Aaron p

I want to analyse my (little) experience with DMT. When I smoked it I [know now that I] was burning it and so I didn't get a lot of it. But I felt instantly confused and very very worried. I know I didn't take it in the right set or setting AT ALL. But I felt so indescribably strange...negative strange. I also will mention that I had never done DMT before then ever...but it felt very negative. Is this a....common occurrence? To be expected? ...everything turned on me as soon as I entered the trip (I think because I still wanted to be in control, I didn't want to let go.) I defo should have started with a less intense drug...I wasn't expecting it at all. Although, I will say this...throughout my life I have gradually developed the ability to "hear a voice" within my head(consciousness)...a voice I learned to call God, who I still call god for convenience. When I was on DMT I could *CLEARLY* hear this voice. This voice has told me multiple things in my past that came true...so much that I really trust it now. It took a while to get to the point where I could discern when *i* was speaking and when..."god" (I guess) was speaking. I could hear this voice CLEARLY. Now that I think about it, it makes me really want to do DMT again. I've been so disheartened from my laat trip, a bad lsd trip ? But back to my question, does anyone else have the same effects? Everything swirled inward and warped into a horrific picture...the voice said, "don't let him on his phone" then I tried twice to go on my phone, didn't work. Was freaky least I got experience from it Thoughts? I'm just spitballin' here

@Shakazulu for me those words are too general to understand what your asking. Power?

@corndjorn @tedens update! I had the most powerful self enquiry/meditation sit I've ever had ...it wasn't explosive but it was strong. Felt very deep

Jesus...right ok

There always has to be some ideological thinking with everything at the start...otherwise you wouldn't meditate. Everyone needs a little faith, like a scientist has faith that he will find the result. And from my understanding, enlightenment doesent illiminate ideological thinking, it just exposes it. Once exposed, you look past it with a quiet mind.

There always has to be some ideological thinking with everything at the start...otherwise you wouldn't meditate. Everyone needs a little faith, like a scientist has faith that he will find the result.

@outlandish nice

@outlandish ...assuming the tests go well I guess I will take a miniscule amount of it

@outlandish ...dissociative, I don't think I like that word......I mean, if it fully tests out there's a chance I'll take it but I need to know all about it first. And also, it may be addictive but i would only be trying it if I even do. I'm too focused on enlightenment to get distracted by a stupid drug

@PetarKa i once heard a quote that went like this; "The only thing worse than looking back on your life, having taken a leap of faith, and fallen...would be never to have taken the leap at all." What a waste of the one chance you had, that will never............EVER...come back again, and you played it safe. I only have 80 years left in this world...it's like a fucking video game. I have had DEEP insights into the fabric of this work, where it leads. If psychedelics get me there faster, I'm down....fuck everything else.......it doesn't even matter right now, I CANT SEE IT. I'm not awake. (Coincidentally, I actually had an insight about psychedelics today...they somehow distort the "screen" or consciousness and draw your attention to the fragility of what you believed to be "empirical" reality...similar to how, if you were to mess with the input-output signals on a TV screen, your attention would be drawn to the screen itself...and away from the illusion of whatever was projecting before. I have noticed that people who have taken drugs like this to help them spiritually, have a certain aura about them...it smells like.......power...when I'm around it. It's a weight. I honestly don't like psychedelics ATM. Last time I had a bad trip, but once I get the test kits sorted...I'll be building my way up to 5-MeO-DMT defo. Enlightenment is the only thing that matters, only through enlightenment can we truly be alive and awake. Any illusion that you have that might tell you that you don't want enlightenment badly...is still an illusion. Only a lack of consciousness can hide how much you need consciousness.

@Leo GuraGura GuraGur True

Jesus...I ordered something else and this came.....now the vendor is sending me what I originally ordered ?. So I got the ket for free. It's a good 8-10 grams I'd say...at least. Holy shit, how much is it's street value per gram in the UK? I'm also gonna test it with mecke, ehrlich and hofmann once I fully understand testing with reagents.

@WelcometoReality damn...

I would fall asleep or drift off instantly

@cetus56 ????

Different levels of consciousness init

I duno but DMT freaks me the balls out. I like to retain a certain sense of direction when im tripping i hate confusion like this. I believe there are different levels of confusion...i dont mind understanding that im confused.....but its when i FORGET that im being confused and i forget that i've forgotten and im just floating having no idea what the fuck is going on. I know this is exactly WHY psychedelics are effective...but the way i see it, im gona wait, do DMT a couple more times, do shrooms and LSD a pile more times and then hit up the big boy 5-Methoxy-Dimethyltryptamine. but yeah, i think i like my egoic *foundation* in reality more than i realise. I guess i've been fine with having some crazy shit happen within reality for me...but its different when reality itself is whats fucked with. Im gona need to get used to it theres no way im not taking advantage of something as powerful (or so i've heard) as 5meodmt

