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@Zigzag Idiot Oh I'm glad you gave me a heads up there as I was assuming nobody would mind others commenting. Well, I guess they'll soon let me know haha. Yeah I almost wanna make it a practice of mine to start doing it. Having met you on here and knowing we get on so well it makes me think I could make some more connections like that. I feel like we're a family on here you know. Like you guys are my tribe, as cliquey as that sounds lol

@Iiris Try an android app called Habitica. It's amazing for tracking new habits. You can get it to show you graphs and everything

@LastThursday Try this one I made dude. I've already sung your lyrics to it and it works quite well

@Himanshu Sounds like you're doing awesome work buddy. That's a great project to be working on and you'll benefit a lot people with your findings. Can't wait to read more

@Zigzag Idiot Right back at ya buddy. Love your journal. I want to get into commenting on more peoples pages as a practice as I feel it gives them a real buzz to see that someone else is on board and following along. It's such a great insight into people's worlds too isn't it.

Sounds like you're doing amazingly mate and you're nailing those cravings like a beast. Inspiring stuff to read. I totally agree with the above regarding the effect these things have on your mind and how they come back and carry you off again, with powerful imagery that won't budge. Reminds of the acronym GIGO, garbage in, garbage out. If you're getting that controlled as well...that must be really helping your sense of tranquillity. The biggest culprits for me have been horror films. I had imagery from the film Hereditary in my mind for months.

@The observer Made me chuckle loved your experiment dude Yep, I get that too. Fucking weird isn't it. At least I'm not the only one. With me it's an obsession with fame or celebrity status. I imagine myself on talk shows Like you I think it was my upbringing or programming. I also think It's somehow a compensation for my deep fear that I'm actually going in the opposite direction, like you say, it all points to that. Do you think there's a danger that we could achieve less than we're capable of somehow, in the process of rebelling against our programming? I do also think that I have special gifts I could achieve something with. And why wouldn't we want to experience financial success at least. I don't even have that! I worry I'm asserting my need to be different so intensely that I'm sabotaging myself.

@Zigzag Idiot Hope you're well buddy I've been getting back into using the forum again. It's amazing how much it's been getting me pumped for the personal development and tripping again. I still haven't had me my non-dual experience. I can't get 5-MeO DMT so I'm wondering whether to up the acid dose (only taken 300ug max, a year ago, and only three trips in total). or go over to mushrooms. Any tips would be awesome Wish I could get some AL-LAD as well. Never on the darkweb Here's the Kaizen stuff. It's something I found on Leo's personal development Blueprint list https://www.actualized.org/blueprint/kaizen Here's the actual blueprint list in case you've never seen it. Some brilliant stuff on there. https://www.actualized.org/blueprint

@Preety_India I've never seen Leo so emotional in a video. You know what, I think it was love. That was the thing that got me. It wasn't just any emotion, you could tell he was just completely in awe of the love he'd experienced and feeling it again

@dimitri I really felt this. I had the same experience when I bought a bicycle again recently. You forget how exhilarating it is don't you, and how much more you can explore. I also like the actual 'skill' of it, becoming more at one with the bike, like it's an extension of your body, taking nifty little shortcuts etc

@Preety_India I agree, this was an amazing one wasn't it. I feel like I've had a shift in consciousness just from watching it. Maybe it had something to do with how authentic and emotional Leo was.

Important to do what you know you're gonna enjoy to some extent I think, to build that willpower muscle. Then once you've limbered up through walking, you might feel more inspired with the yoga. I like Leo's 'Kaizen' theory of manageable, incremental improvements.

@Villager Albert Many thanks for this list. Seems like creating routines and rituals is major.

@Villager Albert Any good tips on limiting decision fatigue?

@Erick I like this, thank you. I think this is what I've been missing, sharing an emotional connection that's beyond just lust. I've been so preoccupied with it, almost like it's taken me over. Sometimes I wonder whether it's just my way of showing love. I guess there are many ways to do that though, and variety is key

If consciousness is always evolving then could it be that every situation that occurs is happening to grow you somehow? I feel this could be the case and recently I've been finding every interaction I have with women on dating apps to trigger me somehow. But it's always the same thing happening, precisely the same thing each time. Either or all of the following happens? -They ask me 'what do you do.' Or they're just very interested in my employment status. -They ask 'Do you live alone?' -They call psychedelics 'drugs' -They refer to me as 'weird.' -Telling me I over-analyse things I've only started having these mad synchronicities since doing LSD last year. A woman popped up tonight and it was like she was reeling them off in sequence. Maybe though, this shit is normal and the pattern exists for another reason. But I've had other weird stuff happen. Do you think God is trying to unmask the shadow? And highlight what needs to be worked on? If it's all loving, it could be the case. It's funny as I'm quite chilled and not that many things phase me (I think), so the fact that these particular gems keeps appearing is interesting. I'm aware of how the mind like to create stories and meaning of course, but I swear I've had mad synchronicities since tripping. Anyone else found this? Maybe it's mystical experiences in general that do it. I think the universe it trying to tell me I'm not ready to be dating, that I need to work on myself more.

