Wisebaxter

Interesting that you're so passionate about English artists and culture, definitely. One think I've learned it, our intuition is rarely wrong. If you're thinking it and feeling it in your heart, then it's true. That's god's mind you have there after all Yeah the latest trip was amazing. Had a lot of insights about how we wear all these masks in our life. Also went to the library and sat watching a book shelf dance whilst listening to Shpongle lol. That was the next day and I still getting visuals. LSD is just too damn awesome for words. You planning to trip any time soon?

Sounds like you have a great attitude when it comes to suffering, very positive. I'm a firm believer in Law of Attraction so if you can imagine how it would feel to be a sage, to be calm and in control, you can draw that to you. I'm sure you already are. As for Social Anxiety, I suffer fro that too. I think that small steps coming out of your comfort zone is the best way forward. Psychedelics have also given me some good insights here and helped me build up confidence and love

Depending on what kind of trip your having, this could be interesting:

Do you ever get the feeling that every thing that happens in your life, no matter, what it is, is supposed to happen, for a very specific reason? Can you see how every trial you've been through has taught you something and made you stronger? There is a lesson in everything. For me this was a profound realisation and when I gave myself to it, I began noticing it more and more. It also helped me to love everything that happens unconditionally.

Do you have any more information at all, about your previous life? Or is is just like am intuitive feeling? Do you have images? Words or anything flash up?

Good on you for treating yourself to that meal bro. It sounds like it enabled you to appreciate the act of actually eating more and you did it with much more mindfulness, taking the experience to a whole new level. We take these every day acts for granted and we miss so much.

@thesmileyone You've truly tested my capacity to love here. I've had to grow my sphere of love to accommodate you, so right now I'm just buzzing with it. Thanks for being there to help me do this. You are just a part of me, I see that. My capacity to form judgements is still strong. I see myself in you. We are one brother. I sincerely hope you've gotten something positive from this discussion too. One day we shall ride side by side through the gates of Valhalla on majestic steeds. Big hugs smileyone.

Yes this is a good question. Your confusion is being caused by your belief that good and evil are intrinsic parts of reality and not an invention of your ego and need for survival. The truth is, rape isn't bad. Rape is just rape. Morality is a conceptual, human invention. When you choose how you behave, be aware that God doesn't give a damn either way, evidenced by the fact that rape exists. Is this implying it's ok to rape people? Of course not, don't just assume that. I could elaborate by I've just microdosed LSD and I'd rather just enjoy that. Besides, you seem like you're new to don-duality and Actualised, or at least you haven't watched many of Leo's videos. There are some fundamental flaws in your thinking. Watch this video: My advice is, try and lose the attitude, open your mind a bit, you'll learn a lot more, if you're at all interested in learning and your cup isn't full. Accepting that everything is comprised of consciousness is a core part of non-dual teaching. Ok so it takes a while to actually experience it, but having some faith at an early stage will save you a lot of time. If you don't believe it's true, I'm not even sure why you're here, unless it's to take chunks out of people you think are deluded in terms of 'wokeness.' Don't waste your effort trying to make decisions on who you believe is woke and who isn't. This isn't a contest. We're in this together, to learn and lift each other up, not to be combative and insult each other. If you've been a victim of abuse or you know someone who has, accepting some of these truths are even harder, but ultimately they can be very empowering. This video is also very relevant here:

@thesmileyone I feel the sting of your glove across my face. Spiritual pistols at dawn? A battle of woke-ness? Sir, I accept.

@thesmileyone I see Modafinil as just a good tool to give you a boost, like psychedelics. Leo told me that Kriya Yoga gives you the same effect as Modafinil and from the Kriya I've done so far, I can confirm this is the case. As with any substance, exercise caution and looking out for cravings and addiction as these things are always detrimental. But one point I'd like to make is....you live on drugs...you are a living drug, a living concoction of chemicals. Taking drugs is just form acting on form. It's all infinite and magical. People have this idea that drugs are somehow a hack, or less pure than conventional methods, but everything within reality is part of God.

@Aeris There is no information on long term effects as far as I know. Maybe we'll develop super powers, it's entirely possible. Yeah you might have issues sleeping, but to me that's not an adverse side effect as what use is sleeping anyway? Seriously though what I did was take a break from it every few days and have a really long rest. I don't have a job to go to right now so it wasn't really an issue for me anyway, I just slept when I slept. Sex interaction? My erections become turbo charged on Modafinil and I pummel that ass like a beast. So yeah, the list of benefits just keep on growing, along with my member.