@Identity ive been on the seekers path for 5 months now...meditating, with much success (especially lately). I ABSOLUTELY resonate with your words. I feel as though there are a lot of similarities between us from what your saying. You said, "maybe I shouldn’t do it as blindly, I have quite some trust in the material presented here." I COMPLETELY trust in the techniques i have found here. I believe i have "low latent inhibition" which is where a person is a lot more prone to analyse each and every situation differently to the past instead of relying on memory. This brings about MUCH higher levels of creativity and a much more accurate sense of intuition. I would have no doubt that most of the authentic people within the sphere of actualized.org have a lower level of latent inhibition. I DO place my trust in the teachings i receive from Leo, but only because of moments of E.M.E.N.S.E clarity. The experience of seeing SO MUCH clarity, mixed with my low latent inhibition...provides me with an incredibly strong sense of faith in these practices. I place ALL of my trust in leo, but only because of how powerful his teachings are and how transparent and authentic he clearly it. I am UTTERLY dependent upon this website and Leo's guidance. I would be completely lost if it wernt for leo....i might as well call a spade a spade. I'd be fucked without leo's outreach which is a bit of a crap concept since, i could have easily missed it....i mean, damn and so many people are. they are literally staring it in the face and they're depressed. (im not there yet so i cant speak) How large has the influence been on me? It has not only, literally, changed my life...it has changed the trajectory of my ENTIRE life. I will find the truth one day, and its because of Leo. This man, is a man i am eternally thankful for. I only hope i can effectively transmit the same message anywhere near as effectively someday when i am nothing. "finding the balance between sharing content and making sure your viewers don’t become overdependent and ideological about the perspectives you share." It is from my perspective that i see that we should not believe anything Leo says is true. of course there is an element of trust in that, if we did not think Leo's *pointings* were accurate at all, we would not do the practices. However, avoiding ideological traps that stem from Leo's teachings, can be easily avoided by assuming that Leo is talking straight out of his ass. The emphasis must be placed upon the *listener* to *prove* Leo is wrong by doing the practices. At the end of the day, im in the same spot as you. Im not enlightened, ive only had a number of glimpses and deep conceptualized understandings of the truth. We trust that we are doing the practices correctly and look at the results. I've noticed my ability to get things done in my life has dramatically increased, i've started a teaching business for beginners piano tuition (i play). Lots of things. All i know is, this is the path of the chosen, the path of salvation, of perfection, heaven, eternal life. I would literally give left arm and my left leg than stop being able to meditate. This is the only true path....and we must have faith until the end. We must remain determined, what a shame to live and yet NEVER HAVE LIVED. ONE CHANGE, O.N.E CHANGE. The very fact that we are AWARE of this stuff is a fucking MIRACLE! even 50 years ago this stuff wouldnt be available for us. Anyone who doesn't chase enlightenment down...is deluded as fuck. a spade is still a spade. This is INCREDIBLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HOLY FUCKIN SHIT. I need to get enlightened mannnnnnnnn. I need to get the confidence to smoke 5-MeO ? maybe that'll do the trick.

HOLY FUCKIN SHIT. I need to get enlightened mannnnnnnnn. I need to get the confidence to smoke 5-MeO ? maybe that'll do the trick.

Jesus... That's freaky man

@TheAvatarState Genesis 2:16-17 NIV "And the Lord God commanded the man, “You are free to eat from any tree in the garden; but you must not eat from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, for when you eat from it you will certainly die."

@TheAvatarState for me, all of this will end up being an illusion. At the end of the day, when you look at someone and think "they are like me they must have consciousness" this is still only a concept, within *your* consciousness. We believe the earth to exist, it feels like a solid belief...but it is a belief nontheless...existing within your consciousness. All concepts or images within a person's mind about "other humans have consciousness to" is still just their own conceptions. All beliefs aren't, themselves reality. And I think most of this stuff is beliefs isint it?

@EvilAngel spiritually is not the *repression* of human categorical and ideological thinking...it is only the understanding of it (which then removes the ideological thinking naturally and healthily). There's nothing wrong with categorising people, whats important is the understanding that the categorisation is not real, and discovering this authentically through meditative practises.

@SQAAD another example of how expectations can misdirect and limit you is taken from the passage of Luke chapter 4 in the Bible. Jesus' disciples are struggling to catch any kind of fish at all and (with having no luck at all), in verse 4, Jesus tells them to let their *nets* on the other side of the boat. (Going by the 'King James' version of the Bible) then in verse 5 one of Jesus' disciples (Simon) said that he will let down his *net* and in verse 6 it says that Simon's *net* broke. This is subtle. Notice how (in this translation) Jesus is seen to have instructed his disciples to cast out their *nets* (plural) in verse 4, but in verse 5 and 6 it says that Simon cast out a *net* (non plural) and then the net broke in verse 6. Because Simon was having no luck with catching fish, when this miraculous opportunity came to him he did not *expect* there to be any great amount of fish...and therefore did NOT cast out the nets, but instead...cast out *a* net. And because his expectations were too small...his net broke and he lost some of his "divine catch." If you do not expect to get enlightened...then I don't think it's possible...maybe just a hell of a lot harder. It's like the energy you carry into the start of the trip determines what the trip is like. These are good little pointings and examples of how to use (or let go of) your power of expectation... understanding what it means