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Careful with regular use of grass, seriously decreases your quality of life. I smoked for 2 years every day and I was tortured with anxiety and paranoia. It was subtle suffering though I just thought there was something wrong with me and that smoking made me feel better...little did I know it was an addiction forming under my nose. Went to doctors and counsellors and all sorts trying to figure out what the fuck was wrong with me and when I stopped smoking I felt way better. Just a warning. It is still a drug like, and using a drug repetitively will effect you after a while

These are a few of my personal insights. Although I wouldn't recommend believing my insights, listen to what I say then go to God to see if they are true for yourself. ; On the seekers path nothing should be prevented. You should not change the way you act. If you want to change the way you act, go to church. Forcing yourself to act in a way that contradicts what you actually feel is, in my opinion, just lying to yourself. This is exactly what religious people do. They aren't truly transformed so they have to funnel loads of energy into making sure they look like they have been transformed. If I want to steal money, I steal it. If I want to over eat I over eat. If I want to diet to look better so I can have more sex, I diet. If I want to do drugs I do them. If I want to stop doing drugs because it increases my anxiety, I stop them. The way things are, are the way things are. And the reason I hold to this philosophy, is because it sings the vibration of AUTHENTICITY. Before someone changes they must first be real with themselves. The first step in the process of true, deep transformation...is embracing the fact that you are currently not yet transformed. Evil and selfishness has a process of it's own and just denying it's existence will only make it build up until it bursts and creates a bigger mess. Evil is a part of life. In the world there is intelligent good and evil groups, leaders, gangs etc. The good *co-operates* with the evil because pretending it isint there doesn't stop it and stamping it out causes it only to rise elsewhere. Cut one head off and three more will rise. Here in northern Ireland the police and crime oriented paramilitary organisations coexist and cooperate in the same space. 50 years ago protestant UVF (Ulster volunteer force) police inspectors would talk with and cooperate with dangerous paramilitary commanders involved with the IRA (Irish Republican army) instead of just trying to out right destroy them. Because they would simply rise elsewhere. Evil has it's right place. Learn how to co-operate with it.

@TrynaBeTurquoise can standard NN-DMT and 5-MeO-DMT HLC and Freebase be administered rectally? and does this ROA effect trip duration, trip intensity, peak duration or anything else of importance?

MDMA is addictive and can cause brain damage I am not advising anyone to do it or try it. This is my 85mgMDMA / 45mgDMT trip report. I did 85mg of MDMA right before I meditated for with kryia yoga and self enquiry for one hour. Afterwards I smoked the 45mg dmt. MDMA took away the pre-flight anxiety of smoking DMT, and launched me into a great trip. My aim was to discover what love is. It overtook me. I took 4 huge draws from the pipe and before I had a chance to sit and try to rationalize or worry about what was happening....WOOOSHHHHHHH I was swept away by a sea of pleasure and intense insight. Deep, pleasure...so deep I have never felt before. Something inside me felt like it had never breathed before...and that this was it's first life. It was the pure feeling of love and deep connection. I was trying to remember things from it but it was so powerful and violent and yet beautiful. In the meditation I did before hand I realized that all meditation practises are the same...different details of the same overall object. Like different piano notes that make up the same, one melodic chord. The words that came out my mouth were "Oh my God, oh my God, oh my God, oh my God." Absolutely inexpressible. Beautiful. Powerful. I seen transparent beings, completely naked. I could only perceive them subtly because of their white silhouettes. One in particular. It looked and felt like they were trying to do something with my head. Like they were trying to put something on my head or something. I looked at my TV and my wall and it was all waving . I tried to sit up and I felt one expression of The being kick me in my chest back down onto my bed. I didn't move after that. There was 1 or 2 short seconds where I seen a scary being trying to get me. I knew this would put me into a bad trip so I looked away. Luckily my mind was so blown, everything was moving so fast that it passed. Thank fuck There was brilliant emptiness. My mind was completely blown out and I had no idea what was happening and yet it was one of the most beautiful experiences of my life. Still a bit confused about it and how to feel or what to think...but I'm not gonna try to figure it out. Does anyone have any techniques to squeeze all the juice out of your DMT trips? (My plan is to do one or two more heavy DMT trips and then do a medium dose of 5-MeO-DMT. Which I'll report on to. I'm only now moving into psychedelics seriously)