@actualizing25 You can concentrate on the Third eye to unlock it. Keep your eyes lifted up towards it and concentrate on the spot between your eyebrows. Eventually you should see a white light. I got this from a Kriya Yoga book on Leo's booklist. There are some breathing exercises in there that you can do to quieten the mind a bit first

Glad I'm not the only one then Such a gift isn't it. Sometimes I do despair at the sheer persistence of it, but it's a beautiful mechanism. Having this outlook also allows you to see everything as perfection. It's like you're viewing every event as being inspired by love Well maybe I exaggerated the 'weird' thing a bit as it had just happened to me, but the others, no doubt, they keep coming up. I for sure come across as weird sometimes though haha, for various reasons that I won't go into. I have considered this. It's what I need to figure out really. I do need to look at my values a bit and how I'm approaching women. Not sure if I've watched Leo's dating videos, I'll take a look. I've only been chasing sex really but I'm bored of it and want a partner. Problem is now I'm obsessed with the physical side of things and don't know how to get excited about other aspects of a relationship.

Yes, a great a technique you can use is 'intention setting.' So, when you're about to do something you view as abhorrent or bad you can affirm the light in it instead. For example, if junk food is your thing, you say, may every bite of this hotdog free every child slave from emancipation. May every swig on this cherryade liberate every soul from self-loathing and bring them into their highest vibrational timeline. So, you're reprogramming your mind to see the perfection in every action. You are affirming the light, as the light that you are. You are God, chewing on a BBQ rib. Then afterwards you say 'May this bloated sensation in my stomach allow every soul to be bloated with abundance.' I think a big part of the suffering caused by addiction, and something that even feeds into it, is the shame we feel at doing it, and what we say to ourselves about why we're doing it. This is a great video on intention setting: Just remember, God can choose to be an addict that feels shit about it, or an addict that sees the behaviour as beautiful divine perfection. Try the latter and see how your experience changes. If a voice said 'this is bullshit,' then that's the next thing in line to be loved and declared as the light.

Can you locate a feeling of peace and relaxation in your experience, when you try? What would you say happiness feels like? Have you felt it before? You don't have to answer me directly, just saying, happiness can be located if we look, if we create it. The spiral only goes upwards brother. It might not feel like it sometimes of course. You are being moved into a place of deeper self love through being forced to sit lovingly with the parts of yourself you've had trouble accepting. Hear them out, offer them words of love. There's a voice that says this moment is not enough somehow. Give that love. Tell it that it's right. Allow everything you think to be right. This restores everything to divine perfection. You seem to have some fear around being gay, brought on by your early experience. I'd think you'd know if you were gay bro. You don't fancy guys, you said it yourself. You and your buddy were just experimenting. You're probably not enjoying sex because you have this fear lodged in your head that'll it means you're gay if you don't. That's distracting you. The key is to probably not give a damn if you are gay. Sure that could take some work, but it's possible. Also, you do find women attractive, right? Then you're at least bi You didn't say why you think you're having less sex with your partner.... Ok this is what happened to me in my last relationship. See if any of it rings true. She reminds you of your pain, of your negative self image, because you perceive that she views you like that, that she sees you in that way now. She reflects back your pain to you. You feel kind of embarrassed to not be happy around her, like it's somehow shameful. She sees your vulnerability and it hurts you because men are taught they should be powerful. So being with her is increasing your shame. It like someone has a front row seat to your suffering. It's hard enough suffering alone but having an audience is brutal. Ask yourself if you'd honestly be happier single. The answer might be tough to bare, but your gut instinct will always be right. You might have too much history there now to repair things properly. Would you want to start having sex with her every day again, if you could?

@Strangeloop Maybe you'll be the one fucking your bf in the ass and he'll be sucking your cock. You'll have to see how it pans out when you experiment. Have lots of fun

@Javfly33 You could have a nice experience, if you pay relatively good money for someone you're attracted to and who's nice. Prostitutes are human too and I'd imagine they enjoy sex. Open your mind to the possibility that you could do it and have the time of your life and not regret a thing. I'm not saying waiting and doing it with someone you haven't paid for, whoever that is, wouldn't have it's benefits, but I can definitely see the benefit of paying for a pro. Just a side note too, I think you're better off not doing pick up. Women can smell it on you when you're just after sex. Also, it's not a stress free life style, especially if you have a strong conscience. Better to get a good woman and start a family, then you'll have sex all the time and you'll be happier.

So what you guys are saying is, we do have Free Will, it's just not the free will of a separate self? But, for all intents and purposes, free will does exist? This feels right to me as I can have the experience of setting an intention. That's in my direct experience. God must be a creator right? Surely to have free will is to be a creator. At the same time there are things happening that feel outside of my control. Perhaps with more consciousness you can see how you're actually creating everything constantly, like Leo says.

@Brivido Ah dude, thanks for posting that. I felt my heart chakra being activated as I was reading it. I totally agree that we need to answer everything with love. Set love as our intention every time. Love every part of ourselves and re-integrate the shadow. Your words expressed it perfectly. That must have been a hell of a trip