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You have no idea what you're talking. Did you take it? No. I'm not trying to defend the next purchase of Leo will get but you're just harming yourself at that point there. Unless you took it and bring it to your experience and conclude that It's not an answer, it's a blackbox for you. Don't just blindly assume and create facts. This might be a good thing that you've said those words because It has give me very much information to point out to the fact that this might be your struggle. You don't create experiences. You don't, do things, to put it in another perspective, you don't take action as I see within what you've just said. I am not your enemy I want to help you with this. But see your enemy as I show you that. Hope this helps any.

The fact that people in this forum usually will make the fun out of you with non-duality and no-self concepts. My response for you is you're close, you opened this thread yet wanted to come a little closer, something inside tells you to "look come closer come come" but this is a temporary and a good thing that you respond to it with "I'm tired" The fact that if you've been enlightened we were not able to talk about how you're close or not. This is the exciting thing to notice for. You're getting closer. Just remind yourself that "yes I'm here for the truth, please guide me truth" and stay grounded. Edit: Remember all the good and truth is on your side.

By mentioning me I assume that you meant something about LP, my response to you is the same did you take the Leo's LP at all? seems like you're nt because you hadn't had conflicts like these

Didn't read all but did you take LP? If not this might be the right time for you to take Leo's LP.

@universe 1. Do stuff you like doing and get paid while doing so. Problem solved. Yes this is, you're, very right. No offense but this is not so easy as it sounds. I'm trying to figure this out nowadays. The rest of stuff you said is already lurking in my mind so thank you for those pointers also. .. @bejapuskas Can you explain more about blue perspective (is that a spiral stage? ) I hope you'll get the success you want

@aurum 1. I would examine your relationship to money Thank you. 2.What do you believe about it? 2.1 Money is a unit that has property of having a chance to make a human being do whatever. This chance is directly proportional to the amount of money. 2.2 This property had been exploited to make human beings that we call slaves. In the modern society, slavery does still exists yet in an another form called banks/loans/mortgage etc. the same thing another way. 2.3 Then we could say that with intuition, with this property exploits a human's time on earth. Slaves offer their limited time on this earth for money. 2.4 Thus this is where I conclude to: I have many exciting things to do yet I don't want to spend my time thinking about my finance. 2.4.1 Thus I can twist and limit my needs/dependencies to others who uses the money-system. i.e If I don't need to depend on others, I can spend my limited-time on this earth to do things I want to do. 2.4.2 Having interests around discovering the nature of the world, seeing how universe laws work (e.g. physics, chemistry, the math as language etc) which is almost totally free from money/system (unless at some point you need to gather resources and materials iron/wood etc) which is OKAY/reasonably, that's where the trading kicks in (basically where it had been kicked in back in the history) 2.4.2.1 I want to also point out that there's even a better approach that you might go and find your own resources. This is optional. This is challenging too also. Within this you don't depend on money/system. But I find and give a little exception here that this might consume a lot of my limited/time/on/earth so this rare case is the exception that I'm totally okay when it comes to money/system. 3. Do you believe making money is unconscious or not spiritual? I don't really think because there're a lot of paths. You can be spiritual and make the money your core gem. I don't really feel relating this question that much. I can be spiritual and make money. These two things sound so distinct to me. 4. Do you think it’s impossible for you to make money? Yes. I don't even have desires to even apply some law of attraction thing around money. It's like I have zero, even worst than zero desire to imagine/dream about getting money. 5. Did your parents fight about money growing up? Yes yet still we are having financial situations time to time. 6.What are your best and worst experiences around money? 6.1 Best experience is that I got this high/salary/engineering job within my 3rd world-they-call country. 6.2 Worst experience is that I had unpaid debts to banks and that they blocked my bank accounts and so on. I was unable to pay it for months if not half a year, 6.3 A childhood worst experience that I remember was that once when I was a child around 10. We went to my aunt's place at one summer. We stayed there for one or two weeks. My aunt and her husband are like super rich. Their place was far away from our home so that we first went there by bus. Before we arrive there my mom had a talk on phone with my aunt that we were going to stay there until they leave and they would drop us to our home (they had 3 or more houses so they were going to a home that was on our route so). I born with asthma and got it over after my teenage years. At their place my asthma went bad and we needed my medicines which was expensive and the nearest pharmacy was like far away. But my aunt's husband was going to his factory that he had owned and my aunt told him to buy the medicine that I needed. Anyways he did buy and returned with the medicine. My mom offered to pay for the medicine and he took it (there're complicated manners in our country but I'd say he'd reject it I don't really care that much tbh). Anyways we've left with very little money. Then there had some changes in returning to home plan. They told us some funny excuse to not drop us. As far as I remember my aunt told my mom that his husband had told her that after 2 passengers his car's wheels get somewhat weird and the level of car to ground drops so that they couldn't take us with them. Yeah who cares then, my mom went neurotic on me while returning to home with bus. We had to take transfers. At one point of transfer, we were out of money and my mom went with her all neuroticisty on me and then I started shouting and crying that I had asthma and that's all what happened. Fast forwarding then my dad took us where we had been stranded on and ofc they had argued about this event. All I remember (this happens still me being 25) that my dad always used to call my mom that she's mentally ill and psychopath or some sort of words around these. Ofc nowadays as they got old they got mature and things got ease than before. 7. It’s likely that you’ve got an unconscious story that’s stopping you from making money. See if you can bring awareness to what that story is. I will try to think about in the next couple of days. The story that I've already told you above might be just one beginning of many. I can't really remember another story at this time. 8. Also, I would challenege yourself to read something like The Millionaire Booklet by Grant Cardone. Notice when and where resistance pops up when reading that. That will give you clues. Thanks I will try that. Resistances give so much clue about what mind is struggling with.