@Matt8800 i just thought that it would be logical to combine the two, after i researched and found that it was a relatively safe amalgamation of compounds i knew it was gona give it a shot. Im gona use it again like. im defo gona try to use it for 5-MeO-DMT. im gona try that little statue trick of yours. sounds interesting

the one who seeks to kill the ego must die. And the one who seeks to kill this one must die also

@Highest yes, and indeed you will have to

@Shadowraix @Peo oh aye fuck, get a lollipop or chewing gum or you'll wake up with your gums indented with your teeth

@Keyhole ??

@Nivsch Happy hanuka mate. I love reading about the feasts in our Tora. Judaism is fuckin brilliant. Our religion stemmed from your religion. Im not really christian it's just the template to understand god that I grew up with.

@Leo Gura @Leo Gura ?

MD is amazing, but it's notoriously cut with other shit. Like nearly as much as street coke. Anything that causes a spike in dopamine (anything that makes you feel good) will inevitably make you feel bad the next day. When you consume a chemical that rushes your brain with dopamine and serotonin your brain realises that it's just had a boatload of it brought in from a foreign source so it stops producing as much naturally. After the chemical wears off your brain is still producing less than usual dopamine which makes you feel shit the day after. The brain comes back to normal after a while. My primary concern would be purity. Boys mix in all sorts of shit with their ecstasy these days. I'd highly recommend looking into how to operate the darknet/deepweb. It's soooooooo much safer when considering chemical purity and reliability. Hundreds of people leave reviews. Download tor browser, find the "dark net wiki" on regular Google for the links you can use to search for darknet drug sites. Register. And get familiar with bitcoin. You can purchase Bitcoin on your phone using an app called cex.io (at least you can in Northern Ireland/UK). Be sure to mix your Bitcoin using some mixer site (one website I've used in the past is bestmixer.io) . And set it up to send straight to the darknet Bitcoin wallet. It's fairly reliable. You can check to see how much someone has been rates popular/trustworthy. And I usually put in a tenner more than what the drugs actually cost cuz mixing the coins costs commission. Incase your unfamiliar, Bitcoin mixing makes them untracable. Darknet is where I got 5-meo

@TrynaBeTurquoise ill be completely honest bro, all I know is the feeling. The feeling was so deep. I held on to very little of it psychologically. I feel deep within myself to just stay quiet and not think about it. All I remember thinking is "how could this possibly ever go away" it was love.

@Leo Gura I'll try it ???

@Unjigorjigor you gotta figure out for yourself that you are Jesus. You are God, manifest in the flesh and you must die and be born a second time (born again). Born another time, but this time as the ruler of creation, with God, as God. There are soooooooo many correlations between the Bible and nondual teachings. For example, Leo released a video explaining how "good and evil" are contingent upon *you*. A thing is defined as being good or bad only when it is good or bad *for you*. This explains why the tree that Adam and Eve ate from (this is an analogy) was called the *tree of the knowledge of good and evil.* When the Bible says they ate from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil it's basically pointing to the moment when mankind developed the individualistic ideas. Ego. So many patterns, it's amazing. But yes, you are Jesus in your universe. I am Jesus in my universe. And once this is realised and becomes real it really becomes fucking real. "It is no longer I that lives, but Christ that lives in me." 1 John 4:17 "In this world we are like Jesus." The only mistake religion makes is, there is no actual transformation. I live in Northern Ireland where religion is extremely popular. Protestantism and Catholicism. Protestantism is slightly closer to truth I think. "Be ye transformed by the renewal of your mind." This refers to the long process of emptying the mind and dying to your self. It's so cool now I can see it all

I don't know what tech could help you lucid dream. That's mad. In my opinion it's way too hard to try to force it. It came naturally to me when I was a kid. I don't have much to say about it other than it's kinda cool I guess. My best piece of advice for dreaming is get better at dream recall. The best way to do this is, as soon as you wake up in the morning try to catch yourself before you move your body...then go over your dreams in your head in as much detail as possible, then a few times out loud. And boom, they should stick. But yo, fuck lucid dreaming ...get enlightened

@Highest thank you for your teaching, I will contemplate it as I do with all teachings. I believe no one. I disbelieve no one.