@Igor82 Great reports man, thanks for those. You're definitely going deeper each time and having some good insights. Your breakthrough dose is imminent I'm sure. When are you taking your next hit?

@Aeris It seems expensive now, but when you grock the benefits of the stuff, you'll realise you just can't put a price on it. Also, 30 pills will last you quite a while as well as you probably wont take a whole one every day, unless you're like me and start munching them like candy nom nom nom lol. I've heard it's similar to amphetamine, but I don't have firsthand experience there. It doesn't have any comedown or side effects, that's the beauty of it.

@Aeris Same thing, just stronger. Start off with quarter of a pill of something and work your way up as needed. I'll be buying some soon.

@Igor82 Dude you did 5-MeO DMT? Awesome, I remember you saying you were gonna buy it but wasn't sure when you were gonna take it. I really can't wait to hear your report on that. I'm going to buy some as soon as I have the money and store it like you say. It's weird though, I feel like that substance it the main course and I'm sort of enjoying all of these appetisers and working my way up to it. Sort of like psychedelic foreplay, playing with reality's clit before I lube up and go for it. Did you find plugging it quite easy?

@Barna That settles it then, a handpan is on my list too. That's the first time I've even come across this instrument. It's so beautiful. I'll remember this for my first mushroom trip too.

@JohnnyBravo Better to take small amounts and work your way up anyway if you decide to, especially if you're a bit nervous. Please let us know how you get on with that

@Serotoninluv Hehe, this man's on the hero's journey for sure....sounds like the menu of champions

@Serotoninluv That sounds like a good amount, 20ug. Maybe I'll try that tomorrow. Yeah I did my second trip a week ago, 200ug. It was mind-blowing, yet again. Should have the trip report finished by end of day tomorrow. There's 2hrs 40mins of audio as well lol, of me ranting. That's already posted on my journal. Next stop, mushrooms I think, or maybe some AL-LAD. It seems like I'm getting a good feel for LSD now and it's particular benefits, which are profound. I'm getting the urge to branch out a bit. Working my way up to 5-MeO DMT of course, so I can play with the big boys

@JohnnyBravo I can tell you're a really open minded guy who's serious about carrying out ego-less self improvement. It's a pleasure so converse with people like yourself. You've helped me learn about my own behaviour, so in a sense, pointing out the truth to others can be helpful, if it comes from a caring place and not from a need to chastise. I guess there's a difference then between moralising/judging and trying to be genuinely helpful and caring. As long as we have compassion in our approach and we're respectful of each other, we can help each other grow. I'll be honest, I can be a bit insensitive and crass with my humour. Perhaps there's a better way I express my playful, silly nature whilst being more mindful of others. I'll contemplate this

Yeah I might actually try microdosing LSD as I have some left. Was thinking about it today. I'm interested in finding out how smaller amounts would effect my consciousness. Man, LSD just blows me away in terms of how it allows all of the information stored in your brain to connect and form logical insights. The love and connection it makes you feel too....I just wanna be hooked up and pumped full of it intravenously for the rest of my life lol. I'm working on my recent trip report right now. I don't think you'd see much if any tolerance build up from just 2 hits a week. I was taking it every day and started to get some tolerance quite quickly. I ended up taking 400mg doses eventually lol, which was lovely, but perhaps not that good for you. I'm getting Armodafinil next time as I like a nice, strong hit.

@JohnnyBravo That's fantastic, I'm so glad this substance has helped you out so much. I ended up having my first mystical experience after taking it for around 3 weeks and getting completely immersed in the present moment, so you can imagine how much I love it! I did find it a little addictive myself as well, but only for a couple of days after stopping, now I feel fine.

@Serotoninluv Awesome, thanks for the feedback on that. Maybe we could have a Modafinil mega-thread going at some point as it seems like such a useful tool. I found it very clean myself, with no side effects. My girlfriend told me I was a bit distant, but I think that's because I was staring into space just incredibly immersed in being. I sat next to her like a plank of wood for about two hours lol. It was so blissful. I can't wait to get some more. I found it amazing for stuff like observation practice and contemplation, where focus is key. What kind of stuff did you do on it?