don’t have one. I just want to be healthy, decently athletic. My first goal was losing weight and I achieved that a long time ago. Now I just wanna stay in shape. He responded with that one cannot really NOT have a goal in fitness. He explained that he himself started around my age, and slowly built up to become the bodybuilder he wanted to be (although he made some mistakes like lifting weights just to brag). If an ex-bodybuilder says you need a goal, it really can leave one confused. What do you guys think? Maybe I should try to lower my fat percentage a bit more, 20% is still something I suppose.
  18. I find it easier to talk to older women. Keep in mind: I'm under 18 years old. Anyone from roughly 22 to 46 falls in the same category here for me. Today, for example, I was at the gym (lockers to be exact) when I spoke to an older woman. She didn't look THAT old, but still. Not my age. Because at school I always call my female teachers ''Miss'' and have to treat them differently, I did kind of the same with this woman. Of course I didn't call her ''Miss'', but in my language there is a certain replacement for the word ''she'' and ''he'' which one uses when talking to someone they have to show respect for, and I did the same to this woman. When we were done talking, I walked in the dressing room a bit embarrassed. I kind of ruined that didn't I? Not that older women are necessarily my type, I still find it easier to talk to them. How could I potentially improve this? In general, how does one hit on older women?
  19. I heard it was bad, started drinking almond milk and didn’t feel much of a difference. Starting with soy milk now, I hope it’s better.
  20. I feel like creativity + authenticity gets really rewarded on YouTube. Especially creativity. I don’t know why people have this obsession with thumbnails and titles. I have seen videos with terrible thumbnails get so many views, even if those YouTubers didn’t have a huge following in the first. Praying that someday the algorithm will favor you is also something. Getting into other people’s recommendations is probably a lot more effective than promoting yourself on social media.
  21. Hello everyone. (If you couldn't care less about the context, main question is down below in Bold.) I am very young. Usually this shouldn't be much of an issue, but I hope it helps you understand the situation I am in. I want to start working, but not at McDonalds. Or be a pizza delivery guy. I realized that I didn't need the money. I really don't. My parents buy everything I need and I don't want to go through the boredom/stress/stupid boss experiences because of a minimum wage job. All my friends already have jobs, I am the only one left behind. I want to work for the United Nations someday. Help people in third-world countries. I think it would be good for me to get out of this corporate western society for a while. I also want to help nature, help species in Africa which are close to extinction. Thing is though: I am not 18. And no non-profit seems to be willing to hire someone of my age. Trust me, the UN made it clear that I should be at least 18. My parents, friends and even my uncle suggested I should get a normal job so I can get my own money. That it would be smart for future me to stand a chance in the competition that is the adult-world. I, personally, just don't feel like doing a dead-end job. I want to help people in need. I think this would also benefit my Green side more. Extra stuff which might be important for the topic: - In a few years, if stuff goes right, I'll be going to Uni - I have 0 work experience - I am well aware that Leo and other people on this forum stressed ''fixing your skillset'' and that I should really be focussing on that more than work experience, I am just curious about what you guys think about this So my main question is: Should I focus on getting a 'normal' job (9-5 type of thing), or just ignore it and try finding volunteer work?
  22. For further reference, see (scroll down to find the biggest traps) It's about this one: Conflating knowledge acquisition with growth/development It might be me. English isn't my best language and so I don't really understand half of the sentence. I tried to translate it, saw the translation, and then wondered how THAT could be a trap. What I think it means: Thinking that acquiring knowledge on its own is equal to growth/development. I am not sure though. If this is the case, could someone explain me how that is not equal to growth? I thought educating oneself is done, so that the person may learn and improve. Thanks in advance.
  23. Hello everyone. I have this dilemma during every type of break. Be it summer break or christmas holiday. Like any other, I have some free time on my hands because of christmas. I don't even celebrate christmas. Now during vacations it is somehow harder for me to go to the gym, because I feel like I am giving up my free time. My time to calm down from the stress from school. I go three times a week and am a teen. My break only lasts 2 weeks. Don't know if that matters, but thought I'd put that out there. Do you have any advice for me? (Just because I want to quit gym temporarily, doesn't mean I'll go back to eating unhealthy stuff like candy. I will still eat fruit almost everyday and avoid sweets, sodas etc.)