Don't change anything. Find the one who wishes to change, and also find the one who sees him. This will change how you act and speak effortlessly, and more effectively

Be careful. The mind wants to quantasize and measure. Only loosely use your mind concerning concepts about meditation and nonduality and god. Be much better to smoke some high quality DMT. I realised something very cool one time...truth is like a very strong detergent, and your mind is like clothing. You will wash the strong detergent In and out of your clothes to clean them. You wont let the detergent stay in your clothes or it will eventually dissolve the fabric. Truth should wash into and out of your mind. As truth comes into your mind passively and back out...what is the most pure will remain. Creating concepts about truth will eventually dissolve your progress.

Aim for an hour a day, self enquiry, kryia yoga, do nothing. Psychedelics ???? It depends it you want to actually make progress. Feel the voice deep within yourself and listen to it earnestly. It's alright people being gentle and telling you to do whatever you feel you can, really that's ok. But your not gonna get enlightened doing what you feel you can. Push yourself homes. And see when you push yourself and commit, the lord gives you the extra strength to swallow the extra piece you bite off. Only by progressing can you obtain the power to progress

There's all kinds of wee ways you can trick yourself. You gotta tune it to your own self, each person's different. For myself I am conscious that I nearly always put off meditation if I wait until dark, so I try not to wait until dark...too tired. Being aware of time the night before is handy. I'm very precise with my measurements of time. 10 minutes on phone in morning to wake my eyes up (LED light really works), 45 mins up, shower and ready, 1 hour 15 mins for kryia yoga and self enquiry. Just before I need to leave. Also if your like me and you struggle to actually *sit down* to meditate because of laziness or whatever, just force yourself abruptly to go and sit on your cushion shut your eyes and hold your mind empty for 15 seconds. Then just gently move into your normal position and ease into the meditation. For some reason this works for me. If your struggle is doing your full hour...my personal thing that helped me was really keeping momentum, practise after practice keep it fluent and try to get yourself to slip into a trance like state. Time flys when you don't exist ??

Oh, ive experienced the *exact* same thing. Your thinking too much. notice what you do when you notice it happening...you try to fix it yeah. whats happening is this, your thinking too much, you notice that your thinking too much so you tighten your grip on it so to restrain it with your mind, however this is just implementing more thoughts. What your looking for is to become thoughtless...like a child. anxiety is what it is. you gotta learn the language of silence when it comes. not trying to fix it. also, whatever you look at, is what you are literally creating. By looking at something you cause it to become larger in the eye of your consciousness. By trying to fix your anxiety, as you notice it arise...you cause it to arise further. its like me telling you not to think of the pink elephant...the better thing to do would be to stop reading my reply lol Also, look for any possible physical causes of your anxiety. weed makes your anxiety go mad. when the anxiety arises either...*silence* ................................................................................. ...or get up and dance, look at something else. you are creating it my friend

You need to be able to have all your food prepared and ready. Also you need to do walking meditation or your ass will cease to exist before you do trust me. Get some nice, tested psychedelics as well. Be much better

Be sure to loose your mind in a healthy, stable way. If it's happening in a bad, unpredictable way...focus on fixing your mind first then focus on removing it ??

@Nak Khid it's whatever you make it I guess...since, your literally making it A hippy, a scientist, a Christian, a Buddhist and a nondual seeker might all take the exact same psychedelic and dosage and see completely different kinds of things. The trip will be somewhat angled towards what they believe or what they've focused on in their lives. It might be that psychedsubstance just wants to see some cool stuff and not go deep ...and so the psychedelic don't necessarily take him as deep as a zen Masters psychedelic experience.