You 've already lost at this point, no need to proceed further.

i.e a.k.a conditional love

That's the whole point

Now you're gooone, I realized my loooove for you was strong and I miss you heere now you're gone

Started doing meditations at morning at work, as an extra this is the first day and I'll be applying

Tell you what my opinion about this routine having a Muslim background of origin, It's actually 3/times a day and that's when sun rises, when sun set, when sun in the middle. (Which is far most the best) Mohammad had been extended this routine to splitting the last 2 to, sun in middle -> sun in middle and before the sunset (like 1 hour before) when sun set -> when sun set and last before going to sleep. Mohammad has taken a lot of things from different variety of spiritual traditions/religions.

@Pernani If you meant about dynamic meditation screaming, no I can't do that but I do it silently. Random body movements are more than enough actually.

Questions that's left for you to contemplate on are: how am i full of shit (in my sprituality, in science, in politics, in sexuality, in emotions, in nutrition health, in family etc) how am i hypocrite how do i make excuses for my bullshit (so that my bullshit doesnt seem like bullshit to me) who's bullshit do i complain about, to distract from looking at my own bullshit how am i in denial about my bullshit Let's contemplate and review our questions Plus I have a crazy idea that'd help Leo with his own tool he created. Let's each answer: How Leo is full of bullshit. How Actualized.org is bullshit. How this community is bullshit I'll edit my answers in the post when I complete my contemplation.

Yes indeed.

@NoSelfSelf the trick is you. why are you denial of yourself? I am literally talking about you, the person that has name.

@NoSelfSelf you have to take a step back and observe your conclusion. 1. you concluded that all this time you try to grow and do something about yourself. 2. now you found that the all efforts are just nothing besides you're nothing. 3. now you conclude to that's depressing. 4. why? 5. because when you begin your journey it was all about growing and doing something for yourself. 6. why it is not worked? now tell me. if you found that is depressing, there sure must be some conditions inside your mind that failed. (come at me), try to intuitively understand this. give it 10 seconds to get it soaked. 7. you concluded to depression because your conditions are not met. 8. now let me help you, we got some point very to be excited about, how would it be that the opposite if what conditions of yours are met! explore what's blocking inside your mind, let me ask the other way, "how would it not be depressing otherwise? use your imagination, and think about it. how would be the results of a spiritual enlightment for you that's not depressing!" 9. come at me

electricity is self-aware. we just expect some rules defined by humans to be self-aware which is absurd. what i mean by rules? we create relationships via observation of reality. reality is a giant machine operates. we just observe and give it a partial mathematical solution to explain how stuff works. so that electricity. we have some rules defined. e.g. logic gates. but even itself is self-aware. but we expect rules to be operate on self-aware so that a rule of self-awareness. rules cannot define rule for an awareness. it is so twisted. so twisted like a sub-set trying to contain super set. but life is the awareness itself. let me tell you what, can a sub-set contain the super set? this won't lead you an answer for AI to be awaken i.e awake-rule this is to show you how rules are twisted. the rules we use to define how reality works. but reality is higher than the rules, including the awareness

just curious no offense but if you found there's nothing how did you convince about you found depression? like nothing but depression? why did you choose to create around nothing but dperession. this is the key. master. look. you chose it. now you still have power to re-choose your reality. blessings.

