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My experience is that when you "break through", ego death and all. There is no you to die. Just eternal consciensness. The fear is just gone then and seems silly. But it gets back when ego return. Albeit a little less. I guess you need to be non dual all the time

Why is it so hard for insights and Enlightenment experiences to stick? One moment I see and understand the next moment back to dense consciensness.

@Leo Gura I feel like the ability to love has become harder in the daily grind as an adult in comparison when I was younger. It feels more stoic now. Any ways to open up again?

28, Male, I stumbled upon it about 5 years ago through Youtube. The stuff really resonated with me. Especially when the spiritual stuff came up because Leo has found a really great way to introduce these subjects to... let's say, stage orangish people. Biggest pain points would be mainly worrying about job, financial situation and life purpose. The job I have is OK but I know that it's not really the thing I wanna keep doing, even though I have no idea yet what that would be (LP/dreamjob). Also I really need it because I have a household to support and thoughts about fucking up and getting fired regularly haunt my mind. This results in an almost constant feeling of anxiety in the background which comes in waves and also fucks up my sleep and appetite. My greatest strengths in spirituality are I think being somewhat gifted into reaching altered states of consciousness. I meditate very inconsistently but when I do it almost always feels like a light psychedelic trip within about 15 minutes. I pretty much always get visual distortion and sometimes it feels like I'm spinning, falling or losing the feeling of being in a body. Also I've a few enlightenment experiences with fairly low/medium doses of psychedelics, mostly non dual/ego death but even god realization once (That really freaked me out). My concentration is not that great and lot's of monkey mind but self inquiry and deep existential questioning has always been a part of me since childhood. So I think that with the help of psychedelics it was easy to see what I've always subconsciously suspected. Worrying about uncertain job situation. Getting stuck in wage slaving for years without having time to find out what I want and self actualize. Sometimes thinking about wasted opportunity, although that is getting less. Really active and creative mind that just won't stop. It has a strong need to express itself but I does not know how and is insecure about it. So it half assess or never finish it. Meditation a few times a week usually half an hour. A thing I do which works really nice for me is walking at night in a quiet area just doing witnessing meditation. Doing psychedelics every once in a while mostly mushrooms. I'm currently trying to find out what my LP is I would say. I've used to do a lot more creative stuff back when I was younger but I got depressed for a few years and lost interest. Now I've got a household and have little spare time which is a problem combined with being a not so structured person. I don't even know what my greatest vision or goal is right now.. I can't make up my mind. I do however know that spiritual enlightenment is something that will definitely come up if the lower Maslow pyramid stages are met. I don't think I can just go on living the orange or green live for too long with all these enlightenment experiences. Those where the only times I felt completely free.

Great idea Can you do me?

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=8GyVx28R9-s They say this song will make you enlightend

Not yet. "Unfortunately an inaccurate title: the study did not find DMT in the human brain, only the enzymes that are involved in its synthesis"

@Joseph Maynor What does teal feel like?

To the people who have done multiple psychedelic trips for spiritual proposes, Did your baseline of consciousness increase after doing many trip over the course of a certain period? I know you can reach incredible peaks, but how much of it 'sticks'? Also, would tripping regularly substitute for meditation or yoga if done properly and with right intend and setting? I'm curious what your experiences are

What are some ways to overcome these feelings when you have to do the stuff that need to be done?

How can you sense my history through a forum post?

In this video some ways to recruit people into a cult are legitimate spiritual techniques and truths. Especially around 4:07 How would you know if a group is legit or just using these techniques for cult purposes?

This just came in my feed and I thought it was very interesting because of leo's cult video's. Here's a guy that seems to have had genuine enlightenment experiences, but I would guess is orange/green on the spiral. I think he comes of as a mix of Ruper spira/Adyashanti mixed with a fratboy and a little Alex Jones there too. What do you guys think, Osho in the making?

Aren't they just manifesting more porn in their lives?

While we're at the cult subject, here is an interesting summary of what happend to Shoko Asahara and the cult of Aum Shinrikyo.

So I was reading a article about how there are online communities of people that are trying to reach ego death with the help of psychedelics. It seems in those places that reaching ego death actually reinforces the ego. one of the quotes in the article is from a forum user is, "Does anyone else feel like there is a massive ego-death circle jerk on this [forum]?". Article is below. The funny thing is I've experienced complete ego death and the knowing of being god looking through these eyes. That was about a year ago and while I know it was truth back then, it now feels like a distant memory and also left me with a "knowing it all" attitude. While having ego death I know this is truth, when the ego came back it was a believe again. If enlightenment is permanent why doesn't it stick when doing psychedelics? Is ego death and enlightenment even the same thing or is it different? https://www.vice.com/en_us/article/j5zqwp/competitive-psychedelic-users-are-chasing-ego-death-and-losing-their-sense-of-self

Hey there, So, I'm trying to to get a steady meditation practice going for 2 weeks now. The thing is, I'm getting a lot of "side effects" or stuff going on when I'm meditation that come up relatively fast, within 10 to 30 minutes usually. Things like visual static, seeing a purpleish pulse, spinning sensations, falling sensations, high pitched tones like an old TV and other things that somewhat resemble a psychedelic trip. Is this normal? I'm not even that concentrated when it happens. There is still a lot of monkey mind going on and I'm still pretty much a meditation noob. Maybe something to do with kundalini. I've heard that there is some risk to that kind of thing so I want to be careful. Any suggestions or thoughts how do deal with this would be appreciated.

Do drugs like Ritalin count as a nootropics? I think it does increase productivity quite a lot but the side effects can be very bad, especially in the long run.

They say that 6 days in a darkroom retreat can give 5me0 like effects.

Did salvia once. Most surreal and wacky drug ever. This video reminds me of it a lot.

David Icke kinda odd. On the one hand he seems to recognize truths about consciousness and infinity, and I think he has had a couple of mystical experiences. On the other hand he believes some really far out there conspiracy theories about Illuminati, reptilians, UFO's and the stuff you mention. Not sure what to make of it.

I've had some hallucinations as a child that I was getting increasingly smaller, denser and heavier. It felt really abstract. Every now and then the same sensations come when I'm meditating. Anyone familiar with this?