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You literally cannot proof subjective experience through science. You can measure brain signals and stuff, but experience? No. I think you are practicing without an open mind, you are basically using some spiritual concepts that seem advanced in some sort of relative view, but you are basically just thinking, that's what you are doing. Why argue about your spiritual wisdom when you admit that you are lost? Is Truth what you want or is feeling superior what you want?

This really works, maybe I cannot explain exactly how, but I attended a coaching session last year, written down my top values and goals, just put them on the paper, after some time, I forgot about some of them, but I guess I kept thinking and trusting in my ability and then I found the list a few months later and like probably 3/10 things happened, the other things were long term. Your vibration just start rolling and snowballing, getting bigger and bigger and then just all things go your way, everything falls in love with everything.

@John Iverson Yeh well you trust the story that in this present moment, you should be confused about life, an you also believe that in some future that exists in your mind as a thought, not as an experience, you will no longer feel confused about life. You are shooting yourself to the foot with your beliefs, change them .)

Do you meditate? On the family situation: you might not be able to be fully independent from your parents if you are under 18, but also if you can prepare yourself a meal and stuff, you are already more developed in this area than many other teenagers. If you don't want a job, but you want even more independence, you can learn how to run facebook ads, how to develop a website or get a friend to do this for you, you can start an online business if you have some valuable skills like a language you can teach etc... It is really easy these days, people are willing to pay. Why wouldn't your parents and brother be able to take care of themselves if you left though, I don't understand, are they disabled in any way if you don't mind me asking?

@Nightwise What type of mental illness do you mean? I get it, it might seem like you are alone when you are in the middle of the storm, but trust me, there are many people on this forum who have gone through crazy things and might be able to relate.

@ShugendoRa Congrats on having an insightful trip, it's very important to have the right mindset about using psychedelics However, you have to change yourself. No amount of LSD, mushrooms, DMT, people telling you what to do can fix you.

@Florian Be careful about using concepts you don't understand when asking questions, it can be distracting. What do you expect spirituality will bring you? Be brutally honest It's hard to know what is good for you (not for everyone) if you don't create the meaning for that word, right.

What do you mean by results from psychedelics and being good at spirituality?

I second this, any sport that's challenging for you probably, it keeps you focused on the present, without any bullshit and other concepts, overthinking. Don't worry about god, divine plan or whatever, they are words. You don't need to look, maybe the looking for is the issue for you at this moment.

@Rilles I think I understand what you mean. My dad has been like that since I was a kid, he never changed. I wouldn't say I have completely fixed this issue in the sense that we still engage in conflict sometimes, but his personality has taught me many things about myself and about love. Later on in my life I realized this issue probably has roots in him being previously married to a schizophrenic/DID person and I guess this problem is so deep in his mind and I haven't even uncovered most of it, but consider that the person you are talking about has also gone through something really tough. I realized how hard it must be for him and stopped expecting him to change, instead I started to look at what he is pointing at in my personality. Sometimes anger can point out so many things you should work on for your own well-being and maturity. And I guess he began to respect my opinions more as I grew up and matured in this way.

@Dimi Thank you

I guess these days it's not THAT hard to make money with all the possibilities online. But for example I would feel bad for offering shitty service without knowing my craft well, I don't know how it is with you.

@dvdas Very good insight, I guess take it slow, don't rush anything, learn from direct experience, see what works for you, focus on what makes you feel good, what makes you feel bad... Observe

@--George-- I meant the kind of practices that the elderly are doing, I don't think it's dangerous, since the teachers are ok with showing it to ordinary people, but if you are sensitive enough, it can be powerful. Probably if you went deeper into it, it could blow your head off Or is your experience different?

@Seed Maybe you can look into more gentle energetic practices, like hatha yoga or chi gong. It still opens you up, but probably it's not enough to blow your head off. Maybe try that?

@Raptorsin7 You are doing great. It's the wise person who seeks wisdom, not the stubborn one. The stubborn one thinks he's got it already. Maybe in order to be able to grind as you call it, focus on your feeling, discover what you want, and do that You can never do the right thing for yourself if you don't know what the right (feel good) thing is, can you? It's just mind playing tricks on you, but once you see that you can create whatever, and become ok with it, it becomes much easier and more clear.

I haven't done kundalini yoga, at least not intentionally, but other kinds of energy work, I would say don't underestimate what the nature can teach you and how strong your intuition is

Update to my journey: this weekend i was at a cottage with my friend, he bought some rapé medicine and wanted to try it, i said im not ready, but i helped him do the ritual, then we meditated together and had a synchronized awakening of our chakras and then i was intuitively looking at his navel and saw an energetic worm, his eyes were closed when i spotted it, but then he opened them and knew immediately what i was pointing at, so we tried to pull it out of his system, but it was too freaking long... then in the morning he said he felt me presence super intensely and saw an energetic bond between our two navels

If you align your thoughts with something that feels bad/untrue and a bad thing happens to you, you think it is totally normal to feel bad, like a victim. If something good happens to you, you think it is pure luck and there is no way you could've controlled it coming to you. If you align your thoughts with something that feels good/true and a bad thing happens to you, you just laugh. If something good happens to you, you recognize the opportunity and start actively seeking it more, like a creator, and then goodness starts naturally flowing into your life. There is so much abundance around, you just need to notice it.

Why do you think through the nervous system is the only way?

There might not be any self, but there can still be a sense of self, or a thought of the self.

Why do you think they are blocked? Do you think others will perceive you as weak if you let them flow? Or are you hiding them for some other reason?

I am glad this thread has served you well

I guess she might be more attached to you because you are already having sex together I assume and because you already were considering a break up with her once in the past, so that might also be a significant factor for her.

@InterruptReQuest I see, in your opinion, what are the benefits you should be getting out of meditation?