I'm a self-taught researcher on AI and have deeper understanding of how math and AI works. The one simplest reason is we're heading towards with desire based understanding, approach to AI, we want them to do stuff, this will never be accomplished this way. furthermore, my own experiments have shown to me that AI is as understood by acedemics will never get to that point how we dream, Nevertheless, there're better approaches that I've developed and It works. but this is not the topic. I won't be spoiling this until the moment arises. Humanity is not grown enough to understand, unable to stay grounded for the truths of knowledge and wisdom. How we would arrive to the moment you may ask, we should think about what drives us, what is money, what is slavery, how we can free humanity. What is bitcoin and why it is revolutionary, how we can further bury our knowledge on data (hashing our knowledge and truth to the network) and become the part of freedom thus making profit from storing and acting as endpoint on network. This is one of the partial solutions to humanity and It's been seen as the most promising yet. Let me end this by telling you a funny fact, your boss' balls stinks and you love to suck them. Good luck. Right now I am too in the system.

Good luck

My simplest reasons: 1-Alcohol is a substance that body sees it as unknown substance and does not know how to deal with it. 1.1- Everything you put through your mouth to your gut will go to your bloodstream or to your bowels (then will get to your bloodstream mostly at there) 1.1.1- EVERYTHING, will be on your bloodstream if not decomposed into basic atomic structures via chemical reactions inside the stomach. 1.2 So that this substance will travel through your body and will visit the areas that your vines sorry, veins, attached to (the most we recognize when it comes to alcohol is the brain, right?) 1.2.1 so when at the end of journey through your body, cops will got him, the liver. 2-so that liver works really hard in order to package it into a fat cell 3-then this leads to fatty-alcoholic-liver disease. apart from that 1- alcohol will make me relieved a little bit, tiny, tiny 2- alcohol will make me unorganized. 3- alcohol will make me feel guilty after i woke up 4- alcohol will get me headaches, hangovers 5- alcohol will deplete a lot of my body's resources and the following day, and on-wards, I'll need time to get on the rail again. 6- alcohol will create a short-circuit in my mind, it will slowly occupy me and I'll get addicted to that short -relief. 7-instead there're better and sure better ways to get relief to the mind 8- this way has lot of harm compared to relief. 9- there're better ways if not without any harm to get relief.

Let me offer you two approach, choose and enjoy your decision the first approach will be intensify your thoughts and your ego will love it. Love it. Really. Will really appreaciate it. This approach is called taking the redpill against bluepill. go read about reddit/r/theredpill (or /r/trp cant be sure) and redpill/r/mgtow the second approach is opposite of taking the redpill, you'd think you swallow the bluepill but, afterawhile you get there're no blue and red, this is something harder to describe but i'd say this is the no-self and no-ego approach to things. everything is non-sense when it comes to this. there's actually something greater than this, that's the you create the life around you. you believe so you make it happen. (<believe this or not, this is the truth) the prisoner used his deep connections to life to acquire what he wanted and also got benefit from your imagination and beliefs as-well. second approach is twisted and hard, so your ego won't like it. you won't like it, and you'll think that there's no b enefit to you on there, yes let me approve you, there's no benefit to you on the second approach, go take the redpill and swallow it deep, dwell on it exclusively so that your vision becomes completely darkened

I am not met the criteria and I don't really think I am grounded and mentally-stable so I just would like to wish you good luck, success and happiness on your new journey decision, blessings.

What's a circle? Why something has torque and rotates around itself if you apply some force? Then forms a circle? How can you even draw a circle with compass? why things rotate on an axis if fixed, if not why it swings around itself to complete the circle? what's period? why there're lines, and why there're rays (euclidian space) why dragging a pencil forms a line underneath the paper?