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@Adam M This is an interesting suggestion, just throwing out this question for anyone to answer: do you think one can be coached on how to be creative? I mean, creativity means, that you create something new, if there is intervention from someone else, then what is supposed to be creativity becomes reinventing, don't you think? Do you think that the best way to be a 'creativity coach' is to just be an artist and inspire without pushing anything?

If you are worried that you cannot find a girlfriend with a past like this then you really shouldn't worry

In how many things that you do can you use your creative capabilities? Do you limit yourself to using it only sometimes or can you actually use it more in many different things in different ways?

@Dany Balan Yeh people usually don't do what you tell them to do. Living by example is the perfect symbiosis.

This forum is about philo vs. sophy

@Javfly33 Whether that is a problem or not is an interpretation. Some people just don't want to become more conscious and there is nothing you can do with it.

@Dany Balan You can still pursue higher way of living even if others are leaving your country, it's not that big of a problem. Work on yourself and your limiting beliefs rather than try to blame others and complain.

Maybe the kick in the balls is not an illusion, maybe it is actually real, how can you know whether it is real, by someone telling you? Is God the problem or are you the problem, what is the difference between God and you? What is false and what is real? What does God awaken to and where does God fall back into? Can there be sense of self without there being a self? I am not sure whether you understand the words you are using in your sentences, or whether you know how to use them.

I think you might be deluding yourself by thinking that doctors, lawyers, engineers are the only happily living people. Happy living is what you want right, being a miserable doctor doesn't sound so good, does it. Go and watch some of Leo's videos on limiting beliefs and victim mindset, there are many lessons to be learnt for you there. In today's world there are so many opportunities for people even from less developed countries. Currently I am studying at an international school and I have classmates from Syria, Irak, Iran, Niger, countries like that, these people receive one of the best educations there is available for them and they will definitely not struggle in the future with finding a job. This is just one example, there are definitely many more, just look around yourself and see them, do some research.

@Javfly33 Maybe it is not about the states, have you thought about that too? It definitely isn't a given.

@ShardMare Yes, sometimes after a long time, sometimes the next day.

I second this, only talk to the people you are interested in and dream big. You can email psychedelic researchers, TEDx talkers, different youtubers that you find cool, just listing a few examples, but they will usually reply. You can use your age as a means to manipulate them into thinking that you are a poor child and they should help you

Op has shared some very vulnerable things for them here and it is clear that they want to change and don't have any dangerous intentions. People can do many things when they feel at the absolute lowest and this section of this forum is to help them climb up from there. And that is not always done by simply telling them that they are wrong or that they are monsters, it might sound scary, but people are almost never going to do what you tell them, even if you think your words are good or true. No need to remove anything. There are people who can understand you and telling them about what you've been through does not change their views on you at all, I hope you know that.

Literally all of these can be changed. You can see this clearly in that - your personality was different when you were a kid, there are so many Vietnamese living in the place I live and some of them are really high conscious accepting individuals worth befriending (they changed their location), the circle of people that surrounds you keeps on changing all the time since you were born... It's a matter of whether you can love yourself even when all of these things are happening, love destroys the notion of good and bad, you will be fine. Feel free to DM me about this, we can talk some more.

@VerballyHazardous Are you judging yourself because you think others will not understand?

Hey, I am sorry you are feeling this way. Do you have anyone to talk to about this among your friends?

@MarkKol Haha, ayurveda is so funny. Maybe you should look up some resources on it to understand yourself and your purpose more in-depth. It seems like it resonates.

@Psychonaut Do you notice yourself being selfish often, do you inquire in this direction?

@MarkKol Amazing, I thought you are also vata-kapha like me just from reading what you wrote, I am just wondering, are you also naturally slim?

You don't need to be actively looking for God if you don't want to do it. Why are you feeling this way?

Hey, it's great that you found your career path From what I read from you, it reminded me of the ayurvedic doshas, see if you resonate with vata... I am just asking from curiosity, but it might help you further understand yourself. https://drive.google.com/file/d/1k2B2riKGa5xsbJDMpJpfNa-AqUga-bID/view?ck_subscriber_id=683444876 https://drive.google.com/file/d/1R-q7FXmaXqlQK6W3XnMMa1DYgiIU7-fz/view?ck_subscriber_id=683444876

I just hope you can still love yourself and accept yourself in the midst of the dark things that might be happening inside your head but don't worry, you are not alone, I am noticing more and more people on this forum are experiencing this... But love is the way to transmute this into energy.

@Member @dyslexicCnut Please go back to the topic, nonduality wars like this are not allowed here.

They can show you that prana/chi/ki/life energy really exists

@Death_ Just in case you ignore the advice the others gave you, don't try to be a hero and be very gentle to yourself, there is a very very good reason why people recommends you to start with smaller dosages. There really is no point in overdoing yourself.